Don't Ever Look Back Chapter 19, a glee fanfic

Hi! I had fun writing this chapter, I hope you like it :3 The songs I used are Everything I'm Not by The Veronicas and The Coolest Girl from A Very Potter Musical.

Suddenly, Elizabeth felt her body hit the lockers painfully. When she looked up, she saw two jocks walking away, laughing. The girl followed them, furious.

"Hey!" she exclaimed.

Both boys turned to look at her.

"Who the hell do you think you are?" Elizabeth said "You can't just push people around!"

"Uh, yeah we can" one of the jocks said, sneering.

"Especially people like you" the other one said "Glee Club loser!"

When the girl was about to answer, they pushed her again, and she almost fell to the floor. Elizabeth was about to explode, but she did her best to content her anger.

"Are you mad?" the boy asked.

"Tell your little girlfriend to rescue you!"

The jocks walked away, laughing. Elizabeth closed her eyes and breathed heavily trough her nose. She jumped when someone touched her shoulder.

"Are you okay?"

It was a girl she had never seen before. She had a worried look on her face.

"Yeah, I'm fine" Elizabeth tried to smile "Thanks"

The girl nodded and smiled at her. Elizabeth turned around and walked to her next class, still filled with anger.

Steven leaned forward to kiss Hannah in the lips, but she moved her face so the boy kissed her on the cheek instead.

"Bye!" she said, before she ran away.

Steven stood in the middle of the hallway, alone. He sighed.

"Hey, we have Math together!" James said, walking towards him. He noticed his friend's expression, and frowned, concerned "Dude, what's wrong?"

"It's nothing" Steven said, as they both entered the classroom.

"It's not nothing" James said, and he sat down.

"Hannah is too shy" Steven said, as he sat down too "I think it's adorable, but she doesn't even want to hold hands! A few moments ago I tried to kiss her, and she looked away so my kiss would land on her cheek!"

"Well, Hannah's really shy with boys" James said "Anna told me she's always been like this"

"I know" Steven said "I feel like an idiot."

"Why?"

"I feel like I'm forcing her to do something she doesn't want to do…"

"Give her some time until she feels more comfortable around you" James said.

"I guess I'll do that…" Steven sighed.

Barbra was looking at the teacher, but she wasn't hearing a word of what she was saying. Instead, she was thinking of something else, completely unrelated to the periodic table.

"I want to find someone who makes me as happy as you would've made me"

Adam's voice kept echoing inside her head. Those words he had said a couple days ago were etched in her mind, and Barbra couldn't stop thinking about the conversation they had in the kitchen. Why did it bother her so much?

"You found someone that makes you happy, and I think that's wonderful"

Adam deserved to be happy too, and as long as he continued to love Barbra, that wouldn't be possible. Or was it possible? No, it wasn't. They were cousins, there was absolutely no way that…

"Miss Hudson!"

The voice of the teacher snapped her out of her absorption. Barbra looked up, and she found the woman frowning at her.

"Miss Hudson, were you paying any attention to what I was saying?" she asked.

"Yes, of course" Barbra said.

"Then why did I have to call your name at least five times?"

"Well…" Barbra found no valid answer, much to the teacher's annoyance.

"Stop daydreaming and pay attention to the class, would you?" the teacher said, turning back.

"Yes, Ms. Barks"

David yawned and looked at his watch. He buried his head in his arms and sighed.

"Really, why are we here again?" he asked.

"You're free to go if you want to" Kevin said, without taking his eyes from the book he was reading.

"I have nowhere else to go" David said "Lucy missed today, she's sick."

"Well, there are plenty of things you can do in a library" Kevin said "Like reading, for example"

"The school library doesn't have any interesting books" David stood up "I'm going to hang out with Lizzie and Sam"

When he was about to walk away, Spencer ran towards them, with an armful of magazines.

"Dude, I found Cosmopolitans!" he exclaimed.

"Cool!" David said, sitting down again "Why are there Cosmopolitans in the school library?"

"Who cares?" Spencer said.

"What's so special about those magazines?" Kevin asked, raising his eyebrows.

"Hot chicks in the cover!" Spencer said.

Kevin rolled his eyes at his friends and kept reading. But he was interrupted once again by Spencer.

"Look, Kevin, your mother-in-law is in this one!"

"My mother-in-law? What are you talking about?"

