Hey guys, sorry for the shortness of this chapter, hopefully the next one will make up for it... and clear some things up too :)
I havnt suddenly bought McFLY or just my luck, so no change there... i still dont own them :)
Enjoy... and please R+R x
Harry's heart sank as he heard Dougie's words in his room that morning, three weeks after they had finished the tour they both sat on his bed talking,
"Haz, I don't see the problem in telling everyone. I mean, it's been two years practically, the fans love the music, and we get on amazingly with the guys! Everyone isn't going to ditch the music and us just 'cos we're together! Your just being paranoid, and the longer we keep it a secret, the worse it's going to get. What? Are we just going to spring it on them one day? "Oh by the way, we've been together for years, and were moving out to get our own place?" yeah that sounds- Harry don't look at me like that, you know what I mean"
Harry understood where Dougie was coming from, but there was something in the pit of his stomach telling him to hold back. It wasn't shame, or pride or anything, it was the overwhelming fear of loosing Dougie because of what people could say.
"Doug, I know what you're saying, believe me I do! It's just- we're on a winning streak at the moment, the bands getting better and better, and we don't need some controversy to-" he cut off sharply as he saw a quick change in Dougie's eyes.
"Controversy? Is that what this is really about? You think homophobic behaviour is going to spoil everything? Harry if you think that, they've already won. In fact if people think that, then their opinion really isn't worth worrying about! What's happened to you Haz? Two years ago you wouldn't have cared what people thought! What happened to that person?" his voice raised higher and broke "it's the fame isn't it?" He stood up " You care about your public image too much to admit your gay." he pushed Harry's hands away as he moved them towards Dougie to stop him moving away, pain ripping through him as he stood to leave,
"it's okay, I get it. Its just one day you'll realise some things are more important. Some people love you for who you are."
Harry grabbed Dougie's hand to stop him leaving,
"Doug, you've got it totally wrong. I love you so much; I would never care what anyone thinks! The fame doesn't mean anything to me, sure it's cool but I'd be just as happy without it, I couldn't live without you or the guys!" he watched as Dougie turned to face him, tears building up in his eyes his mouth wavering in a weak smile.
"I know, and I didn't mean those things I said. It was wrong to say you put the fame before us, I know you'd never do that; I just want people to know! I'm tired of talking about being single and about hot girls in interviews, I want to talk about you, make people jealous of how good we are together." he moved forward and kissed away a stray tear Harry didn't know had escaped before pulling him into a hug.
They rarely talked of their feelings properly, and hearing Dougie's words now, so filled with fierce emotion made his chest swell. He could swear he rose a few inches off the floor.
"Listen, I'm going to my nanas for a few days. When I get back, we'll tell them, I promise. No more hiding."
Dougie's answering smile solidified Harry's vow, no longer unsure he smiled back.
"I'll miss you, just a few days right? And when your back we'll tell them. However you want, I don't mind how you want to do it, even if it's just the guys who know first, just no more hiding right?" his voice and eyes were firm, and Harry nodded back with the same certain look.
"Could you help me to pack?"
Dougie grinned as he picked up the nearest t-shirt and threw it at Harry
"I'm not your slave you know" he muttered as he opened the wardrobe. "Although, you do need help... Your fashion sense is awful" he grinned and ducked as a tennis ball was thrown at his head.