A/N: All of this, the love, the heartache, it's all for theladyingrey42. She's just nice and shares well with others. Thank you to ahizelm for the beta-job. And holy crap I'm over 400 reviews! This has never happened. Thank you so much for taking the time to review!
Again, I highly recommended listening to the song if you are unfamiliar. Seriously one of my favorites.
The Setting: Ithaca, NY
The Music: Next To You, Tim Easton
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JPOV
After ending my call with Edward, I pace the floor, anxiety eating away at me.
I can't let us just end, not like this. A dark clawing need builds in my chest thinking about my life without him, a possibility I had only considered in my nightmares.
I almost choke knowing he must be feeling the same. He says he needs more and I will be there to give it to him. I just thought I'd have more time.
Determined, I log onto my computer again, sending several inquiring emails.
I'm done holding back. I'm giving him everything. Starting tonight.
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