Chapter 7

She stood between his legs, her blood nails caressing his scruff jaw. She bent a little and placed a kiss behind his ear. He felt himself grow hard as her tongue lapped and nibbled on his neck.

And then she purred seductively in his ear "Edwaaarrrrrdd"

It was enough to make him come undone. He pushed her body roughly on his desk so that she was sprawled in front of him. And then he was touching her, kissing her.

Her brown hair was fanned on his desk like a sex goddess. Her face was flushed in deep crimson and her eyes were vibrant. Her fingers tugged on his hair roughly as he trailed kisses from behind her ear to the valley between her breasts. He bit gently on her collarbone and she screamed in ecstasy.

He knew how to make her body sing for him.

He had always known her better than anyone did.

She gripped the collar of his shirt and pulled to make him look at her. Her eyes were a deep ocean blue that held so much mystery and yet he could read her so well. Her lips parted slightly as two words rolled out of her tongue.

"Always you" she whispered.

Those two words were laced with so much love, affection and need.

He kissed her tenderly. His heart swelled with such deep emotions that it almost hurt. Her lips closed around his with a long sigh and suddenly everything was moving. He could feel her slipping from his arms. Her lips no longer held the warmth, her body no longer responded to his touch. She felt like a porcelain doll made of ice.

He flinched.

Edward woke up abruptly to find himself in his office. It was 2 am in the morning. Little drizzles of rain were pouring outside and the frosty wind rustled the dark green curtains in his room. But instead of cold, he felt hot. Beads of sweat rolled down his neck, sipping into his white shirt. He took long deep breathe to calm his erratic heart. Reaching his shaking hand toward the bottle, he poured himself a glass of water. He searched for antidepressants in the 3rd drawer and then plopped it inside his mouth, gulping it down with liquid.

It has been a long time since he had needed those tablets.

He let out a long sigh and tried to think about something that wouldn't make his mind linger on that dream. He didn't have to think longer.

He paged an emergency in Room 306 to Bella.

He knew he was being selfish. She could have been working or even sleeping but he didn't care. He had to see her. He had to see her to get that dream out of his mind. Some part of his brain was probably still functioning properly because he had paged her wrong room number on purpose. Even though he wanted to see her, he didn't intend her to see him, at least not when he was all fucked up with a dream which has somehow managed to slip back into his life after a long time.

He watched through the glass panel as Bella ran up to Room 306. She was wearing a charcoal pencil skirt with a V neck long sleeved top. Her hair was pulled into a pony tail with few tendrils falling out of the band. She was a sight to behold. He placed his palm flatly on the glass and admired her beauty, knowing full well that she would not be able to see him. She opened the door to Room 306 in a hurry to find that it was a Storeroom. She banged her wrist on the door in frustration and then locked it from outside. Leaning her back to the door, she groaned and then clenched her eyes shut. He watched as her chest rose and fall as she tried to catch her breathe.

She opened her eyes abruptly and then she was looking directly into his emerald eyes. Edward froze. Was she aware of his presence? Did she know he was watching her?

But then he realized he could only see the other side of the glass, and she could not.

The beeping sound of the morning alarm made him groan. He almost made his mind to spend the day in his warm and cozy bed, but he had errands to run. Peeling back the sheet from his body reluctantly, he sat upright. "Damn!" He cursed when he was encountered with his morning wood the first thing in the morning. Even though the thought of relieving himself was very tempting, instead he opted for a cold shower. After toweling himself dry, he wore a dark grey trouser and made his way to the kitchen while buttoning his blue shirt. He chewed on a bagel and then drank two cups of dark non sugar coffee. He wore his shoes and brushed his hair back and applied gel on them to keep it from sticking in all direction.

He grabbed his reading glasses and car keys from the nightstand and then he was off to his Ashton Martin for a ride to Forks General Hospital. After parking his car, he jogged swiftly to the entrance. Jacob, the receptionist on the front desk looked up at him and greeted "Good Morning Doctor." Edward nodded at him and walked to the elevator and pressed on the 7th Floor. The elevator in the hospital was a confined area barely accommodating 5 people but he still tried his best to give as much space as possible for the nurses and other doctors to stand. He remembered the one time he was trapped in it with an elderly nurse. She looked older to be his mother but her actions were far worse than any pimp at the local bar. He shook his head to let that memory out of his mind.

