Hey guys, haven't updated in a while, I'm just going by memory here so I had to rewrite the whole chapter. My computer should be back to normal next week hopefully so I'll start writing again. (:

I can't say that you should enjoy this chapter, it's not a particularly nice chapter, sorry if any content offends anyone, it's for Fiction purposes only.

R&R.

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Wake up, it's time little girl, wake up
All the best of what we've done is yet to come
Wake up, it's time little girl, wake up
Just remember who I am in the morning
Losing Your Memory - Jakub Hübner

Chapter 46 – A Beautiful Nightmare
JPOV

I paced nervously in the large room, waiting for someone to call me to tell me it's time. I can't explain what was going through my mind at that moment. All I knew was that I wanted to marry her as soon as possible. My hands shook as I adjusted and readjusted the cufflinks on my suit jacket. Trust Alice to pick the most impossible suit to put on. Luckily I had Jasper and Emmett who were more than experienced with Alice's 'taste'.

The door inched open and I caught a glimpse of her. She was flawless in everyway. Her body fitted with ease into the mother of all wedding dresses, flowing freely around her natural curves. I took in the sight of her before grinning at my future wife.

"Hey! What are you doing in here? Don't you know its bad luck for the groom to see the bride before the wedding?" I smiled and she timidly closed the door, peering out slightly before shutting it completely. I walked towards her, feeling her eyes on me as I smiled, I could tell something was up. She hugged me tightly before she said anything and just inhaled peacefully. "Ness, what's wrong?" I asked, scared that she'd somehow gotten cold feet.

"Nothing." She flashed her best smile towards me, "I just wanted to tell you how much I love you." She said again and leaned her head against my chest. I hugged her closely, wanting to savour this moment. "I love you so much." She whispered tenderly and I instinctively wrapped my arms around her. Something was wrong, I could feel it.

"I love you too." I chuckled and pulled her face back to examine it. There was something in her eyes, the gleam was gone and it felt like I was staring into a dark hole. I knew her better than anyone, and I knew that something wasn't right. "It's just you and me now." I reassured, feeling the weight of her uncertainty on my chest. She just nodded comfortingly.

"Just you and me." She whispered back. "You look so handsome." She spotted my collar and the bow tie I so helplessly tried to tie together and smiled before reaching her small hands up and straightening it for me.

"You look so beautiful." I smiled while she flattened my collar. She reached up to place a soft kiss on my lips and that's when I knew something was wrong. I kissed her back, trying to decipher everything in my head. Her lips lingered on mine and I opened my eyes to find her squeezing hers shut as if she was trying to hold out a nightmare.

With the parting of our lips, she exited the room, not looking back for fear of something that I hadn't figured out yet. I paced across the room even more distraught then I was beforehand. Had she been nervous before? Had I said something? Done something? Not done something?

I replayed the two days in my head, they were perfect. I'm sure it was just cold feet. I could feel it though, that spark that connected me to her was telling me that everything was wrong with this situation. I tried to push it to the back of my mind, scared that I was being paranoid.

"Hey, Jake, it's time to go." Jasper called me and smiled. I took a deep breath before walking out of that room with the utmost confidence. I was getting married to the girl of my dreams today.

As I walked down the isle of fluttering rose petals, the thought just wouldn't leave my mind. What was bugging her? I stared into the faces of friends and family as I stood on the podium under the arch of white flowers and waited for my bride to be.

The music started and my heart started racing uncontrollably as the thought I'd witnessed a hundred times in my mind was about to become a reality.

"Don't choke." Embry laughed and I smacked his arm, shutting him up nicely in the process.

And that's when I saw her emerge, the most beautiful woman I had ever had the pleasure of witnessing was about to walk down that isle to meet me. Her eyes trailed the floor as she took in the decorations before they finally met mine. She looked around the room and smiled at Bella and the rest of her family before her eyes locked on Damien's face. He stared at her with a smile on his face, he was too happy for someone who was about to watch the girl he loved get married.

Edward leaned his head in a whispered something in her ear and her tense fists relaxed at her sides. When they finally got to the podium, he kissed her gently on the cheek and I heard her whisper, "I love you, daddy." Before kissing his cheek and letting his arms go to take mine. She wouldn't look up at me though. Her eyes were fixated on the floor and her palms were much too cold for her own good.

Under the makeup, I could see the paleness of her face and the hollowness of her eyes as if she hadn't slept. Her eyes trailed back up and I smiled, wanting to reassure her that everything would be okay.

