Musical Undertones Chapter 16: Down With the Sickness, a degrassi fanfic

Musical Undertones

ATaintedStarsNightmare

Chapter 16

Author's Note: I know this took forever and a day in a half but some conflicting things have happened and I'm soo sorry! I should have gotten this out to you guys a lot sooner but I just didn't seem to find the proper time with everything going on. I sure hope this makes your Christmas.

DISclaimer: I don't own.

"Down With the Sickness" – "Disturbed"

(Can you feel that?)
(Oh shit)
Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Drowning deep in my sea of loathing
Broken your servant I kneel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems what's left of my human side
Is slowly changing ... in me
(Will you give in to me?)

Looking at my own reflection
When suddenly it changes
Violently it changes
Oh no, There is no turning back now
You've woken up the demon ... in me

Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up
Come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up
Come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me

I can see inside you, the sickness is rising
Don't try to deny what you feel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems that all that was good has died
And is decaying in me
(Will you give in to me?)

It seems you're having some trouble
In dealing with these changes
Living with these changes
Oh no, the world is a scary place
Now that you've woken up the demon ... in me

And when I dream
And when I dream
And when I dream
And when I dream!!!!
No mommy, don't do it again
Don't do it again
I'll be a good boy
I'll be a good boy, I promise
No mommy don't hit me Oh-oohh
Why did you have to hit me like that mommy?
Don't do it! You're hurting me Oh-oohh!
Why did you have to be such a bitch?
Why don't you,
Why don't you fuck off and die?
Why can't you just fuck off and die?
Why can't you just leave here and die?
Never stick your hand in my face again bitch
FUCK YOU!!!
I don't need this shit
You stupid sadistic abusive fucking whore
Would you like to see how it feels mommy?
Here it comes, get ready to die!

Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up
Come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up
Come on get down with the sickness
Madness has now come over me

Craig's POINT OF VIEW

I can't believe that bitch would do this to me. I've been reduced to stalking her, watching her every move. She knows I love her with every fiber of my being. She's my life, ever since that year she had gotten pregnant. Sure I had gotten angry and might have hurt her, roughed her up a bit. It's not like life wouldn't do the same thing eventually. She would have to learn to not misbehave with me; I won't tolerate that even with her. She would have to be molded into how I see the perfect woman, she's half way there. She would not fight against with me.

I'm just sitting here watching Sean hold her and listening to her wonderful laugh. I used to make her laugh like that. How could be laughing when she knows I'm hurting and she's the cause? I have to teach her a lesson and make sure she never leaves me again. She won't even acknowledge my existence. How DARE she? She's letting him touch her like I used, running his hands down her arms. I can feel the anger rising in me.

I can feel the eyes of her little "gang". The ones who'll protect her from the big bad monster, the ones who are stupid and don't know love for what it really is. A sigh found its way through me as my eyes settled on her caramel skin. Her little neck which my hands fit around so perfectly then would feel the light pressure of my lips as I kissed the angry red marks away. Emma stared at me with me with so much hatred; I longed to tell to her the truth. I was drunk, it was a misunderstanding, and I loved Manny with all my heart. I could see that fag Marco standing close to Jimmy. Like it wasn't obvious, a blind man could see that. But that little whore Emma, who was evidently the favourite, she would know very soon how I felt.

Regular POINT OF VIEW

Emma was sitting between Alex and Jay, her eyes gazing on Craig, hardened with hatred. All the pain he has caused her friend, it was too much. She switched her gaze to Lucas who was talking with Terri. She was beside Rick, though not the same one who almost killed Jimmy; he had his hand around her waist in an almost possessive manner. Terri looked back at Emma with almost pitiful stare, as if she was begging for help silently. Her eyes almost wet with unshed tears, she never wanted to be with either of them. She quickly looked away once she realized that Emma gave her a look of sympathy.

"I'm just saying that Terri here might just want to lose a few pounds. I know you can't look at her and see the beautiful woman I see yet, till she loses that weight." Rick's smug voice penetrated the air thick with conversation.

Terri wondered how she came to this, another abusive Rick, what are the odds? She was once popular with everybody, Ashley's best friend and no rivals. 'Life can't be this hard for everybody. But maybe I deserve this for the last Rick. There's got to be more than this torture, least he doesn't hit me.'

Lucas looked anywhere but at Mia, who had JT's hand in her own. He couldn't decipher his feelings for her. They were so conflicted and wrapped around so many thoughts; he couldn't even begin to make sense of them. He let himself feel alive in the hatred pouring off Emma. He nodded and laughed to something Rick said, ignoring the tearful look coming off Terri.

"Yeah and how about that shit with Grassi? Can you believe they want to start shit about some skank bitch? I haven't even heard the full story about why and who got the damned problem with the bitch anyways." Rick scoffed at the idea of a girl having this much power over something. "From what I heard the dumb bitch couldn't keep her fucking legs closed. Isn't it some shit with you though? That Mia chick?" He looked over at Lucas with his head held high. "You can't possibly tell me this is true!"

