Chapter 15 - The Art of Love
RPOV
He dragged me up with him as we walked slowly along the beach to the nearest shops, of course here in this part of Washington, it was relatively warm and sunny, which made tonight absolutely perfect, Jakes hand brushed mine as we walked together until he finally decided to grab hold of it to weave his fingers through mine.
"Are you having fun?" He asked plainly out of the blue, his eyes were staring off at the ocean, and his arm swung mine up and down lightly.
"What do you think?" I grinned and he looked at me then, he looked nervous but it was quickly replaced with a smile, he squeezed my hand gently before looking away.
"I think you are having a totally fantabulous time." He said in a girlish way and I couldn't help but burst into laughter, he lifted his hand in the air and pranced around like a gay guy, not that I have anything against gay guys, but still, this was funny.
"To-tal-ly" I said between my fits of laughter, I finally found the strength to stop laughing but I had to force myself to stifle a few giggles in the process. He chuckled and took my hand again in his own.
"But really, do you like it?" He smiled.
"No..." He frowned and looked down, I quickly picked his head up and looked into his eyes, "I absolutely love it." I smiled and his frown turned into a smirk.
"Yeah, I know, I'm just the man." He laughed and I rolled my eyes at him.
"I can just see your head expanding." I chortled, and he pouted.
"My head is normal sized." He whined in protest, I laughed and waved my hand dismissively, by then we had reached the fish and chips shop called 'Seaside Samba', there was hardly anyone here which was good, not like we were going to eat here anyway. We walked through the threshold and the bells of the door chimed to tell the owners there were customers.
Jake, of course, ordered our food and paid for it while I sat patiently in a booth near the corner, he was so romantic, in everyway, and if anything did happen tonight, I knew I wouldn't regret it, this moment, this whole day has been so perfect, and it would definitely be special, somewhere inside me the thought occurred to me, maybe Jake was nervous because that was exactly what he was planning to do, that's why everything was so special, but another part waved off the thought, Jake was set on waiting, then again, why would he have done this, I could argue with myself for a while, pointing out all the pros and cons of Jake actually having changed his mind, but I decided to just live in the moment.
He walked over to me then with a number card in his hand, we were number three, really there were only three couples in here, we actually needed numbers? He gestured for me to scoot over on the cushioned chair and I complied.
"They said it should be ready in ten minutes." He looked at me and back at the counter as if our food was going to magically appear. "What should we do till then?" He winked and lightly bumped my shoulder, I looked at him, mortified.
"Jake, we're in public!" I yelled, in a hushed tone. He grinned at me.
"You have an unbelievably dirty mind, I wasn't hinting anything." He grinned and I giggled, it was true, I think sex was pretty much on my mind seventy-five percent of the time, it was a bad habit.
"Yes, you were." I playfully smacked him on the shoulder.
"What was I hinting?" He asked, like it wasn't obvious. I could tell he knew what I was talking about. He rubbed his shoulder with a mock-pained expression.
"You know..." I blushed at the thought.
"No, I don't." He said playfully grinning at me, great, he was going to make me say it. I didn't answer him back, instead my cheeks flamed and there was some heat forming between my legs as I thought about sex with Jacob,
Shit! There I go again.
He chuckled at me. "Tell me what I was hinting." He asked again with a dumbfounded expression.
"Nothing, just forget it." I giggled, it's like the grin was glued to my face, I couldn't bring myself to stop smiling.
"No, I want to know." He pushed, just say it and get it over with, I thought to myself.
"I thought you were hinting something sexual." I said really quickly and quietly, he burst out into his booming laughter, attracting all the attention to us, if it was possible for my face to turn even more red, it happened. My smile faded, I was so embarrassed, I ducked my head, my eyes tearing up and my throat becoming stuffy. When his laughter had died down he finally noticed me, by then I was making sniffling noises and the tears had free reign.
"Baby?" He asked, he knew I was crying, I didn't bother to lift my head, I just sat there in my embarrassment and sulked. He brought his index finger to my chin and lifted my head up slowly, his expression reflected sadness, why was I ruining this! Stop! I yelled at the tears that didn't seem to want to oblige.
"I'm sorry, that was mean." He said softly, I didn't want him to be sorry, I wanted these damn tears to stop. He put his arm around me and I cuddled into his side.
