Chapter 34

"I'm sorry Edward. I won't do that again. Good night, Edward." I reached up, kissed his nose and went to my room.

Just as I got to my door, Edward stopped me and said, "Bella, you can do that again. You just surprised me. I wasn't expecting it."

"So I did it okay?" as I wiped my tears away and tried to smile.

"Beautiful, you did it better than okay," as he finished wiping my tears away and lifting my chin up towards him. "But remember, I'm also your bodyguard and have to keep you protected. We leave for your island in eight weeks. I cannot and will not be having sex with you on the sub for those nine days."

"I wasn't even thinking about that."

"Edward, I just wanted to touch you, is that so bad? You are my boyfriend, am I not allowed to want to be close to you and touch you?"

"No, but touching can lead to other things."

"Edward, I don't know what those other things are?"

"How did you deal with it when you were first here when you turned 18? Girls' hormones are as active as teenage boys."

"Yes, but I was still morning the loss of my father and I was really trying to hide so no one could find me. Edward, since you're at my door," I took his hand and pulled him into my room then closed my door.

"Bella," and Edward continued to try to pull away, but I just held onto him and his shirt. I walked backwards to my bed. I didn't realize I was so close to it and fell backwards pulling Edward with me. He quickly rolled to my side to get off of me.

"Edward, you don't have to roll off of me; I like you there."

"Bella, someone needs to keep a cool head."

"Fine," then I rolled on top of him and started touching his chest that was still exposed from his shirt being unbuttoned and I undid one more button which allowed more exposure to his chest. Edward in turn, ran his hands over my hips and up my sides. They came around to the front of me and slowly and lightly ran over my chest on his way back down to my waist.

"Bella, please lean down and kiss me goodnight so that I can let you get a good night's sleep." So I did as I was told, I kissed up the center of his exposed chest and along his neck and collar bone and finally to his lips. After a mouthwatering kiss that I took over, Edward finally conceded and matched me kiss for kiss.

I pulled up and rolled to my side and said, "Good night, Edward. Have pleasant dreams."

"Bella," and he brushed the hair from my face. "Someone has to stay in control and that appears to be me. I think where we are at is about as far as I'm going to let our relationship go before I stop this play."

"Edward, its just romance isn't it?"

"Yes."

"Well, I'm building on it. That's all."

"How did you find out or figure out what to do next?"

"I asked for help since you haven't tried to go any further."

"Is that why Emily was laughing?"

"No, that's something else I swear. I only asked Esme for some guidance."

Edward then said, "Carlisle saw me watching you when you went to get dessert and he said, 'I was in so much trouble because he had to help out you girls in the kitchen.' Now I understood what he meant. Good night, Bella."

"Good night, Edward."

Over the weekend Edward and I did some Christmas shopping, just not early Friday morning.

I took my father's pocket watch and had it engraved to say "Remember our time" to give to Edward for Christmas with the help of Jasper and Emmett. We decorated the boys' house for the holidays. I bought mistletoe and all three boys liked to use it on me. I always kissed Jasper and Emmett's cheeks, but in Edward's case, I would kiss Edward on the mouth. We had a tree in the living room and Edward surprised me with my own tree in my room. We had Christmas lights all over the front and backyard. Emmett would bring more things almost every night to add to the front yard but it made me smile and they all enjoyed that. Sometimes Edward and I or all four of us would go out driving around looking at Christmas lights; we always had so much fun.

At work, I found another calling, dodging bullets i.e. paintballs. Thanks to my Karate training, I could miss the paint balls. Now I was just working on moving and shooting targets accurately at the same time. The week leading up to Christmas, we were going through our detailed plans for the first trip. Carlisle got us all to an indoor pool for all of us to practice maneuvering as a group with rebreathers on. A lot of my off hours were spent in the gym now building up my chest and arms plus cardio for improving my lungs. When Edward and I kissed, we would touch each other more, me more so than Edward. When he did touch me, his touch sent a shock to my core every time.