Spencer showed him the magazine. Santana was smiling at them from the cover, wearing a short black dress.

"Yeah, isn't she Gloria's mom?" David said, looking at the cover.

"Yeah" Kevin said "That doesn't make her my mother-in-law"

David and Spencer rolled their eyes.

"I told you a thousand times: Gloria and I are just friends!"

"Come on, dude!" Spencer said "You're always texting and talking on the phone with her"

"Well, friends usually do that" Kevin said, returning his eyes to his book.

"Don't you like her?" David asked.

"Well, yeah" Kevin said "But she lives in Chicago. Besides, I don't want to have a girlfriend right now"

David and Spencer exchanged glances before they kept leafing through the magazines, talking and pointing at every cute girl they found.

"Hey, Barbra!"

Barbra turned around to see Elizabeth running towards her. Barbra closed her locker when her cousin got to her.

"Do you want to go to the cinema with Sam and I today after school?" Elizabeth asked "You can bring Jonathan."

"Nah, thanks" Barbra said.

"Come on!" Elizabeth smiled at her "It's been a long since we don't go out together!"

"I don't feel like doing anything today"

"But…"

"I don't want to go!" Barbra interrupted her "Go with Sam, we can go out every other day"

Barbra walked away, and Elizabeth watched her go, frowning.

"Great" she mumbled, before she turned around and walked away too.

"Do you want me to bring you something?"

"No, thanks, Lucas" Lucy smiled at her little brother, who was sitting in a chair next to her bed.

"Do you want me to sing a song for you?" the little boy asked.

"I'm okay. You should go, you don't want to be late for school" Lucy said.

Lucas nodded and ran towards the door. Before he opened it, he returned to his sisters' side and kissed her softly on the cheek. Then, he left, closing the door softly. Lucy smiled and sneezed. The girl sighed and closed her eyes, feeling terrible. Her phone rang, and she took it.

"Hello?" she said.

"Hey" David said softly "Are you feeling any better?"

"Well, my dad made me a traditional tea made out of panda hair, but I don't think it worked"

They both laughed.

"Well, I gotta go" the boy said "Bye, baby"

"Bye" Lucy said, before David hung up the phone.

The girl left her phone on top of her bedside and closed her eyes to sleep, a little smile on her lips.

Steven held out his hand to Hannah for her to take it. She hesitated for a moment before she took it. Steven smiled at her and they started to walk together.

"So, I was thinking…" the boy started.

Hannah dropped her hand to Steven, and he looked at her.

"I'm sorry" she said "I don't feel comfortable holding hands"

"It's okay" Steven said.

They kept walking, and Hannah's eyes were fixed on the floor the whole time. Steven looked at her and sighed, before they stepped inside the choir room.

"Sit down, kids" Alma said to them. She waited until everyone was seated "I have some important information about Regionals"

The kids leaned forward in expectation.

"We're going against Vocal Adrenaline" Alma said.

The kids had various reactions: some of them sighed, other bit their lips, and some other covered their faces with their hands.

"Hey, come on!" Alma said "Don't be discouraged!"

"Yeah, they're not that good" David said, trying to cheer his partners up.

"Not that good?" Jonathan exclaimed "I was with them before, and let me tell you, they are good. Really good"

"They're New Directions' arch rivals for a reason" Barbra said.

"My father is their coach, and he has no mercy with them" Jonathan kept saying "If we want to beat them, we have to prepare an awesome performance."

"Jonathan's right" Elizabeth said. "I think we should start preparing"

"But we still have long until Regionals" James said.

"Yes, but if we want to win…" Elizabeth said.

"Is it the only think you care about?" David said, laughing "Relax, Lizzie"

Elizabeth looked like she was about to answer, but she sighed and leaned back on her chair. Sam noticed it, and put a hand on her shoulder to calm her.

"I think Lizzie's right" Alma said "Maybe we should start rehearsing. That way, when Regionals come, our performance will be flawless."

"We should try a solo and a group number" Jonathan suggested.

Alma nodded and wrote it down in the white board. She turned around to look at he students.

"Any ideas?" she asked, but no one answered "In that case, I think Elizabeth should sing the solo…"

"Again?" Barbra said "Lizzie got a big part at Sectionals, it's not fair"

"You're saying that because you are the one who wants the solo" Elizabeth said, crossing her arms over her chest.

