Author's Note= Wow, I apologize to my wife, this is couple weeks late . I'm sorry! But, yeah, #14! It's coming down =D I plan to update Smile In Your Sleep soon as well, and Abandoned Driveways… Yes, that will be done shortly. ^^ And I've got a few new fics coming out, my progress is all recording on my dA, and I've ranted about enough, so here you are. ^^
Song For This Chapter= Whispers In The Dark by Skillet
Matt's POV
I watched completely unfazed as Jackson shot Paul a few times in the stomach. I took a drag off my cigarette, and thought about Mello. What would he think of this side of me?
I felt Bullet's hand on the back of my head, pushing it towards his crotch. I took my cigarette and stubbed it out as I undid his belt. This was Bullet's was of confirming my status as his plaything.
I went into autopilot. And, Dear Zelda, was it sour; but I swallowed it all.
I haven't thought about Zelda since this whole thing started; speaking of games, I missed mine.
I sighed out loud, drawing the attention of Bullet. I shook my head to indicate that it was nothing.
I reclined fully and wondered what Mello was doing.
~Time Skip~
I silently opened the door to my room. Mello was siting on the bed, back facing me. I prayed that Mello hadn't heard the shots.
"Mello?" I asked quietly.
"Matt, can I ask about another one?"
"Okay." I hadn't really been surprised at the question, and pulled my shirt over my head.
He was judging me again. He always did, judged my reactions. It disturbed me. I just didn't like it, it made me feel like an experiment.
"The ones on your face." I hadn't realized that he had walked up to me until his hand touched my face.
I flinched backwards, but he held onto my face.
"Matt?" I refocused on Mello, who was staring at me with such intensity that half of me wanted to run, the other half wanted to kiss him. I settled in the middle and shuffled and averted my eyes.
"I… ran through the forest when I was younger."
"Why?" Yes, why? Why must he pry?
"I was scared." I stated blankly.
"Of?"
"Why do you pry?" I hissed.
"I told you everything." He let his eyes burn the fact into my damned soul, or at least what was left of it.
He had a point, and I gave in.
"I-I was running… away."
"From?"
"A man… a very bad man." I whispered.
"I have another question." Mello's voice was soft, his eyes focused on my lips instead of my eyes.
"Yeah?"
"Why don't you trust me?"
"What reason have you given me?"
"I've never hurt you."
"You have." Mello looked surprised at my statement.
He sighed, "You're hopeless."
I smiled a broken one "Yeah, I am."
He glared at me, before tackling me. "I wasn't serious."
I hissed when he bit down on my neck.
"I don't want to be true anymore." I whispered.
"I don't either." He replied into my collarbone.
If I didn't gather the urge now, I never would.
"Mello?"
"Yes, Matt?"
"D-do you," I decided against it after all. Looks like it would go unsaid. "Nevermind."
"Okay." So when I wanted him to pry, he didn't.
I sighed, letting my body relax.
"Don't worry, Mello. I'll get us out of here."
But the blonde's steady breathing told me that he was too far gone to hear me. I shut my eyes and let sleep take my mind.
I sighed quietly.
"Matt." I nearly jumped, having forgotten about the blonde who was laying on my chest.
"Matt, you know. I'm going to tell you something but you can't laugh." I looked at Mello oddly.
"How would I laugh? Everyone knows that it's suicidal to laugh at a Mello." I grinned at him.
He rolled his eyes and shifted his position so he could see me better.
"This is serious." His face confirmed this. "I'll admit what you want to hear. I… do care about you."
I looked at Mello, shocked. Why was he saying this to me?
But I ignored my nagging doubt and leaned forwards to kiss him.
"Well, I 'care' about you too." I grinned again.
"What's that suppose to mean?" Mello hissed at me; I just raised my eyebrows at him.
"Anyway," he said calming down. "Don't worry, Matt. I'll take care of getting us out of here."
I stared. He had heard me?
He just leaned up and pressed a kiss to my lips; I melted into it.
God, Mello could be so affectionate sometimes. I'd have to find a way to entice this Mello out more often.