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Chapter title inspired by the incredible Cyndi Lauper.
All or Nothing – Chapter 11: All Through the Night
We lay in bed after four hours of making love, but neither of us was tired. We just stared at each other, enjoying the feel of our bodies next to each other. We just whispered to each other, as we enjoyed the caresses that the other was giving.
"So where do we go from here?" Will asked.
"Pretty obvious to me," I said.
Will laughed. "Yeah I mean there's the obvious. But how?"
"What do you mean?"
"You're in Portland. I'm in Seattle. We both have careers."
"It's only a four hour drive."
"Is that realistic though?"
"No. Probably not."
"We would have to figure out what we want."
"I want to be with you."
"I want to be with you too."
"Then what does it matter if there is distance?"
"It matters Finn," Will sighed. "But for now, let's just enjoy this."
I curled up next to Will and got lost in thought. He was right. It did matter. But I didn't want to leave Portland. As much as I complained about it, I had a good job. And there was Kurt. Not that Kurt couldn't get along without me, but he was my best friend, and we liked living together. Maybe Will could move? But that wouldn't be fair to him either since he had finally found his place. His home. It was all too complicated. I stroked his chest, and sighed.
"Don't worry about it, okay?" Will said, running his hand through my hair.
I stayed silent. Soon, he had fallen quietly asleep, but I stayed awake, worrying.
~~Later that Day~~
I left Will's about 8 AM. He had to work, and I had to get going back to Portland. I had already missed enough work, so I had to go back to the office tomorrow. We made plans for him to call me that night, and to hopefully see each other that weekend. Where exactly was still up in the air, but we had made the plans, and that is what mattered.
I was hoping Tina would be gone when I got back to her apartment, but as I opened the door, she was sitting on the couch, expectantly.
"Uh, hi," I stuttered.
"Stuttering is my thing, Finnegan. Now get your gay ass over here and tell me what happened."
I sat down next to her, and she handed me a cup of coffee.
"Prepared much?" I asked. She smirked.
"Spill."
"Well we didn't have dinner, that's for sure."
"Did you guys fuck all night?"
"To put it crudely, I suppose. Well, not all night."
Tina rolled her eyes. "Well… I'm happy for you I guess."
"Happy I got laid?"
"It has been a while. But no, I'm happy that you and Will are back together," she paused, right before taking a sip of her coffee. "You are back together, right?"
"I don't think we made it completely official. We both said we want to be together though."
"But…?"
"But, I don't want to move, and neither does he."
"Ah, the distance dilemma."
"Yeah," I said gulping my coffee.
"Didn't get much sleep did you?"
"No. And not for that reason. We stopped at about 2 am. Will fell asleep around 3. I just… couldn't sleep."
"Aww, poor Finnegan," Tina said. "This really has you stressed out doesn't it?"
"Yeah. But, it is better than being a dark hole of depression, right? By the way, why are you here? Shouldn't you be at work?"
"I said I'd come in late today. I knew you'd be coming home about now probably, plus I thought you might be going back to Portland today, and didn't want to not say goodbye."
"Aww," I said, putting my arm around her and bringing her in for a sorta hug. "You're a good friend to me Tina."
"Well, then I should probably remind you of something."
"What?"
"Blaine."
"Tina!"
"What?"
"Blaine and I were never…"
"But you were at the beginning stages."
"How would you know?"
"Kurt keeps us all updated."
"All?"
"Oh you know. Britt, me, Mike, Artie."
"Geez. Glad to know that."
"Well, anyways, Blaine was the first guy you could've seen yourself with since Will. There is obviously something there."
"True, there is something there. And I think Blaine will always be one of my friends now. But Will…"
"Will is your first love. He's your true love. He's your soul mate, blah blah blah. My point is, Finn, that you don't know that Will is your soul mate because you haven't dated around. You haven't tried other souls."
"That sounds creepy."
"You know what I mean!"
"I know I know. I just… Blaine is awesome. And if Will hadn't come back into my life…"
"All I'm saying Finn is to give it a moment. Don't rush into it with Will again."
"Too late for that," I muttered. Tina lay her hand on my hand and sympathized silently.
~~Later that Day~~
I was ten minutes away from home. I had called Kurt on my way back to tell him I was fine, and to just calm down. He asked how dinner with Will had gone, but I had told him nothing. Just that it went fine, and that I would see him tonight after he got off of work.
Thanks to Tina I couldn't stop thinking about what this would do to Blaine. He was a great guy, and he had understood why I couldn't just rush into things with him. So why was I willing to rush things with Will? Well that was a stupid question. It was Will. The man I lost seven years ago who had come back to me. I got turned into that high school jock again, in love with his teacher, except this time it wasn't illegal and we couldn't get in trouble for it. It was perfect. But thanks to Tina, I couldn't get Blaine out of my mind.
I pulled up at the townhouse, and sighed. No wonder I had avoided relationships for so long. They were stressful to think about. I got out of my car, hopped up the steps to the front door, and put in my key. The door was unlocked though. I was going to have to chew Kurt out for leaving the door unlocked again. This wasn't Lima.
I put my bag by the front door, and went into the living room to check for mail that had come while I was gone. I about screamed when I noticed someone else in the room, and it wasn't Kurt.
"What are you doing here?" I asked, calming down.
Blaine stood there, a rose in his hand, smiling at me sheepishly. "I just wanted to welcome you home, and tell you that I am willing to wait for you while you work out what you need to work out."
My stress went up about ten levels.