He smiled at the passing staffs as he made his way to the cabin. The rest of the day was a blur as he moved in and out of the Operation Room. He attended several patients and checked their monitoring chart for any complications. There was also a meeting held for the surgeons on the 3rd floor to discuss the arrival of new and modern equipments in the hospital imported from foreign countries. After an hour of monotonous conversation with Aro Volturi, the owner of the hospital the meeting was finally dismissed. He was opting for a lunch break with Dr Marcus, when he suddenly stopped on his track.

A woman with dark brown hair passed beside him and he caught a sniff of lavender. The scent was familiar, and so intoxicating that he struggled to keep his balance. Edward excused Dr Marcus by faking about a personal problem. All this time his eyes were focused on the back of her head. When he was all by himself he started to follow her. He caught a flash of her profile as she entered the elevator.

Of course it had to be Isabella Swan Cullen.

He checked the elevator to find it reaching the 1st Floor. He ran through the staircase as several walkers stopped to stare at him. What was she doing in the 1st Floor?

He searched for her everywhere and groaned when he realized he had lost her again.

"Jake" a sweet voice cooed and he turned sharply towards the entrance to find Isabella talking to the receptionist.

His limp cock suddenly sprang to life with the sight in front of him.

She was wearing a tight fitting knee length black dress that enhanced her flat stomach and curvy hips. Her skin looked magnificent in contrast to the black. He was surprised to find how much skin she was showing. But the shock was immediately replaced with anger when he saw Jacob ogling her. She was leaning towards him giving him a free ticket to peep into her cleavage.

Edward greeted his teeth in anger. How could she flaunt around like that? How dare she smile at Jacob seductively and not notice him at all? He wanted to drag her from there and throw her over his shoulder and into his bed. He wanted to tie her to his bed, spread her wide and fuck her senseless. His fingers twitched to feel every curve of her voluptuous figure, and to taste her in his tongue. With every thought, his cock grew harder until he couldn't take it anymore. It almost hurt. He knew he was going to suffer from a serious case of blue balls if he stood there watching her.

He took long deep breathes to stride off the anger and possessiveness he felt for her. He tried to make himself understand that she knew nothing about him. She was not even aware about his affections for her so there was no fucking way that he could go cavemen over her.

All he could do was wait.

"I am waiting for you Bella" he murmured as he walked away.

He was a very lucky man since he did not have to wait longer as he thought since that evening Bella finally found him. He couldn't believe his eyes. He watched her take a sharp intake of breathe before finally knocking on his door.

I can do this. I can do this. He chanted the mantra again and again.

He couldn't show her how much her presence affected him.

"Come in" he replied.

Before knocking on the door he had seen her face. She was angry. Terribly angry. The first thought that came to his mind was if she had heard about the bet. But then who would tell her about it? The deal was done between him and Jasper only, unless someone else has heard about it.

He purposely swirled his chair so that his back was facing her.

She turned the knob of the door and then finally stepped in.

"I see you have found me" he replied followed with a dark chuckle. If only she knew him, she would have understood how much forced that laugh was.

Bella gasped. It was as if she came into some kind of realization when she uttered his name.

"Dr Masen" she whispered timidly. Edward smiled.

"You have kept me waiting for long" he turned his chair and was face to face with Bella. She was still in the black dress, except now her lab coat was draped over her arm. Her face glowed in the golden light of the desk lamp and her eyes were wide with shock. He stood up from his chair and made his way towards her.

He couldn't believe that she was finally here, after all those time when he had searched for her and longed for her to notice him.

She was here. For him.

With every confession he made, he anticipated her to run away from him and never look back. But it never happened. He was hesitant to touch her at first, as if afraid that it would make her disappear like a puff of smoke. When his skin finally touched hers, he felt a jolt of electric current coursing through his body.

It almost felt like she was forbidden.

Like a careful experiment, he placed a small tender kiss on her palm all the while staring at her eyes gauzing her reaction. She shuddered and goose bumps rose all over skin with a single touch of his lips. He grinned at her. She was melting like wax and a bright crimson color flushed her cheeks. It was enough to let him know that she wanted him too. He pressed his face in the silkiness of her mahogany hair. She is breathtaking Edward thought as he inhaled her sweet flower scent that had been taunting him in his dreams. He could feel her breathing rate increase as his lips hovered over her.

She wants me. She wants me. Edward screamed in his head.

He wanted to kiss her desperately but he couldn't do it. Not until she knew the truth and not until he could take her to a proper date.

It was then he planned to ask her to diner. He could help Bella to win the operation, knowing full well that by now Jasper must have trapped Dr Caius to make him win. He planned to tell her about the bet and finally get to know her better.

