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Amber tried to call me two more times and I still didn't answer. I guess she gave up after that. I was pacing around my room sad that I hurt my friend's feelings and guilty about being so happy that Jacob liked me back. What was I supposed to do now?
I knew I had to talk to Amber sometime. I wasn't very good at avoiding people when there was something on my mind. I just had to think of what I would say before I confronted her. Lying wasn't an option, she saw the conversation.
I jumped out my window and started walking into the woods. It was only sprinkling and I didn't want be cooped up in my room all day. How could I have been so stupid? Best friends aren't supposed to like the same guy. Someone always gets hurt in the end; I learned that from a story my mom told me about two guys that liked the same girl. She has a really good imagination.
I sighed loudly as I sat down on a fallen tree. I guess I could tell Amber that I won't date Jake. That seemed to be the best option, though it would be bad for me. Oh well, I suppose I deserved this. I got up off the tree and started walking again. This time faster, I couldn't think of any other options and it was making me anxious.
I kept walking until I heard a twig snap in the distance. I could smell a human scent in the air. I knew that scent. Amber. Why was she in the woods?
I looked to my left and saw the back of a house about forty yards away. I guess I walked a pretty good distance.
"Amber?"
"Nessie? Is that you?" I heard her sniffle. Great.
"Yeah" She walked through a small opening between two bushes and looked at me.
"Can I help you?"
"I just came to… to talk to you."
"Did you walk all the way too my house?"
"Umm, yeah."
"It's like five miles!"
"Well I needed to talk to you," I lied. "Why are you in the woods?"
"My house is like right there. Why do you care anyways?" She folded her arms across her chest.
"I don't know." She glared at me. "Look, I'm sorry. I don't know why I told him that."
"That's a good excuse."
"What do you want me to do?"
"What were you planning on doing?"
"Not dating him." I said quietly.
"Hmmm…." She looked down. I remained silent, trying to hide the let down on my face. "Thanks Nessie."
"You're not mad?"
"Well he doesn't like me, but I can fix that."
"Oh." I frowned.
"Are you mad at me?"
"No." I wasn't very good at lying.
"Are you sure?"
No! "Yes. I have to get home to dinner okay? Good luck with Jake."
"Do you need a ride?"
"No, I need the exercise."
"Umm… okay." I turned around and started walking back. "Nessie wait!"
"Yes?" I said through my teeth without turning around.
"You're a good friend." That shocked me.
"Umm, thanks Amber. See you later."
"Bye." I heard her walk away.
I can't believe she wasn't going to give up on him. Not that I doubted he could like her, but because he didn't like her back… yet.
***
I sat in my room later that night unable to get to sleep. I stared at the ceiling, tossing my phone up in the air and catching it. I wish one of my family members could potentially erase memory or something. I didn't want to think about today. Some first day of summer.
Sometime around four in the morning I finally got tired enough to go to sleep. I dropped my phone on the floor, rolled over, and closed my eyes.
* * *
The next three days I ignored my phone messages and avoided facebook. I think this is the longest time I have ever been away from Jacob.
I occupied my time by becoming Alice's new shopping partner. I wasn't a big fan of shopping, but I didn't hate it as much as my mom did. I mostly just helped Alice pick things out for herself; I didn't need any new clothes, no matter how many times she insisted. I just had to keep showing her images of my packed closet.
* * *
"Nessie wake up!" I sat up in my bed and looked at the excited face staring down at me.
"What Alice?"
"We're going shopping!"
"This is the fourth day in a row!"
"There's no such thing as too much shopping!"
"Is there such thing as too many bills?"
"Ugh, your just like your father."
"What?"
"Never mind! Just come on!"
"I think I'll pass." She made the puppy dogface.
"Really?"
"Yes, but you have fun."
"Fine!" She stormed away.
I rolled my eyes and got out of bed and stretched. I put on jeans and a t-shirt and headed to the other house to see what everyone else was doing.
"Hey Nessie!" Esme said as I walked through the door. She hugged me, "Do you want some breakfast?"
"Um, sure." I normally didn't eat much human food except for ice cream but her cooking was outstanding.
She placed a hot plate of eggs and bacon in front of me after only a few minutes. "Thanks" I said taking a bite.
"So Nessie, what's going on with you and Jacob lately?" She said sitting down next to me. Oh great now she's in on it.
"Oh, nothing."
"Well he's called you everyday but you've been out with Alice."
"Oh, yeah. Well nothings really going on, I just wanted to spend time with Alice."
"Oh, okay." She said suspiciously. She probably wasn't buying any of it. I took another bite as Uncle Emmett walked in.
