Clare's POV
I ran into the washroom as fast as I could. As soon as I got there I check to see if anyone was in there. It was all clear so I let the tears fall. I heard the door open and I looked up to see Fiona. She locked the bathroom door, so no one else would come in, before coming over and wrapping her arms around me. I wrapped my arms around her and cried into her shoulder.
"Clare, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to bring it up" she whispered in my ear.
"It's okay" I sighed as I let go of her. "It's in the past. I shouldn't let it get to me"
"That's right, besides, Eli seemed pretty worried."
"Eli" I sighed. "He's going to think I'm a dirty whore"
"Clare, no he won't! Don't you ever say that. He loves you."
"Yeah, until he knows the truth" I sighed. "Ugh, why did I have to be so stupid and naive?"
"Clare, you weren't stupid or naïve." She tried to reassure me.
"Yes I was. I can't believe I fell for his crap and thought we would last"
"Clare, think of it like this, if it wasn't for him breaking your heart, you would have never been with Eli"
I slowly turned to her and smiled. "Your right Fi." But my smile soon faded. "But what if he thinks different of me?"
"Clare, if he didn't run by now, then he never will" she joked.
I smiled and nodded. "Thanks Fi"
She smiled and pulled me into a hug. "No problem"
We pulled apart and she reached into her purse. "Now, let me fix your make-up" she pulled out some eyeliner. We both laughed and she whipped my tears away before fixing my make-up.
Just as we were about to leave the washroom, Fiona stopped.
"Clare, you have to tell him"
I sighed, "I know."
"How about we skip the movie and go to my place. You can explain to him there and Adam and I will back you up if things get crazy"
"Okay" I nodded.
We walked out of the washroom and back to the table where everyone was. Eli looked up at me and I saw worry in his eyes. I took my seat slowly and he turned to me.
"Are you okay?" he whispered.
"Yeah, but we need to talk" I told him.
"Uh, okay" he looked kind of hurt.
"Were going to skip the movie and head to my place" Fiona said to everyone.
"Well I have to be home soon so I can't." Alli said.
"That's okay, we can just drop you off"
We all got up and headed out into the parking lot. Drew decided to come with Eli and I since Alli was going home. Drew, Eli and I climbed in Morty and we headed to Fiona's. I was sitting in the middle, between Eli and Drew. It was silent. Drew was staring out the window and Eli was looking at the road. I looked to my left and noticed Eli's hand was on the seat. I slowly reached over and grabbed his hand. I heard Eli sigh in relief. I interlaced our fingers and lifted his hand to my lips before kissing it softly. Eli glanced over at me and smiled softly. I smiled in return and he looked back at the road. We were soon sitting in Morty in front of Fiona's, waiting for her and Adam. After about five minutes, they pulled up and got out before walking inside.
"Eli, do you mind if I talk to Clare for a minute" Drew asked.
Eli nodded and let go of my hand. I leaned up and kissed his cheek softly. He got out and walked inside Fiona's. I turned to Drew and he looked at me.
"What is it?" I asked.
"You have to tell him. He was asking questions when you left"
"What did you tell him?"
"All we said was you lost your virginity the night of prom."
"What did he say?"
"He just asked who it was" Drew shrugged. "But we didn't tell him" he said quickly.
"Well Fiona already told me I have to tell him. That's why we cancelled the movie so I could tell him and Fiona and Adam will be here to back me up if things get crazy."
"Well I'm also here" Drew said.
I laughed and nodded. "Thanks"
We got out and headed up to Fiona's. Once we got inside, everyone was sitting on the couch. Drew and I walked in and he sat down on the couch while I got a water bottle. I walked back over to everyone and sat on the couch with them. I chugged half of the bottle before putting it down.
"Are you okay?" Eli asked.
"Uh, yeah, just thirsty" I lied. I was nervous and I needed to hydrate my suddenly dry throat.
I looked over at Drew, Adam and Fiona, telling them to leave so I could talk to Eli in private.
"I just remembered, I have to do this… thing… in the room… Drew, Adam, do you mind helping me" Fiona said. They both nodded and left.
"Eli, we have to talk" I whispered.
"Are you… breaking up with me?" he whispered back.
"What? No! No, god no" I said all too quickly.
"Then what is it?" he asked looking at me.
"Drew told me he told you what happened last prom" I started and he nodded. "If I tell you more, you have to try and stay calm okay?"
He looked at me confused and nodded. I grabbed his hand and held it in mine.
I took a deep breath before starting. "Last prom was the night I lost my virginity, but I wish I hadn't" I looked away from him and to the ground. "I wasn't ready, and I knew that then, but he convinced me." I took another deep breath and continued. "After it was done, he completely ignored me and the next day I found out that he had a bet going on with his buddy's, so I dumped him"
I felt Eli's grip tighten on my hand. "What was the bet?" Eli whispered.