"I'm just saying that you always get to sing" Barbra said "Give others a chance"

Before Elizabeth could answer, Alma chimed in to calm them.

"Girls, please!" she said. "I'm saying this because Lizzie is the best singer we got. If she sings, our chances to win are bigger"

"Knowing how Vocal Adrenaline works, I can say that Lizzie is our better chance to win" Jonathan said "We have to play our best cards"

The rest nodded, even Barbra, but Elizabeth still looked upset.

Blaine was watching TV in the living room when Kurt entered with a familiar piece of clothing in his hands.

"Blaine, honey, I understand what it's like to be attached to your clothes, but I think it's time you throw this jacket away" he said.

"What? No!" Blaine exclaimed, taking the jacket from Kurt's hands "It's my favorite jacket!"

"Blaine, it's too old! It full of stains and holes everywhere!"

"I can't throw it away! You gave it to me when we where in high school…"

"I know, but everything has a lifespan" Kurt said "I'll buy you another one"

"I don't want another one, I like my jacket!" Blaine said, hugging it against his chest.

Kurt sighed.

"Kurt, please" Blaine said, making puppy eyes "Let me keep it. I promise I won't wear it anymore"

"What good is having something you're not going to wear?" Kurt reasoned.

In that moment, the phone rang. Kurt answered, looking at Blaine.

"Hello? Oh, hi, Adam! How are you?"

Blaine snatched the phone from Kurt's hands.

"Adam, help me! Kurt wants me to throw away my favorite jacket!"

Kurt took the phone, frowning at his husband.

"You can't throw that jacket away, papa!" Adam exclaimed "It's like part of the family!"

Kurt laughed. When he finished talking with his son, he looked around. Blaine wasn't there anymore.

"Blaine? Where are you?"

"Here I am" Blaine said, entering the living room, smiling.

"Where's the jacket?" Kurt asked.

"In a safe place"

"It's under the bed, isn't it?"

"No" Blaine said. Kurt raised an eyebrow at him "Damn. Yes it is"

Kurt laughed and hugged Blaine.

"Keep the stupid jacket" he said.

"Really?" Blaine said, grinning.

"Yeah. Your adorableness makes me soft" Kurt said.

Blaine kissed his husband, and they laughed.

The choir room was almost empty, excepting for two persons. Steven huffed and stood up. Hannah looked at him.

"Damn, Hannah!" the boy exclaimed.

"I'm sorry!" she said "I'm a little bit shy, and…"

"A little bit? Hannah, you're extremely shy!"

"What do you want me to do?" Hannah asked, frowning.

"I understand that you're not comfortable with certain things, but you don't even let me touch your shoulder!" Steven said, sitting down again.

"That's not true!"

"Do you even like me?" the boy asked.

"Yes!"

"Then why the hell can't I kiss you, or hug you, or hold your hand?"

Hannah stood up this time, frowning.

"I'm sorry that I can't be who you want me to be" she said.

"It's not about that!" Steven stood up too "Hannah, how are we supposed to move forward in our relationship if you don't even trust me?"

"You don't understand anything!" Hannah exclaimed "Steven, if you really like me, you have to accept me for who I am"

"I changed for you! I am the kind of guy who is physically expressive. Now, because I understood that you are really shy, I changed that. Why can't you change a little bit for me?"

"Because you're trying to… control me!"

"Control you?"

"Yes! You want me to become someone I'm not" Hannah said "And I won't change who I am only because you don't like me the way I am"

"You know what? I quit!" Steven exclaimed, and walked towards the door.

"Yes, just go away!" Hannah shouted "Don't waste your time with this loser!"

Steven left without another word. Hannah let out a frustrated huff before she left too.

Elizabeth didn't saw them until she felt the sudden coldness in her face. She removed the colored ice from her face, and looked at the jocks that walked away with empty slushie containers in their hands. Elizabeth pursed her lips and clenched her fists, feeling more humiliated than ever.

"Damn!" she exclaimed.

Elizabeth kicked the lockers with all her strength, hurting herself in result. She walked away, trying to ignore the pain in her foot. She entered the bathroom and started to wipe away the ice from her face.

The girl closed her eyes for a moment. Why her? Why was she the one that ended up covered in slushie, or locked in the broom closet? Elizabeth looked at herself in the mirror before she exited the bathroom.