"No, 't was't, I wa' 'st em'arr'sed." I said between the hysterics, what I meant to say was No, it wasn't, I was just embarrassed, but instead it came out like that, he smiled at my hiccups, that was the best way I could describe it. I could feel the puffiness on my face, and I frowned at that too, I must look like a tomato. He seemed to read my mind when he spoke again.
"You look beautiful." He smiled, wasn't that on those lists of things that a boyfriend should do for a girl, Tell her she's beautiful even when she's at her worst. Jake was so soppy.
"You're so cheesy." YES! My ability to form a sentence has recovered from that attack of tears. He grinned at me and the cooks called our number. Jake and I both got up to go get the brown paper bag from the counter before we walked out of the shop, hand-in-hand. It was still really warm outside when we got to our little campsite, so I didn't bother to put on a jacket, not that I ever felt cold, but it was nice to maintain my body temperature and not have cold gusts of wind against my body.
I plopped down on the red mat and took the paper bag from him, he straightened the mat before sitting down next to me and unwrapping the paper, all I could smell was chips and fish, which is exactly what we got, my tastebuds were in a frenzy, and all my other senses had faded away, the food was here. I took a chip and began munching as Jake broke off a piece of battered fish. We sat there for a few minutes just silently eating, relishing the feeling of food sliding down our throats. I gulped loudly, catching his attention.
"Jake, can I ask you something?" I said shyly, I felt the faint colour raid my cheeks.
"Go for it." He said, picking up another chip and munching on it.
"Why did you do all this?" I asked, I ducked my head, using food as my excuse for not looking him in the eye. There was a brief pause, my question had obviously caught him off guard.
"'Cause, I wanted to do something special." He stated after a while, he pinched of another piece of fish and placed it in his mouth. I just nodded and took a bite of the fish, it had a salty taste to it, also I detected a little bit of lemon. It didn't take long for both of us to devour the meal in front of us, and by the time we did, we were both full, that was the thing about fish and chips, you get a hell of a lot of food.
Jake skill-fully scrunched up the oily piece of paper and pulled out a plastic bag from his knapsack, it's like he had this all planned out. He pushed it in and hung the bag on a tree branch before coming back to sit on the mat with me. He put his arm around me and I felt inclined to rest my head against his shoulder.
"Oh, I forgot something." He said, lifting his arm and running over to his knapsack, he pulled out a box of assorted chocolates and handed them to me. He took his rightful place beside me again and wound his arm around me while I inspected the box, he snatched it from me quickly and chuckled.
"Lets play a guessing game." He smiled, and I gave a confused look, was he talking about the chocolates, because I knew they were chocolates. "I'll give you a chocolate, and lets see how good your taste buds are." He smirked, like I would lose, this was a game of food, that my friend, is my ultimate strength.
"Do I get to test you?" I grinned, that was the only way I was agreeing to this game.
"Of course, you think I would let you eat all these chocolates by yourself?" He gave out a throaty laugh and opened the box. "No peeking." He said and I shut my eyes tightly, exaggerating my arms. I could hear him unwrapping the plastic on the chocolate. "Open." He chuckled, I opened my mouth making an ahh noise with it. he placed the chocolate in and I opened my eyes, it tasted of chocolate, of course, and something else, it was like sickly sweet, caramel, or toffee, but the runniness of the inside gave it away.
"Caramel." I made a look that said It was so obvious and made a gesture for him to hand over the box. He grinned at me.
"Well that was just an easy one." He chuckled, and handed over the box. He was so cute when he tried to deny the fact that I had one point stacking against him.
"Close your eyes..." and he did, scrunching up his face in the process, "No peeking." I laughed and picked out a blue wrapped chocolate, I kept my eyes fixated on his face as I carefully unwrapped the paper and hid it behind my back. "Open." I asked and his mouth made a pop sound with the motion. I place the chocolate delicately on his tongue and he chewed, all the while his face mirrored one of confusion, I'd obviously picked a hard one.
"Mmm, Hazelnut." He said finally and I turned over the box to check of he was right, and he was, I had no doubt in my mind that Jake was an expert when it came to food, one of the many things we had in common. "I like Hazelnut, don't you?" He asked, still moving his mouth, trying to get every bit of it down.
