I cleared my throat and straighten my shoulders i began explaining to devon how me and lulu met and how we fell in love and how i still love her. Devon shook his head i felt his anger swell "i'm sure she doesn't love you anymore like that just as a brother nothing more" he explained i covered my ears not wanting to hear those words and shook my head repeating the words "your wrong" devon had pushed my last button my

anger drove me to grab him by his collar his hands on mine warning me to to strike or he would beat me badly as he once did "you took her from me!" i yelled "she doesn't love you like that!" he yelled back our words had led us to fighting devon on top of me ready to strike "don't make me hurt you raph don't push

me!" he yelled i looked at him for a brief moment "go ahead it doesn't matter anyway.." i said my voice cracking devon had calmed his temper rising helping me up "i hate you" i said as i walked away my tears followed i have decided to walk home to think for a little when i returned home i went straight to my room to shut the world out four months have passed since that night nothing has changed lulu was with

devon she loved him and he loved her where would i stand my reason to live had been taken from me killing myself wouldn't change a thing i was meant to suffer i have accepted to suffer all my life since that day i continued working at my job kept to myself i felt my life wasting away one day i had decided to meet with naya when i arrived at her house to take her for lunch she had immediately suspect i was not the same i had

changed in a very depressed way "hm sit down raphael" naya said as pat her hand against the sofa she was sitting on i sat down slowly by her "what happen to you your look like your dying" she muttered i had no reply my eyes glaring at the ground "raphael look at me when i'm talking to you" she demanded i did was in my own world i have not looked at her when she asked i did not have anything to say or do i kept to myself naya knew things were extremely bad she had never seen me this depressed she was worried "it's lulu isn't

it" she said with a sad tone i nodded tears began to fill her eyes "i can't stand seeing you like this raphael" she cried i continued glaring at the ground there was nothing i could say to her i knew naya had a special love for me but it was more friendly then romantic naya continued to cry she got up from the sofa to get a napkin to wipe her tears when she returned she had a stern look in her eyes "if you want her so badly then

go get her" she said my eyes still fixed on the ground "there's nothing i can do she doesn't love me the she once did anymore" i said with a sad tone "your wrong" naya said that caught my attention "what?" i asked "she still loves you very much raphael" she said in reply "how do y-" "ask her to marry you that is if you truly love her" marry? was i ready for marriage? no i was not but it was the only way to have her for myself if she

loved me the way naya said she did i rushed back home as fast as i could i'm going to ask her to marry me today! i was excited and nervous my stomach did flips all these emotions had cause me to vomit lulu was not home i became disappointed but that didn't stop me i waited all day in her room for her when she final came home i sat there in the dark waiting for her to turn the lights on as she did so she gasped "you scared me raph is something wrong?" she asked i got up from my seat walking towards her "we need to talk" i said as i

began walking back and fort "i need to know something right here and now lulu and don't lie to me i need to know where i stand" i demanded she nodded "do you or do you not love me" i asked she hesitated for my her answer "of course i do i never stopped but-" "i don't want to hear that! no more excuses lulu!" i yelled

continuing walking back and fort "what about everything we shared lulu all the laughs and cries the sex we had our love for each other all of that meant nothing to you!" i screamed her eyes began to be flooded with tears "of course it did raph! not one second goes by that i don't think of you your killing me everyday i look at you i day inside knowing i can never have you!" she cried "then why are you with him!" i fired back lulu had

wiped her eyes with the back of her little hand "because our love is forbidden raphael i would give anything to love you again" she cried i slowly walked up to her holding her as i once did i longed to hold her in my arms my heart began racing and pounding so hard so loud like it never has before i slowly placed her hand on my heart "this is the way you make me feel about you" i said losing my breath she grabbed my hand and

placed it on her heart it felt the same as mine she looked in my eyes with a small smile i placed my forehead against hers our eyes closed we both couldn't breath "marry me lulu" i whispered her eyes widen as she backed away i returned to her repeating those very words "marry me lulu marry me" our hands began to touch our fingers locked i slowly brought myself to kiss her gently and slowly after i had kissed i asked one

last time "marry me lulu" i asked "yes yes a thousand times yes" she said with tears and a wide smile i picked her up in my arms to kiss her i had spun with her in my arms of happiness the next day we went to shop for a dress and a tuxedo once we did we had told everyone we all went in church romeo walking lulu down the aisle dressed in a huge wedding dress it came off the shoulder covered in beads and crystals her

hair had been up in a bun her veil looked as if it were fit for a princess lulu looked so stunning people wanted her to model wedding gowns for them i stood there next to leon my best man in a black tuxedo my hair in my face i decided to wear my converse i didn't care for what i wore i just wanted to be married to the woman i love as romeo brought her we waited a long moment when the time came to place the ring on her finger i

had placed my grandmother's wedding ring that my mother had given to me before she left after we kissed we were now husband and wife and year later our son Xavier Sykes was born he had the color of my eyes and the hair color of lulu he truly was the most beautiful thing we made me and lulu had more then one child after five years we ended up with four and more to come me and xavier had taken a walk one fine afternoon

while my wife stayed home with the other children xavier was now five years old i held his hand as we walked down the street "daddy what was it like when you was my age?" xavier asked "i'll tell you someday son" i said in reply today is a very very special day today is the day my suffering came to an end today is my last walk