I was naive, your love was like candy

Artificially sweet, I was deceived by the wrapping,

Got caught in your web and I learned how to bleed,

I was prey in your bed and devoured completely

The wind made a low whistling sound, whipping my hair out of my face and making my shiver in the cold winter breeze. A tear worked it's way down my cheek, walking down the city sidewalk, now on my way home. I felt like throwing up, I was so mad at myself.

I couldn't handle this, the deep guilt if felt, loathing myself. As long as butch didn't ask questions I didn't have to lie, we both knew I couldn't bluff to save my life, I just wasn't a natural liar, as my sisters had always told me whenever we were keeping a secret from our father back home, when we were growing up. If butch did ask where I was I would try my best to pretend nothing happened, that everything was normal, and avoid telling him where abouts I was in the first place.

The sound of thunder roared through the sky and the clouds darkened above me, it would rain soon. I had just ran into ace and he knew something happened, I was near at my apartment building, just two more blocks.

His eyes were filled with lust, my knees felt weak "baby, come on" he wrapped his arms tightly around my hips, and kissed my neck, I closed my eyes and breathed him in, he smelt so good. His hands trailed up my back to unhook my bra. "Stan…" I protested. He was a man involved with the Audley boys, I knew that because of the blue tattoo he had on his face. He cupped my chin with his hand for me to look at him. He crashed his lips onto mine and pulled me closer with his steal grip, he was intoxicating. Something came over me, and I gave in.

Before I knew it, we were on the bed. His bed. I lost track of everything, we were striped of our clothes, as they were scattered around us….

I shook my head trying to ignore the dark thoughts going through my mind. I felt sick and frowned to myself, disgusted. I pulled a stray strand of my blond hair and tucked it behind my ear.

The sky was turning pink and red with the sunset, I looked around the city as it started pouring down with rain, the streets were packed with people quickly walking past me, eager to get home too. I loved the rain, the sound of it, the smell of it, I just wasn't keen when it was raining on me, like this. My apartment building was now in sight, I was just passing by an alley "hey, hey, cutie," I looked to my right a man twice my age was grinning at me.

I shivered and looked away trying to ignore him. That's when I saw Sadie Wilson with Snake they were linking arms. I smiled, they were both smiling and laughing to each other, both of them walking fast on the opposite sidewalk from me, obviously wanting to get out of the rain. They were engaged now and I thought it was so sweet, she told me recently that she really wanted to make it work with snake and that she would learn to love him as much as he loved her. She seemed happy and I was glad for her. She waved at me and I smiled back.

I was now jogging up the dingy stairwell, to my apartment. My clothes were heavy and soaked through. I took my key and entered my apartment, closing the door behind me. I leaned back against it and closed my eyes. "Stan…wait" he lowered me down on his bed, me beneath him. "Sssshh" he hushed and kissed me again and again, our tongues battling together, his hands exploring my body…

I started running the shower, and let out a breath, my breathing too fast, same as my heart beat. The thoughts of him came crashing back and I hated it.

The regret. I was crying again. How could I do this to butch?

…..After heated moments, kissing and touching of our bare bodies. He grabbed my hands and pinned them down above my head, I spread my legs for him and wrapped them around his waist, I heard him chuckle darkly, and my entire body shivered with the sound. He was hard and he quickly trusted inside. He waited till he was all the way in, I gasped. Then he began to move "mm hmm" I moaned out quietly, my lips shut, the sound of our slapping flesh getting louder, he drove inside harder at a paced rhythm, pushing his hips firmly against mine, it felt so good, I lifted my hips upwards, to his will, my body tensing, ready. The wooden headboard of the bed banged against the wall repeatedly with each thrust he gave, ramming. He moaned out, both of us tensing up. he looked into my eyes and smirked, showing the white of his teeth,

I already regretted it, but I let him continue.

I shocked myself. The city changed me but I was still a good person, I was still me, Bubbles Utonium, I was stronger now, and I grew up a lot after moving here on my own. I was in love with a man who wanted me too. What more could I want? I didn't want anything else, except Butch Sawyer. I waited till the water turned warm, then stripped off and entered the shower, the warmness of the water soothed my cold skin and I felt calmer. Butch should be home soon, apparently he was busy running errands, as Ace had told me. Oh my god, Ace! What if he said something to butch. That scared me. It scared the life out of me. I had never felt so vulnerable.

I clenched "Ahhh mmm" I moaned as he released into me. We suddenly stopped moving, tired and out of breath, he relaxed on top of me, resting his weight on my body, my legs felt weak and I breathed out slow, He pulled out, and rolled over, landing next to me. Stan sat up and reached down under his bed, picking up a cigarette pack and lighter. He lit a cigarette and took a long drag and rolled his neck, groaning. He chuckled darkly and looked down at me. "thanks for a good fuck babe." tears were filling up in my eyes. He threw my clothes at me, left the bed and walked to the bathroom.

I didn't know what possessed me to do such a thing, and with they enemy, with a man who was in the Audley gang. Lust had completely taken over at that moment, but I knew for a fact It would never happen again. It wasn't worth it. I loved butch. I worked the shampoo through my blonde hair and scrubbed. I was done rinsing, I turned off the shower, dried off and started to dress myself.

Stan was a stupid mistake.

A one off.

The only thing I feared most of all was butch ever finding out.

I would lose him.

What would he do? would he forgive me?

It was about an hour later, when I heard a knock on the door.

A/N: my second chapter! I just had some idea's I had to get out.

I'm sorry not much happened in this chapter, but I did my best to give you guys something for now, I got the idea for this story when I was reading 'turn out the lights turn up the volume' such an amazing story, that's how I got inspiration to write this.

Stan is in the Audley gang and he is well known for what he does. not much happened in this chapter but more will happen in the next.

It may take awhile for the next chapter as I've not got much time to spare at the moment, but hopefully this will do for now. hope you guys liked it.

I like constructive criticism to help me improve. Very constructive (^_^)

Thanks so much for reading