Blaine knew he had screwed up. He shouldn't have said what he did. He should have realized that Kurt is sensitive. He should have been more careful.
But honestly, Kurt shouldn't have gotten so mad either. Blaine had asked for permission to express his opinion, he shouldn't have gotten mad just because he didn't agree.
But Kurt wasn't as strong as he let on; especially when it came to his mother, and in that way, Blaine had to respect him being upset - look at the way he reacted at the mere thought of his father. Blaine and Kurt were both damaged, they couldn't judge each other for it.
But Blaine had to make amends now. Kurt was... stubborn. It wasn't going to be easy to get him to forgive...
But Blaine knew just how.
At Warblers practice the next day, Blaine approached the council desk; ignoring the way he could feel Kurt's eyes burning a hole in the back of his head. "Wes, David, Thad," he addressed.
"Hello, Blaine," Wes greeted. "Did you need something?"
Blaine nervously fixed his tie, telling the story in hushed tones and his plans to fix things. They nodded their acceptance. "Good luck," David whispered with a wink.
Blaine rolled his eyes good-naturedly, taking a seat across from Kurt who immediately lowered his eyes.
Wes banged his gavel, causing the room to fall into silence. "Attention Warblers!" he called.
Thad spoke up, "Before our regular rehearsal today, we have a special performance from Junior member, Blaine Anderson." The Warblers clapped politely, aside from Kurt who finally raised his eyes which were now full of shock.
Blaine stood in front of the group, clearing his throat before diving into the speech he had practised one thousand times. "Kurt, I'm so sorry about what happened between us. I didn't mean to hurt you. I know that this is a... hot topic for you and I should have respected that. I'm so sorry and I hope you'll forgive me... This is my olive branch," Blaine took a deep breath and launched into the song he had chosen.
"I heard a voice through the discord
Of a deluge of passersby.
I saw one gaze, frozen in time,
Watching me passing by,"
Despite the slightly odd ending to the song, Blaine had chosen it, choosing to ignore that part and cut it short. Aside from that, it was a beautiful song about religion and forgiveness and love; perfect for himself and Kurt at this moment.
"I swear I'll know your face in the crowd
And I'll hear your voice so loud
Even when you're whispering,"
Blaine's voice rang loud and true through the room. Unaware of the performance, the Warblers hadn't prepared an arrangement to back Blaine up. It was just Blaine, Underoath's words, and his voice.
"Hey unfaithful, I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungrateful, I will teach you
To forgive one another,"
Blaine walked closer to Kurt as he sang. Kurt blushed as he sang about the betrayal of kisses and 'lips of grace'.
"Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning,
Wrap your loving arms around me.
Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning,
Wrap your loving arms around me.
Hey unfaithful, I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungrateful, I will teach you
To forgive one another.
Hey unfaithful, I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungrateful, I will teach you
To forgive one another,"
A small smile spread across Blaine's face as he slowly stepped closer still to Kurt, crooning,
"Hey unloving,
I will love you.
I will love you.
I will love you,"
The room exploded with applause as Blaine let out a nervous laugh, looking into Kurt's eyes. We'll talk, he mouthed and rehearsal continued as per usual.
After practice, Kurt approached Blaine. "Coffee?" he asked breathlessly.
Blaine smiled and nodded, telling Kurt he would meet him there. For some reason, they never took the same car.
Blaine followed Kurt the entire way to the little cafe that they loved so much, parking right beside him. Blaine beat Kurt to the door, embellished with the Lima Bean logo, opening it for him in a grand gesture. Kurt chuckled lightly as he found their table, pulling Blaine's chair out for him to return the favour. Blaine laughed as he took a seat. "I'll get our order," Kurt said, taking a place in the short line.
Blaine took a moment to admire the boy from behind. He was visibly less upset with Blaine as he had been before; he was less tense, his features had softened and the bounce was back in his step. But there was still unfinished business to attend to – Blaine knew that – but they would talk it out, like they always did, and everything would be okay. This was just a minor bump in the road. They cared about each other too much to let a little - okay, a big - disagreement ruin their friendship.
