a/n I'm t school bored out my mind writing this awesome story that wouldn't leave me alone. Ps: thanks for the reviews it made my sucky, and very icky way day better! Sheesh people don't yell at me kay!

On the last chapter:

I was shocked that he was going to kill himself. I was shocked at the fact he loves me. I got my thoughts together and ran out of the common room. I could smell his scent. The closer I got the more blood like it smelled to me. I didn't think this would ever happen. I found him with blood all over the place. I scooped him up into my arms. I ran all the way to the infirmary.

"MADAME POMFREY!" she ran out of her office and gasped at the sight.

"Please help him" was my last plea to her as I gave in into nothingness.

End of recap

I still need a BETA

Sirius' pov

I hoped my misery ended. I opened my eyes and saw the hospital wing. I groaned but my throat wouldn't make a single sound. I turned to take a look around and saw Remus lying in the bed right next to me. I didn't know what happened but I hoped it wasn't my fault. Hoping doesn't help, I knew that it was my fault. I whimpered as I tried to move my arms and apparently that woke Remus up.

Remus' pov

I heard a whimper in the background that woke me from my slumber. I opened my eyes and saw Sirius already awake and shaking. I swung my legs and stood up. I walked over to him in a attempt to grab his hand. He pulled away and flinched.

"No! don't touch me. Don't talk to me. As matter of fact don't come nowhere near" he hissed at me

"I can't

"Sirius, my brain says to go away but my heart says don't" I whispered hoping he didn't hear me. Then again hoping doesn't do anything for anyone.

Sirius' pov

I heard what he whispered. I couldn't breathe anymore. I just wanted to die so everyone will be free of my burden.

"Just go away please" he hesitated before nodding and leaving to his own bed. I didn't want to hurt myself anymore. I just wanted it to end. Fate just doesn't like me at all.

"Why did you look for me?" I asked

"Because I couldn't let you die" liar if he did care he would've tried harder to talk to me or something.

"Don't lie Remus why would care?"

"I can't answer that"

"Then leave me alone. I don't want to hear anything coming from you anymore"

The next months were hell on earth. No matter what I did or how I acted I couldn't get over him. I just can't forget his big amber eyes. His small build, his personality. I just couldn't. I built a mental and heart block. No one could get through with me.

Remus' pov

I was walking down the hallway to go to breakfast. I can't keep doing this. I have to tell him how I feel and if he accepts me will live happily ever after and if he doesn't… then I'll die of a heartbreak.

You freaking idiot don't say anything to our mate. He'll reject us and we WILL die. If only you had just stayed with our sire you would know everything we need to know

Shut up moony. You know nothing. Just shut up.

Third person's pov

Apparently Remus wasn't paying enough attention to the real world and didn't notice Peeves putting water on the floor right before the staircase. Poor Remus slipped and fell right to the floor below. Luckily for him a student was nearby.

Sirius' pov

"Someone go get Madame Pomfrey!" I recognized that voice of Lily Evans

"what? What happened?" I asked her

"Remus he slipped down the stairs" she said crying at the fact he could be dying. I looked around until I noticed Remus' lifeless body at the end of the staircase. I picked him up and ran to the hospital wing.

"thanks Sirius I appreciate this" he whispered. His eyes were dropping.

"no don't close your eyes. Don't give in" I said brushing a piece of hair from his face.

I finally got to the hospital wing. I placed him on an empty bed, I took out my wand and casted a few simple but effective healing spells.

"I really do love you Sirius Black" he whispered. I was shocked but either way I placed a kiss on his forehead.