"Nessie the doggy is on the phone for you." I couldn't avoid my problems forever. I rolled my eyes and took the phone from Emmett with shaky hands.
"Thanks Uncle Emmett."
"Ew you smell like human food."
I sighed and walked into the front room and sat on the couch. "Jake?"
"Nessie!"
"Hi."
"How are you?"
"Um.. Fine I guess…"
"Do you want to maybe hang out today?"
"Jacob I have to tell you something."
"Okay shoot."
"When I told you I liked you… I don't think I'm… ready for a boyfriend yet." He couldn't see my face so maybe he would believe my lie.
"Oh." Then comes the awkward silence. Finally he said, "Well we can hang out anyways, as friends?"
"Really?"
"Yeah, of course. I can still be your friend can't I?"
"Of course." Well at least our relationship as friends wasn't over.
"Want to come over to my place?"
"Sure" I smiled.
"See you then."
"Kay." I hung up. He sounded actually happy. For someone who just got rejected he was pretty cheerful… I hope I didn't hurt his feelings or anything…
***
I stood on his porch, my hair dripping from the rain. I don't know what I had against taking cars these days. Technically I'm underage but I've known how to drive since I was two.
"Hey Nessie." He said opening the door for me.
"Hey"
"You're wet."
"Um, nice observation, Jake." I smiled and walked into the house.
"No, I mean like I could have picked you up or something."
"Nah, it's cool I like the rain." He smiled, which unfortunately made my heart flutter. He led the way into his small living room and plopped down on the couch. I followed him and sat on the floor, for some reason I thought the floor was more comfortable then most furniture.
"Do you want to play game shows?"
"Yeah!" Sometimes when we hung out we watched game shows and tried to answer the questions before the other people and see how much money we'd win. It sounds boring but it was actually quite fun.
After about two hours of sitting there laughing and screaming to the T.V. things like "Thirty six!" and "Abraham Lincoln!" we couldn't find any other games shows to make fun of so we settled on watching a scary movie about vampires.
"Will this scare you Nessie?" He teased.
"Oh, yes. I'm definitely afraid of vampires Jake."
I was really glad things weren't so awkward as I predicted. It was just like any other Saturday.
I was actually getting into the movie, though it didn't scare me at all. It was funny how Hollywood thought vampires acted. It was just at the predictable scene where the girl decides to take a shower randomly and the vampire is of course waiting to kill her in some closet, when I heard a loud noise come from behind me. I turned around to find Jacob sleeping. I guess the movie didn't hold as much interest for him as it did for me.
I looked at the calm expression on his face. He looked so cute when he's asleep… Gah! What am I thinking?
I turned round to the T.V. and tried to watch the movie. Suddenly it wasn't so interesting anymore. I slowly turned back around to Jacob and looked at his peaceful face. Then I did something that I knew I shouldn't do. I placed my hand on his cheek and showed him a picture of he and I walking along the beach.
"Nessie." He murmured. Hmm I never knew he talked in his sleep… wait did he just say MY name? I decided not to listen to my brain that was screaming: Amber! Remember what you told her? So I showed him another picture of when he took me with him to a bonfire with the pack this past spring. He smiled in his sleep and my heart picked up it's pace again. I smiled.
After I minute or five I removed my hand slowly and turned around. He's supposed to be falling for Amber. Not me. I sighed and once again made a failed attempt to watch the movie. I wonder what Jacob is dreaming about. Hopefully Amber… ugh this lying to myself wasn't doing me a bit of good.
I turned around again and showed him the picture of him climbing through my window.
He said something like, "Ness" and I smiled again. I hope he never found out about this. I took my hand away and sat there for a long time.
I didn't know what time it was but I decided I should probably head home. I slowly started to get to my feet. I didn't realize that one of my feet were asleep so I accidentally stumbled back down. This time I was closer to his face. My heart was fluttering again and that's when I did something I had no excuse for. I leaned forward and quickly kissed him on the lips.
His eyes opened slowly and stared at me with a confused expression. I got so scared I jumped backward and tried to get to my feet with shaky legs.
"Oh god… I- I'm-um-I just-"
"Nessie-" He started to get up.
"I'm so sorry. I have to go." Great I was on the verge of tears and this was my fault. How could I have been such an idiot? I ran to the door and fumbled with the lock. I felt his hand gently grab my arm.
"Nessie don't go." He said quietly. I couldn't even speak. I finally got the lock undone and dashed out the door where I ran into the woods as fast as could.
Why did I just do that? The only thing that was going through my mind was the words "Horrible friend."