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Only At Night

Chapter 20 Trust

Never have I wanted to make somebody else feel pleasure the way I wanted to make Jasper feel it right now. I wanted that same control over him, I wanted him to trust me the way I trusted him, for him to let go emotionally and physically to experience that absolute bliss of pleasure he had just brought me.

I made sure to grind against Jasper's hips as I sat straddling him on top of our bed, circling my hips slowly, while I rocked back and forth. Jasper all but purred under me while he continuously tried to reach for me unsuccessfully. Every time he got close, I would push his hand away. Finally as he attempted yet again to reach me I let his hand get right between where our bodies met and I lurched forward trapping his hand under me. I snapped one of the cuffs around the stilled wrist and then sat back releasing him and pulled his hand up and back over his head, pleased at his groans.

"No touching mister." I whispered as I leaned down to kiss him chastely.

Sliding the chain of the cuffs around the slats in the headboard I intertwined my hand with his free hand and raised it to meet the other cuff. Once I had him secured I kissed him again, deeper this time still grinding into his hips.

"I want you to watch what I am about to do to you cowboy, understand?" I whispered into his ear finishing with a rough bite to his lobe.

"Yes." he said his voice husky, through gritted teeth.

I slid down his body and ground my damp core against his already very, hard, dick, teasing him while he twitched underneath me.

When he began to moan aloud I climbed off and strutted, shaking my ass for him, to the shopping bags. Taking great care to give him as many visuals as I could, I slowly bent from the waist and circled my hips slowly giving him what I hoped was a splendid view of my ass. It appeared I was successful, Jasper could barely contain himself. I heard the chain of the cuffs roughly snap at the headboard. "Motherfuck!" he grunted.

I smiled.

A few minutes in the bathroom, leaving him wondering what I am doing, should help get him worked up. I turned on the vibrator and laid it on the counter letting him hear it as it jumped around the space. I added a moan and covered my mouth to keep from laughing.

I dug out a few particular items that I thought might not be pushing it too far. I really had no idea what a guy would like and I wasn't really sure how some of the items worked. I glanced at the instructions very quickly and made my choices.

Leaving everything else on the counter I put the items in the bag and brought it back into the bedroom with me.

Jasper turned his head toward the door way when I walked back in, he looked exasperated. Not the look I was hoping for.

Shit.

I quickly reached up and started circling my nipple, pinching, pulling, twisting it and tilted my head back moaning as I licked my lips walking slowly towards the bed. Now his response was much closer to what I had been hoping for.

I dropped the bag next to the bed and pulled out the 'Good Head' gel. Making sure he was watching, I opened the tube and leaned my head back, squirting gel into my open mouth. Slowly, seductively I crawled between his legs and dragged the feather puff in circles up his inner thighs as I went, giving him time to ponder what I was going to do with that mouthful of gel. Tickling his balls with the puff I bent over him keeping my eyes locked on his until I was mere inches from his throbbing member.

I stroked him a couple times, hard, before taking him completely into my mouth in one gulp. The strawberry gel slurped all over his penis and dripped down his sac as I opened my throat completely and sucked hard hollowing out my cheeks.

Jasper bucked his hips wildly groaning, "fuck, Bella."

I licked around the head pulling back. That strawberry goop actually tasted pretty good on my man; this was even better that just getting to lick at the Popsicle.

I continued alternating my tongue's movements on his dick until his balls tightened then backed off switching to tickling his sac and down his thighs again, then sucking on his balls pulling them completely into my mouth, playing with them, teasing them.

When at last the torture seemed too much for him anymore I mounted him and imitated riding a mechanical bull on his shaft, slowly sitting back against my heels and rising back to my knees repeatedly.

"Watch me ride you cowboy, feel me tighten against you." I watched his eyes as they rolled back and he groaned. His lids closed and I pinched his nipple.

"I said watch." I said it sternly to catch his attention.

"Yes ma'm." he said and gave me a quick upwards thrust.

I sped up and pulled one leg over and turned a quarter turn around his cock buried deep inside me and squeezed tight around him. Turning another quarter turn so that I had my back to him I lifted a little and slammed back down hard against him.

"Fuck, geez Bella."