His hands left Terri's waist in a surprised gesture, his eyes and mouth wide opened in shock. He stopped walking, Terri being obedient immediately followed suit. Lucas sighed and walked a little bit ahead so he could turn around and face them head on, the Grassi gang in his view as he told Rick the story.

Emma Point of View

The conversation between Rick and Lucas has me a bit on edge to be honest. I had only heard bits and pieces of it, and none of it seemed to be good. And that look on Terri's face, it made me feel like watching Manny all over again, though I couldn't do anything to help this time. I wish there was something I could do, anything, I would do it in a heartbeat. And then there was Craig, he was just staring off into space, his eyes continuously wondering off to Manny and all her happiness. I wonder how he could justify hurting something so lovely. Her dark hair mixing with the beautiful combination of her skin almost seemed too perfect for one woman. A sigh slipped out as I remembered all the good times we had over the years and how strong our friendship was today. I know I had loved her at one time but now it seemed that my heart was mostly focused on Alex and Jay. A smile was on my face thinking about her and him. I was off in my own world thinking about how her lips felt on mine and how her hair smelled just like vanilla with a mix of strawberries. It smelled wonderful and I would give anything in the world to just spend all day in her arms inhaling the scent of her for hours. I know it could be love, eventually. I wouldn't rush anything with her, I simply couldn't. Seeing the smile on her face, hearing her laughter, and feeling her arms around me was everything I could ever wish for. Combined with the feelings I had for Jay, I was the happiest person in the world. His arms just seemed to swallow all my problems and make them disappear. His stupid black hat that he never seemed to take off, I couldn't even see him without it. The smile that seemed to always grace his face could always pull a smirk even at the worst moments. I don't think there was anyone happier than I was at this moment, with the two people who meant the world to me. My stomach felt full of butterflies and I don't know it could see feel like this even after so long. I started to wonder, would we have a future? A white picket fence, a yard full of children running around screaming in joy, while we all sit and watch? That seemed more of a hope than anything that could actually happen. I was happy now, but would I be forever? I tried to ignore the sinking feeling that came with that thought. I had a feeling life wouldn't be the same without them and I wouldn't want it that way.

I felt someone's arm snake around my waist, dragging me out of my thoughts. I turned over to my side and it was the one person, well one of which, I couldn't seem to get off my mind lately. She ran her fingers through my hair and I closed my eyes and leaned into it.

"Off in space, cadet?" Her voice soft, her breath tickling my ear, making me shiver at the sensation. "Thought I lost you to the unknown, I would have been so lonely without you." She gave a small smile, which I felt it against my ear. Her voice seemed so innocent as if she didn't know how hearing that affected me. My heart gave a jump as the pressure of her lips was soon felt on my neck, lightly making its path down to my shoulder.

"Well sweetie, I would never want to leave you behind or would even dream of it." How could she think that? I leaned back into her opens arms, so I was leaning against her chest. I took her hands into mine, intertwining our fingers together. I let the simple joy of this feeling just wash over me.

Manny Point of View

I laughed as Sean tickled me, I could definitely get used to being treated as an actual person and not a punching bag. From having known him as long as I have, it just felt so natural. My eyes wondered over to Jay, he looked so alone. While Emma was cuddled up with Alex, it seemed that his mind busy thinking about how to handle the situations we all had gotten ourselves stuck in. I knew that he must feel stressed about all the trouble that seemed to follow us which ever road we took.

But with all the help from Emma's family everything should be alright.

Jay Point of View

How did everything get to this point? Mia having to hide from Lucas, a man she gave her heart, and more, to. I just shook my head at the thought; I let my thoughts wonder about how I could handle all this. This was just bullshit, I slammed my fist on the table, making everyone jump, and walked off. I know I left some very confused people in my wake, but I just needed time away. It seemed like everything came down to me, how could I handle all this? On my own wasn't so bad, but I had never been truly alone someone always took care of it for more, at least helping. I kept walking down the path that had been walked down though not official. It was supposed to be a good fun day at the park but now with everything I just couldn't see the good anymore. I stumbled my way to the mountain top and looked over the side, it would just be so easy to stay here forever and forget everything.

Regular Point of View

The day seemed to wind down, everyone becoming oddly silent with the onset of the night. The minutes passed slowly as they drove their way back. With the music playing softly in the background they made their way back home. Jay's hand covering Emma's, his thumb rubbing in circles on her palm.

"You guys don't know how much this meant to me today. I'm real glad you took the time you help me out." Mia's voice cut through the silence. "I honestly don't know where I would be if you guys weren't here." But her voice wasn't sad; you could hear the smile with each word.

As they finally arrived to the house, all taking their time to get out the car, they heard loud music pumping out of the house. Making each look at each other in question and walk towards the house, a smile tugging against their lips.

AUTHORS NOTE: So I know this took forever. A couple of months to be likely, but I wrote this to try and make up [and give in sight]. I hope this makes up for it.

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Merry Christmas.