Don't Ever Look Back Chapter 12, a glee fanfic

Hi! The songs I used for this chapter are Behind This Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson and Shut Up! By Simple Plan. Enojy!

"Do you want me to fire him?"

"No, dad" Alma said, and then she sighed. She was having dinner at her parent's house, and she had just told them about the situation with Brad.

"I know how you feel, honey" Emma said, putting a hand on her daughter's shoulder. "When you father and I weren't together yet, he was married, and I…"

"Yes, but you knew that I was married" William interrupted her "In this case, he kept it from her. Seriously, don't you want me to fire him?"

"No, dad!" Alma sighed again, playing with her spaghetti. "It's just that… I liked him so much, you know?"

William and Emma exchanged worried looks. They knew that their daughter tended to develop feelings for people too fast, and most of the time she ended up heart-broken.

"Alma" William said, and she looked at him "If you need anything, you know that your mother and I will always be there for you."

Alma smiled, and she took William's hand.

"Thanks, dad"

Sam looked up from her book, and she met Elizabeth's blue eyes. She smiled.

"Were you staring at me?"

Elizabeth blushed.

"Maybe" she muttered, and Sam laughed. "It's your fault! You're just too beautiful!"

Sam kissed her girlfriend, softly. She pulled away, smiling.

"If you only knew how much time I spend looking at you…" Sam whispered, caressing Elizabeth's cheek with her knuckles.

Elizabeth blushed even more, and Sam smiled. Her girlfriend was the most adorable thing in this world. She still blushed every time that Sam complimented her.

"You're amazing" Elizabeth said "I love you"

"I love you too" Sam said, and they kissed again.

"Aw, you're so cute!"

Both girls turned around, surprised. Blaine was standing in the doorway of Elizabeth's bedroom, with the house phone on his hand.

"Dad!" Elizabeth exclaimed, from where she was seating on her bed with Sam "Knock-the-freakin'-door!"

"Adam's on the phone" Blaine said, ignoring her. Elizabeth took the phone.

"Hi, Adam!" she said cheerfully.

"Hi, Lizzie! How's my little sister doing?"

"Fine. I'm studying with Sam. Do you want to say hi to her?"

"Sure!"

Elizabeth handed the phone to Sam.

"Hi, Adam! How you doing?" she said.

"Hi, Sam! Are you taking care of my little sister?"

"Of course" Sam winked at Elizabeth.

"That's good to hear" Adam said.

"Give me the phone!" Elizabeth said, taking it from Sam's hands "Hey, Adam, I need to tell you something important."

"Not now, I gotta go." The boy said. "I'll call you tomorrow, okay?"

"Okay. Say hi to Aunt Rachel and Uncle Finn!"

"I will. Bye, take care!"

"Bye, Adam."

Elizabeth hung up the phone and gave it back to Blaine.

"Okay, I'll leave you girls to "study" for the test" Blaine said, using air quotations. He winked at them and left.

Elizabeth rolled her eyes and sat on her bed again, facing Sam. She took her book and placed it open on top of her crossed legs.

"What did you want to say to Adam?" Sam asked.

"Nothing important"

"Is it about Barbra and Jonathan?"

Elizabeth looked at Sam, who was raising her eyebrows at her. She sighed and nodded.

"I knew it!" Sam exclaimed.

"Barbra and I had a fight yesterday."

"Because she sang that song to Jonathan?"

"Yeah" Elizabeth sighed "Sam, she's just using him to forget about Adam!"

"How do you know that?"

"I know her."

"Lizzie, you don't know how she feels" Sam said, taking her hands "And, let's face it, probably Jonathan is the best for Barbra"

"But…"

"I know that you're trying to help, but you're only making Barbra feel bad. She always listens to what you say, because she admires you." Sam said "I think that you should support her, no matter who she chooses to be with."

Elizabeth looked down, and then she nodded.

"Okay. But I'm still a little mad, so…"

"You don't have to fix everything with her right now. Give it some time, okay?"

"Okay"

Sam smiled at Elizabeth, and she smiled back.

"Now, we should study, or we're going to fail this stupid test" Sam said, opening her book too.

"SECTIONALS"

Alma looked at her students. The word was written in the whiteboard behind her.

"Guys, sectionals are not too far away" she said "I think we should prepare"

Most of the kids seemed to be excited, but some others looked like they were about to throw up, especially Jonathan. Barbra put a hand on his arm and smiled at him. He smiled weakly, but he still looked pale.

"I was thinking that we should do a duet and a group number" Alma said.

The kids nodded and smiled. Elizabeth raised her hand.

"Sam and I could do the duet" she said, and Sam nodded "Our voices sound awesome together"

"No, Jonathan and I should do it" Barbra said, glaring at Elizabeth. Jonathan looked at her, terrified.