"Yeah, it's really good..." I fidgeted around in the box trying to find another one but there weren't anymore, "There's no more." I said sadly, he leaned over and took my lips, his tasted of hazelnut. I stifled a giggle, I granted him access when he began to nip and tug at my lower lip, asking permission to enter, his tongue was a more concentrated dose of hazelnut and chocolate, my tastebuds graciously danced with him in a feverish exchange of flavours.
My need for chocolate had disappeared and another need had made itself present. The box of chocolate had fallen out of my hands and they were scattered everywhere, a rainbow of colours surrounded us as I tugged at his soft black hair, the more I tugged, the more I leaned back and before I knew it I was laying on my back and Jake was on top of me planting vehement kisses along my neck and jaw line, I moved my hands in between us as I tried to unbutton his shirt, which he allowed with less restraint than usual.
He got up and kneeled in front of me, I whimpered at the loss of contact but I knew he would be back, he undid the rest of his buttons before sliding it smoothly off his broad shoulders, his muscles glistened under the light of the moon and if it was possible to any sexier than he already was then this was it. He brought his lips to mine again, finding his way between my thighs and laying there while my legs instinctively wrapped around his waist, his animalistic heat enveloped me and I felt as if I was trapped in a steam room, everything about him radiated heat.
I flipped us over so that I was so on top as he laid his head to rest on the pillow, I tugged at the hem of my t-shirt and quickly threw it over my head, all the while his eyes stared at me intently, he didn't look like he was going to stop tonight and my heart just sped up at his expression. I wanted to make him say it, because I knew now the real reason he did all this.
"Jacob Black, tell me the real reason you did all this?" I sounded so formal yet my stature would indicate something totally different, I leaned down so that our chests were rubbing against each other and placed an open mouth kiss on each of his biceps before bringing my eyes up to look at him.
"I wanted to make it special for you." He whispered lovingly, I lifted myself up and began to unbutton his khaki shorts.
"Make what special?" I asked with a big grin on my face, I think I saw some faint colouring on his cheeks under his russet brown skin.
"Us, making love, for the first time." He looked up at me and the intensity in his eyes burned into my soul, the butterflies assaulted my stomach from his words, and I lifted up a little so that I could easily glide his shorts off. His hands found their way to my jeans and began unbuttoning slowly, his little finger brushed against my stomach and another explosion of butterflies hit me, I could feel a pool of wetness forming between my legs and my head was torn between happiness and nervousness, I didn't know what the hell I was doing, but I guess our love will guide us in some way.
I stood up to glide my jeans off and found my place again when I sat on Jake, my legs on either side of him, He lifted himself up so that his face was aligned with mine and scooted backward to rest his back against the flat wall, he brought his hand around to cup my neck and bring my lips to his, they didn't taste of hazelnut anymore, they tasted like Jake, which in turn was my favourite flavour. He placed kisses along my jaw line and along my chin, where he paused to look up at me.
"Do you want to do this?" He asked, like the thought had never occurred to him before, of course I did, I've waited so long for this. I just nodded, afraid that my words would mimic another emotion that was washing over me right now like nervousness or fear, though I knew there wasn't anything to be afraid off, but just some part of me was. "I love you." He whispered along my neck, he kissed me on my pulse point before returning his lips to mine.
"I love you too." I whispered against his lips, his hands found their way to the small of my back and began moving upwards to the clasp of my bra, he began fondling with it in his hands, unable to open it and I chuckled at him, moving my hands to my back to do it for him. "You'll have lots of time to practice." I grinned as the hook came undone in my first try, the whole thing went limp on my shoulders as Jake slowly pushed the straps off one at a time.
I couldn't help but giggle at the flabbergasted look that adorned his face. His eyes returned to mine, and I breathed in sharply, the intense adoration in his eyes made me feel utterly cherished. The warmth of Jake's hand moving in imaginary circles on my back was amiable, but our eyes never left each others. Finally, for what seemed like eternity, Jake stopped staring and began to kiss up my neck."You are so beautiful..." He whispered as he nibbled on my ear. I felt the air leave my lungs when he said that, it caught me fully off guard. He brought one of his hands around to cup my breast as he worked in a massaging motion, my head lolled back and a soft moan escaped my, now red, lips. "Can I ask you something?" He asked quietly, like he was holding back laughter.
"Mmhmm" I hummed.
