After i got dressed i seen her lay there in her bed on her side i heard her crying a cry i haven't heard from her a cry of heartbreak i suddenly felt bad that told me i hated hurting her i walked toward the bed and leaned over to her "i'm kidding" i said softly she turned to look at me i kissed her tears away "you know i love you i always have and i always will" i said she began to cry on me "why are you crying?" i asked
"because i missed you so much and when you cursed me and said awful things to me it just hurt so bad we haven't talked in so long i just-" i kissed her softly "i'm sorry i didn't mean to" i said she looked at me touching my bottom lip with her dainty little finger "you changed raphael" she said with a soft hurtful tone i
kissed her little finger "i love you i love every inch of you" i said "i love you too but-" "but what?" i demanded " we are not allowed to love each other raph we went through this before" she said i felt my temper rise "i know we have i thought you would forget that by now lulu i want you back" i said with a fierce tone "after what you did to raph how can i trust you?" she said i looked at her for a moment "so you don't want to get
back together do you" "we can't raph we just can't" she cried i closed my eyes took a deep breath next thing i know i strike her again only this time i went full force after i had slapped her knocking her to the floor i got on top of her striking her fist after fist after fist i put my hands around her neck and began to tighten my grip i knew i wouldn't kill her i wanted her to suffer after i let go i grasped her hair once more and hit her
once more hard and strong i had left her unconscious i went to the basement to check on calypso after i had done so i touched up myself it was nearly nine o clock on my way to the party i thought about what i had done to lulu i tried to get myself to not feel so bad i shook my head and walked into a house that seemed
abit small maybe it was just me being used to my house alot of people was there everyone dancing drinking i looked around for leon i found him sitting on the sofa by himself "hey you made it how are you?" he asked "i could be alot better" i replied "we all could but hey that's life" he said with a wink the music was loud i seen alot of people there that had my style this one girl i had seem to like her hair was blond and big it
looked like the way naya had fixed her hair this girl had a bow on the right side of her hair her looks were fair nothing special decent i suppose she wore a black tutu a gray tank top striped long socks with black and white converse i couldn't make up my mind if i had liked her "go ask her name" leon had said abit loud i nodded i walked up to the girl with a smirk on my face seeing her widen her eyes after taking one look at
me i thought to myself i was a lady killer "hey you sexy" she said "hey me sexy" i replied with sarcasm after afew minutes of talking i had her wrapped around my finger i could get any girl that i wanted she had to leave early so i couldn't spend much time with her i went back to where leon had stayed "here try this" he handed me a drink the first time i had ever tried alcohol one after another i have had atleast twenty seven
drinks that night was my first time getting drunk after i got drunk me and leon soon got up to dance i wasn't much of a dancer but i loved the music they were playing it was just me and leon all the way through no one else had joined us my guess was no one liked leon so he came to this party knowing i would be here so he wouldn't be alone i didn't want any friends anymore but i somehow knew me and leon were bounded to be
brothers after we danced we got more drinks we sat down talking i told him about my life and how i got here he told me about his after hearing how horribly leon had suffered i took pity on him he reminded me so much of myself my mother had abandoned me his would beat on him i had no father he wished he had no father knowing leon was twenty four years old didn't bother at all the more i knew about him the closer i got to him leon stopped drinking i thought i should too after we sobered up leon had promised me he would take me home leon had explained that his corvette was the car he often used it was black on the inside and
out 2001 corvette i had dreamed of a car like that leon was a good driver his only problem he didn't know how to have fun with fast cars i explained to leon how to drive it for fun all he did was nod "thanks for party leon i enjoyed it" i said "no thank you rapheh for not leaving me alone" he said keeping his eyes on the
road "rapheh?" i asked laughing "yeah your my little bro now so i give you pet name" he said i nodded at that point i was very happy i met leon we arrived at my house as he pulled up to the front of the house we seen lulu outside smoking a cigarette "who is that?" leon asked i looked away for a moment "that's my sister" i mumbled "what's her name?" he asked "why don't you ask her" i said with a smirk and winked we
