IMPORTANT A/N: Hi, so this is probably going to be the last up date for a few weeks because on the 23rd of July I'm on holiday for a week then its mine and my Birthday so obviously I am going to try and get my chapters longer. Please make sure you leave a review and most of all please enjoy.

Poisoned Rose

Chapter 11- Love

*Bella's POV*

Edward was back much later than I expected him to be; Of course, I worried about him greatly! I didn't attack him when he walked through the door. I tried to give him freedom. He didn't deserve to be treated like a baby. He was taking his tablets correctly and I felt I did not need to mother him; as much. Of course, my natural instinct to protect him was there, it always had been.

''I'm back,'' He called after shutting the door a little louder than normal. His face was paler than normal, which worried me a little, but I blamed it on the freezing temperature outdoors. I greeted him with a warm smile and he nodded in a way that made Goosebumps appear all over my body.

Obviously I love mine and Edwards friendship, but sometimes friendship just isn't enough. It was something I'd thought about for a long time- taking our relationship further. I was older enough to realise the risk involved in taking it further. It would probably ruin our friendship if anything did go wrong. I didn't want to ruin our friendship, but I couldn't't fight my feelings for him. The desire I felt for him was enough to turn a sane person crazy.

''Edward,'' I found myself saying, as he dumped his socking coat on to the coat beg.

''Yeah,'' He replied, while sitting down carefully, focusing on the seat.

''God, well, this is awkward.'' I chuckled to my embarrassment.

''What is?'' He chuckled with me slightly. ''If you want me to move out, its fine, I knew this time would come,'' He started to blurt.

''Edward, stop, its nothing like that. Its about us.'' I started, as the redness burnt on my cheeks.

''Us?'' He echoed, in a questionable tone.

''Yeah, Edward I have feelings for you that I have never felt for anyone else. I like you more than a friend.'' I smiled sweetly trying to avoid eye contact. I catch a glimpse on him staring down at the floor. I gulped. ''Forget I said anything.'' I broke the silence, harshly.

''Its not that, but what if something went wrong, if we fell out. We would probably never be friends again.'' He spoke so quickly, it was hard to understand what he said.

''But we could be loosing out on something amazing because of risks, fretting about something that might never happen.'' I tried to hide my desperation, although it was hard.

''So what your saying is you want a relationship, with me?'' He sounded almost honoured.

''I was stupid to ask, forget it Edward.'' I blushed, not been able to look at his perfect face.

''Why would you want to spend your life with me?'' He asked ignoring my earlier statement. I was able to look at his unadulterated face. The tint to his golden eyes almost made me hyperventilate. His hair fell faultlessly around his pale face. I had to remind myself to breath on serial occasions .

''Edward who are you kidding seriously? You know why. Do you think I'd search endlessly if I didn't love you?'' The words fell perfectly in to place, creating emotion at exactly the right time.

''Bella, you wouldn't believe how much I love you, how more I desire to be with you, but I can't you deserve so much better than me.'' His words, felt like excuses.

''What if I didn't want better?'' I asked, trying to be clever.

''Then I supposed you would be stuck with me then wouldn't you?'' He chuckled a nervous chuckle.

''So where together then?'' I asked nervously a smile slipped out the corner of my mouth.

''I guess we are.'' He confirmed, his smile took over his face. His smile was something any girl would melt for. My heart started to thump so fast I could almost feel it hitting my rib cage. It wasn't an abnormal effect, he always made me react to him like that. I couldn't bare been a second without seeing his amazing face and perfect figure. Every time I saw him, even for a second, I would fall for him harder and harder. I was addicted to his company and thrived on his personality and my eyes needed his face.

I'd never felt something so intensely that it coursed my stomach to twist. My veins burned when I was near him and my mouth watered at the sight of him. His lips twitched slightly. My body trembled with complete, an utter happiness. I'd never felt so alive and so happy. My life would be nothing but a spec with out him.

''I guess we should have an early night, you have work in the morning.'' He said calmly although his tone suggest something else than just an 'early night.'' I smiled and gathered my things.

''You can sleep in my room if you like, I mean if you don't want to its fine….'' I started to ramble. I always knew having a double bed would be useful than much more than just extra space.

''Sure.'' He interrupted me and stopped me looking and sounding like an idiot. I smiled warmly, yet casually.

His skin brushed against my arm as we both got into bed. My arm tinkled with electric vibes. It was almost impossible to maintain in a stable state. I tried focusing on my breathing, which helped a lot and stopped the dizziness completely taking over my body. Their wasn't any point in even considering sleeping, I knew I wouldn't be able to drop of even for a second. I lay facing away from Edward, instead facing the pale lilac walls, I tried to compose myself. My attempt failed as a recognizable, cold arm wrapped around my waist and pulled me towards Edwards body. I had the sudden urge to scream very loudly, although I manage to turn it into a gentle smile.

I turned my body anxiously to face him. I was surprised to see his eyes wide awake, looking at me. The familiar, pink blush appeared on my face once again. Edward pushed a few strands of hair away from my face, so gently I couldn't even feel it. He then adjusted my face, so that our eyes were parallel with each other.

''I love you.'' He smiled pleasantly, making my body freeze again.

''I love you too.'' I managed to say, astonishingly. His face moved closer to mine, until our lips where practically touching. I found myself mirror-imagining him and also moving closer. His delicate, ice cold lips touched mine. My automatic reacting was for my lips to dissolve into his. The entire room felt as though it was spinning: fastly, strangely and leaving me feel slightly nausea. I had no time to consider my crazy thoughts as I was experiencing the most magical time. Just one kiss send me completely and utterly berserk. Every inch of my body had desired for this moment. images of our incredible, childhood memories flashed, thoroughly, through my mind. My entire body has been took over, like I had no control over my body.

It was over in a matter of seconds but it seemed longer because I sat staring for a long while after. Trying to collect my thoughts of what had just happened. I didn't manage to speak, neither did Edward. His face was paler than ever; I wouldn't be surprised if I had got a few shades lighter myself, if that would have been even possible. I stared aimlessly, let emotionally at his brownie golden, bold eyes. My heart thumped in my stomach and hit against my rib cage. The atmosphere wasn't as awkward as I expected it to be; not that I had expected this to happen, who could? I suddenly felt an uncomfortable dryness in my throat.

''Bella, breath!'' Edward reminded me while startling me at the same time. I didn't jump to my own amazement.

'' Wow!'' I spoke using only my breath. ''Edward are you okay?'' I found the words spilling out of my mouth.

''I'm fine, you? I didn't mean to_'' he started, but I interrupted him, I didn't want him to say something to make the situation awkward.

''Edward, its ok. I liked it,'' I blushed straight away as a realised how desperate and stupid I sounded. Edward chuckled, showing his pure white teeth.

''So did I Bella..'' He had stopped chuckling and was deadly serious. My instant reaction was to smile nervously.

A/N: I wanted to quickly update, because I wont be updating for a few weeks because from the 23rd of July to 2nd of August I wont be updating because I have a holiday and mine and families birthday. Please review.