I reached down between his legs and squeezed his balls hard, eliciting a moan.

Continuously I rolled them between my fingers and pulled them up and away from his body getting him to buck up against me as I squeezed and released, milking him.

Sliding his knees up into a ninety degree I slid my feet under his thighs and raised up on my knees and slammed back down a few times and then slowed it back down circling my hips against him. I loved the feeling of him buried deep inside me. That complete connection was so amazing, so intense.

Spotting the lube he had left on the bed earlier I reach for it leaning a bit forward and found that he really liked that position.

Hmm. I'd have to remember that, later.

Coating my finger in the lube I took a deep breath and hoped like I hell I wasn't taking this too far for him. My fingers ran down the line behind his sac and to his tight ass. Dragging them back and forth over the sensitive tissue I felt Jasper tighten, everywhere. Keeping it up to see if he would relax I looked over my shoulder at him.

He was watching me intently.

"I want to make you, scream for me, now, baby." I smiled at him and waited for him to let me know if he was okay.

"Yeah baby, make me scream." he nodded slightly and started to relax.

The next pass I slipped my finger ever so slightly into his ass and rubbed the sensitive, tight tissue at the opening. He tensed for a moment and I rubbed his thigh with my other hand.

When he relaxed again I pushed further in and let him adjust again before pulling back out a bit and pushing back in. Once he was adjusted I felt him harden further deep inside of me and lifted and lowered onto him deeper and synched my hips with my finger now firmly seated in his tight hole. Trying to find his prostate I twisted my finger. I knew when I reached it by the response from Jasper. He shuddered and yelled, "Holy. Fuck. Bella."

Rubbing in a small circular motion I quickened my thrusts on his cock and tried to squeeze tight as I hit his pelvis. It didn't take long until Jasper was bucking and he actually screamed for me.

"FUCK. Bella. FUCK me. Jesus woman."

The hot stream filled me and I arched my back moving back and forth against him providing yet again a completely different friction on him.

As he whimpered I slowly pulled my finger out and massaged his opening and reduced the motions of my hips but didn't rise off of him just yet.

Giving him a couple minutes to come down before climbing off I went to the bathroom and turned on the warm water in the tub. I washed my hands, wet a washcloth and wrung it out and returned to Jasper to clean him up. Tenderly I washed his bottom and paid attention to his sensitive tissue and up and down his shaft.

Crawling up next to him, his head back, eyes closed, I kissed his temples, his cheeks and up his strained arms before releasing the cuffs.

Jasper dropped his arms down to his sides and I rubbed his shoulders.

He had not spoken and I was starting to worry a little. Then he smiled and opened his eyes and looked into mine.

"Baby, I never knew it could be like that, thank you. I don't think I would have ever let someone do that to me and I am so glad you did, so glad it was you."

"Come with me, cowboy." I pulled him up and we walked hand in hand into the bathroom. The tub was half filled and I turned the water off.

"Get in baby." I said softly, guiding him to the tub.

Jasper climbed into the tub and held my hand as I crawled in front of him and leaned back into his chest. We soaked in the warm water, his arms wrapped around me, my head back against his shoulder as he planted light kisses on my neck.

"Did you like that?" Jasper asked softly, just above a whisper.

"Mmm, yes, I never thought I would do something like that, I guess I would have thought it a little perverse, unnecessary, I don't know dirty maybe, but it wasn't that way at all, know what I mean?" I was not sure if he knew what I meant and I really needed to gauge where he was on this.

"Yeah, I absolutely know what you mean. I have to say I never imagined doing anything quite like that either and believe me it isn't that there is anything wrong or missing with what we do with out the toys, it's just that somehow knowing that you trusted me enough and the way you completely let yourself enjoy what pleasure I could bring to you, it was just so unbelievably intimate." Jasper kissed the top of my head and tightened his arms around me as I nestled deeper into his chest.

"Maybe it was the emotional aspect of finally trusting someone without any doubt or reservations, but the whole experience was so intense for me Jasper, so emotional that it just seemed to heighten the pleasure. I don't really think it was just what you were doing, as much as it was that it was you, and that I felt so completely safe and loved, and knowing that you would never hurt me and that you would do anything for me and try anything with me, it just made it so powerful."

