I know I haven't updated In like ages…and im so sorry..i was caught up in life , anyways this is a recap from chap 4&5 and following after is chap 6! So read and hope you'll enjoy it!
Previously on chap 4:
I really need Rilz to give me an advice he's advises were like the grandmother I never had, seriously he was like a boy friend/fortune cookie! Oh god what a good times we had…..everything was great, in place like it should have been, like a real fairy-tale, I almost had my happily ever after but I should have known it wouldn't last that long…that every good thing has an ending, that after a fan-fucking-tastic 17 years of life something would happen to change it all or ruin it to be exact ,but of course aside from Rilez leaving, that's the 1st worse thing that had ever happened to me, if he hadn't left none of this would have happened in the first place, not that I blame him for anything, just like my old English teacher always said: our actions set things in motion, and what I did made my life hell cause of it! The 2nd thing that I did to screw my life was…well I let loose you know? When Rilz had to leave, my world came crashing down, I lost myself, I felt empty or maybe its better to say broken, like the other half of me was gone and when Edward left…well everything came crashing down and it destroyed me….again, well as I was saying I let loose and started to sleep with every one of Rilz friends or better yet stranger in bars, and yes I have an fake id! Who doesn't? and then…um things got out of control… I was the head cheerleader but some jack-ass that wanted to screw up my life even worse dosed my water with some kind of an drug and well I fell down from our "human pyramid" as our couch put it .and I shattered every bone in my left leg as that creepy nurse joked about. She joked! I broke my leg in 2 different places and she was joking about it! Can you believe it! I just wanted to slap her and sew her lips together! And well that's what changed my life completely, not the leg or being disqualified from the team but that phony DOCTOR, every time I think about it I wanna throw up! Ewwww (shudders).
Previously on chap 5:
-alice…could you search again and draw his face? I wanna make sure… to see if its him, who knows maybe it's a coincidence?
I hope it's a coincidence, right now the thought of him running away with a hot-chick seems pretty good to be true..
-sure bells gimmie a pen and a paper and I'll get to work!
Alice said in her normal cheery voice
-I really appreciate it
-bells were family, I'll do anything for u!
I smiled at her and wondering how would they all react if they found out about my past and how I lied to them..
-coming up!
I went to my desk and grabbed what she needed
-here..
I gave them to her and she instantly zoned out and her hand was going crazy on the paper, she was drawing so fast that I couldn't see her hand move, as seconds passed real slowly alice snapped back into her normal-spikey self and handed me the paper.
His face wasn't clear but the features was just like him…..the hair, eyes, face structure but something didn't feel right, deep down I knew it wasn't him but still I could be wrong, all the evidence is shouting its riley but I just….i….i don't want it to be riley, I want to feel his warmth and smell his unique scent when I hug him, when he holds me in his arms telling me everything is ok, when it isn't and I instantly do come down, that was one of the hundreds of effects he had or I could say im pretty sure he still has On me
-bella?
Alice shook me lightly, trying to catch my attention.
-hmmm..?
I looked up at her trying to hide the tears that were about to run down my cheek like a hot streaming river
-is it him? Is it riley?
-i….im not sure, he does look like him but…I have this feeling….i mean I know every inch of his face, this cant be him…or maybe my brain is making me believe its not him from denial…I just…I don't want it to be him!
My voice was shaking slightly at the end
-bella….
Alice put an comforting hand on my shoulder and drew me for a hug
-don't worry we will find out soon enough…if that makes u feel better..
Make me feel better? Seriously? I ignored what she said
-how long?
She knew exactly what I was talking about so she replied me instantly
-2 months
Wow, that's soon for her? Again maybe if I was a vamp I would have felt the same….but right now, I just wanted to find riley and make sure hes okay….being a vampire and eternity with Edward does not trump seeing riley even for a second.
Chapter 6:
Beep beep beep beeeeeeeeepppppp…
Jesus! Stupid alarm! Groaning I got up to shut the stupid thing of, I mean this is the first day of spring break , I was hoping to get a little sleep not all of us can go on forever without it! I mean srsly hanging out with vampires can be a little distressing anyways the next 2 weeks are suppose to be FUN! But like that's ever gonna happen here with Edward…maybe I could just go to phoenix for a few days see my mom visit some friends…but again Edward would want to come as well and I cant have him reading my friends minds specifically Collin's that knows what I did, my darkest secret. The main reason that I moved here to forks, even though just thinking about what I did should make me sick, guilty and disgusted with myself I feel justified , I feel like I have done the right thing and well that's what matters right? At least that's what Collin used to say "what matters is is how you feel about your actions" Blair (aka my best friend back home) always teased him that he sounded so gay and I would always back her up and blabber off about how in style he is but if you ask me now I would say he definitely is not gay.