"I don't know." Bella shrugged when he asked her if she wanted his help. Her face was all scrunched up and she sucked her bottom lip slightly. It was totally innocent but Edward couldn't help it. He leaned forward and kissed the corner of her mouth. He grinned at the gasp that escaped her mouth.

His eyes lingered on her lips for a second or two as if conversing with them.

Soon, he thought.

The next morning he called at the diner and booked a private booth for two. He did not want to take any chance. He wanted everything to be perfect. He didn't remember any memories when he had felt this giddy about a date. Not even when he was sixteen and dating the most beautiful girl in High school. Thinking back now, he thought he must be blind to find her artificial looks a beauty. She was nothing next to Bella.

He sighed at her name again.

Will she come? That was Edward's first thought when he parked his car outside the restaurant. The thought of finding the booth empty crept on his head and the smile that he was previously sporting immediately wiped off his face. What if she decided that he was a crazy stalker and it was better to be far apart?

But the relief that washed over him was beyond words when his eyes found her. Among the sea of people her face stood out. She was sitting by the left, her eyes focused on the dark glass panel idly twirling a lock of hair that has fallen from her rubber band.

Right at that second her eyes met his...and the time stopped. With every step he took towards her the strange electric current that flowed between them happened to increase. It almost felt like a cheesy romantic movie where the hero meets his heroine and then there are the birds chirping in the distance, the violin playing in the background and lots and lots of flying hearts.

He smiled when their eyes met. It was the smile that was only for her and only she could bring it on his lips. He kissed her cheeks and held her hands as he sat across from her.

"How did you know I will come?" Bella asked nervously. Edward looked amusingly at her. He knew she didn't mean it the other way, but his mind was filled with all perverted thoughts with her sitting right in front.

He pondered on the question.

"I just knew you would come." Edward replied and then winked at her. It was a lie of course. Bella fidgeted in her seat uncomfortably.

"You looked like you needed my help." Edward said. He was almost on the verge of blurting about how Jasper was tricking Caius for the operation when Bella interrupted hum. "Why were you watching me?"

Because you make me feel things that I have never thought existed in me, because you make me want to live again, to be happy again, and to be able to love again......no matter how selfish it sounded.

So many things he could say and yet he opted for a simpler answer.

"I like watching you" Edward answered in a smooth velvet voice. "You are very fascinating to me" It was true too. As the conversation flowed Edward realized that the main reason Bella was on on-call duty was to get the opportunity to operate with him. That was a shock but nothing next to the words that rolled out of her mouth there after.

She wanted him to help her get Jasper out and let her in instead. His mind went blank when he processed her words. She had absolutely no interest in him. The only reason she was there in front of him was because she wanted to win the operation.

She was using him.

She was using him to complete her dream to be the first intern in the 3rd year to operate. He stared at her, his lopsided grin turned into a grimace. She didn't see the sadness in his eyes because her eyes were everywhere in the room except of him. He let out a forced laugh. Edward had to know how far she could go with this. So he came up with the worst possible condition. He asked her to sleep with him in return for the favor.

She wouldn't want to sleep with a stranger to fulfill her dreams.

She will say no. She has to say no. Please say no.

And she did with a slap.

When she walked out of the place, Edward had the widest grin on his face. Yes it was sad that their first date turned out all wrong but he could always explain to her later. He could always tell her that he wanted to know that she was not like those girls who could give their body willingly to strangers.

But he was wrong. So very wrong.

She came to him during midnight and kissed him ferociously. Her lips were cold from the rain but her mouth was so hot. Her tongue was so soft, moving and tracing pattern inside his. All rational thoughts flew out his mind that second. He let himself drown in her intoxicating scent and her caresses. It was not long before passion took over and caution was thrown out over the window. Their clothes were shredded and all that was left was the raw and fiery need for each other. As their naked skins collided, he felt a current of shock pass through him like the first time he had touched her.

It was like a strange barrier.

When he wanted to take things slow, she did not play fair. Her erotic words drove him crazy with desire and the sudden need to be inside her grew stronger. When he was finally connected to her, a deep guttural sound escaped his lips along with her soft cry. She looked so beautiful beneath him, quivering with pleasure and her trembling lips begging him for more and more. Her moans grew louder with every push, until a final gasp fell from her lips and her body arched with her release. He joined her soon after. After the second time in the shower, he was totally exhausted and it didn't take long for him to fall into a deep slumber. The contentment of having her warm naked body beside his was the last thing he felt before his eyes welcomed the darkness.

