As me and devon walked back home he seem to notice something about me "you have very long legs raph" he said i looked at him for a brief moment "you remind me of a clydesdale horse when you walk i happen to like the clydesdale clump" he said with a small laugh i had nothing to say we continued walking "you would be great for kicking how would you feel if i trained you in martial arts raph" it caught my attention but i

thought maybe i shouldn't mess with this guy i better keep my distance "i'll think about it" i said we made our way home devon found lulu outside smoking a cigarette lulu was surprise to see me with him devon quickly rushed to lulu as i stood there and watched "lulu baby i'm so so sorry" devon said giving lulu flowers devon

continued his apology i was abit upset to find lulu accepting it they hugged and kissed for a long moment i made my way into the house ever since that day i found myself spending more time with devon i decided to allow him to teach me martial arts lulu thought it would be a good way for us to get to know each other a

little better devon was impressed on how quick i catch on devon has taught me moves mostly involving kicking devon knew it would be my best defense me and devon had developed a unusual relationship we were friends then enemies back to friends then enemies i couldn't understand why i liked devon at the same time i hated him for taking what was mine i taught myself to block out that alot and only focus on our

friendship there was something about devon that i trusted i began to find him more and more like me every day and every day he would bring me a happy meal and always forgot the toy we spent nights over we would laugh and joke about almost everything of course i had the talk with him if he ever hurt lulu he would

get a good ass kicking from me he promised and stood true to his word t made me happy to see lulu happy with him but on the inside it killed me it destroyed every bit of me i couldn't tell her that i would only seem selfish as long she was happy i was happy atleast tried to be anyway every time lulu would tell devon she loved him i felt pieces of me would tear away watching them hold each other kiss each other do things

together would tear me apart my heart would ache now and down because of seeing that each night i would cry my tears would become thicker and thicker and thicker i was concern as to why my tears were different i spoke to leon about it he said those are tears of a heartbreak leon was very concern about me as to why i would cry more then i should i had told him my feelings for lulu he had questioned me of alot of things if we

had sex more then twenty one times if she ever loved me what happen to our relationship after answering leon's questions i have had another mental breakdown i couldn't understand why i would have mental breakdowns nor did i care one day devon came over when we walked in he found me crying i quickly wipe the tears from my eyes devon grabbed my hand from my face "why are you crying" he asked with concern i

walked away heading for the door he grabbed my shoulder "don't walk away from me" he said his tone a little higher then normal "you wouldn't understand" i said my voice cracking "i will try" devon said i looked at him for a brief moment my eyes filled with tears "there is no trying you either do it or you don't" i said as i

walked out the door devon followed "alright i will understand just tell me what's wrong" he asked "can i trust you" i said as we walked down the sidewalk "of course your secret is safe with me" devon said as he nodded i took of my shirt to show devon all the scars and beat marks i had around my back and chest devon slowly touched the scar on back "what happen to you..." he asked with a sad tone "you mean what hasn't

happened to me" i said devon's eyes soon were filled with tears i explained to him about the horrors i been through in life how my mother abandoned me what the word pain truly means something i knew he was hiding had come out devon had explained he share of pain how he went through the school life of horror understanding the feeling of betrayal back stabbed used hurt disappointed now i know why devon had seem

so heartless towards me me and devon were the world of difference and exactly the same we hugged each other and cried until our eyes bled devon had become my long lost brother i had become the little brother he always wanted every laugh every cry every fight every moment we shared had brought us closer and closer

and closer devon had truly become my brother but i wondered if we were close enough to tell him my feelings for lulu one night devon had come over to take me and lulu out for dinner as i walked downstairs i found devon kissing lulu waiting for me they didn't notice me standing right by them i felt hot tears steaming down my check as i stood there and watched devon had open his eyes to see me "oops sorry bro" he said

with a laugh lulu looked at me with sadness devon had notice the looks me and lulu exchanged they were looks that spoke louder then words i wiped the tears from my eyes as we continued our way we drove in silents devon knew there was something suspicious going on between me and lulu as we walked in a very nice and elegant restaurant we sat down it wasn't long before we ordered dinner devon and lulu had

decided to share dinner i ordered the right side of the menu devon had laughed hysterically at how much i could eat devon sat next to lulu i on the other side of the table my face was down most of the time during dinner lulu had seen how upset i was she decided to sit next to me my face brighten and smiled for the very first time in a long time devon didn't like the idea he knew there was something that was not right about this

situation me and lulu had laughed made jokes our eyes had not left each others i felt alive again oh how i missed when we would do this i felt life had come rushing back in me my heart and did flips how happy and alive i felt knowing lulu had paid attention to me the way she once did i had a feeling lulu had still loved me the way she acted tonight she looked so beautiful in her pink strapless light pink flowing dress five inches

above her knee her hair dancing and kissing her face her pink high heels she was just amazing oh how i wanted to kiss her how i wanted to hold her how i wanted to love her as i once did when our food had come i had made a mess of myself eating devon and lulu had eaten like perfect little people they stared at me for a moment i stopped chewing my food suddenly devon had broke out with laughter lulu had decided to eat like

a beast with me i laughed so hard thinking how could such a beautiful little thing eat like that devon had caught the look in our eyes as we looked directly in each others eyes a small smirk had come to my lips a lulu had on a pretty smile it the urge of kissing was so strong i know i couldn't i went back to eating after we finished dinner me and devon had stepped outside to smoke a cigarette while lulu was talking on the mobile

phone me and devon were silent for a moment "what's going on here raph" devon said "well we finished dinner and we are outside smoking then-" "i was talking about you and lulu i seen the way you look at her" devon said in a strong tone "it was nothing don't worry about it-" "don't lie to me raph" devon said i looked down for a moment i knew was now or never he had to know what had me and lulu shared.