"His buddy's made a bet saying that he couldn't get me to sleep with him before prom" I sighed shakily. I looked up at Eli and he was looking at me straight in the eye. I could tell he was angry, by the look in his eyes. But he was also squeezing my hand.
"Who is he?" Eli asked.
I didn't answer right away. I just stared at him. Just in case this was it, I wanted to remember everything; from his gorgeous eyes to his plump lips that I adore.
"Clare, who is he?" Eli asked again, breaking me from my thoughts.
I sighed shakily and whispered, "Fitz"
Eli's face expression changed in that second. He looked confused, angry and hurt. His eyes widened and he started breathing heavy. He let go of my hand and clenched his fists to the point that his knuckles turned white. He stood up and started pacing the room. He would reach up and run his fingers through his hair and then pull on it, hard.
"I'm going to fucking kill him" he started saying to himself. "I'm going to fucking kill him" he kept repeating.
I got up and grabbed his arm, trying to make him stop pacing the room.
"Eli you have to calm down." I whispered.
"Clam down! Don't tell me to calm down!" he yelled at me. I back up slightly, scared of what he would do.
"Eli, please calm down" I tried again.
"How can you tell me to calm down after he you tell me Fitz took advantage of you like that?" he stopped his pacing and looked at the door. "I'm going to fucking kill him" he said again and then walked towards the door.
My eyes grew wide as I realized what he meant and I ran to the door and stood in front of it.
"No, you can't"
"Move" he said. I shook my head and he stepped closer. "Move!" he yelled.
Drew came out of nowhere and pulled Eli away. I sighed and walked over to them. Drew sat Eli on the couch and tried to keep him sitting down.
"Let go!" Eli yelled at Drew. Drew shook his head and Eli got even more pissed. He shoved Drew off of him and started walking to the door again.
"Eli, wait!" I yelled. He stopped and turned to me. "If you go through that door, don't bother coming back" my heart just broke from what I said. I didn't want to say it but I had to think of something to make him stay.
He stared at me for a few moments and I felt slightly relieved. That is until he turned around and went through the door. That very moment, I swear I stopped breathing. I couldn't believe he just left; I felt like my heart was shattered into a million pieces, again. I broke down and started sobbing. Fiona took me in her arms and held me. Adam came over and tried to sooth me. Drew looked at me and then ran out the door chasing after Eli.
Drew's POV
I saw how much Clare was hurting and I couldn't just stand there and do nothing. I ran out the door and searched for Eli. He was just about to climb into Morty and I quickly stopped him.
"Eli!" I ran up to him and he turned to me.
"Drew, I don't have time for this" he said through gritted teeth.
"Eli, you love Clare right?" He nodded. "Then think of it like this. If you get in that car and drive off, you will never see her, hold her or kiss her again. She will never forgive you if you leave" I tired convincing him to stay.
"He tricked her! He used her! And you expect me to do nothing!" he yelled and I saw a tear run down his face. I couldn't believe how much this was hurting him. I didn't know two people could develop such strong feelings towards each other in just a few weeks, but I was happy for Clare. Until now.
"Clare handled it pretty well when it happened so you have to let it go. She can handle herself pretty well but right now, she need's you. You should have seen her after you left"
"How bad did I hurt her?" he asked.
"Why don't you see for yourself" I motioned to the door.
He sighed and nodded. I mentally cheered at myself as we both walked back inside.
Clare's POV
Adam and I were in Fiona's room. I was lying on the bed crying while Adam rubbed my back. I just can't believe he left. He said he loved me, and then he just leaves. Why did I have to tell him? Things were perfectly fine when he didn't know.
"Ugh!" I groaned as I punched the pillow and cried harder.
"Clare, it's okay" Adam whispered.
"No it's not!" I turned over to face him. "I wish I never even knew Fitz! He has made my life a living hell!" I said as I threw my hands over my face.
"Trust me, I wish the same thing" Adam chuckled slightly.
"You can't go in there" I heard Fiona say from outside the door.
"Try and stop me" it was Eli.
The door to the room flew open and I sat up. Eli was standing there looking at me. He looked me in the eyes and sighed before looking at Adam, telling him to leave. Adam got up and left, closing the door behind him. I whipped my tears away and looked anywhere but at Eli.
"Why did you come back?" I asked.
"I never left"
"Yes you did, I watched you!" I stood up as I yelled at him. I felt the tears coming back.
"Yes I went out the door but that's because I wasn't thinking straight. All that was going through my head was getting Fitz to pay for hurting you"
"You can't just go after someone for something that happened a year ago" my voice was softer now.
"He tricked you and used you! You can't expect me to act like nothing happened!" he was yelling again.
"I don't expect you to act like nothing happened but you can't run off and kill him"
He sighed and sat on the bed. "I know"
"So" I sat next to him. "What did Drew do to convince you to come back?"