"We are here today in the presence of family and friends to share with Bride and Groom the most important moment in their lives." Carlisle started and looked at us before looking at the audience in front of us. "Love is something beyond the excitement of romance and being in love. It is a committed, thoughtful decision. Love is nurturing. Love is listening. Love is caring about your partner. Love lightens burdens because you divide them. Love intensifies joys because you share them." I squeezed her little hands as I heard her heart start beating rapidly. "Love is something beyond the excitement of romance and being in love. It is a committed, thoughtful decision. Love is nurturing. Love is listening. Love is caring about your partner. Love lightens burdens because you divide them. Love intensifies joys because you share them." I smiled, hiding the concern I felt, something was going on and I didn't know what it was.

She looked to her side as if trying to see someone through her peripheral vision. She was so deep in thought; I don't even think she paid attention to anything Carlisle had just said. "Do you, Jacob Black, take this woman to be your wedded wife, to love her, comfort her, honour and keep her, and forsaking all others, for so long as you both shall live?" Carlisle turned to me and I smiled at her.

"I do." She looked at me so shocked as if she was expecting me to say no. It was almost like she wanted me to say no.

"Do you, Renesmee Cullen, take this man to be your wedded husband, to love him, comfort him, honour and keep him, and forsaking all others, for so long as you both shall live?" I looked at her, feeling the weight of her uncertainty sitting in my gut waiting to implode the moment she confessed that she couldn't do it.

"I-I can't do this. I'm sorry." She didn't look up at me, instead she ran out, "Please don't follow me." She said to the crowd as she ran. My mind hadn't registered what had happened yet. Everything was starting to go blurry. The sounds of their talking became a dull roar in the back of my mind and I sank to my knees unwillingly, feeling my knees give out.

"Jacob." Embry said, I just shook my head. "Jacob?" he said again and the entire pack surrounded me, Sam put a reassuring hand on my shoulder, "I'll go talk to Edward and see what's going on." He said and I just knelt there unable to process anything.

This was wrong. She would have never walked out on me now. This was wrong. Everything was wrong. Something in my gut told me that I had to go after her. She was my imprint. She loved me, she was everything to me. She wouldn't have left me at the alter. I could hear the people around me calling my name, trying to get me out of my stupor but I ignored them, trying to piece together everything in my mind.

Had someone said something to her? She was fine, wasn't she? I tried to think about everything leading up to the wedding. The way that she was so tense, the fact that she came into the room to tell me she loved me. The way that her hands shook and the paleness of her skin… the way her dark brown eyes held nothing but misery. I felt like I was missing something.

And that's when I realised that Damien was nowhere in sight.

RPOV

I sprinted out of the house like there was no tomorrow. I headed into the dark, feeling the cold hit my skin and give me goosebumps as I ran. The howling winds ripped through the silence and I sobbed. My eyes blurred with the tears and my hair began to come loose with every stride I took.

I ran into the forest, feeling my dress get caught on each little branch and twig that I passed but not caring. I would be in tatters by the time I got to where he wanted me to be. I couldn't think of what they must be thinking or what Jacob must be feeling. How could I do that to him? How could I have been so selfish as to trust Damien and let him into my life? How could I have been so stupid?

I pushed the leaves out of my way to clear my vision and slipped my heels off, throwing them behind me, not caring where they landed and who found them. The tears were flowing freely from my miserable eyes, I couldn't see where I was going but I wouldn't stop running for anything. I was doing this for them, for the people I love. I couldn't be selfish anymore.

I thought about all the things I was leaving behind as I ran, I thought about mornings with my parents and the evenings with my family. The nights with Jacob and the days with grandpa. I thought about everyone. I never got to tell Grandpa Charlie just how much I loved him before I left and I probably never will. I tried to focus on running but I found myself slowing down, wanting to turn back, wanting to tell them everything but I knew I couldn't and I had to keep moving forward.

By the time I got to where he wanted me to be, he was already there, how he moved so fast? I had no idea. The only thing I was certain of was that this would be the beginning of the end of my life.

"You're late." He said and tapped the silver watch on his wrist. He walked up to me slyly as I tried to catch my breath. "You look stunning." He smiled and pulled my arm, forcing me to move closer to him. He traced my face gingerly with his index finger, smiling at the fear he saw in my eyes. "We should go. I have a car waiting for us." He smiled and took my hand before running off, dragging me with him to whatever hell-hole he had waiting for us.

"Where are you taking me?" My voice shook with anger and fear as he shoved me into the black Audi he'd received so kindly from my grandfather.

"You'll see." He grinned and got into the passenger seat. He started the engine and it was as silent as a hummingbird's wings, making nothing but the tiniest drone to break the eerie silence of the night.