There was a flash of thunder. Through the torrents of rain she walked, headed for the steep rocky path that led to a dark dingy lake. The torrential storm turned into path of muddy, slippery mire that sucked at her bare feet and slowed her down. She kept slipping and falling to the ground and her feet were bleeding from sharp stones on the path, but she was not even aware of it. Her long white gown blew with the force of the wind as she walked towards the lake. Her face was hollow; her eyes were dead with no emotion as she chanted the words again and again "Don't leave me. Don't leave me" Her body slowly drowned into the water and then everything fell into silence.

His eyes popped open with the vivid dream. She was the first thing he saw when his eyes adjusted to the darkness. Bella was lying on her side with her back turned towards him. He plopped himself in his elbow and looked at her serene face. Among all the uncertainties in his life, she was the only one who was not a dream. She was real and for now she was his. And even though she didn't know he was her to keep but her unconscious form did knew. She slowly turned to him and wrapped her arms around his neck. Her face settled in the crook of his neck and her palm rested flatly on his chest. He moved a thin strand of hair from her face and brushed his lips on her forehead murmuring a silent apology.

When he woke up in the morning she wasn't there. But he knew she wasn't a dream. Her scent lingered on his pillow and bed sheet and the smell of their sex was still in the air. He sighed deeply and clutched the pillow to his face inhaling her smell.

It was good that he had no schedule in the hospital that day. It gave him plenty time to think what has happened last night and what was about to come. Everything she did was to fulfill her dream to operate but he couldn't help but think that she felt something for him too. It was the time when he was inside her, he was sure he had seen something very powerful in her eyes. As if she was trying to portray something, as if she was trying to tell him something.

He decided he couldn't sit though the day and see the one best thing in his life passing away from him. He remembered her home address from the Information directory and it wasn't long before he was parked outside her house. He remembered her big red writing in his mirror from the morning. This was no game. This was his life he was talking about. He had to clear the misunderstandings that had created between them. He couldn't let her go.

The determination in his face crumpled when he found the house locked.

The day passed in slow motion. He drove and drove and returned to her house again. It was still locked. Where was she? It was like the beginning all over again. He was searching for her but she was no where to be found. He drove all around the place until finally an Audi caught his attention. He had seen that car before in the hospital and if he was not wrong it definitely belonged to Bella.

He started to follow the car.

When the car took a sharp turn he caught a glimpse of black spiky hair. "Damn" he cursed under his breathe. But then he saw the car following the same route to Bella's house. He again started to follow the car and found himself surprised when Bella and the spiky haired girl got out of the car. He parked the car in the corner of the street and jogged swiftly towards a tree and hid himself behind its bark. Apparently the other girl lived with Bella so there was no way he was getting any privacy with her.

But he was a lucky man because Bella did notice his Austin Martin. He watched as she walked towards the car and ran her hands on the sleek bumper. He walked towards her and when her eyes caught their reflection, she shrieked. His intension was to clear the misunderstanding between them but the conversation turned out all wrong. When she pushed him away from her, he knew she didn't want him. Her purpose was fulfilled and she wanted nothing from him. He kissed her furiously, taking the chance to say her goodbye for the last time and then he was gone.

He called Jasper to let him that he has won the bet. His voice was dead, and there was no smile of victory because there was no bet in the first place. He heard Jasper's shocking exclamation and then Edward asked him to back out from the operation before the words of his blackmailing tendencies reached his fathers ear. Jasper was bursting with rage and they shared a heated quarrel over the phone.

"Now now...I can see how she has wrapped you in her little finger. I swear I am not going to forget this any sooner Edward Masen. She is going to pay for this."

Edward growled over the line. "Stay away from her Jasper...This fight is between us."

The next day was the Operation. When he walked into OR 6, he wasn't surprised to see Bella. They performed the operation together and he watched as her face glowed with happiness with her success. He extended his hands to congratulate her and captured the moment forever in his mind as a bittersweet memory when her fingers touched his. He looked into her eyes. The sadness of never being this close to her, or even being able to touch her crept on his mind. He never wanted to let her go but he had to.

When Bella was hoarded by the hospital staffs outside the OR, he received a message from Jasper. He was waiting with his money in the secluded corner of the 4th floor.

Now you know everything that was going on in Edward's mind. Tell me what you think of him now? This is a total 180 degree of what you thought it was. Isn't it? Anyway in the next chapter we will return to the part where Chapter 5 ended. Too many misunderstandings, wonder how everything is going to wrap up. Hehe don't panic I have it figured out already ;)

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Also I have an announcement to make. I have exams all over June so there is going to be no update from me any sooner. I will return in full form in July.

So till then lots of love

-selfishkiss