"He told me that if I left, I would never see you, hold you, or kiss you again. And I can't handle not being able to do those things." He took my hand in his. "I love you too much"
I started crying again. The tears just came rolling down my face. Eli let go of my hand and pulled me into his lap. He wrapped his arms around me and held me close. I gripped onto his shirt and cried into his neck. "I'm sorry" he whispered in my ear before kissing my head multiple times.
"I th-thought (sob) you l-left m-m-me" I managed to say before sobbing even more.
"I'm not going anywhere."
"You promise?" I asked looking up at him.
"I promise" he said looking into my eyes. He lifted his hand and whipped my tears away with his thumb.
"Wait a minute" he said and I lifted my head. "you told me you and Fitz broke up because he became a bully"
"Well, that was partly true. I just left out prom"
"Which was the most important part" he exclaimed.
"Sorry, I just thought you would think I was a dirty whore or something for letting him do that to me." I sighed and looked to the ground.
"Clare, I could never think you're a dirty whore because you aren't"
I smiled faintly and gave him a quick peck on the cheek.
"You know" he sighed. "Since you told me about your first time, I think I should tell you about mine"
"Wouldn't that be kind of awkward?" I asked.
"No" he chuckled. "It was nothing special" I gave him a confused look and he continued. "This girl in my old school, Julia, she was my girlfriend for a while and we decided on taking the next step. She told me she was a virgin so I thought we would be each other's firsts. After we… well, you know, I found out she was cheating on me our whole relationship and she just used me because her parents wouldn't let her date the guy she really wanted. She wasn't even a virgin at the time."
I didn't know what to say. How could someone be so heartless? "I'm sorry" is all I could say.
"No, it's okay. She was just a bitch"
"I don't understand how someone could be so heartless" I said truthfully.
"Well, Fitz kind of did the same thing to you. I mean the using you part" he whispered and took my hand.
"Well, they're in the past, and this" I pointed to us "is the present"
"And hopefully the future" Eli smirked. I smiled and nodded.
I leaned up and kissed him slowly. "Definitely" I whispered against his lips.
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We walked out of the room and into the living room. Everyone was on the couch; Adam was sitting next to Fiona, who had her head in her hands. Drew was on the other side and he was slouched over while his leg was shaking rapidly. They all looked up at us.
"You guys okay?" Drew asked.
"Yeah" I looked over at Eli and he smiled. "Were good"
"Okay, well since it's Friday, you guys could spend the night here" Fiona suggested.
"Hold that thought" Eli said. I gave him a confused look and he brought me into the room again. He closed the door behind us and turned to me. "I was going to see if you wanted to spend the night at my house again" he asked.
"Can't get enough of me huh?" I teased.
"Ha ha, very funny" he joked. "Seriously"
"Yeah, I'd like that" I smiled and he smiled back. He pulled me in and gave me a quick kiss before he kissed my forehead.
We both walked out into the living room.
"So, are you guys staying?" Fiona asked.
"Actually I'm kidnaping her for the night" Eli said.
Everyone lifted their eyebrows and then nodded. I went back into the room and packed an overnight bag. Once I got it all together, Eli and I started to head out when Drew pulled me to the side.
I looked up at him curiously and he began speaking. "So you guys are good?"
"Yes, thanks to you" I smiled. He smiled in return and pulled me into a hug.
"Oh, and if he ever hurts you, tell me okay." He whispered in my ear.
"Okay, but I don't think that will happen" we pulled out of the hug and he chuckled.
"Yeah I doubt it will also. He digs you like a shovel" he laughed.
"Okay so we went from the over protective Drew, to the perverted Drew. Really?" I asked raising my eyebrows.
"Hey, I can't help who I am" he smirked.
"Whatever" I laughed. I turned back to everyone and waved. They smiled and waved as I exited the condo with Eli trailing behind.
We walked down the hallway and just before we went out the main doors, Eli pulled me back to him and turning me around before wrapping his arms around me. I was shocked. I slowly wrapped my arms around him.
"Are you okay?" I asked.
"Yeah, I just can't believe I almost lost you" He whispered in my ear. "I'm so, so, so sorry"
"It's okay. I should have told you sooner"
"No, I think it was better that you waited. If you told me earlier I think Fitz would be no more" he chuckled.
I laughed and we pulled out of our hug. He looked down at me and cupped my cheek. I smiled softly and leaned into his touch. After a few moments, he pulled his hand away, only to grab mine as we headed over to Morty.
You guy's ready for some lemony goodness? ;) that will show up in the next chapter. I know, took me long enough eh? But I got it done now. Plus, it still has only been two weeks since they met. Oh well :P
Wow, two weeks and all of this drama? I didn't even expect me to come up with half the stuff I did. Oh well.
I was thinking of making a sequel. What do you guys think? This story still has quite a bit of chapters left but I love this story so much that I want to keep writing it :) tell me what you think :)
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