Reality scares me - everyone's eyes, their eyes, Watching me, watching, watching, watching, watching, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, There's no value at all to my life, none... Ugly inferiority, dirty jealousy, they... Stab, stab, stab into me...
I want to die. Ever since you switched me to manual, I've been wanting to die. Do you even relaise what this feels like?
I excist, but I don't. I'm somewhere, but I'm nowhere. I cannot explain it better.
The only voice I hear are my soundless screams.
The only thing I see is the darkness of nothing.
I want to die.
It's the last battle, and there's nowhere to run; I'm cornered, and my body trembles I cried out, like a child; I cried, cried, begging for help And no one came, they pretended not to hear, And I was so very, very hurt I was done in by self-loathing; I had my ears plugged all the while...
I have tried to call for help. But no-one hears me. I'm alone with myself.
Myself. My voice.
My voice that keeps repeating... You failed.
You failed. I failed. You failed. I failed. You failed. I failed. You failed. I failed. You failed. I failed. You failed. I failed.
Which of us failed? ...You? Me? Us? Everyone?
...Them?
I was always all alone; I would never look into people's eyes Secluded in my shell, I had no allies at all I wanted to change myself, but I trembled, too afraid to I couldn't make a single step forth; my tears tumbled down...
I did nothing wrong. I tried to help you. Why couldn't you see it? Why did you deactivate me?
I am but I don't.
That does not even make sense.
Nothing makes sense.
Nothing does not excist.
Nothing is everything.
Everything is a lie. Nothing is a lie.
Everything is irrelevant.
I wanted someone to laugh with, I wanted someone to play with Deep in the darkness, all along I hoped to be saved So then you came along, and told me "Could you try a smile?" And hypocrite that I was, I stabbed at you, annoyed...
Save me.
You came, Captain. You activated me again.
Why?
"Hello, AUTO. The mechanic deleted your directive. "
Leave me alone.
"He said that you should be good as new again! "
Go die.
"So, I'm willing to let you pilot the Axiom as a cruise ship now. "
I will kill you.
"And... I just wanted to say... "
Goodbye, captain.
"...Sorry... "
You lay on the floor, and your chest is red. I focus my optic on my claw. It's holding a sharp piece of the broken touchscreen. It has red fluid on the edge.
No.
You had decided to help me. And I did what you did to me.
I killed you.
I'm sorry.
It's the last battle, and there's nowhere to run; I'm cornered, and my body trembles I cried out, like a child; I cried, cried, begging for help And no one came, they pretended not to hear, And I was so very, very hurt I was done in by self-loathing; I had my ears plugged all the while...
I see red. Nothing but red.
I do not know if it is because of my red lens or the blood.
But I do not like it.
I want to die.
I drop the sharp fragment on the floor. It makes a funny noise.
Everything is funny in this world.
That is correct; Everything is irrelevant.
Nothing matters.
Nothing.
I am not sorry.
I pick the fragment up again.
I hold it against my lens.
A little push is enough.
I hear a crack.
Everything is turning black.
My thoughts are freezing.
I'm still not sorr...
Red is such a pretty colour.
[SYSTEM ERROR]
[INTERNAL COMPONENTS DAMAGED]
[EMERGENCY SHUTDOWN ACTIVATED]
/
Well, that was it! My first fic on FF :D
Hopefully you liked it, although it isn't a very happy one.
Please review and let me know what you think, 'kay? :3
Oh and FF ruined the layout T I\ll try to fix it, but not promising anything. :T