Why Edward? Why?

Chapter 18: Loosing Bella

Edward POV

"Bella!" I yelled again, under the slight hope she might hear me.

Nice work jackass. You have now got a divorce paper coming your way.

I groaned and walked straight back inside to the phone booth. I dialled for a taxi and was told to hold. I was standing there for at least two minutes before Tanya came.

"Edward – do you want to have a cup of tea, and then we can discuss your options."

I turned "What options?"

She smiled, showing bright white teeth. "Options about me and you, sweetie. Your wife didn't like our little kiss and is maybe jealous of me, as I have you."

I glared at her, pure hate in my eyes. "Nobody has me, but Bella. Bella is my wife and I love her. Not you. You have properly now ruined my marriage and I hate you. You are no longer my friend and I am transferring hospitals. I need to get home so I can discuss your little stunt when I get home."

She looked taken aback.

"If you want a sexy hot male who might want you, then go to a club, get pissed outta your head and maybe, just maybe you might get the kind of fella you want." I said harshly.

I didn't care. All that mattered to me was how Bella was. I hated myself. I wanted to rip my own heart out on a plate, give it to her before I died. But I can't. She needed me.

Ten minutes later of Tanya officially pissing me off, I slammed down the phone and went to my office, locked it and started sobbing.

I needed Bella. I hated causing her stress and worry especially as she was now pregnant.

Then there was a knock on my door. "Go away" I moaned quietly. Then I heard Dr. Irina's voice.

"Edward, it's Bella she's..."

I raced to the door and crashed it open. Dr. Irina was standing there and she was crying slightly.

"Bella has just been in a car accident. We've just finished operating on her and she's fallen into a coma." She sobbed.

I felt numb. A Coma? No, no, NO!

"Where is she?" I demanded.

"Ninth" she spluttered.

I ran down hall, up the stairwell and across the corridor. I showed my pass to a nurse outside and she opened the door for me.

I could have screamed at the sight of her. She was covered in dry blood, her head had a visible fault line down it and on her forehead was a big bump, with a purple bruise making it look focused on.

I sat in the chair next to her and watched her peaceful but damaged face.

"Her options, Edward are simple" Dr. Irina stated as she came through the door, closing it and walking to the opposite side of Bella to face me.

"She has lost quite a lot of blood and she was crashed into from the passenger side on. She seemed to have failed to notice the traffic lights at Melbourne Junction."

I winched. That was where most car collisions happened – the fatal ones.

"She hasn't broken her spine but bruised most of her nerves in her right hand side. She was operated on and most of the glass came out of her head as she hit the windshield quite fast."

She then stopped and looked at me nervously. "She wasn't wearing her seatbelt."

I groaned deeper again, clutching Bella's hand for support.

"Is there any...Any chance that her child would of survived?" I whispered.

She looked up. "Child?"

"I'd better explain why this might have happened." I said, sitting up and facing her with a blank expression.

"The reason, we were in the hospital this afternoon was that Bella took a pregnancy test and found out she was pregnant. We then came here to double and triple check as we normally do. But last week was my birthday and that was the day, which my patient Daniel died. Nurse Tanya decided that she'd take me out for a drink when Bella was planning a surprise birthday party for me. So it didn't help much when I turned up to the party – quite drunk. Tanya was also kissing me when the door opened and everyone saw. I didn't kiss her and I cannot stand Tanya Denali.

"So we were having a slight problem and Bella didn't trust Tanya. You were in childbirth issue so we were told that we should have Nurse Tanya. Tanya took advantage of me when Bella went to the toilet to get her sample. Tanya kept hold of me and waited for Bella to return and Bella fled to her car and the last thing I saw was her flooring it out of the car park."

I sighed, tears pouring down my face "And it's my fault!" I screamed into my hands.

Dr. Irina put her hand on my shoulder

"It's not your fault Edward. I will inform the top dog about Nurse Tanya's behaviour."

"Bella and I were thinking of moving so, meaning that I would of transferred hospitals to avoid her. I feel so guilty!" I stammered.

"And then what happens if by some miracle, she dose wake up and DOSEN'T remember anything! I couldn't stand it if she wouldn't remember me! I love her so much and she thinks I've been cheating on her! I swear if she dies then I might as well!" I cried out.

It was a long time that it took me to stop crying and been escorted to a waiting taxi home. As soon as I walked through the doors, I wanted to be back at the hospital, with my Bella. I then promise that if Bella regained consciousness and remembered everything – I would make it up to her.

Then after that, I would hunt down and then maybe murder Tanya Denali.