"I understand, I was a bit nervous though, that I would scare you, that you would feel violated somehow." His voice mirrored that emotion now. I could sense the concern and worry in his voice.

"I know, I felt the same way when I did that to you, I hope it was ok, I wasn't sure, but I had heard that it was amazing for a man and I so wanted to make it amazing for you the way you did for me."

"Darlin, it is amazing with you every single time." His hands gently caressed my breasts now as he talked.

"The funny thing is I never actually thought about us using any of that stuff, Char and I were shopping and really just goofing around and I guess we got carried away with the sales girl basically daring us, egging us on. When we got home I thought ok, maybe I'd tease you tonight with the handcuffs, but, Jasper I didn't plan on any of that to happen." I began rubbing my foot up and down Jasper's long leg.

"That just makes it that much better that it did. So, do you think it is something you'd like to do again, sometime?" Even though I couldn't see his face, I knew he was smiling.

"Hmm, maybe cowboy, maybe."

"Good, because I fully plan to make you scream like that again and soon, darlin'." He whispered into my ear and then bit down on the lobe sending sparks of fire down my spine yet again. God I loved this man. I loved that we could share the most intimate, intense experiences, and more importantly, that we could talk about it afterwards, with out it being awkward.

"You know, it is funny, I think our sex life is great, was great, before we tried adding new things, I am glad that we were both open minded enough to try something new. It is nice to know that we don't need anything more than just our love, but there is just something so amazing about also knowing that we can always try new things and be open about it with each other. The thought of finding other ways to make things even more amazing between us, God Jasper, that is just so intimate, so private and personal, like a secret we share that no one else will ever be privy to that only happens with us."

"Bella, I plan to spend the rest of our lives doing whatever it takes to make you happy both in and out of the bedroom. Just promise me that we will always be this open with each other about it, tell each other what we want and always, always feel, no, know that we can say no to anything at anytime and that it will never come between us."

"Yes, but I draw the line at sharing, I will never share you or be shared, deal?"

"Absofuckinlutely. NO sharing, no one else gets anywhere near you my darlin' you are all mine and I, I am all yours."

"God, I love you cowboy."

"Hmm, Not as much as I love you darlin'."

We slept in the next morning enjoying the quiet and the warmth of being in one another's arms. Eventually we had to get up and go about our routines, I had studying to do and a call with one of my professors, Jasper had work to do on his syllabus and lesson plans for his coming semester. We worked in our respective spaces the rest of the morning and most of the afternoon.

We had a call scheduled with Dimitri and Tyler before dinner time. Jasper came to get me and once I shut down my computer and organized my outlines and books I joined him in his office for the call. Since we were not using video this time I climbed into Jasper's lap behind the desk instead of taking one of the other chairs on the opposite side.

Jasper dialed and greeted Tyler then joined Dimitri to the call and we all said hello before Dimitri took over briefing us on his investigation.

"Here's what we found out about Jacob from the woman that filed the earlier domestic violence reports. According to her, Jacob was emotionally immature, she indicated that it was like he didn't know how to express feelings, whether it was frustration, pleasure, it didn't matter, and he would become introverted rather than tell her what he was feeling. At first they spent time with her friends in a group and as the relationship progressed he became more and more jealous, convinced that something was going on with one of the guys. If she went to the grocery store he was suspicious she met up with someone while she was there. Toward the end of the relationship he forbade her from seeing her friends and was trying to pull her away from her family as well. He would constantly check his appearance in the mirror, but was never satisfied with what he saw."

"How did she end the relationship?" Bella asked.

"After several calls to 911, he just moved out. It appears the real end came when he met you. He told her he found someone better, that loved him and he was tired of her inability to make him happy the way he knew 'Bella' could."

Oh shit.

"Why did she decide not to follow through on the charges in the first place?" Jasper asked while he watched me.

"He had threatened her and she thought it would be easier to get him to leave her alone if she didn't have to have any further tie to him. She feared the ensuing court contact would make it harder."

"Dimitri, what have you found out about him, his background?" Tyler asked.