"You have another pair of panties, right?" He smirked at me, of course I did but I didn't see the relevance in any of this. I nodded, making a question my eyebrows. "Okay, good, 'cause I don't want you to get up, but I want these..." He pointed to my panties, "Off." I giggled at his notion and he ripped them off in one quick motion, I hardly felt anything, he tossed the shreds of material into the sand and looked me up and down once before smiling.
"And how are we going to deal with those?" I pointed to his deep purple boxers. Only a real man knows how to wear pink and purple. I grinned at him and he chuckled.
"Well, those are gonna have to be shredded as well." He laughed and I took pleasure in knowing that I was the one going to rip them off, the material was thin and took absolutely no effort at all to remove, so there we were sitting stark naked in front of each other without the slightest tinge of embarrassment and what we were planning to do. The smiles and laughter were replaced with nervousness, I could see it reflected in his eyes, I knew that it would hurt and so did he, I was just worried about how much exactly. "Do you want to use a condom?"
"No, don't worry." I pressed my hand against his cheek and told him that I was on birth control, it embarrassed me to say it out loud for some reason. I had been secretly taking them since I started dating Jake, I spoke to Aunt Alice who asked Grandpa Carlisle if it would work and he said it would, though I asked him not to tell mom and dad, they would freak out. Jake just nodded leaning his head down to snuggle the juncture between my neck and shoulder blade.
"It's gonna hurt a little, baby." I just gulped and nodded my head slowly.
"I don't care, I want you, always." My voice sounded more confident than I felt and I guess it was just the nerves playing up a bit, in truth there was absolutely nothing to be afraid off, I was going to make love to the man I want to spend the rest of my life with, everything was perfect. His hands were at my hips then and he lifted me up a tiny bit to position me over his throbbing member, I could feel the tip pressed against my entrance and I gasped.
"Are you sure, baby?" I nodded, breathless and unable to form a sentence with my lips. "Just tell me, if-if I hurt you." I closed my eyes and allowed my other senses to take over.
He slid my body down a fraction of a centimetre, allowing me time to adjust, a sharp pain contracted through my whole being and I unintentionally grasped his chest, my nails dug into his skin to keep from crying out. I knew it would hurt him much more if I did. I pressed my lips together and scrunched my eyes, telling myself that the pain would soon fade.
"Should I-?" He paused, unsure of whether we should continue or not, he had an uneasy look upon his face and they clouded his features with worry. I pressed my palm against his cheek and simply said, No. He slid me down a little more and the heat of him being engulfed by my walls was enough to dim the pain, though it was still there.
Before I had time to realise it, I was panting, and my head was resting on his shoulder as he slid me down more, this time the feeling was more pleasurable, I felt more of him, and my walls tightened in response. He groaned a little at the contact of our bodies finally joined as one and I reciprocated with a loud gasp. When my thighs finally touched his the feeling was extraordinary, I felt so proud that I was able to actually take all of him inside me. I placed my hands on his abdomen and lifted myself up, creating the friction that made sex worthy. I finally opened my eyes then, feeling the satisfaction overwhelm the pain and actually make it disappear all together.
His eyes were on mine in that instant and it was like liquid chocolate seeping through my veins, pushing me further upward and then bringing me back down at the same speed, for some reason our current rhythm was a bit slow, I wanted to speed it up, I wanted more friction and more of Jacob surrounding me. I began to rock my hips with our new speed, feeling him harden even more inside me and my walls stretch to accommodate his large length.
"Mmm, Jake, faster please." I moaned into his neck and kissed the spot there, leaving a wet mark. He complied rocking my hips upward harder and faster, I felt like I was going to explode soon with the pleasure that he was giving me, at one instant he removed himself completely from me before pounding me down on him.
I felt it coming on, the pleasure was taking over, my walls began to clench around him as I tightened in response to the electricity pumping through my whole being, he knew what was happening and began going faster until finally it came, and I rode the wave of heat that gushed through me. My panting reflected each thrust and each movement he made before her finally let go with a grunt, I felt his hot liquid fill me, I felt it shooting through my body, finding every inch and covering it with his sweetness.
I collapsed on his chest, he was still inside me and I felt no need to remove him, though my panting would benefit much from it, I tried to catch my breath, holding very still against him, his heart was pounding in his chest, reflecting mine as his body was dewed up in sweat.
"I love you so much." He panted into my hair. I couldn't form a sentence just yet so I planted a very soft his against his shoulder and rested my head there for now.