I never believed that there was a rainbow

With a pot of gold at the end

I'm much too smart for fairytales like that

Yet here I am again

I thought this time, this time were gonna make it

Why i thought so i really dont know

Maybe something in his eyes just told me so

Something in his eyes...

I heard the heavy thunder roar above us, loud. The sound was numbing. Ace stood in front of me waiting for an answer, the walls were closing in around me he knew who the man was, i was trapped deeper in a hole i could never now get out of.

"so it was him?" he repeated, he jerked his eyebrow upwards in question.

i didn't even think. "no, no it wasn't" but my reply was hallow just as the words were.

His face was tight but carefully carm, he knew I was lying but surprisingly he wasn't as angry as I thought, considering Stan was in one of his rival gangs or as he said the enemy. Ace knew butch though, they were friends and he could tell him everything.

Ace shook his head "Jesus Christ girl, you don't seam that type," he paused, seeming slightly interested. "what would your boy say?" he said cockily, feeling some sort of remorse for butch because I could hear disappointment in his tone. I knew from what butches brother had told me that butch wasn't the type to settle down when it came to girls, but apparently with me it was different I meant something to butch, just like he did to me. I felt like braking down. again.

"please don't say anything" I said quickly, my lip quivered.

"I think its best he finds out now rather than later honey, don't you?" he teased and quickly brushed past me.

"ace wait" I grabbed the cold leather on his jacket as I grabbed his arm and tugged him back, to a stop. He turned to face me and I looked up at him. I had to be careful with what I said. I was trying my best to be smart about this situation, but I didn't want to seem weak so I didn't beg, I don't think he would take kindly to that, a powerful gang leader like him, it would seem too petty of me. I told him as kindly and as confidently as I could,

"don't say anything, I didn't want this but I cant change what's happened, don't tell butch," I looked up at him pleading but with dignity by keeping my tears held in and my back straight, he considered this as he looked down into my eyes, if he could do anything remotely nice it would be to keep quiet.

"It's none of my business, but he'll find out you know, if its not from me he'll find out eventually, I'm sure Stan wont keep quite about it, most guys around here brag and he's probably told the boys about you already," he said honestly as he adjusted his shades coolly. I stayed silent for a while, this was such a mess, but I couldn't bear telling butch the truth, him knowing that what I do with butch I had done with Stan not even by force but by me falling and not stopping him.

"ok honey, I would appreciate a few favours from you if I'm not to speak a word to butch" ace had changed his mind yet again. He was so unpredictable and complicated, now he was being bold enough to threaten me with the information he had against me? so thats no susprise, the fact he asked for a favour worried me slightly what would he want me to do?

"what favours?" I asked him, as I shuffled my hands that were still callous from working in the diner, Ace buried in his pockets to pull out a cigarette as he lit it I noticed his knuckles were still deadly white with a smear of blood on one hand. The wind picked up and I wrapped my white jacket further round me and hugging my form tightly. He didn't look at me but he looked as if he was deep in thought.

"there's a few of them, but for tonight I want you to look after jazz for me, I'm going to be busy so I'll drop her off at your apartment at 5," he was blackmailing me but he wasn't throwing me anything difficult so far. Butch and I didn't have any specific plans so I nodded, babysitting his little sister jazz could be a handful but she was such a cute and sweet little girl. I agreed, not like I had much choice.

"ok" I told him with a quick hesitant smile .

"good" he smirked taking a drag of his cigarette and breathing out the thick white smoke, he glanced up at the tall apartment building beside us his jaw set straight then his eyes were back on mine. "that's the favour for now, they'll be more, but I'll go easy on you, don't worry" he winked showing very faint winkles around his eyes.

"see you later blondie" I nodded back at his goodbye and we split off in different directions. My blood pumped a little faster in my veins with nervousness.

"we can sleep at your place tonight" butch and I were walking up the stairs

"ok," I smiled brightly up at him, his black hair was damped slightly with sweat from working all day it fell in front of his face a little and he pushed it back with his hand, he was so cute "I'm cooking us dinner tonight"

He smirked mockingly "I hope it's not your soup again" he said wrinkling his nose. I pushed him playfully and giggled he gave me a look from the corner of his eyes.

Did he know something?

My eyelids lowered and my gaze was on the floor of the apartment building. I went quiet for a moment. When we entered my apartment, he instantly noticed my changed mood.

"what's wrong?" he looked at me. I couldn't look into his eyes, the stabbing pain of guilt was building up inside. Even if butch didn't know, ace did, Stan did and worst, I did. I knew.