Kurt promptly returned with two medium drips, handing one off. "Blaine Warbler, your medium drip," he offered with a sly grin.
"Rachel Berry, damn you and your adorable drunken nicknames," Blaine quipped, earning a laugh from Kurt.
They sat in silence for a moment, taking things in. They hadn't spoken in a few days, which was a big deal for them. Even when they were busy, they at least sent each other a quick Hey, how ya doin? text.
"I didn't think elephants were indigenous to Ohio coffee shops," Kurt spoke up.
"What?"
Kurt sighed, a smile threatening to break through. "The elephant in the room."
"Oh, right," Blaine clued in. "I really don't know what to say. I'm sorry, Kurt. I shouldn't have tried to push my opinion on you and I won't do it again. You're stubborn and I love that about you. You have your opinion and no one else can influence or change that. But as much as I can't change your opinion on this, you can't change mine either. I want to be able to talk about this and other things we disagree on, but I don't want to fight."
"I totally agree," Kurt voiced.
"Can we just agree to listen to each others opinions without trying to change each other?" Blaine asked.
"Deal."
Blaine let out the breath he didn't realize he was holding. "Good. So, do you want to hang out this Friday? Since last time didn't go so well."
"Sure," Kurt grinned, not even stopping to think if he had plans. They could be rescheduled. "My dorm, since your roommate is probably back by now."
"Sounds like a plan," Blaine grinned, checking his watch and realizing he had to call Jen soon. "Look, I've gotta get going but we'll talk later. I'll text you tonight. Alright?"
"Bye, Blaine."
"Bye, Kurt."
Blaine got back to his dorm in record time. 7:55pm. Perfect. He quickly drew himself a glass of water and threw on his pyjamas. Just as the shirt was over his head, his cell phone rang. "Hey, Jen," Blaine smiled.
"Hey, Buddy! How's it goin'?"
"Great. How's my niece or nephew?" Blaine asked.
"Great. We're going to the doctor tomorrow for the first ultrasound. Hear it's heartbeat and all that."
"Can't wait to hear about it," Blaine said sincerely.
"So how'd your date with Kurt go?" Jen winked.
Blaine felt himself begin to blush, although he knew his sister couldn't see him. "Um, not well actually."
He could practically hear her face fall. "What happened?"
"Well, um, his dad is a mechanic," Blaine began to explain. "But I didn't know that before, so I asked and he asked me if I liked cars and I just..." Blaine held back a small sob. "I thought of that day, in the driveway -"
"Shh," Jen cut him off. "It's okay. What did you do?"
"I bolted."
Silence. "Blaine, you can't keep running from your problems."
"I know."
"I know you know but... I want my son – your nephew – to be able to look up to his uncle for being so brave and courageous. I want him to see you – out and proud and brave..." Jen paused. "Look, I don't expect you to do it anytime soon, but... I think you should confront Dad."
Blaine choked on his water. "I can't," he managed.
"Yes, you can. Blaine, you're more courageous than you really know. I'm not going to spoon-feed you what you need to know; you need to go out there and find out for yourself. All I'm going to say is you can do this and that I believe in you."
"Thank you," Blaine rasped.
"Thank you."
"For what?"
"For being who you are."
Author's Notes:
Finally got this chapter out! I've been crazy busy with school and homework and friends. Then I got a job and I was gonna get this out earlier in the week but then I got terribly sick and just couldn't do it, but here it is! I'll really try to get this out more often cause I know how much I hate when people don't update often.
Also, does anyone know any really great betas to help with fodder and such? My beta is going through a bit of a rough time so I need a replacement.
And finally – THE FINALE! Oh my God! I freaked out! Like I'm sure all of you did. Just AHHHHHHHHH! This is not coherent at all... This is:
http:/ klaineisforeverstrong (dot) tumblr (dot) com / post / 5864086522 / my-thoughts-on-the-i-love-you
Yes, that's my tumblr.
Also, the song from earlier is Underoath's "Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape". I think Blaine could pull that off. Aside from the screamo part like I said before. It comes out of nowhere. O.o I was so weirded out when I first heard it.
Long author's note is long.
Bye! Love you! Please review!