I sobbed silently, scared that if I made any noise he would do something to hurt me. I was a prisoner to him and there was nothing I could do about it. There was nothing I could say that would change anything.

He sped down a deserted road and I watched as the forest beside us became nothing but a green mesh in the dark. I watched as civilisation slowly amounted to nothing but dirt. I watched as the buildings decayed the further we went and I felt as though they were depicted my life. My life was slowly decaying and I couldn't stop it.

We stopped outside a deserted warehouse, the roads along the sides seemed long and the only place to run was into the forest, I had no idea where I was, I had no means of contacting anyone, I couldn't run even if I wanted to.

"Stay put." His voice was low and he glared at me as if daring me to move. He got out of the car and locked it, not that it would keep me from trying to break free, a car door was nothing compared to what I could punch through. I looked at him walk into the building, waiting until he was completely out of sight trying to push the door open. Whoever invented cars that didn't have manual locks on the inside wasn't very bright at all.

I heard the click of the car door break free from it's trap and the door slowly started to inch open. I looked back, trying to see whether he was coming. Despite not being able to run anywhere, I was sure as hell going to try.

I got out of the car, staying low as if using it as a shield. I couldn't let him see me, I stared through the windows, carefully making my way across the gravel and towards the forest on the other side of the road. I was almost to the road when I felt a cold body press against my back.

"Going somewhere?" An unfamiliar voice cooed. I spun around and found myself staring into the red eyes of a very amused vampire. I suddenly felt as though Damien's presence was a lot safer than this new vampire's. My mouth was slightly gaping, unable to react to this frightening man in front of me. "So scared…" He observed and touched my face, taking in my tear stained cheeks, "It's so tempting." He grinned and pushed my face to the side.

I was suddenly afraid that Damien had left me here with this stranger and the thought sent chills down my spine, enough to send a rush of adrenaline to my head and cause me to run. I didn't get very far before the same cold monster pulled me back and shoved me into the hard gravel on the road. He tried to come near me and I kicked my legs at him, attempting to defend myself. "Feisty, are we?" He chuckled and bent over me, restraining my legs from kicking him or even moving at all. "You half-breeds usually are." He laughed again and began unbuckling his belt.

My breath caught in my throat as I registered what was going to happen. "Get off me!" I screamed and put as much effort as I could into trying to break free from him grip. It was no use and I began to sob, "No!" I shouted and he pushed my legs apart.

"I told you to stay in the car." Damien growled and picked the unknown man off me, "And I told you to keep your hands off her." He snarled towards the red-eyed monster.

"I was just having a bit of fun." He chuckled and Damien shoved him to the gravel, glaring at him until he had stopped laughing and began running in the opposite direction. "What the hell do you not understand about staying in the car?" He picked me up off the road and dragged me by my arm towards the warehouse where he shoved me onto the hard wooden floor.

I was too traumatised to say anything; instead, I started sobbing quietly. Was this what my life was going to be like? Was this what Damien was like? As he walked towards me with a sly grin on his face, it seemed I was going to find out.

"That scent of yours is very hard to resist." He smiled devilishly, "I can see why Castor out there couldn't help himself. You are simply too tempting for your own good." He picked my face up in his hands before dragging my body up and pushing me against the dark walls. The whole warehouse was dark, it felt pitch black as though closing my eyes would present no contrast at all but I tried, I tried to wake myself up from this horrible nightmare.

"Please…" Was all I could manage. I tried not to think about what was going to happen or how it was going to happen instead, I imagined Jake and everything suddenly brightened behind my eyes.

"I didn't expect you to be this beautiful." He cooed softly, almost purring in my ear while his hands traced my body roughly, he tore the material on the skirt of my dress and exposed the cold air to my warm legs. He kissed my neck and I shivered, holding back the tears that were now streaming down my face.

I heard the button on his jeans unlatch and the zip go down. I couldn't look. Instead I turned my head to the side and tried to stay as still as possible, hoping that if I didn't move, I wouldn't feel it. I closed my eyes and imagined Jake here instead. I imagined how perfect my life with Jacob would have been. How he would come home from work in his garage and smell of grease, just the way I always remembered. He would hold me and kiss me and everything would be just fine. I thought about how easily I could've lived with Jacob, how everything was better when I was with Jacob, how the red-brown wolf I'd grown to love was my protector in everyway.

I got so lost in my fantasy that I didn't realise that Damien had let go and was now on the ground, getting torn apart by that same red-brown wolf.

3-4 more chapters to go. D:
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