Here we go, one more chapter, then I'm stopping this.
Hobby ho,
She finally stopped the tears. He'd pushed away her kiss. He didn't care about her, and tossed her love away, like it was meaningless. He wouldn't care for her. So who would?
She climbed back on her jigglypuff, and floated to wherever the world took her. As she waited for something to happen, she thought. She thought in circles which teased and confused her. 'I can't love him', she began lying to herself again. 'It hurts me. Why would my heart want to cause me pain?' she asked, to no avail. 'It hurts me to love him, but now I'm leaving him. So why am I in pain now?' She was alone. 'I feel lonely, now I want to be with someone else'.
She looked down to the world below her. "It looks like I'm over Goldenrod", she observed. "There are always tons of people there".
She dropped down to the streets, and returned her pokemon. And she strolled through the streets, waiting for what she wanted. She didn't have to wait long.
"Hey", a boy who she walked by said, "aren't you that Blue girl?" She looked at him carefully. He wasn't bad looking, tall, tan. His dark brown hair stopped a few inches above his shoulders. He was a fairly average guy.
"Why yes, I am", she smiled innocently, masking her feelings, worried if she let them show she'd scare him away. "And your name is?"
"Trent. I've heard about you and some other people saved Jotho and few years ago. It was all over the papers".
"Oh, well Trent, do you have any plans tonight?" she asked him slyly.
"Umm, no, I was just on my way home".
"Perfect, because I would be honoured if a man like you", she winked at that, "would like to take poor me out on a date".
"Oh, I'd love to".
"Perfect," Blue grabbed his hand, and wrapped it around her waist, pulling him in close, "let's go catch a movie".
Green had flown away from her, away from his chance at love. And now only one thing filled his mind, one question he repeated over and over. 'What if I'd kissed her?' He knew the realistic answer, 'We'd both get hurt eventually', but he wanted to dream.
"Charizard, descend onto those mountains", he commanded his pokemon. Charizard obeyed, and Green jumped off, and returned it. He pulled out his pokégear and realized he'd landed on Mount Silver.
He found a spot where the rocks were soft and flat, and lay down, making himself comfortable to stare at the night stars as they came into view, and dreamed. As he closed his eyes to reality, he recalled the scene just hours ago, and recreated it. He was just at the point where he had told her Gold wouldn't win.
"Aww, don't be such a spoil sport Green. Are you upset or something? Will a kiss cheer you up?" She jumped on the fire pokémon's back leaned toward Green, lips pursed teasingly.
He might hesitate for a second, but then go for it. He'd press his lips against hers as in so many other dreams he had. "Blue", he would begin, "I want you to know, I love you. I love you more than I can say".
"Green", she would say back, "I've loved you too. I do love you too".
And she would pull as close as she could to him. He'd wrap an arm around her. And if everything was just right, they'd stare into each other's eyes, only closing them when they would kiss again.
And the days would continue in this perfect world. Even Red and Yellow would be jealous of how close they were, how perfect they were. Green would ignore trainers who came to his gym just to spend more time with her. She would stop flirting with other guys, and only care for him. And their hearts would never be broken.
That was Green's fantasy.
Blue smiled gleefully, as her date wrapped his arm around her. 'He cares for me', she thought, 'I mean something to him'.
She lifted her hand to his shoulder, and she turned to him. She looked him in the eyes, staring at him as if she actually cared about him, like he actually meant something to her, and she pulled him closer for a kiss. An open, loving, caring, fake kiss.
The movie ended and Trent escorted her outside. "It was fun being with you," he told her. "I hope we can do it again". He was quite a gentleman, but Blue didn't care. She felt like he was going to leave her soon, and if he did she'd be right back to where she started; alone.
"Don't leave just yet", she found an edge of desperation in her voice, "I mean, why leave? I'm kinda thirsty; could we go back to your place for some coffee?" She twirled her hair as flirtatiously as she could.
"Uhh, sure", Trent stammered with the slightest bit of nerves.
He guided her to his home, not far north of the magnet rail, and invited her in.
"Nice house", she commented as she walked into the living room. "Could I have a tour?"
"Yeah, of course", the boy said. "Well, this is the living room, the one room I ever bother to clean in case guests come by".
Blue pretended to laugh at the joke, but really, she didn't care. "What's upstairs?" she asked.
"Oh, just regular stuff like bedroom, washroom, there's a laundry room".
"Well why don't we check it out", she offered, already halfway up the stairs, swinging her hips seductively as she walked. The boy followed, bewitched by her.
They reached the second floor and Blue walked into the first room she saw with a bed. "So, is this the master bedroom?" she asked to her host who was still just reaching the top of the stairs. The room was a bit of a mess with dirty clothes scattered about and the blanket a mess.
"Uh, yeah". His face took on a red tint. "Sorry about the mess and all, I was going to clean it yesterday". He walked in the room and passed Blue to start kicking some old clothes off to the side, and straightening out the bed blanket. "but you know how it is"- He bit his tongue he turned back to see to find she'd already dropped her dress to the floor, tossed her jacket away, and stood in front of him in her underwear.