Barbra threw the little ball away, and her little puppy, Judy, ran to catch it. She returned with the ball in her mouth, wagging her tail. She put it in front of Barbra, who was sitting in the grass of the backyard. The girl stroked Judy's head before she threw the ball again.

"Hey"

Barbra looked at Blaine, and he sat next to her, smiling. She smiled back, but it wasn't too convincing.

"Hey" she said.

Judy returned, walking in that adorably awkward way Barbra loved so much. This time, she left the ball in front of Blaine.

"You have to throw it so she can catch it" Barbra said.

Blaine did what he was told and laughed while he watched the puppy ran after the ball.

"I never had a pet" he said "My mom was allergic to almost every animal"

Judy sat between Blaine and Barbra, chewing the little green ball. Both of them watched her for a moment, without saying anything.

"Is something bothering you?" Blaine asked suddenly.

"No, why?" Barbra asked.

"Well, every time you're worried or upset about anything, you sit in the backyard alone. Well, this time you're not alone" he said, caressing Judy, who licked her hand playfully, and rolled over so Blaine could caress her belly.

"I do that every time?" Barbra asked.

"Yep. The same way that Lizzie locks herself in her room with her iPod so loud she can't even hear what she's thinking" Blaine said "Or Adam sits in front of the computer, eating like there's no tomorrow"

Barbra chuckled, and then she turned serious again.

"Actually, there is something that's bothering me" she said.

"What?"

"Have you ever been in love with someone, but you know it isn't… right for you to be together?" she asked.

"Well, no" Blaine said after thinking for a while "I think that if you love someone, and that person loves you back, then nothing is wrong with you being together"

Barbra looked at her uncle, and he smiled at her.

"Is this about Jonathan?" he asked "Because I don't see anything wrong with you two being together."

"No, it's not about him" Barbra said "Actually, forget it, it's not important"

"If you need anyone to talk with, I'll gladly hear you" Blaine said, patting her shoulder.

"Thanks, Uncle Blaine"

"Hannah, wait!"

Anna followed her furious sister to their bedroom. Hannah put her bag on top of the desk, kicked out her shoes and climbed on bed. She covered her face with a pillow and started to scream.

"Hannah!"

Anna climbed on the bed too, and took the pillow from her sister's hands. Hannah covered her face with her hands, refusing to look at her.

"What happened?" Anna asked.

"Boys suck!" Hannah exclaimed.

"Okay…" Anna said, confused "Tell me exactly what happened."

"I had a fight with Steven" Hannah said, finally uncovering her face.

"Why?"

Hannah told her about the argument they had. Anna listened to her with attention, nodding every once in a while, without interrupting her. When she finished, the twins remained silent for a while.

"I told you dating someone was a bad idea" Hannah said.

Anna sighed and hugged her sister.

"You know what could make you feel better?" she said.

"What?"

"Sing" Anna said "You sing every time you have a big feeling to deal with, so it might be a good idea right now."

Hannah sat straight and jumped of the bed. She opened her laptop and selected a song on iTunes. When she turned to look at Anna, the music started, and she began to sing.

Oh no, don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That's when it all just fell apart

She walked towards the bed, where Anna was sitting.

Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up

Hannah sang the chorus, frowning. She could relate to the song.

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

Anna jumped off the bed, as her sister kept singing.

It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life

Anna smiled to Hannah, and she smiled back, singing.

Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up

Hannah walked around the room, singing. She sat in the bed and started to hit the pillows.

She stood up, singing while smiling sideways

Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't you get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life

Hannah sang even louder, and Anna helped her with the chorus.

Both of them sat in their bed singing their hearts out.

But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

Anna hugged Hannah when they finished the song.

"It doesn't matter what anyone says" Anna said "You're the most amazing person I know"

"That's because I'm like you" Hannah said, and they both laughed "Thank you, sis."

"You're welcome"

Sam opened the door of Elizabeth's bedroom. She saw her girlfriend lying in her bed, with her ear buds on. When she sat in the bed, she could see that Elizabeth was wearing an old oversized t-shirt and grey sweatpants. That was weird.

"Hey" Sam said, touching her shoulder.

Elizabeth took her ear buds off and looked briefly at Sam.

"I didn't hear you, sorry" she said, looking away.