"nothing, just.." a tear ran down my face. It was only a matter of time before he knew too. I broke so easily.

"bubbles" he said the tone in his voice was gentler than before he wrapped his arms round my hips and rubbed gently with his rough hands up and down around my waist in a comforting manner.

"what is it? Just tell me" he was angry but not at me I could tell, he wasn't aggressive. He obviously though wanted to know why I was crying, and he wanted to fix it for me, but he couldn't, he never could, no one can change the past.

"butch, I have to tell you…" I hesitated, my voice quiet and he nodded looking into my eyes, urging me to go on.

Knock knock knock.

"bubbles!" I heard the excited voice of sweet little jazz she was knocking on the door

"I'm looking after jazz tonight" I told butch, he raised an eyebrow

"huh" was his response. I opened the door to see ace just above my eye level.

"here's your first favour for me" he smiled slyly, giving me a knowing look on the fact he was blackmailing me, but then looked behind me to realise that butch was in the room with me, Ace's sly smile dropped to a casual look all too quickly. Butch narrowed his eyes at ace.

"yeyy! can I stay over tonight bubbles" the four year old looked up at me with a brilliant white smile giggling, her joy and innocence brightened my mood I smiled at her,

"only if your brother says its ok" I told her, looking at ace

"sure she can," he ruffled his hands through his sisters pretty black hair,

"gotta run, I'll be back in the morning to pick her up, see ya kid" ace said to his sister, me and jazz retreated back into my apartment but butch remained standing where he was near the door way, he gave me a quick suspicious glance and I only just caught it, if I wasn't looking I wouldn't have noticed, it was that quick. He followed ace out into the hallway and my heart skipped a beat pumping fast, my face felt hot,

"wait here sweetie" I told jazz, she nodded

I moved closer to the door and turned my head round the door frame to look out into the hallway, the dim lights made it look like it was a scene from an old movie, an encounter of two gang members from an old fashioned movie

"what favours does she owe you ace?" butch raised his voice in question, threatening,

"chill out man," ace just shrugged, "just a phrase" ace was doing a bad job of lying diliberaberatly i could tell, or was it just me?

"favours for what?" butch said slowly,

"never mind man, just drop it yeah" ace said coolly, turning and exiting down the stairs. Butch just stood there, I moved back into the apartment before he noticed I was watching. I heard the apartment door shut and butch was standing there looking at me.

"why do you owe ace favours?" his eyes was narrowed slighty, and he looked at me curiously, i shrugged my shoulders

"he's strange sometimes, i don't know what he meant," i replied, he raised his chin and his glance went to jazz.

"I just told ace i'd look after jazz for him tonight, he came in the dinner earler and I offered to babysit" i said with a confident smile. I was definatley getting better at lying, but he must have sensed something in my mannerism because he gave me that 'im not stupid' look.

"can we have something to eat please, my brother didnt have time to make me anything" jazz curled a strand of hair with her fingers unconsiously,

"il put on a pizza" butch answered before i did, little jazz ran into the kitchen she wasn't a shy girl that for sure, but she was lovley. As soon as butch was done he caught my gaze he motioned for me to follow him to the bedroom i walked upto his side his jaw was set determined

"what did ace mean? im not stupid bubbles i know your lying" it was weird i felt comforted by his close proximity and yet intimidated, that was because he knew something and that had me feeling unsettled.

"your making a deal out of nothing" i replied

"i woulndn't be if you weren't lying to me" he shot back, glaring, he really could read me, was i that transparent?

I was backed into the wall and he put both palms on the wall at either side of my head. I stucked in a breath discreetly, i knew this would come he would find out. "i'm sorry" I said at last, his eyes widened a little but he quickly came too and cupped my chin with his callous hand for me to look up at him,

"what for baby?" his thumb rubbed at my soft skin, his eyes were telling me that even if its bad news to just tell him the truth.

Jazz interuptted us before i could finnish and it kept on happening, i kept telling him lies and the more i told, the harder it got. Yet every time i was going to tell him, or might have told him, we were interupted.

As the night followed through butch dropped the subject, but he didnt forget, he was waiting for another free moment were we would be alone,

that wouldn't be tonight though, we had jazz to look after.

Tell me lies

And ill come runnin'

I must have lost my mind!

I could close my eyes

And tell you just exactly what's comin'

Life's gunna turn just alittle unkind

N/A: Next chapter up! sorry not alot happened its all building the story up, thanks so much again for reading its greatly appreciated and please review :)