"Jacob is Native American, he was born and raised on an Indian Reservation and is a direct descendant of the original Chief, a role his father still holds, and will someday fall to him. His mother died when he was young, and his two older sisters left home the first chance they got, and never looked back. It sounds as though it was a pretty tough love upbringing. I sincerely doubt that he has ever been made to feel like he was worthy of the expectations of his birthright which could explain his self esteem issues. He works as a mechanic here in Seattle but as far as I can tell he doesn't have any family or friends here outside of his co-workers. He is barely meeting his bills as it is and his savings are fairly limited so I doubt he can keep up with the lawyer's fees for long. I hate to say this but it seems any free time he has he is spending obsessing over you, Bella." Dimitri was straight and to the point, he delivered the news without emotion, without alarm. I sensed that he was very accustomed to this type of information and wondered what he made of it.

"Dimitri, have you come across people like this in the past?" I needed to know whether in his experience Jacob was dangerous or just a nuisance.

"Actually, this is pretty classic background and behavior for a stalker, he feels rejected by everyone, his mother, his sisters, probably his father. He probably does not see himself equipped to deal with the position he hopes he never has to fill, but outwardly he overcompensates for those feelings of inadequacy by pretending to have power he doesn't believe that he has himself."

"Are these kinds of stalkers typically dangerous?" I knew Jasper was wondering the same thing and wouldn't ask in front of me but I had to know what I was dealing with.

"It is hard to say Bella, they either get off on the control due to the fear they incite or in some cases they escalate to violence. It seems he has deluded himself into believing that you return the feelings he thinks he has for you, typically those types of stalkers do not become violent, but we can't be sure how he will respond when he starts to realize that you will not return his affections."

"Then we can't take any risks darlin', we have to assume the worst and hope for the best." Jasper said pleading with his eyes for me to agree.

"Okay, thanks Dimitri, Jasper you are right, we are not going to take any chances."

"Bella, that is all pretty consistent with the information I got from the advocacy groups I reached out to." Tyler added.

"Ok, thanks a lot guys, we need to talk and Bella needs to mull over the options a little more, we'll talk to you both later." Jasper ended the call and gave me a quick squeeze before we both got up. Jasper went to go fill Peter in and help him with something in the barn before dinner and I took the time to call Rose.

I wanted to just talk about anything other than Jacob. I was sick of letting him dominate my thoughts and I really had not had much chance to talk to her about wedding plans all week.

"So, Rose did you decide on flowers yet?" The last time I had talked to her she was torn on the type of flowers she wanted.

"No, I just can't decide on anything. I am so out of my element here, I mean I am used to the three ring circus and neither of us wants that but I just don't seem to be able to figure out how to do it small and intimate. Honesty, I am thinking about just running to Vegas, it isn't like we are planning to invite more than twenty to thirty people anyway."

"Maybe Char would have some ideas for you, she is an event planner. I could ask her if you want or hell, maybe Jasper and I will join you in Vegas, he proposed." I wasn't really serious about the Vegas thing, but I didn't think Rose was either.

"Oh my God, Bella congratulations, I am so happy for you guys. When, how, why the hell didn't you tell me?" Rose was practically hyperventilating trying to get the words out.

"Relax; it was just the other day. We talked Rose, we got it all out on the table. He told me about his ex-girlfriend and his past relationships and Rose, I told him everything, and then he just proposed and I said yes."

"You told him everything? You mean everything right, no secrets, you didn't hold anything back?"

"Nope, I didn't keep anything from him. I told him things that had never even occurred to me until I started talking. Rose he is so amazing, I love him so much, I don't ever want to be without him again."

"Oh Bella I am so happy for you. SO, let's do it, let's all just go get married."

"What, seriously?"

"Why not, half the guest list is sitting in your living room right now, Emmett only wants a couple other people and it isn't like you or I have any family to invite, so see if Jasper is game."

"I think Jasper's guest list will be double or triple our combined lists." Would Jasper want to do that, would that be rushing it?

"Well, just think about it, ok Bella?" Rose asked.

"I'll think about it Rose." I promised, but I wasn't sure I was ready for that just yet; I wanted to take our time and get moved and settled in to our new home and our new lives. Jasper needed to get acclimated to the University and the students and faculty. I needed to finish the semester and then the bar exam and then find a job. Although once I started with a firm I knew the chance of taking time off for a wedding was highly unlikely. Maybe we should get married after the bar and before I started working. I wondered if Char would help us with the planning.

