A/N: Hello, thanks for the reviews(: Ok. On this chapter I'm going to try and work on my grammar, because that's my main thing I completely suck at along with my spelling. I'm going to try and update once a week- Every Saturday night (early hours of Sunday morning technically) or Sunday. Ok, I'm not going to ramble on… Enjoy and don't for get to review. :D

IMPORTANT: I have spotted a mistake again- it says Bella and Edward were next door neighbours and if they were, Bella would of seen the house fire…. So I'll change it and make them live near each other.

Poisoned Rose.

Chapter five: Everybody changes.

*Bella's POV*

Like always weekends never last. Before I knew it, it was Monday morning. My hair in its normal state and the thought of work put me of my breakfast. I explained to Edward he would have the apartment to himself and if he needed anything all he needed to do was pick up the phone. I didn't want to leave him, but I cant afford not to work. My mother and father's life savings wont last forever.

Alice would want to know everything that's happened to me over the weekend and I'm sure the over excitable pixie would keep me amused though out the day, she always did. I threw on some clothes, not really bothered at the state I was in, and left to work… My hair was just as bad by the time I got to work because of the usual horrible weather, wind and rain.

''Bella!'' A familiar voice cheered just as I opened the café door. With her short black hair, loveable face and chirpy grin who else could it be?

''Alice.'' I smiled, mocking her tone but with a huge grin on my face so she knew I was joking.

''Come on then spill, who's this Edward guy, who stopped us from shopping?'' she grinned, I let out a giggle.

I explained who she was, she didn't interrupt me once. Apart from the occasional ''really?'' and ''Oh my god's.'' She almost demanded me for her to meet him. I couldn't really blame her, the way I described Edward made him sound like some sort of god! I guess that's what he was to me! He has only ever let me down once and it was in good reason.

After a long day at work I was glad to be back with Edward. Alice was amazing, but only in small doses. Her craziness was to much to handle although I loved her for it. Edward was still quite secretive about his past. I don't blame him, he has been though a lot. We both had a lot in common, we both lost our parents one way in an another. Although in a way I wish he would get back in contact with his parents. I have lost my parents forever and he still has a chance. I would hate for him to throw it away.

Edward got me thinking a lot about my past. Not because he mentioned it. Just because he was there. He got me thinking of my parents. I have almost everything back to normal. Edward, friends, a job and a apartment, everything expect from my parents. Its hard to imagine I will never see them again. They will never be apart of my life. They will miss my: Wedding, if I ever got married; Children; Grandchildren; my achievements. Its like apart of me will always be missing.

Although Edward is keeping me strong. One day I would like to talk to him about his parents. Maybe ask him to speak to them. Although its his choice and I don't want to be some pushy bitch! I also don't want to rush things, but I don't want him to waste his time with them. I suppose its his life and his choices.

Edward didn't speak much to me. He asked me how my day was, but that was about it. I sometimes found him staring at me and as soon as I looked at him he looked away. The atmosphere grew really uneasy, neither of us knew what to say.

*Edward's POV*

I couldn't bring myself to talk to Bella. I couldn't talk or look at her knowing what I have done. I have completely wrecked her life. I don't deserve her. The tension was unbearable, its just that long awkward silence. I can tell she has a lot of questions to ask me. Questions I really don't want to answer because each question asked leads to me telling her another bunch of lies. I wish I could let her go and let her move on. But I think she needs me as much as I need her.

I'm never going to let her find out the truth. It would be the end of me and probably the end of her. I couldn't put her though it. And on a selfish note I couldn't but myself through loosing her again. I'm a bad person and she thinks with have so much in common. She has no idea what I'm capable of. All I know is that I could never hurt her. I couldn't could I?

*Bella's POV*

''Edward…'' I heard myself say.

''Hmm.'' He answered, not taking his eyes of the television.

''Tell me to mind my own business if you want, but speaking from a person who knows, I think you should get back in touch with you parents.'' I blurted. I felt my cheeks go red as soon as I said it.

''Bella, I don't want to get caught up in there arguments and anyway we have exchange words that can't be erased, we don't live in a perfect world Bella.'' He snapped harshly. I bit my lip.

''Edward, look I know it has nothing to do with me and I have no idea what you have gone though, but I would do anything to speak to my parents again. Grab the chance while you can, trust me, words can be erased.'' I smiled, trying to set a positive tone.

''Bella, look your parents were kind, caring and actually gave a shit about you, mine don't. I hate them Bella.'' He said looking down towards the floor.

''You don't hate them. Please don't talk about them like that. They loved you Edward. Be glad you still have a chance with you parents. I don't. I sighed teary.

''Bella, you don't know how much I hate them. I'm very sorry about you parents death, but you don't know anything about my life. Can't we just leave it at that, I don't want to speak about my past. My present is more important.'' He cut me of. Why was he so unsure about the topic of his parents. How can you hate your own parents? He had changed more than I thought. I was starting not to like the new Edward so much. I preferred the old happy, funny, caring, sarcastic Edward and I would of tried my hardest to get the old Edward back.

''Why do you hate them so much then? Tell me because this isn't making any sense to me!'' I demanded answers.

''Bella! What does it matter? Out of everyone I thought you would understand. My past is my past and that where it stays.'' He snarled.

''You said you would give me answer's you said you would explain your past.'' I said my voice as harsh as his.

''I said I would tell you why I left. I did didn't I?'' His words were softer know but still no where near relaxed.

''Exactly, this is part of your explanation.'' I cut him of.