Bzzzzzz…. I jumped and banged my head on the open window door and cursed while searching for the source of the vibration, AHAH! Found it!
-ello!
-belzi, baby…how u doin' in such a fine day?
-cursing the one behind the buzzing off my phone and causing to hit my head on the windo…..
-in a bad mood arnt we?
-shut up em…I didn't get enough sleep
-I can tell! Jeez! I just called to tell u that im taking you out for the day.
-um why? Did alice and Edward finally get their final deaths?
-nooooP but they were both bickering about who would take u out for the day and when I volunteered to give u a taste of an Emmett-filled day esme actually backed me up and well guess who won?
-well what if I refuse to go out anywhere?
-then I would come over and do something u want.
-really? anything I want?
-sure, ur the human bells….i've done it all now its your whatever time of life do what u want im not as uptight as eddie boy here, I actually want u to live ur life…
A growl from the there side the line made Emmett stop talking, I guess Edward doesn't like to be called "uptight"
-ok then be here around 10, that gives me an hour to shower and stuff….and Emmett?
-yup?
-make sure no ones following you specially those 2 evol vones(Romanian accent)
I tried to whisper so Edward wouldn't hear me but I failed miserably , Edwards voice filled out emmetts protests in the back ground to get the phone back
-bella u don't have to spend the day with Emmett you know? I can come over and….
-oh hush im still mad at u! now tell em im waiting, ciao!
I hung up the phone and jumped in the shower
*an hour later*
After showering I went to the kitchen and made myself some pop tarts and after filling my growling stomach with them and washing the dishes I went into my room to find Emmett snooping in my closet.
-heeeeeyyyyyy! No snooping mr!
Emmett suddenly turned around startled to see me standing there and I noticed my ipod plugin in his ears in the loudest volume, that explains why he didn't notice me come in
-you know snooping in a girls closet is not okay
-why?
-emmett, honey the closet is the window to a girls soul
-isnt that suppose to be "the eyes are the window to the soul"?
-anything can be a window to someone's soul for me its my closet and well for others its their eyes or mouth…I don't really care…
-cool, whats my window to my soul?
-well….um…coming to think of it I really dont know you that well but….um….well.. ur into cars,right? Maybe its ur car! Ur car is the window to ur soul!
I smiled at him trying to picture his car being a window to his soul I really didn't know even how to imagine such thing it was so random
-Bee! im hurt what do u mean you don't know me that well?
My heart stopped for an instant he called me Bee that's what riley used to call me when we were kids and when I asked him why he said it was because I always buzzed around like a queen bee and handled everything and everyone , but me being a 9 year old kid I really didn't get what he meant…
-bella?
Emmett whispered and took a step closer now he was directly in front of me
-whats wrong bella?
I continued to stare at the ground and take a moment to make my voice sound normal I finally looked at him
-nothing just zoned out there a bit…heheheh
-belz I don't want you to take this the wrong way but you seem…different..im not saying its bad but on the contrary I like it, maybe edward not so much but you really seem different,whats up with you?
I just looked at him a part of me wanted to tell him, I always liked Emmett a lot he seemed like a person you could count on, but still I LEFT THAT LIFE BEHIND! I cant go back to that..i cant, that's why I was on that medication in the first place, to try and calm down and let go and forget about it all, and come to think of it my pills just ran out about 2 weeks ago in the time all that victoria craziness started and well I guess its wearing off now my true self is surfacing….do I want them to know how I was before I moved here? Probably not, I don't think it would be good I don't want them to judge me for all I did….
I looked away and started to play with the edge of my tank top
-nothing…I just miss some friends back in Arizona…
Well at least im not lying…I really do miss everyone
-then why don't u go and visit u have 2 whole weeks to do whatever you want to do…plus you'll be far away from our little friend Vickie
-that sounds very good but… I don't want Edward hovering over my head every second..
-I can come with you
I looked at him questioningly
-well you've been acting strange and your dissing Edward every chance you get so I think getting out of forks can be good for u, a change of scenery! But if u don't wanna go with me theres always alice…
-no no no…I want you!
-as much as im flattered that you want me bella but im taken already
-you know what I mean! Geez! Anyways so were really going to Arizona?
-if you want to!
-HELL YEAH!
Now no one can get in their minds and I get to spend some time with em,this should be nice!
SO WHAT DO YOU THINK? I KNOW THIS CHAP WASNT THE BEST. BUT IT HAD BEEN TOO LONG AND IM IN THE MIDDLE OF EXAMS AND WELL….I HONESTLY DIDN'T PUT ENOUGH ENERGY IN IT…I GUESS I NEED REVIEWS TO GET BACK ON TRACK!
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