ZoMo19: i feel the same for the girls.. At the end who knows? Maybe we will have the happy end you said..

TheQueen: of course i would meant to say sit.. lol.. spelling mistakes that i do because i write fast.. but i am glad it made you laugh.. Tell your spies to start spiing because i am unperdicable.. heheh

pankton: i am glad to know you are back on track.. :) i was thinking of having a pov from Brandy so for all of us to know who she is.. So next chapters i might have one..

Chapter 10

Amy's POV

I am finding myself trying to pick up the pieces that were broken. Trying to realize what happened.. Even after a month I still think about her, I am still waiting for her to come back, to say that what happened was a cruel joke. But you and me both know that relationships don't work that way.. And especially the break ups..

I missed the Davies house. I missed the atmosphere inside there. The calmness, the love and most important I missed the smiles.. All of them were inside my heart.. Ashley and Spencer were the parents I wish I had, Andrew was like a little brother and then it was her.. She was the one who was putting a smile on my face every day.. Not the fake smile I put for my friends..

A month and I was still in the middle of trying to forget and move forward.. But how can you move forward when your feet are not cooperating.. When your mind is trying to protect you but you heart is telling you to wait.. And here I was.. Like a lost soul waiting in the middle..

"Amy honey.. We are going out with the Williams today.. Wear something nice.. Edward is going to be there as well"

I had my own problems to deal with but my mother was living in a different universe.. She was all about Edward this, Edward that, Edward likes you.. I was close sometimes to tell her everything, tell her that it was a lost call.. I was close to tell her 'marry him if you like him so much'.. But I was a coward.. I was scared.. I wasn't ready..

"I can't come. I am sorry. I have a late class today"

"What kind of class? You never have one on Thursdays"

"It's practice and we need to go. I don't know what time we will finish"

"But we have reservations.. What am I going to tell them?"

"That I have class. Don't count on me.. Now I am off to go. Bye mom"

Before she says anything else I opened the door and got out.. I didn't have class.. I was suppose to come home early today.. But I didn't want to go out with them.. I didn't want to see my mother trying to marry me with someone I didn't want to..

When I arrived at the university Jasmine was waiting for me at the parking lot like every day.. Her and Tina were back together at last.. But Tina didn't want to be around me.. I guess she thought that something went on with me and Jasmine..

"Hey you.. You are late" she looked at me and then at her watch "1 minute and 40 seconds.. You know I don't like people who are late"

"Oh shut it Jasmine.. I am not late.. Now lets go inside"

Jasmine was the friend I could count on.. She was the friend I cried on her shoulder more than one nights and she was the optimistic friend that sometimes pisses you off with all the positive emotions.. She believed that Angy would come back to me.. Positive thinking.. Yeah..

"Ok, now tell me why you were late"

"Oh my God Jasmine.. I wasn't late. One minute and fourty seconds its not late. Ok? Maybe your watch is going forward or something"

"Whatever"

"Don't you have a girlfriend to tease and piss off?"

"When I can tease and piss you off why walk at least fifteen minutes to where she is? I am bored.." she said like she was five years old.. Yeah Jasmine could be cute, sexy, badass, sweet.. All in one.. But don't tell her she is cute because she is going to destroy you..

"Go hang out with Tina then.. You can make out under a tree or something"

"Yes, that is a solution. But no. Tell me something else"

"Go at the library to read for our test?"

"Eww… You are so lame.. Of course not"

"I don't know Jasmine.. Do whatever you like"

"Wanna go for a coffee?"

"And that is less boring why?"

"Oh shut up.. Get up. We are going for coffee" also trying to say no to her.. It doesn't work..

We loved Starbacks. And it was perfect that we had one not far away from the campus.. We had a specific place we were sitting and usually there was no one sitting there..

"Two grande frappuccinos chocolate cream"

We waited for our frappuccinos and then we got to our table.. It kind of reminded me FRIENDS and their table.. No one was sitting there ever..

"Ok, miss pretty face.. Tell me everything"

"Tell you what Jasmine?"

"Did you see her? Did you text her? Did you go from her house? You know, all the lovely stuff"

"No, no, no and are you crazy?"

"Crazy? Not the right word honey.. I am just normal.. I would fight for what I want.. You let her go.. Without even saying anything.. And for God shake you are supposed to be the grown up. You are older than her and you let her do what she wanted.."

"And what I was supposed to do oh wise one?"

"I told you many many times to fight. To show her you wanted this. You told me she was insecure about your relationship.. By letting her go you showed her you didn't want her.."

"You know its not true.."

"I know it. Does she? Did you tell her? Lets see.. I believe the answer is no honey.. You didn't.. So she doesn't know.. Why on earth I am still saying those things to you.. After the first week you should have been outside her house"

"You don't know Angy.."

"Oh really now.. Angy is sixteen Amy. Sixteen.. We have been in her age and we know.. She wanted you to fight.. So stop being stupid and do something about it. Do you love her?"

"I do. I never stopped"

"Then move your skinny white ass and fight for what you want. You want her.. Go for it.."

"Why am I friends with you again?"

"Because I am puss over, and you can't say no to me.. Also I am extremely beautiful"

"And extremely so full of yourself. Poor Tina.."

"She loves every bit of it.. So what are you going to do?"

"I think I am going to the Davies house.."

"That's the spirit. Find her, talk to her, and show her that you are willing to fight.. The question is why I am friends with you.."

