I stood there panicking fear had taken over me of all the times i wanted to die it was now
after all i had been through it wasn't enough someone somewhere had wanted me to suffer more
i felt my life wasting away why was this happening to me was this how i would die? is this
how it would end? would i ever see lulu again before i die? i layed there waiting to die
i closed my eyes and waited i stayed awake for four hours nothing all i felt was extreme pain
and suffering i heard a noise but i could not get up to see what it was i continued laying
there until i heard joe's voice "raphael my sweet sweet little brother" he said coming towards me
my eyes widen with fear it was hard to breathe the tears were like a water fall i thought for
a moment why was i so afraid to die? it has been what i wanted for so long why was i so scared?
it was because this is not how i wanted to die i did not want to be murdered especially by joe
joe was inches from me he then kicked my rib cage followed by spiting on me i had screamed
in pain the pain was unbearable he had picked up a hammer and bashed my knee i screamed hysterically
i could not stop screaming crying i wanted him to kill me to end my suffering he had to kneel down
at my face "how does that feel it feels good doesn't it" he whispered i continued with my screams
and cries "i don't see how my sister could ever love a disgusting thing like you
i don't see how anyone could love a thing like you your mother was smart by getting rid of you"
he said i had been stunned by those words i couldn't take any of his torment any longer
"just kill me i can't take it anymore kill me now" i barely spoke joe had a gun aimed to my head
this was it this was going to be the end of me "i like your hair" he said running the gun through
my hair slowly "i'm not going to kill you just yet seeing you suffer amuses me" he said bitterly
he had grabbed the hammer again aimed it at my head to get the perfect head shot no this is not
how i wanted to die he began raising the hammer it was coming down inches from my head i had enough
strength to move then quickly i rise to run my knee had been badly damaged but that wasn't going to
keep me down i had run up the stairs everything was dark it had been storming i called for help
everyone's name no one was home as i was running for the front door a gun shot had fired i knew
if i tried getting out that front door i would have been shot i ran around the corner and hided behind
the wall everything was so dark the only light i had was the thunder storms my back against the wall
trembling like i have never trembled before i slowly turned trembling to see if joe was in site
nothing turned to the other side nothing i suddenly heard another gun shot
"i'm going emo hunting tonight" he yelled with excitement i couldn't move my body had given up
i was done suddenly i heard the front door open "what the hell is going on here?" lulu said lulu! i thought she could save me!
joe quickly covered her mouth not knowing she had gone out on a date i suddenly heard a gun click i turned to see what had went on
it was leon with a double barrel shot gun aimed at joe's head "let her go" leon said joe pushed lulu on the floor to leon's feet
"drop the gun" leon demanded joe placed the pistol on the ground "where's the kid" leon asked with a fierce tone
"she is with my mother" joe replied "not the little girl raphael" leon said i walked out from behind "i'm here" i said
with exhaustion lulu had gasped so loud it frighten me abit lulu rushed to me holding me then quickly shot a glance at joe
"why did you do this to him you monster!" she shouted joe had run up to his room lulu and leon helping me into the car we soon
drove to the emergency room doctors took me right away i had over fifty stitches my knee had been badly damaged along with my spine
i needed oxygen three hours at the emergency leon and lulu had stayed with me in the room i had quickly fallen asleep from
exhaustion leon and lulu had stayed over night with me at the hospital i wished they had not i felt bad knowing they wouldn't leave
my side "leon why don't you home and get some rest" lulu suggested "i am not leaving my little brother and you here alone what i want to know is
what the hell happen and why is your brother is so psycho" leon said lulu looked down for a moment "joe has done something similar with my cousin
i need to keep joe away from raphael it's all my fault" she started to cry leon quickly held her in his arms i had awaken to see leon had my whole
world my everything in his arms i pretended to be asleep to hear what they were saying "don't cry it's not your fault raphael will get better i will
keep him with me from now on i would like you and him to stay with me for afew weeks if that's okay" he said
lulu looked up at him and had stopped crying "that's so nice of you i would like that very much i'm sure raph would too" she said lulu