"Don't worry about that, I'm fine in a bed without a blanket". And she walked over to him, swinging her hips, pushed him onto the bed and…
Green still lay on the top of Mount Silver, creating the world in his mind. Years had gone by in it, and now he was at his adult life.
"I do", she'd say, her deep blue eyes sparkling with love as they stood at the altar.
"I do", he would say, holding her hands so tightly a hurricane couldn't separate them.
They'd honey moon in a beach resort somewhere in Sinnoh, where they could spend two weeks on the beach all day, and be together in the nights. And they'd live in happiness the rest of their lives.
"Good morning love", she'd say in the morning when he came down for breakfast, "Did you sleep well?"
"I think you know how I slept", he'd joke, before walking across the kitchen to greet their two children. Their oldest, Melody, would be just like her mother, a free spirit who loved to smile; and her younger brother, Sage, a smart kid, a front runner for the Kanto junior science award.
"Good morning to you two", he'd hug them.
"Good morning dad", they'd say.
And they'd eat breakfast. Blue would leave first to as she was the CEO of some big new fashion agency. Green would watch morning cartoons with the kids before walking them to school.
They live in Celadon City because it was convenient for Blue's work, and he'd fly to the Indigo Plateau to take up his role as champion. But he'd be back by six to be with them again.
On weekends they could go to the depths of the Hoenn Ocean, or deep into Johto's Dark Cave.
Each summer would be a new adventure, and each winter would be more quiet nights by the fire.
And they would be together for the rest of their lives.
"Hmm, that was fun", Blue said, collapsing next to Trent on the bed. "I think I may like you", she managed to say in-between breathes as she traced her finger around his bare chest.
"Ha, well thanks then" He put one arm under her head, and wrapped it around her. "Do you still want that coffee?"
Blue felt comfort with his hand around her, she felt happy. When she was with him she was happy because she felt needed, at least physically. "Ha", she laughed, "sorry, I've gotta go home. But maybe I'll see you again soon".
She climbed out of the bed and found her clothes scattered through the room. She greeted Trent goodbye with a kiss. And she left him; flying back to her home.
'Why'd I leave him', she thought. 'I could have stayed the night. I could have stay and been with him. I could have stayed and been happy. So why do I want to leave?' she asked herself.
'Because you know that was nothing but shallow joy', the voice spoke again. 'It is just another way for you to forget about me. Hurting yourself, and sleeping with strangers. What's next? Doing drugs?'
Blue couldn't think now; couldn't argue with the voice. She just wanted it gone.
'And now you hate me', the voice teased, 'you hate what you know. You still love him, why won't you accept that?'
"I don't love him! I can't love him!"
'You love him, and until you admit it you'll be sad'. The voice crackled with laughter. 'Until you stop all this, you'll hate yourself'. The laughter grew to roaring applause. 'You're just killing yourself'.
Green opened his eyes. His fantasy, his perfect world complete. And he was back in reality, where none of that meant anything. Where none of it mattered. His fantasy was just an extension of his reality, and now that it was over, he was back in the real world.
He wanted to be with her again, even if it was only in his mind, so he closed his eyes again, hoping for a new perfect world. But it never came. He had some ideas, but each felt like a pale imitation. And none mattered. None of what brought him happiness mattered.
He got up, trying to figure something out; trying to get his mind off it. But he couldn't forget. It made him enraged. He lifted his fist and found a rock, and he began to punch it as hard as he could, over and over again. Trying to stop thinking about any of it. Trying to get rid of the pain.
He punched the rock over and over, until his fist bled, and his eye spawned tears. But it wouldn't help. Once his hand was coated crimson with blood, he gave up. He sat down and leaned against that same rock. And he looked to the stars. And among the stars there was something he didn't expect to see. A jigglypuff floating overhead. Blue's jigglypuff. And over the edge of it, he could see her, staring down at him as he stared up at her. And subtly, so subtly she couldn't have noticed, he blew a kiss toward her. And a rain drop in the clear night came from where she was, and landed right above his heart. And she continued to float away.
Blue floated through the skies, still arguing with voice. The words it told her made her feel sick, as if she needed to throw up. So she looked over the side of her pokemon, in case. And when she looked over the side, she saw him. He was lying on top of Mount Silver, staring up at her. And she could see his eyes, and the voice just stopped, cut off. And she let a single tear flow gently down her cheek. And let it fall towards him. And she flew away again. And the voice came back, 'Did you miss me?'
And once in a while Green will stand at the top of Mount Silver, find the longest fall he can, and stand at its edge for hours, staring into its depths…
And once in a while Blue sits on her floor, holding a knife in one hand, and Trent's phone number in the other…
Well this is proof I should never watch 'The End of Evangelion' half a dozen time in a weekend. This was originally going to be a one-shot, and then it became a two-shot. Well, hopefully I can leave it at this. It's proved to be a tough fic for me, and that's what I love about it. Although, at times it was really hard to keep going, I hope it's alright. I just wanted to say that.