The next morning I was sleeping in the waiting room with nate and Caitlyn, when suddenly I heard people running, I was rubbing my eyes, then I saw that they were running to my father's room! I ran after them but they stopped me before I could enter the room, I was looking through the glass when I saw them bringing the electric shocker, the doctor rubbed them together, then he yelled : CLEAR! Then he used the shocker on my dad, I gasped when I saw that, I put my hand on my mouth and let tears fall on my face, then I slowly fell to the ground on my knees. I felt nate running towards me and helping me stand, but I was shaking hard, nate made me sit on the chair and he ran and called Caitlyn, she came running and sat next to me, they tried hugging me but I was still shaking.. hard. So nate called shane.

Nate:' shane..'

Shane:' hey nate! How are things in the hospital?'

Nate:' you better come quick shane.. mitchie really needs you!'

Shane:' I am coming right away!' 15 minutes later he was running through the hallways until he saw us, the doctors were still with my dad, and nate and Caitlyn were talking to me in an attempt to calm me down. Shane bent on his knees infront of me and held my eyes.

Shane:' mitchie.. baby.. talk to me.. come on..' I didn't answer, I was shaking looking down.

Shane:' mitchie! Mitchie please answer me! Honey, your dad is going to be okay, trust me' at that point I looked into his eyes for a second, but that look he'd never forget, my eyes were full on fear and grief and pain, and that hurt him. So shane sat next to me and nate went to the room to see if there was any changes, there wasn't.

Shane:' mitchie, you told me that you had to be strong for you dad, remember? Come on then! Fight this! Be as strong as I know you are mitch!' I was hearing his voice, but all I could think of is how my dad's body went up and down when they shocked him, how he seemed so hurt and weak, how lifeless his body was.. then the doctor came out.

Doctor:' mitchie?' I didn't answer, so he looked at shane.

Doctor:' her father's heart stopped, we shocked him 5 times, until it started beating again, his condition is not improving and we don't know if he can take another dosage of chemo-therapy, I think we'll have to go to surgery, and lung transplant.. I am really sorry mitchie..' then he walked away, but suddenly I stood up, faced the doctor.

Me:' lung transplant? You are putting another person's lungs in MY dad's body!' the doctor turned around to face me again.

Doctor:' mitchie.. he won't survive another dosage! We have to.. or he will..'

Me:' die?' the doctor nodded with a sigh.

Me:' either he lives with another person's lung.. or he dies? WOW! Okay… okay… what should I do?'

Doctor:' mitchie, I can't tell you what you should do..'

Me:' but someone should! I am 18 years old! And now I have to decide whether I should kill my dad now or a bit later? And I have to tell my mum that everything is okay when it is living hell? How? How can I do that? How?..' at that point I was crying hysterically while falling to the ground, shane caught me and held me tight.

Shane:' come with me..' then he carried me and I clinged to his neck, we walked out of the hospital, shane was still carrying me, then we went to the grave yards. Shane made me sit on the ground next to someone's grave, there was a name, Elizabeth gray.

Shane:' this is my grandma's grave mitchie.. she passed away when I was 15.. that's about 3 years ago.. she died in a car accident.. right infront of me..' I put my hand on his face and wiped away the tear that fell.

Me:' how shane?'

Shane:' well, she was driving me to my soccer game, she was very happy and she kept telling me how proud she was, then she turned around to smile at me, just for 1 second, 1 second mitchie! That was when a drunk driver hit us, the car rolled in the air for 5 times, then the car was on fire, my grandma pushed me out of the car, and she looked at me and smiled and said "I love you shane.. dream.." then.. the car.. exploded.. and she was.. dead' I saw grief in shane's eyes like no other, so I threw myself in his arms and hugged him tight.

Me:' I am sorry.. '

Shane:' mitchie, if I had a choice, to keep her alive for 5 minutes, I would have taken it!'

Me:' you are right.. thank you shane..' then he gave me a kiss, and we both walked to the hospital, then my phone rang, it was mr. brown.

Mr. brown:' hey mitchie! How are you?'

Me:' I am.. okay mr. brown'

Mr. brown:' well Jason and I are coming now, do you need anything?'

Me:' no mr. brown, thank you'

Mr. brown:' don't mention it' then he hung up. But then shane found me smiling.

Shane:' mitchie.. what made you so happy?'

Me:' my ringtone.. it was ashley's favourite song.. keep holding on by avril lavigne.' Shane smiled at me and we both walked into the hospital holding hands.