Why Edward? Why?

Chapter 4: Numb

The following week passed very slowly. I was always so quiet around the house that Edward had actually called me a ghost once.

He was as tense as I was, the fact that I'd cornered on him, making him do the test as well, made us both more nervous. But truth be told - I would be relieved if it wasn't just me.

I was starting to research Chlamydia as I didn't know much about it. Edward did but it was sketchy.

He only knew that it was a sexual transmitted infection (STI) and caused by a tiny bacterium, Chlamydia trachomatis. You get with no symptoms at all. Unless if you count the pain in mild lower abdominal.

I then started to read about it, I honestly felt I was silly doing so but I continued:

In some women chlamydia can cause pelvic inflammatory disease (PID), also know as pelvic infection. It can damage the Fallopian tubes that carry eggs from the ovaries to the womb. The tubes may stop working properly and can become completely blocked.

Oh fuck. Please god, don't say I have that. If so, I wouldn't get kids, and the operations is really complex. Even Edward, maybe Carlisle's medical expertise. I carried on reading:

Chlamydia is the most common preventable cause of infertility in women. When the Fallopian tubes are blocked, no pregnancy is possible naturally. One option is IVF (in-vitro fertilisation), but availability on the NHS is patchy and has variable success rates. Women with damaged tubes do occasionally fall pregnant, but there is an increased risk of the pregnancy developing in the tubes rather than the womb. This is called an ectopic pregnancy. The tube can split apart causing serious pain and bleeding. This is an emergency, because the bleeding can be life threatening.

I stopped reading and closed my laptop. This was getting way-too scary.

I couldn't even move my arm to grab my cup of tea. Edward was sitting on the sofa across the room. He looked up just in time to sprint across the room and catch me.

I blinked and looked up at him. "Bella - can you please relax, we haven't been able to relax because of the child worry. Why not we go out and have a bit of fun?"

I gazed at him and nodded.

He put me up; I grabbed my chair, got up and tucked it in. Edward had fetched me my coat and bag. I got them on and walked into Edward's Volvo.

He'd had it for years, ever since I met him in junior year. He'd always cared for me, even when I had a strop with him and hurt myself.

He'd forgotten about lovey-dovey stuff and cared for me. I had to be in bed for 3 weeks and we never got bored. He was always looking forward to seeing me, not as his girlfriend but as a best friend. We'd sort of forgotten about the fall-out and I'd ended up kissing him when he's bought me a gold necklace, which I still had.

I touched the necklace, still round my neck and sighed. How had my life gone downhill? I missed my parent's comfort and support. When my mother had miscarriage - as she and Charlie were trying again for kids when I was about 14, I always comforted her.

But then I would cry my grief of the bay and she'd cheer me up. I missed the way they looked after me, the way that Charlie would get me a nice piece of cheesecake or just give me a big hug.

We spent the day at the mall - seeing as Edward knows I enjoy casual shopping. His sister, Alice had always made me wear revealing costumes to dazzle Edward. She was my best friend and wanted me and Edward to be together.

He let me shop for my clothes but I could have sworn he hinted at getting something to help us in the bedroom department. I sighed heavily.

That was going to have to get some used to.

I bought something sexy if you call it that.

It was in the underwear place so I guessed so. It was just a simple white and lacy bra and pants. They was no way, I was going deeper than that.

Alice would but not me. Edward enjoyed the lingerie but if he knew I felt like a complete twat in it, then he wouldn't tease me.

We ended our shopping; surprisingly Edward had bought a few new suits for work. If I was correct, he had at least 4 suits in the wardrobe and they were all quite new as it was. I had bought him at least 3 of those suits.

He sensed I was unhappy. "Were my suits shit or something?" I asked as he drove us to the restaurant.

He turned confused to me "No, but I thought while I was out, I'd buy some more just in case." I raised my eyebrows but didn't complain further.

We went to the restaurant and I actually cheered up slightly. I laughed when Edward walked into the ladies with me, forgetting we weren't at home together and all the girls inside screamed when he did.

I couldn't sit through lunch, I really tied to not laugh and to keep a straight face.

I was nearly there until a little 9 year old girl walked over and said "You're the weird man who went into the toilets!"

I doubled up, laughing. Edward's face was like a tomato. The girl had run away when I looked up, tears in my eyes.

Edward was looking at me, a slight smile on his face. "Have you cheered up?" he asked.

I nodded. The rest of lunch went well. When we left and walked over to the car, Edward put his arm round my waist.

"Let's go home and unwind shall we?" hiding the glint in his eye.

I smiled slightly. "Ok" I whispered and kissed him on the lips.

He seemed keen and I hugged him closer when he pulled away. "I'm sorry for being mopping, Edward. It's not fair on you, you must be getting slightly annoyed at me - I understand but don't leave me."

He mock glared at me. "Bella - for fucks sake, you're my wife and I love you. A husband supports his wife, and a wife is meant to be looked after. I will never ever cheat, leave or abandon you at all. I'm not tired of you, just this stupid problem we have. Remember that, love ok?"

I nodded silently at him. We got into the car and we drove home, hopefully the numb feeling would go away soon. We had 3 days until the tests were due back.