"Why are you dressed like this?" Sam asked, knowing that if Elizabeth wasn't wearing fabulous clothes, something was wrong. She just shrugged without looking at her "Lizzie, I was thinking that maybe tomorrow at school we could…"

"I'm not going to school tomorrow" Elizabeth interrupted her.

"Why not?" Sam asked, but she got no answer "Lizzie, answer me"

Elizabeth looked at her, finally. Sam could she that her eyes looked like she had been crying. She even had traces of tears in her cheeks.

"Because they're going to slushie me, or lock me inside a closet" Elizabeth said "Or maybe they're going to be mad at me because I got a solo in Glee Club"

Sam blinked a couple times, confused. Elizabeth wasn't the kind of girl that let those things affect her.

"So you're not going to school because you don't want to be bullied?"

Elizabeth nodded and sat straight, looking at Sam in the eyes.

"I'm sick of it" she said.

The girls didn't say anything for a minute or so, before Sam spoke.

"Do you know what I like the most about you?"

"That I'm supermegafoxyawesomehot?" Elizabeth said, smiling a little.

Sam laughed, and looked at her.

"Besides that" she said "What I like the most about you, is that you don't give a damn what people say"

Elizabeth looked down and bit her lower lip. Sam took her hands and kept talking.

"You are the most amazing person I know. You're smart, you're talented, you're gorgeous, you have a great sense of fashion, which I assume you inherited from you father"

Elizabeth smiled and looked at Sam again.

"Lizzie, don't listen to anything those idiots out there say to you" Sam said "If you let it bother you, then you're doing exactly what they want. But if you don't pay attention to them, they'll realize how awesome you are."

"You're right" Elizabeth said "I shouldn't have pay attention to what those idiotic jocks said. Besides" she smiled "I'll see them when they wash my car"

Sam laughed and kissed her girlfriend.

"You are the coolest girl in the whole wide world, did you know that?" Sam said.

Elizabeth smirked.

The kids looked at Elizabeth, who was standing in front of them, smiling.

"I want to sing this song in front of you" she said "Because I feel that all of us can feel related to it somehow. So, I hope you like my performance"

She nodded to the pianist. He started to play, and Elizabeth sighed. Looking at her partners, she started to sing.

All my dreams
I'm chasing after,
They don't need
all this laughter

She smiled at Sam, and kept singing.

I take a grain of salt,
stiff upper lip.
It's not their fault
I'm not as hip.
Wake up kid, you know you're more than this

Everyone's eyes were fixed on her. Elizabeth was putting her whole heart in the song.

I'm the smartest person
that I've ever met.
So why do I allow myself to
possibly forget?

Elizabeth pointed at the kids as she sang.

There's so much I know how to do,
so much more than all of you.

They laughed, and the girl kept singing.

The only thing I wish I knew
was how to make them see
the girl that I can be

Elizabeth raised her arms while she sang, closing her eyes.

I am
the coolest girl in the whole wide world
I know it
but can't show it at all.

She smiled at her friends, and they smiled back.

I am
sick and tired
of low, not higher
places, where I should belong.
Well, it's about time I prove them wrong

Elizabeth sat with them, still singing

So give me a shot
to show what I've got!
I'm a helluva whole lot more, I know

than this frizzy hair,

Everyone laughed as Elizabeth ran her hands trough her perfect hair.

These frumpy clothes I wear,

They laughed again when she pointed at her designer's clothes.

Though I rock them like nobody you've seen before

She stood up and sang the chorus again.

'Cause I am
the coolest girl in the whole wide world
I know it
below it all.

She walked until she was standing in front of them again.

I am
done with losing,
on with choosing

Elizabeth pointed at herself as she sang.

The coolest girl on the face of the planet,
The coolest bitch on earth, god damn it!
The coolest chick you've ever seen or heard!

She smiled broadly as she sang the last lines

So you can try to bring me down,
but sorry guys, I'm sticking around!
I've thought about it, and I've found

That I am
the coolest girl

She closed her eyes, rocking the last note.

Yeah!

Everyone clapped, smiling.

"You definitely should sing every solo" Barbra said to her cousin when she sat next to her.

Elizabeth laughed and hugged her.

Yeah, I'm a Starkid :3 In the next chapter, some of the kids are going to spy on a Vocal Adrenaline rehearsal! I wonder what will happen?