That night I cried myself to sleep, and again I dreamt of Ashley.

Ashley:' mitchie, don't be sad, I know you broke your heart, but maybe the one who broke it would be the one to fix it again, just hold on.' Then I woke up, my eyes were swollen and red because of all the crying, so I knew that if I went to work everybody would notice, and I didn't feel like talking anyway, so I called mr. brown.

Me:' hello, mr. brown?'

Mr. brown:' mitchie?'

Me:' yeah, I was wondering if you can give me permission to skip work, just for today..'

Mr. brown:' why mitchie? Are you.. okay?'

Me with tears in my eyes:' yeah.. I am just a bit tired and I may be getting a cold, I am sorry..'

Mr. brown:' no mitchie, it is fine, take care.'

Me:' thanks mr. brown, bye.' Then I hung up. I didn't feel like watching TV, mostly scared to see any news about that interview, so I just sat on my bed, took out my notebook and started writing, I didn't know exactly what I was writing about, I just let my heart lead me through the words in an attempt to let it all out and feel better, but while I was writing tears were streaming down my face and I didn't even try to stop them. I was really hurt, I hated what he did to me, but I still loved him, but how? And why? Those questions I couldn't answer, I just knew how I felt.

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door, I wiped away my tears and tried to pull myself together, I opened the door to find Caitlyn, when I saw her tears started streaming again and I found myself hugging her tight and crying on her shoulder, she was really worried, she didn't know what happened.

Caitlyn:' mitchie, what is wrong? Come on talk to me!'

Me:' I .. will… tell… you..' I said while crying.

She helped me sit on the bed and sat next to me, she held my hand and wiped the tears escaping from my eyes.

Caitlyn:' what happened?'

Me while looking down:' you didn't watch TV yesterday?'

Caitlyn: 'no, why?'

Me:' well they had an interview with shane.. and.. and he was with tess Caitlyn!' I saw her expressions changing from compassion to confusion and anger.

Me:' he said.. shane said that.. she was the girl of his dreams! She kissed him Caitlyn! And I was here watching it! I didn't know what happened! Why did he do that? Why Caitlyn?' I was now weeping, so Caitlyn hugged me putting my head on her shoulder and patting my back.

A while later I calmed down, she was still with me, Caitlyn was that type of friend, always there for me no matter what.

Caitlyn:' are you feeling better?' I forced a smile and nodded.

Me:' thank you Caitlyn.' She smiled at me and hugged me, I hugged back.

Me:' Caitlyn, I want to be alone for a while, do you mind?'

Caitlyn:' okay, but if you need anything you'll call me, right?'

Me:' of course.' I walked her to the door, she gave me one last hug and walked to her room, I closed the door and headed to my bed, I found my phone ringing, it was my mum.

Mum:' mitchie! Why didn't you call today? Are you trying to give me a heart attack?'

Me:' sorry mum, I was.. occupied.'

Mum:' occupied? Mitchie, you promised you'd call and you didn't! I was worried sick about you!'

Me:' I am.. sorry mum.. I really am.. it won't happen again..' I heard her sigh.

Mum:' how was your day?'

Me:' as usual mum.. nothing new..' I felt my voice crack but I couldn't help it.

Mum:' is there something wrong sweetie?'

Me:' no mum.. I am just tired and I want to go to sleep.. we'll take more tomorrow..'

Mum:' okay honey, take care..' then I was going to hang up but I needed to say something more.

Me:' mum.. I love you..'

Mum:' I love you too sweetie, goodnight' then we both hung up. i put my head on the pillow, closed my eyes and slowly went to sleep.

That night I didn't dream about Ashley, I didn't dream at all, it was a weird night, anyway when I woke up I was feeling so tired, and I REALLY didn't want to face shane, or tess, or anybody really. But I had to, at least for mr. brown. So I wore black jeans and a purple t-shirt with a smile on it, I wasn't smiling on the inside but I had to pretend. I put my hair into a pony tail and I put on the camp's cap and left my room after taking a deep breath. I walked to class and as I was walking I saw barron, he waved at me and I smiled and waved back, then Caitlyn jumped on me from behind and hugged me, I smiled.

Caitlyn:' how are you today?' I tried to make my fake smile a bit bigger and I just nodded. She hugged me again.

Caitlyn:' I am on to you.. I am with you mitch!' I just hugged her so that she wouldn't see the tears. Then we walked together to class, it was singing class, I stood with Caitlyn until the counselor comes, then the door opened and the counselor came in, it was shane.