"Jonathan can't even sing in front of people" Elizabeth said, glaring at Barbra too, and Jonathan nodded.

"He can learn" Barbra said.

"Um, actually, I don't think I can." Jonathan said.

"Yes, you can" Barbra said.

"You're putting pressure on him!" Elizabeth said.

"Girls!" Alma said "Barbra, I think Elizabeth and Sam should do the duet. Their voices sound perfect together." Barbra sighed "I'm not saying that Jonathan and you don't sound awesome, because you do. But Jonathan is too shy. He barely sings in front of us."

Jonathan shot Barbra an apologetic look.

"I'm sorry" he said.

"It's okay" Barbra smiled.

"Girls" Alma said, looking at Sam and Elizabeth "Why don't you bring me some song suggestions?"

"Okay" Sam said, and Elizabeth nodded.

"As for the group number, I'm not sure about which song are we going to perform, or who'll get to sing. I'll tell you tomorrow, okay?" Alma said. "Also, I know whom are we going to compete against at Sectionals."

The kids made excited exclamations, and Alma smiled.

"We're going against Physical Melody, from the Ashton Dance Academy and Sweet Harmony from the Saint Lucas High School."

"A dance academy? That's gonna be tough" James said.

"From what I've heard, their vocals are not very special, but their dancing is obviously outstanding" Alma said "As for Sweet Harmony, I've heard them perform once, and they sound really good. But they don't move. At all"

"Well, we sound pretty awesome too" Spencer pointed out "And Hannah and Anna are amazing dancers"

The twins smiled proudly.

"You're right. But I think our choreography can't be too complicated" Sam said "After all, Hannah and Anna are way better dancers than the rest of us."

"I have an idea" Alma said "Girls, would you like to be the main dancers during the group number?" she asked to the twins.

"Of course!" both girls said at the same time.

"So, we'll have Sam and Lizzie doing the duet, and Hannah and Anna dancing during the group number." David said "We can't lose!"

The kids erupted in approving exclamations and laughter. They started to talk about songs that they could possibly sing for Sectionals, and who should get a solo during the group number. Alma smiled. Her kids looked so motivated…

Barbra looked at her watch. She was late for class, so she started to walk faster. The girl saw a jock coming towards her, with a big slushie in his hand. Barbra closed her eyes, waiting for the ice to hit her face. But it never did. She opened one eye, slowly.

"Jonathan!" she exclaimed.

The boy was in front of her, covered in red ice. The jock was walking away, laughing. Jonathan shivered.

"Oh, my God, it's cold…" he whispered, wiping some slushie from his face.

"Come" Barbra said, dragging him towards the bathroom.

Once they were there, the girl helped Jonathan to clean up his face and clothes. While Jonathan removed the ice from his hair, Barbra asked:

"Did you take that slushie for me?"

"Yeah" Jonathan smiled a little.

"That's…" Barbra couldn't find the words to express her gratitude towards the boy "Thank you, that was…"

"Don't worry. It was cherry flavored, anyway. I love cherry." Jonathan joked.

Barbra laughed. She wiped away the last remains of slushie from his face. Jonathan took her hand and looked at her in the eyes. Barbra could feel her heart racing because of the boy's intense gaze.

"Jonathan…" she tried to say, but she couldn't.

She couldn't, because the boy kissed her before she could finish her sentence. Barbra widened her eyes, surprised. But then, she relaxed, enjoying the feeling of Jonathan's soft lips against her own, the way that he cupped her face with his hand, his fragrance, that was more intense now that he was that close to her.

Jonathan pulled away, too quickly, Barbra thought. She looked at him for a moment, his flushed cheeks, his blue eyes, shiny and beautiful.

"I'm sorry!" he said.

"For what?"

"For kissing you. It's just that you looked so…kissable!"

Barbra smiled at him. She kissed him again, and when they parted she looked at him straight in the eyes.

"You can kiss me anytime you want" she said.

Jonathan smiled brightly, and so did Barbra.

"Um… I think we should get back to classes" the boy said.

"Okay"

After a moment of hesitation, Jonathan held out his hand for Barbra to take it. She did, and they walked away, hand in hand.

Elizabeth was looking for songs in her iPod that they could sing for Sectionals, and Sam was sitting next to her. They were in the choir room.

"What about "I'll cover you"?" Sam asked.

"I don't know, it's too… predictable" Elizabeth said.

"What are you doing?" Lucy asked.

"We're looking for songs we could sing for Sectionals" Sam explained.

"Um…" Lucy thought about it for a little while "Well, there're a lot of songs you could sing. You always sing together."

"Yes, but this time has to be spectacular!" Elizabeth exclaimed, smiling.

"Have you talked to Barbra?" Sam asked.

