Me:' you lost him? No! no this can't be happening! No way! My dad is NOT dead! He can't be!' I was weeping so shane held me from behind but that didn't stop me from fighing, I kicked him and hit him and pushed him away, but he never let me go.

Me:' no doctor please! I already lost Ashley! I can't lose him too! Daddy nooooo! Please don't leave me!' then I was falling to the ground and shane was falling with me, I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest! I couldn't bare that pain! When the doctor saw how weak I was getting, and how I was falling apart, he took me to a room and gave me a sedative, I went to sleep. Shane was with me in my room, he called them all to come, since barron was already here, so Caitlyn, sander, Margaret, mr. brown, Jason and nate had to come. In an hour they were all at the hospital, Caitlyn was crying because she loved my dad, and because she hated to see me suffer, nate hugged shane because he saw how devastated he was. They were all at my room, when I started to wake up, they all tried to pull themselves together.

Shane:' hey mitchie..'

Me:' hi.. shane.. tell me it isn't true..' shane held my hand tight.

Shane:' I am SO sorry mitchie..' I started crying.

Me:' he died shane! My father died! My best friend.. my everything died shane! God!' shane sat next to me on bed and hugged me tight.

Shane:' I know it hurts mitchie.. it doesn't make sense.. it doesn't seem fair.. it is.. horrible! But maybe if he lived he would have been hurting, I mean you saw how weak he was mitchie.. maybe it is for the better..'

Me:' I would have helped him! I would have stayed under his legs my whole life! If he didn't leave me! Why did I have to lose him too shane! I can't live without him! I can't!' he didn't know what to do, so he just held me and tried to keep me safe, after weeping for 2 hours straight, I was getting really tired.

I sat in the waiting room, with shane and Caitlyn on both my sides, and the others with me too, shane brought me a cup of coffee.

Shane:' drink this mitchie..'

Me:' no thanks.. I don't feel like it' all the time I was looking down and tears streaming down my face.

Shane:' mitchie you haven't eaten for days!'

Me:' shane.. I am just.. not hungry..'

Shane:' okay mitchie.. as you like..' then the doctor walked into the waiting room.

Doctor:' mitchie, your mum woke up, and she asked about you, and about… your father..' at that point I faced the doctor.

Doctor:' do you want me to tell her?'

Me:' I don't know.. how will I tell her?'

Shane:'mitchie, it's better if you are with her.. as hard as it is.. it's better..' I nodded, then I walked towards her room, shane followed me and then they all decided they would come with me.

I entered her room, shane was holding my hand.

Mum:' mitchie, where were you?'

Me:' sorry mum.. I was in the waiting room..'

Mum:' and nobody is with your dad?' at that point tears began to form in my eyes again.

Me:' he doesn't need it anymore mum..'

Mum:' what? What do you mean?'

Me:' I am… so sorry mum!' then I fell on my knees next to her bed and put my face in my hands and cried. My mum started to cry too, but she put her hand on my head and patted it.

Mum:' I know you are sweetheart.. I know you are..' Caitlyn held my mum's hand so tight.

Mr. brown:' I am very sorry for your loss' my mum nodded. Then she raised my head to face her, she wiped away my tears.

Mum:' when mitchie?'

Me:' over 2 hours ago mum..'

Mum:' how?'

Me:' mum please..'

Mum:' how mitchie?'

Me:' his heart stopped.. and they couldn't revive it again..'

Mum:' I want to see him..'

Me:' what?'

Mum:' I … want.. to see him..'

Me:' mum.. don't do this to me please! I already lost him! Don't throw yourself away and leave me alone! Mum please!'

Mum:' don't worry mitchie.. I just need to say my proper goodbye..'

Me:' okay mum.. but I'll come with you..'

Mum:' are you sure?' I nodded. Shane helped me up then he brought a wheel chair for my mum, he put her on it and then he pushed her through the hallways until we got to my dad's room, they were removing all the wires and were getting ready to move him to the morgue. Me and my mum walked into the room, she took his hand and kissed it, and a tear fell on it.

Mum:' hey babe.. I can't believe you left us.. I will miss you.. so much! Can you see Ashley? Are you both okay? God your hand is so cold.. I wish I could come along.. but mitchie me needs me here for now.. but I'll see you again.. in a much better place.. where there is no loss… and no pain! I love you.. and I always will..' then she kissed him on the forehead and pushed herself out of the room.

I just stood there, crying, staring at his lifeless pale body, was that my dad? I couldn't believe it.

Me:' I asked you not to leave me daddy.. but you did.. why? Why couldn't you wait for a while? I am only 18! I need you daddy! Can you hear me? Daddy, I can't believe you are gone! I don't know what to do daddy! I just.. I miss you! I need you daddy! Daddy, I love you so much, you know that, right?' somewhere deep inside I was hoping he would answer me, but he didn't, he was really gone.