~You, Nikyu, Amikyu, and Yorri~

You were traveling as the moon illuminated the land. Nikyu, Amikyu, and Yorri were traveling with you; it's been a month now since that incident. It was still burned into your mind as you wished it was only a dream. Even so, you still missed him. Even getting visits from Koga 'cause he wants Yorri, or the occasional run in with Kagome and her group. You were silent most of the time, and decided to begin collecting Jewel shards.

"We camp here, near a hot spring." You ordered. Everyone nodded and began setting up camp. You rolled out blankets and helped Nikyu build a fire. Yorri went to collect fish for supper, and Amikyu began patrolling the area.

Soon after the camp was set and Amikyu or Yorri back from their tasks, Nikyu stared at you intently, "Are you going to face him?"

You were almost shocked at her question but remanded unaffected, "I, I don't know." You answered honestly.

"It was an accident though. I mean it was his INNER demon." She argued.

"I know but I just can't face him without remembering almost getting my body violated. I was forced so many times and with him trying to force me was devastating." You sighed.

"But he would never truly mean to hurt you." She reasoned.

"That's another thing. He can't seem to make up his mind weather he likes me or not." You argued.

"True, but he did save you, not only just one time either. That he didn't have to do." She added.

You nodded, "But I'm afraid to go back and face him." You finished it at that as Yorri and Amikyu returned. You grabbed the fish from Yorri's hand and started smoking them. "So what's the status report?" You asked turning to look at Amikyu.

"Nothing worth troubling yourself over." She commented sweetly. "Imma going to go bathe." She ran off dragging Yorri with her. She noted the confused look on your face.

"I think I'm going to make sure they stay out of trouble." She ran off pretty quickly and she wasn't even looking at you.

"Hey" You called out after her and stood "What the hell- AHH" Someone placed a hand on your shoulder scaring you to wits end. The hand spun you around and Sesshomaru was standing there. Brows pushed together as his other hand wrapped around your waist. "How did you find me?" You questioned shakily. You noted his eyes were once again that clear warm amber color.

"Why did you leave the western lands Neomikyu?" He asked coolly.

"Because, because your inner demon tried to rape me. WHY ELSE!" You snapped. He looked shocked and hurt.

"I did not know." He said evenly. The hand on your shoulder trailed its way to your cheek as he caressed it, "Come back with me. Rin misses you dearly."

"You came all this way for Rin? Of course you did." You mumbled the last part to yourself and for some reason you were hurt. His demon tried to rape you and you were hurt by the fact the only reason he came was for Rin. You closed your eyes bowing your head.

"No I did not." He said raising your head to face him, "I want you back at my castle. Safe."

~Sesshomaru's p.o.v~

"You came all this way for Rin?" She sounded angry then it changed to sadness as she mumbled, "Of course you did." You were taken back on how she sounded.

But even so you had to get her back. Earlier you ran into Amikyu and demanded she take you to Neomikyu, and she seemed more that happy to. And Nikyu spotted you but left Neomikyu all alone. It was puzzling how they set her up. You had to get her back. "No I did not." You were soft with your words as you lifted her bowed head to look at you, "I want you back at my castle." Its time she knew the truth. "From the first moment I saw you I had the urge to protect you from anything or one that threatened you. Rin sees you as a mother and I had the urge to fill that roll of father, for seeing you care for her didn't feel right with me not there next to you. I do not want any other man to even look at you with lust, as I find the need to rip them apart. Neomikyu from the first moment I saw you I fell for you. Your beautiful, extraordinary, unique, and I always want that beautiful face smiling." You tried not to sound cold, and you gently stroked her cheek. "Please come back with me."

"I can't." She started crying as she moved your hand away. "I just can't." She moved to gather every ones things and left you alone in an empty camp. You felt your heart breaking. The first time you ever loved someone and you let her go. You let her walk away. 'No I won't lose you Neomikyu. Not after so many times I might have lost you.'

~Your p.o.v~

You found the others close by listening and Yorri looked pissed off. "He loves you. You are the one to melt the icy heart of the western lord. Now you probably shattered it." She stopped as she noticed you were crying. Softly whimpering as you dropped the stuff and collapsed to your knees.

"He isn't going to follow you?" Nikyu asked as she wrapped you in her arms.

"I don't know." You managed over your whimpers. You rested your head on her shoulder as she gently rocked you. "I just can't do it. Its still too hard. I want to tell him everything but when I try that night replays in my mind. He may not have meant to but he really scared me, I just can't love someone I am afraid of." You explained into her shoulder. "We have to go away from here." You said after you stopped crying.

"No." It was Sesshomaru. He was walking to you and Nikyu. He looked very sad and hurt as he knelt to you, "I refuse to lose you again Neomikyu." You were glad to see him just scared of his demon. Which was evident in your eyes as you clung to Nikyu.

"I'm not going with you Sesshomaru." You said evenly.

He shrugged, as a glint shown in his eyes and he smirked. He whipped your tears away and pulled you away from Nikyu and had you under his arm as he started walking off. 'This is oh so familiar.' As it was the same hold on you when he first took you to looked sad happy and hopeless all at once as you huffed and crossed your arms. He turned to face the group of stunned girls. "Are you three coming?" He demanded, and they scattered around to collect their belongings as well as some of yours and followed him.

"Put me down Sesshomaru." You snapped shaking your fist at him.

"Never." He replied. "I now know how you truly feel and I refuse to let you go after hearing such words." He looked down at you and formed a small smile. The second time you ever saw him smile.