"I tried" Elizabeth said "But she doesn't want to talk to me. And every time I tried to approach her, she's with Jonathan."

In that moment, Barbra and Jonathan stepped into the choir room, holding hands. Elizabeth frowned and looked at Sam, who raised her eyebrows at Barbra's impeccable timing. Barbra and Elizabeth exchanged glares, and Barbra sat far from her, next to Jonathan.

"Lizzie, are you okay?" Sam asked, seeing that Elizabeth looked like she was about to kill someone.

"I'm fine"

"Okay guys, let's start!" Alma said "Sectionals are in a week, we can't lose any time!"

"Do you know what are we going to sing?" Anna asked.

"Yes, I do" Alma said "I also know who's going to sing which part, but first" she turned to look at Elizabeth and Sam "Girls, do you know what you're going to sing?"

"Not really, Miss Schue."

"Don't worry, I'll help you pick a song. Now, for the group number…"

The kids had left, and Alma was alone in the choir room, looking at some music sheets.

"Alma"

She turned around. Brad was standing in the doorway. Alma stood up from her chair and picked up her bag. She walked towards the door, ready to leave. Brad stopped her, taking her hand gently.

"Please, I want to talk with you."

"There's nothing to talk about, Brad" Alma said "You lied to me, and you lied to your wife."

"We're not together anymore, Alma!"

"I don't care! Go away!" Alma exclaimed.

"Please, listen to me…"

"I thought you were different!" Alma said, and Brad stopped talking. "I thought that you could be the one I could fall in love with, without getting hurt." She looked at him, and Brad saw the tears in her hazel eyes "But I was wrong."

Alma looked down again, and they both remained silent.

"I'm sorry" Brad said finally "I'm really, really sorry. I understand if you can't forgive me, or if you don't want to see me again. But I want you to know that I'm sorry."

Alma shook her head, and he kept talking.

"What I felt for you was real. And I still feel it. I'm sorry, Alma."

He left, leaving Alma alone in the doorway. She sat in the piano bench and sighed. Alma blinked her tears away, because she didn't want to cry anymore. She felt so silly, ending up heart broken again. Softly, she started to sing.

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong

She stood up, and walked around the choir room, singing.

Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Alma sang the chorus, loudly, and she felt the tears returning to her eyes.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

She exited the choir room, and walked down the empty hallway, singing.

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside

She closed her eyes, leaning on a wall.

'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Her beautiful voice flooded the hallway, as the students started to come out from their classrooms, ignoring her.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Alma kept singing, while she walked towards the football field.

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Anymore...

She looked at Brad, who was talking with the boys of the football team. He didn't noticed her, as she sang the chorus again.

Alma turned around and walked away. The students were returning to their classrooms.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Alma stood alone in the middle of the hallway. She sang the last line, and a single tear ran down her cheek.

Behind these hazel eyes...

"Barbra, wait!"

Elizabeth grabbed Barbra by the wrist, before she could get inside her bedroom. Barbra looked at her.

"I want to talk to you"

"About what? Are you going to tell me what to do again? Or are you going to tell me that my feelings are a bunch of lies?"

"No, I want to apologize to you. I'm sorry."

"Are you?" Barbra said "Wow, that's unexpected! I thought that everything you say is true. In that case, it's not necessary to apologize."

"Stop it, would you?" Elizabeth was starting to feel angry "I'm trying to apologize, and all you do is acting like an asshole."

"Oh, so now I am the asshole!" Barbra exclaimed.

"I was just trying to help you!"

"No, you weren't! If you were trying to help me, you would have told me what is really the best for me, not what you want it to be!"

"Barbra, you know that's not true!"

"Yes, it is! Stop treating me like an idiot!"

"Well, you are an idiot!"

Both girls looked like they wanted to punch each other. They had never had a fight like that. Barbra stepped towards Elizabeth, their faces almost touching

"And you are a selfish bitch!" Barbra yelled.

Elizabeth remained silent, but she was dying on the inside. Barbra regretted her words immediately, but it was done. She just stood there, waiting for Elizabeth to yell back, or to hit her, or something. But she didn't. When she finally answered, it was in a quiet voice, with a neutral expression.

"The only selfish bitch here is you, playing with everyone feelings."

They glared at each other for a moment, and they turned around. Both girls stomped into their bedrooms, and slammed the door shut at the same time.

Kurt jumped when he heard both doors being slammed. He looked at Blaine, who was sitting in the couch next to him.

"Maybe we should have interfered." Kurt said, worried "They never had a fight like that."

"They have to fix it by themselves. Though I don't really know the reason of their fight, it seems pretty serious."

Both men went silent, worried about the girls.

Barbra took her iPod and the speakers that were on her desk. She opened the door of Elizabeth's room without knocking. She looked at her from her bed.