suddenly had gotten cold leon attempt to take off his jacket to place on her but lulu had stopped him she cuddled up to him so close that he would
be able to zip up his jacket with her inside as well in the emergency room was the place were they had first kissed tears soon began to fill my eyes
it wasn't long before they had fallen asleep the next morning i felt a little better but still full with fear lulu had gone home to freshen up
and promised she would be back leon stayed with me until lulu had returned i looked at leon for a moment and thought he was a good friend if it wasn't
for him me and lulu would be dead by joe by now he asked if i wanted something or how i was feeling made small conversions i told him what happen with joe
he wanted to go kill him right there and then i told him not to because of lulu i would had loved leon to kill joe after that things were quiet for a moment
there was something i had to ask him but i didn't know if i should "you really like her don't you" i asked with exhaustion "yes i do very much i only hope she likes me"
he said with a smile "doesn't the age difference bother you at all?" i asked "not one bit i have told her for you and her to stay with me for afew weeks to let you heal
and for me and lulu to get to know each other better" he said i nodded i couldn't stand the thought of lulu being with leon or anyone for that matter she was mine she belong
to me i thought selfishly if i really loved lulu i would want her to be happy even if it wasn't with me "ask her to be your girlfriend leon" i mumbled leon looked surprised for
a moment "really bro? your right i will she stole my heart away bro" he said i nodded afew weeks went by and it was time for me and lulu to go home when we pulled up to the house
i began to panic thinking joe would do what he did last time as soon as me and lulu walked in joe had rushed to hug both of us i thought maybe this wasn't so bad we chat for afew moments i started to relax
lulu had went to her room to rest now that me and joe were alone i wanted to ask him why had he done such a horrible thing to me to not make any trouble i kept my mouth shut
no more then a minute later joe had slammed me up against the wall i panicked his hands were against the wall my eyes widen hard to breathe i wanted to cry for help but i couldn't
suddenly joe's hand started exploring my lower body his hand on my thigh moving all around touching my waist up to my rib cage up and down he then started to rub me slowly my head turned
against the wall crying heavy "you like when your touched don't you" he whispered in my ear "please stop i'm begging you" i said in a soft cry "i bet your mother would love to suck on you" he said as he stopped
and walked away i stayed up against the wall crying hysterically until lulu had found me she rushed to hold me "did he do something to you again" she asked my head against her breast crying i couldn't speak
i soon let out a piercing scream loud and shrill my arms around lulu my head against her i held on to her as if were holding on to my life lulu had began to pet me kissing my head rubbing my
shoulders keeping me calm crying screaming romeo had walked in to see what was all the screaming about lulu had told him to get my medicine romeo rushed for my medicine he passed joe shot him a look
of hate knowing he was the one that put me in a mental breakdown romeo had come and had given lulu what she asked lulu quickly placed the medicine in my mouth she had rose romeo helping me my grasp still on lulu
we walked to her room and then placed on her bed she stayed with me held me as if she would never let go she layed down holding me my head against her chest my arms wrapped around her our knees touched
lulu began petting me again kissing my head repeatedly "keep him calm lu i will be back in abit to check on him" romeo said as he walked out to search for joe when romeo had crossed paths with joe romeo
pined joe against the wall hitting him over and over and over he suddenly stopped to slam him against the wall "what did you do to him!" romeo yelled
"just had a little fun with him is all" joe said with a small smirk romeo hit him once more "he's just a kid! how could you be so psychotic joe!" romeo threw joe aside then brought up
a hot cup of tea for me i was fast asleep when romeo had arrived "how is he"romeo asked lulu petting me softly and placed a small kiss on my head "he's okay for now he's going to sleep
with me i want to make sure he's okay then i want to move him into a room romeo" lulu said in reply romeo looking at me for a brief moment "alright just don't tell mom and dad or they'll throw him out" lulu nodded
that night i had slept with lulu cuddling up to her holding her just as i would hold my mother lulu had given me a motherly touch motherly kisses a mother's love something i had longed for
i felt content that night i felt i had a mother to love me