Esme and Carlisle even took me shopping one day too just before the holidays. It was so much fun going to the malls at this time of the year. I loved how they were all decorated. I sent Felix a Christmas present, too. He called and told me, 'Merry Christmas.' Edward took me to dinner on Christmas Eve in a beautiful maroon dress he bought me along with a pair of boots. It was a very romantic dinner for two. Then after dinner, he said, "You have been a very good little girl since we found you in June. Santa asked me to take you for a special ride."

"Where are we going?"

"It's a surprise and you'll get dessert."

So thirty minutes down the road, we pulled into a marina. Edward grabbed a picnic basket and a blanket from the back seat. At the end of a small pier, I saw gondolas. "Edward, really I didn't know they existed here."

"Little LA secret. Come on let's go." We cuddled down in our seat together and Edward put the blanket around us. The gondolier sang to us quietly. I ran my hand over the opening in his shirt and opened it some more for further touching. Edward groaned against my kiss and finally whispered "That's it," and he started touching all over me. He slipped his hand into the v of the dress and caressed my breast and I whimpered against his kiss. Soon he pulled his hand back and said, "Let's have dessert." After our ride, Edward took me to a midnight church service for Christmas. It was so much fun and Jasper, Emmett, Carlisle and Esme met us at church. Some friends were coming by the house the next day and others were stopping by Carlisle's place for drinks or desserts later in the day.

In the morning, Edward came into my bedroom and said, "Sleepy head, it's time to get up. Emmett loves today because he loves presents second only to food. We have five minutes before he shows up. We have a tradition about Christmas pajamas. I thought of getting you a sexy red satin robe and negligee, but I didn't want Emmett or Jasper to see you in it. So I got you these." I slipped into the pajama bottoms that were red and said 'Merry Christmas' and my t-shirt said my first Christmas and had mistletoe and candy canes all over it. As we went to leave the room, Edward caught me under the mistletoe and kissed me and said "Merry Christmas," as we went down the hall.

As soon as I was in the living room, Emmett said, "Open presents, now."

"Yes, Emmett but can I get a cup of coffee first."

"Yes, but make it quick."

So we sat down to open presents, I had gotten all the boys clothes, toys and video games. I got Emmett a new climbing harness; I got Jasper a new dive watch. They got me clothes, girl video games plus romantic DVDs and music. Edward bought me a beautiful tennis bracelet.

"Thank you," I said as Edward put it on me. "Edward, you shouldn't have; it is way too much and it is stunning."

Edward then lifted my chin to see his face and he said, "Nothing is too much for you and nothing is more beautiful than you." Then he kissed me.

Jasper said, "I'm going to go start breakfast."

"Edward, I think Santa left something for you under the tree in my room." So he scooped me up and carried me to my room. We made out on the bed for a little while. Eventually, I rolled away and got the box from under my tree.

So Edward opened it and he said, "It's beautiful and an antique."

I said, "It's my father's. That and my crown were the two things of his that I took when I left. I had the watch inscribed for you. He kissed me and said, "I'll always remember our time.

Then he pulled a box out of his pocket and said, "This is for you, my beautiful Bella."

"Edward, you have done too much for me already. I can't accept this."

"Yes, you can and you will. Now open it my beautiful and quit arguing with Santa Claus." I opened it and found a locket on the front was a fancy scrawl. On the back, it said, 'Sunrise.' Inside were two pictures one of Edward and the other was the three guys together.

"My godfathers," I whispered and he wiped away my tears. "I love it," I said. "Thank you. I'll always have you guys with me."

"You're always with us, Bella. You have been in our hearts since Hell's River a year and a half ago."

Then there was a pounding on my door and Emmett said, "Breakfast you two."

"We'll be right there."

I put on my locket right away.

"It's beautiful on you, Bella," Edward said as we sat down to breakfast.

"The scrawl on the front is amazing."

Edward took my hand and said, "It represents the four of us."

"Really?"

"Yes, there is a B on it and two E's and a J; we designed it together one night."

I took it off and found all the letters and started crying again. "I love you, my godfathers. I guess since someone was going to eventually find me out; I am glad it was you all and now you are my best friends and godfathers and have kept me safe. Merry Christmas."

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