"What the hell are you doing?" Elizabeth asked, as Barbra plugged the speakers and the iPod.

Barbra ignored her, and she pressed the play button. As the intro sounded, she turned around to look at Elizabeth, who looked confused and angry at the same time. Barbra started to sing, walking slowly towards her, with her eyes fixed on her cousin.

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you
You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me

Elizabeth stood up, indignant. Barbra kept walking towards her, singing.

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

Barbra practically shouted the chorus, furious. Elizabeth was looking at her, with a deadly glare that would make every mortal want to hide in a recondite place.

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Elizabeth sang the next verse, and this time, she walked towards Barbra.

There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do
You think you're special
But I know, and I know
And I know, and we know
That you're not

Barbra opened the door and walked backwards to exit the room, looking at Elizabeth, who kept singing and walking towards her.

You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

They sang the chorus together, glaring intensely at each other.

Barbra sang the next verse.

Don't tell me who I should be
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away

Both of them sang the chorus again.

The girls kept singing. Elizabeth turned around to return to her bedroom, covering her ears.

Shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Elizabeth closed the door, and Barbra sang by herself, looking at the door like she wanted to cut a hole in it with her eyes.

Bring me down

Elizabeth sang from her room.

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Barbra sang the next line.

Won't bring me down

Elizabeth sang again

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Barbra walked towards her own room, singing.

Bring me down

Elizabeth flopped on her bed, singing.

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Barbra flopped on her bed too, and sang.

Won't bring me down

Finally, they both sang the last part together.

Shut up, shut up, shut up

Kurt looked at Blaine once again, while the music faded.

"Okay, maybe we should interfere before they kill each other" Blaine said.

"So, you tried to talk to her, you ended up having an enormous fight, you went to your respective rooms, then she came into your room, she started to sing, you sang with her, you locked yourselves in your rooms again, and know you don't talk to each other at all?"

"Basically"

Sam sighed. Elizabeth grabbed a chip from the bag that was on top of Sam's desk, where she was sitting. Sam was sitting on her bed.

"Are you kidding me?" Sam exclaimed. "I thought that you were going to fix everything!"

"I tried, but Barbra and I are a little…temperamental."

Sam sighed again. Elizabeth rose from her seat, and she sat in front of Sam.

"Are you mad at me?" she asked.

"No, I'm not mad at you. I just think that you're really, really stubborn"

Elizabeth laughed softly, and so did Sam.

"I have good news" Sam said "I found a song that we can sing at Sectionals"

"Really?" Elizabeth asked cheerfully.

"Yeah, it's…"

Elizabeth's phone started to ring. It was Lucy.

"Hello?"

"Lizzie, have you checked your Facebook?"

"No, why?"

"You should do it"

"Okay"

Elizabeth hung up the phone and sat in the desk, in front of Sam's laptop. She logged in on Facebook, and when the front page loaded, Sam could see her eyes widening.

"What happened?" she asked. She stood behind her and looked at the screen. She blinked a couple times "Barbra Hudson is now in a relationship with Jonathan St. James?" Sam read out loud.

Elizabeth remained silent, looking at the screen. Then, she closed the laptop and stood up.

"What's the song then?" she asked.

"Lizzie…"

"We should practice" Elizabeth interrupted her.

Sam nodded. Maybe they could talk about it some other time.

"What's wrong, Little Porcelain? You seem a little distracted today" Sue asked.

Elizabeth, who was about to leave the gym in her Cheerio uniform, looked at her.

"Oh, it's nothing."

"When you're upset, you make the same face Porcelain makes." Sue said "So, tell me, what is it?"

"Well, Sectionals are coming, and I'm kinda nervous about it" Elizabeth said.

"You don't have to be nervous, Little Porcelain. You're going to kick their asses." Sue affirmed.

Elizabeth laughed.

"Thank you, coach. But, why do you care so much?"

"You're my star performer. I can't let you be decentralized."

"Okay. Goodbye, coach" Elizabeth said with a smile.

The girl exited the gym.

"Hello"

Elizabeth jumped when someone talked next to her. She turned around. It was Natasha, who was leaning on the wall, looking at her.

"Damn it, you scared me" Elizabeth said.

"Oh, I'm sorry" Natasha said sarcastically.

"If you don't mind, I have more interesting things to do" Elizabeth said, walking away. But she didn't get to far when Natasha talked to her again.

"If I were you, I would take care. Maybe you won't be able to compete at Sectionals."

Elizabeth frowned at her. She turned around and walked away quickly. The girl didn't notice Natasha glaring at her until she was no longer visible.

I need some songs for the kids to perform at Sectionals, so suggestions will be much appreciated :) A big thanks to all of you for reading my story, it means a lot to me!