"Because I am clever and I am helping you cheat from me on our tests"

"Mmm.. Maybe.. Now lets go.. We have three more classes and now I am bored and pissed.. I might find Tina for that make out under the tree"

She was crazy but I wouldn't change a thing about her.. And I knew she had a good heart.. That's why I was friends with her..

Our last class was finished at 6.30pm.. It was suppose to finish earlier but inside I was wishing for the class to finish even more later.. That way I wouldn't have to go at the Davies..

"I want details once you are home.. Got it?"

"It's a good thing you are not taking there as well.."

"Don't put ideas in my mind.. Now go.. I trust you that you will knock that door.."

"Talk to you later.."

"Good luck"

Was I really ready to go there? Not. Was I really ready to see her again.. Yes.. And for only that, the steps I was making to my car were lighter..

When I got inside the car I turned on the radio and put it to a radio station.. I always was driving listening to music.. Song after song and I was outside her house.. Once I parked I stayed inside for a couple of minutes.. I wasn't raised to go uninvited to someone's house but they always told me that I didn't need a special invitation.. I took a big breath and got out from the car..

I knocked the door and I thought my heart would break.. Usually she was the one who was opening the door but I was surprised to see Andrew..

"Amy.. hey" he said and hugged me.. I kissed his forehead and hugged him as well.. Now I realized how much I missed him.. "Moms, moms.." he said and I heard Ashley's voice from the background..

"Andrew what's with the yelling?" and I saw her holding a towel in her hands.. "Amy?" she said and hugged me as well like her son did seconds ago..

"Hello Mrs Ashley.. I am sorry I came here uninvited.. I was just in the neighborhood and thought I should say hi"

"Ash.. Who is it?" Spencer said coming from the kitchen.. "Amy? Oh my God.. Come inside.. It's so good to see you.."

They were the mothers of my ex girlfriend.. But they were making me feel like I was still a member of this family.. I could see how happy they were to see me and I was happy to see them as well..

"Where have you been? Why you didn't call?"

"I thought it wouldn't be appropriate after everything.. You know"

"Amy.. We love you like our daughter.. Don't ever think any less of that.. Ok?"

"Thank you.. Both of you.. It means so much to me.."

We were there talking for at least an hour and Amy was nowhere to be found.. I was looking at the stairs just in case she was inside her room and maybe she would come down.. But an hour and she wasn't.. And I couldn't even ask.. So I continued talking about college, Andrew brought me down his essay to see how good he was in history and the time was going by so easily that when I watched my clock it was already nine.. I was suppose to have a late class, that what's what I said to my mother.. I don't know if I felt sad that Amy wasn't here or not.. If she was what could I say.. From where I would start..

"I am sorry but I have to go.. My mother is waiting for me to come home.. It was so good to see you all.."

"Amy, you can come here whenever you like.. Our house is open to you.." Ashley said and gave me a hug with Spencer following..

"It was good to see you.. Don't be a stranger.."

"I won't.."

"Amy, when will you come here again?"

"I don't know Andrew. I will try my best to come soon.. How's that sound?"

"Don't wait a month though. Ok?" I smiled and kissed his forehead one more..

"Goodnight.. Thank you very everything.."

"Be careful driving.. Ok?"

"I will.. Goodnight"

I opened the door searching in my bag for my car keys.. When I found them I came face to face with whom I was searching for the last couple of hours.. She was there, holding another girl, kissing another girl that it wasn't me.. Although she had her back to me and couldn't see me I stayed where I was.. My heart was breaking even more looking at her.. When she finally let go of the girl I heard her say 'it was beautiful tonight Brandy'.. That name.. That girl..

She turned her back and now we were looking at each other.. She had this surprise look on her face.. And she stayed where she was.. Not moving forward.. Not making any step to come closer to me..

At the end Jasmine was right.. I should have fought for her.. But clearly she didn't fight for me either.. She let me go easily and instead she moved forward while I was still waiting for her.. Did I want for her to be happy? Yes, I did.. I wanted to be the one to make her happy.. But clearly she wasn't.. Now I could finally let her go..

I made every possible step to come closer to her and when I was inches apart of her face I stroked her beautiful auburn hair and touched her cheek.. Her eyes were watering.. She was about to cry but I wouldn't stay to see her do that.. I couldn't.. I kissed her forehead letting my lips touch her skin for more than five seconds and tried to hold back my own tears..

I didn't say anything.. I walked away.. I didn't look back.. I heard her calling my name though.. I didn't turn back.. Instead I got inside my car and started the engine.. First thing I did was to open the radio..

'If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told

Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life'

I couldn't listen to this song.. It was on of her favorites.. And it reminded me of her.. I changed station right away when I recognised the voice.. I didn't know the song but from the first lyrics it touched my heart.. It was how I was feeling right now.. And it couldn't sum up better the feelings I had inside..

'I heard that you're settled down

That you found a girl and you're married now.

I heard that your dreams came true.

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?

It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.

I hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,

That for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.

I wish nothing but the best for you too.

Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.

You'd know how the time flies.

Only yesterday was the time of our lives.

We were born and raised in a summery haze.

Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.

Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.

I wish nothing but the best for you too.

Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you said:

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

TBC

Songs that were used to this chapter is 'Chasing Cars' by Snow Patrol and of course my favorite 'Someone like you' by Adele..

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