Wait, do I even want to work for a big firm anymore? Do I want that pressure and time away from Jasper? It isn't like I need the salary anymore really. For the first time in a very, very, long time it occurred to me that I had choices, I could do something else if I wanted to. What do I want to do with my life? I could make a difference, could I make a difference in someone else's life.

The revelation was startling.

I walked to the kitchen with a new spring in my step, a renewed purpose, even though I had no idea exactly what it was at that moment.

Something smelled great, who was cooking dinner? As I turned the corner I was startled to find a woman I had never met in the kitchen rolling tamales.

"Oh, hello." I called out so as not to scare her.

"Oh, pardon, you must be Miss Bella, I am Irina, I take care of the house and well, the boys and Miss Charlotte too. Can I get you something?"

"No, no, nothing thank you, it is nice to meet you Irina." Irina was a kind looking woman, in good shape with stylishly cut hair and perfect makeup. I wondered if she actually cleaned house looking like that and stifled a laugh.

"I was just preparing something for dinner. I hear you too love to cook?"

"Yes, I do and this kitchen is amazing to cook in." I smiled at her as she turned to address her tamales.

"Can I help with anything?" I felt a little odd having someone standing there cooking for me as I watched.

"Oh, well, would you check the beans, give them a stir. I am almost done with these."

"Sure." I lifted the lid to the giant pot on the stove and gasped. "Irina there is enough food for an army here."

She laughed. "Yes, some days it feels like there is an army here." She laughed too. "I am making enough for the men and to bring home to my family too."

"Oh, do you live nearby?"

She looked at me funny.

"Umm, I live here Bella, with my two children."

What? There were children running around here and I didn't know it, oh good lord, what if they had heard us?

Her face turned pink and she shook her head, "Oh, no, not in the house my dear, we live in the guest house, well, what was once the servants quarters many, many, years ago, the boys insist that it be called the guest house now."

"Oh, I haven't seen the guest house, I am sorry, I… Do you ever get used to how enormous this place is?" and I laughed.

"Jasper and Peter are very good to us; they afford me a lot of privacy for my children to try to have a normal life."

I smiled again not really sure what to make of Irina or the new information.

"There you are darlin'. I see you have met Irina." Jasper came in and gave me a kiss and then gave Irina a kiss on the cheek.

"Kids, doing their homework?" he asked Irina.

"Yes mijo."

"Wait until you taste Irina's cooking Bella, she is a wonder, much like you." Jasper said as he started setting the table.

"It smells delicious."

Peter came in from the garage bellowing about the delicious smells wafting through the house. "Yes, Irina is back." He came into the kitchen and said hello, kissed my cheek and then did the same to Irina.

"I missed ya mija, kids have fun on spring break?"

"Yes, thank you both so much, the kids loved it."

I was missing something, I knew, but I would have to wait until later to ask Jasper about it.

"So what do you think of new little sis, isn't she hot?" Peter asked Irina.

"Yes, she is perfect for our boy."

"Um, hello, you two do know that I am standing right here?" I could feel the blush rising on my cheeks.

Peter laughed an evil little laugh and looked at me with a sparkle in his eye. Then he turned completely serious and I would swear I could see tears starting to form in the corner of his eyes as he said, "Thank you Bella." Just then Charlotte walked into the kitchen with an awfully big smile on her lips as she held up her left hand with an awfully big sparkling rock seated prominently on her ring finger.

I screamed and lunged across the kitchen wrapping her in my arms and we were jumping up and down together, tears streaming down both of our faces.

Jasper was hugging Peter and Irina had a very knowing smile as she watched the scene in front of her unfold.

We switched and Jasper hugged Char and I hugged Peter, congratulating him.

Then the three of us watched as Peter walked to Char, pulled her close into his arms, looked down into her face and said "I love you more than anything and you have made me the happiest man in the world, I promise to try to make you that happy for the rest of our lives."

I cuddled into Jasper's side and looked up at him to see the lone tear run down his cheek.

We were really going to be one happy family.