''Look, I'm tired. Its late. I will in time tell you everything. Ok? I'm going to bed if that's aright?'' He asked. I nodded and he left.

*Edwards POV*

I had to get away from Bella. She demanded to many questions. I knew on one of them I would slip up on. I detested hurting her, lying to her and been so bitter but it had to be done. She was so suborn and she would never give up. I would have to lie to her again and again and that anguished me the most! All I asked for was a peaceful life; I don't deserve on. I wish I could escape my past, but I'm asking for the impossible.

I considered running away. I couldn't my life would be deserted without Bella. No matter how much I tried to move on from Bella, I couldn't. Bella's life has been hell and its all my fault. All the pain and the suffering is my fault… Maybe I was getting a taste of my own medicine.

*Bella's POV*

I couldn't sleep. I lay on my back for ages, eyes staring into space. I tried to block out my thoughts. But the truth was, I was still as confused. Edward explanation didn't add up. I spent most of my time at Edwards when I lived in phoenix. His mother and father seemed pretty happy. There was a lot of things that didn't add up but its probably just me been paranoid. I hope so. I stared aimlessly out of my window, hoping that the rain would act like a lullaby. It didn't. My brain wouldn't switch off. Great.

By the time I'd actually fell asleep it wasn't long before my aggravating alarm woke me up! It took a lot of will power to actually get out of bed. I wasn't up for work today. Edward was awake as well, sitting up straight; eyes wide open focusing on an empty space. I jumped backwards when I first saw him. I wasn't expecting him there.

''Edward?'' I yawned in an puzzled tone. He didn't't acknowledged me. He sat rocking, with a blank expression. My heart was practically thumping though my chest. I'd never seen him in should I state.

''Edward!'' I repeated teary , loudly and in a concerned tone. Still nothing. ''Edward!'' I yelled for a third time. He turned his head in a slow motion movement, his eyes met mine, but her showed no emotion. It was as if he was suffering some type of break down.

''Edward, you scaring me know. Please talk to me.'' I muttered.

''He knows where I am Bella… They have found me. I have to go.'' He intoned. He made no sense. What was he on about? I took a slow step forwards.

''What do you mean Edward?'' I asked, swallowing hard. I could feel the blood pumping through my veins. My palms became sweaty and a long chill ran down my spine.

''I have to go! I can't stay here! Bella they are coming for me.'' He busted into tears and continued rocking backwards and forwards.

''You sat there, Edward and I'll pack you thing.'' I lied grabbing my mobile phone and heading into the hall way. I dialled for an Doctor. The whole room span, I couldn't think or see clearly. I just about managed to explain and give them my address.

I could hear his cries, from behind the door. My heart sank. I couldn't do anything! I could feel a flush entering my face but I stood still. Frozen with emotion and bewilderment. Apprehension flooded through me. What could I say, what do you say to someone in a reckless state?

My hand pressed against the door handle, the coldness felt nice against my clammy palms. I opened it, slowly unsure at what to expect. He was in the same place. Rocking. Backward and forwards. His eyes were intense; they stared at me. The silence made time elongated. I didn't fidget. My eyes dropped to the floor. I couldn't bare to look at him. I shifted my feet and bit my lip. I could see him rocking from the corner of my eye.

''Who's coming for you Edward?'' I found myself asking. My voice was gruff from the dryness of my throat.

''I need to go, I need to go!'' He blurted. He was getting worse. He concealed himself in to the corner of the room and tilted his head back, letting it hit the wall, with a loud thud. I stepped closer to him. Where was the doctor? I got down on to my knees and knelt beside him. He looked so helpless and vulnerable. I felt the need to mother him although a part of me was scared. What had put him in this state?

My eyes filled with tears that slowly, hauntingly trickled down my face, agonisingly letting my sorrows out. Maybe this was my fault. Maybe me seeing him again was to much for him. I stared out of my window, not been able to look at him. The only thing that was helping me relax was the beautiful, delicate splatters of rain. It wasn't the faint sound of the rain hat slipped from the heavens it was the sound of the doctors car pulling up that knocked me out of my trance. I blinked away most of my tears and wiped the remaining tears away with my sleeve. I took in a huge gasp of oxygen and slowly let it out. I waited till the doctor shut his car door and walked over to the front door to let him in.

I thought the knock of the door would make Edward completely freak out, but it didn't. He was in the same position, shaking. The doctor introduced himself as Doctor James. I bit my lip as he crouched down the side of Edward. He wrote something down on a piece of paper before turning to me. He facial expressions showed concern and seriousness. I closed my eyes for a couple of seconds and prepared myself for some bad news.

''I think, Edward is suffering is suffering, from a break down, but we will need to check him over to be one hundred percent sure. If this is the case Edward will be but on medication. Are you aware of any type of stress our any incident that's happened to him in the past?'', He asked. My mind was spinning , I could take anything in properly.

''His parents. Him and his parents have argued in the past, which left him homeless. Look I can't help you. He has only just got here.'' I worried. Everything was such a mess. What about work? I couldn't go into day. I needed to be with Edward. Although, I didn't want to have a day of so early into started woke. I did. I phoned them and quickly explained. They wasn't very happy. My mind was on Edward.

If he had told me everything, maybe I could of explained. It could have been my demanding questions that had put him into this state! This was all my fault.

A/N: Hello again, I hope you liked that. I'm quite happy with the last part. There was a couple of lines in here that took me a long time to come up with. By the way, if you fav/alert my story please review! Anyway please don't forget to review! And I really need a beta reader. Shouts out will be given to my beta reader as well. Thanks for reading; don't for get to review.