got out of the car and made our towards the door leon stopped to talk to lulu i stayed to hear what he had to say "i'm sorry for staring as i did your just so beautiful" leon said lulu blushed "thank you" leon eyed her up and down lulu wore butt shorts and a long sweater with ballet flats leon had on black baggy pants with chains on both sides a white shirt with a collar and a red tie i thought they would make a very odd couple
"what is your name beautiful" leon asked lulu shot a glance at me "lulu" she said "how wonderful i'm leon" lulu had giggled acting all cute and blushing flipping her hair i knew lulu had liked leon very much leon had notice the bruises on lulu's face but have not said anything through the door leon had seen the way joe had
looked at me "he doesn't look very friendly why don't you stay at my place tonight" leon offered i nodded i walked in to get my dog and came back outside lulu wanted to see my puppy so badly she had a strong love for animals but i didn't even look at her "well i guess we better be going" leon said to lulu "okay good night leon" she kissed him softly on his cheek "good night raph" she looked at me i said nothing i continued
to walk towards the car as we got in the car i had held calypso and started to pet him leon applying his seatbelt "what happen to that beautiful little thing" he asked i looked away "someone beat on her" i said in reply leon shook his head "who would hurt a little thing so beautiful as that" he said "a monster" i mumbled "thanks for letting me stay at your place leon" i said "no problem kiddo was that your brother i seen he
looks very mean" leon said "he's my step brother and he is mean he nearly killed me i rather talk about it another time i also have another brother and a younger sister she's only seven though" he nodded we were silent for afew moments "would you mind if i ask your sister lulu out?" he asked i felt my heart at my
throat "what? no go for it" i lied how would i accept the fact that my new best friend was about to ask lulu out then i thought why do i care she doesn't want me anyway maybe she'll be happy with leon i tried getting that thought out of my head by putting on some music we finally reached leon's house as we walked in i seen a woman making out with a young boy leon had quickly cover my eyes with his hand we walked
into his room leon had fixed him a bed on the floor letting me sleep in his bed for tonight i thanked him we stayed up late talking about everything i told him everything that had happen to me i suddenly felt a urge to cry i began to cry leon watching me suddenly i screamed so loud i went in panic mode i couldn't stop screaming my hands against my head screaming as loud as i could crying screaming could not stop leon
rushed to hold me holding my head trying to calm me down it wasn't doing him any good he open a bag he opened my mouth and shoved a pill down my throat i gasped for air calming down some afew minutes later i had calmed down "you had a mental break down didn't you" he asked i didn't know what he meant "i get those sometimes do you take any medicine" he shook my head 'you have major depression raphael you
need to be on medication for it" he demanded "what?" i asked "i will take you to the doctor tomorrow they will help you alot what i had given you was a relaxer it calms you down from any mood swings" he said leon had explained to me that i may have a mental problem and symptoms i will experience i soon fell asleep afew hours later i had awaken in the middle of the night with the same attack leon once again had given me that same pill the next morning leon had taken me to his doctor the doctor said i needed to be on three
types of medicine one for depression one for sleep and one to relax me if i had ever gotten one of those horrible attacks i had a feeling that wasn't the last time i would have attacks like that i thanked leon for everything he was a good man that night leon had taken me home lulu rushed to us "where was you i was so worried" she cried i said nothing "don't worry beautiful he was in good hands" leon said proudly "lulu will you go out with me" leon asked lulu had blushed a thousand times as she answered him yes leon and lulu
had gone out for the night i stayed home thinking what to do now that i have serious issues suddenly i heard someone coming down the stairs there was no light to see who it was the next thing i know i was hit in the face i knew it had to be joe i panicked joe had pushed me up against the wall his fists at my face and body i suddenly broke free of his lock i tried to run for my life he then grabbed me by the hair so hard i
screamed so loud and fell backwards my hair still in his hand i suddenly felt his fist slammed so hard against my back buried his fist in my back it was as if a spear had went through me i screamed my lungs out of the pain he had a stronger grip on my hair pushed me against the wall and placed a gun directly to my forehead my eyes had widen my jaw dropped i knew for sure i was going to die teasing me with the gun against my
head i couldn't breathe my heart was exploding out of my chest suddenly i heard nancy calling joe's name he let go of me and put the gun away as he walked up the stairs he turn to look at me "you an angel was at your side today" he said as he continued my back to the wall i slowly had slid down the wall my hands against my head my face stood the same i had went into a mental shock