A/N: Hi. Well I'm going to start of by saying that we had parents evening and English was my best subject and that I got really good feedback from my teacher, she said something like my story was one of the best and that I have a creative mind and some other things and although my subjects they said something good about my English work. Awesome. I know I'm a geek in English but hey Geeks are cool. Anyway hope you enjoy this chapter I know I haven't updated in a while I have had A LOT on with school work and everything. Sorry. Please read and review. (:

Poisoned Rose

Chapter 10 - Love is a weird thing.

*Edward's POV*

I was never meant to fall for Bella the way I did; everything was supposed to be an act. Slowly but surely though, I fell for her beauty, her personality and just her. Everything about her made me tingle with excitement. I could understand James' anger when Bella turned him down. The truth is that I only set out to hurt Bella; to spy on her. I was just supposed to get her to finally say yes to James. When our plan failed, James wanted me to hurt Bella in any and every way I could.

Killing her parents was what James made me do. He didn't physically force me; he verbally forced me. He would blackmail me until I was blue in the face. I was screwed either way. I knew if I didn't do it, James would find a way to make Bella hate me. When I did finally kill her parents, I lost her anyway; it trapped me. Whatever James and Jane wanted they found a way to get. They controlled me. All they had to do was threaten me about going to the police to make Bella hate me and I would do whatever they wanted.

Jane and James were best friends; nothing more, nothing less. Jane hated the way Bella hurt James and went along with the revenge plan. Jane was just as bad. She acted sweet, kind and caring but under all that she was vicious, scheming and sneaky. I'd grown up with them both and my parents both thought very fondly towards them; little did they know, they had completely ruined my life.

I tried very hard to hide what I was going to do. I never wanted to hurt Bella but I had no choice. She would find out my plan and she'd hate me. I couldn't risk loosing all three of my friends although I ended up loosing them all anyway. It didn't take long to get away from Phoenix, one quick chat with my parents about spending time with our other family in Forks and we went. The stay in Forks was never meant to be permanent although the closer we got to going home the more I dreaded it. I couldn't bear to see Bella with so much grief, pain and torture in her eyes. It made my stomach completely churn just thinking about it.

That's when I decided to get away. I told my mother and father I needed more time and I that Bella needed space. Of course it was me who needed space and time to get my head around everything. That's when I ran away. I knew my parents would return to Phoenix if I stayed with them. If I was lost in Forks, though, here they would have to stay here until they found me. I had very little money and a small bag of clothes that would keep me going for a couple of months- maybe longer, but I no longer had a home. It was just me and a very few belongings. Saying my tearful yet secret goodbyes was the one of the hardest battles I faced.

I snuck away in the middle of the night; I had planned everything in a short amount of time. I left a goodbye note telling my parents not to return to Phoenix because there was too much danger but I also made it clear not to worry about me and mentioned I would be back. Obviously I was stretching the truth; I wouldn't be back. I couldn't face lying to them: not to my parents, and not to Bella. I was running away from everything I had done, everyone I'd destroyed.

I would face being homeless or even dying if it meant I wouldn't have to face the people whose lives I had destroyed. I detested Jane and James. They put my life into perspective for me and made me realize that I was dangerous and would do anything to save my own skin. I was selfish, cruel and disgusting; the people around me deserved better. I couldn't harm anyone else. I wouldn't. I had to do the right thing and leave it all behind. It was hard and wasn't nearly as successful as I planned.

The day Bella found me again had to be the worst, most embarrassing, heart-shattering moment of my life. It bought everything back; all the hurt and heartache I had caused. Why did I move to Forks? Why did I have to choose here to run away? It was a small, low-populated town; the one place Bella wanted to move to when she was ready to start a future. I suppose that was why I did it. I wanted to be close to Bella; I needed to make sure I would never forget her. Seeing her dark-chestnut hair flowing gently in the late night breeze was enough to make me completely fall for her again. Her hopeful, chocolate-brown eyes opened wide in utter shock and disbelief; it made my stomach do tiny little flips. Seeing her was enough to paralyze me momentarily. I was completely and utterly motionless; for a few seconds anyway.

It was a long time before I could, but I did eventually run. I ran away from her for the second time and never looked back; not once. I couldn't see her innocent face twist with anymore torture and grief. I wasn't the type of person to thrive on the pain and suffering of other people: especially Bella.

After a few days I got my head sorted and I told myself I had to at least see her again. I knew she was always the worried type and would probably think that she had somehow upset me. Once I knew she was okay, I would leave again. It wasn't like that though. I never expected her to be so concerned about me that she would actually put a roof over my head. I tried to change her mind; I tried to explain that I could cope but she wouldn't have it and I didn't want to upset her again.

It was nice seeing Bella again; I had to admit that much at least. I truly loved our conversations, our laughs and our shared memories; it was great but it was also painful. Every time I spoke to her I felt like I was betraying her. Every time she asked me a question I felt as if I were falling deeper and deeper into an endless trap of lies and agony.

It took a lot of will power to stay. Each day I wanted to run away but I couldn't leave her again. I had already hurt her so much; I couldn't do it again. She deserved so much better but she refused to see it that way.

Everything with Bella and I was starting to work out reasonably well and I enjoyed our evening chats and our set routine. I knew things wouldn't be perfect. There was no way they could be. It never crossed my mind that Jane and James would find me. I knew they had ways to track me down but I didn't think they really would. When they found me, it was too much for to handle and I snapped. I was ill and couldn't admit it. I wouldn't admit it. It took a long time to finally admit to myself that I was ill. Bella was always nagging at me to take my medication and she always reminded me how ill I was. I hated being told what to do. Look at what happened with James and Jane. It left me in a deep, black, endless hole. I hated being left on my own. I hated Bella leaving by herself and I literally couted down the seconds until she was back home; I was scared they would hurt her. I also hated being alone with James and Jane, I couldn't trust myself but what choice did I have?

When I found out they were back and wanted me to do more horrible, unthinkable things it almost drove me crazy. They wanted me to hurt Bella? They could do anything and I'd be completely powerless but I would risk everything to save Bella. I couldn't hurt her; not physically and definitely no after watching her suffer so much before.

A/N: Hope you liked this chapter. Hopefully you can see my writing is improving, according to my teachers my English writing is. YAY! Big smile. Ok. Could you all answer these questions for me in your review.

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