Okay, this chapter isn't the longest one I've had but it is very important! As will the chapter following this, except that one will probably be a little longer! I hope everyone continues to enjoy! So read, review, enjoy.
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It had been another two months since the finding of the pills and so far so good. Although Artie felt panic every single time Haylee would even talk to Alec, he was learning to cope. With her possibly having sex no, but with her spending time with him while on the Pill, yes.
As of right now, there had been no sex with Haylee and Alec. The thoughts lingered but nothing happened. The thoughts however, grew. Tonight, Haylee was going over to Alec's. Brittany and Santana went out, something that Haylee neglected to tell her parents. They hung out in his room, but everything was innocent. Or at least it started out that way.
What started out as some simple hand holding while Alec played the guitar for Haylee, turned into cuddling. Cuddling soon turned into kissing, which turned into very heated kissing. Before Haylee knew it, she was letting herself go further than they had ever been before. She let his hands roam everywhere, she let him take off his shirt, and than remove hers. She felt good. She could tell that tonight would be the night, everything felt perfect. They kept it up like that for a while. Until it got a little more intense as he fumbled with the clasp of her bra and snapped it open and it joined both of there shirts on the floor.
"I love you." Alec said panting, barely breaking their lips apart.
"I love you too." She whispered back, kissing him again. Soon his jeans and her shorts joined her bra on the ground as well, as he reached over to his dresses drawer and grabbed a condom.
His fingers were running through her hair and both their hearts were pounding. I mean it's not like either of them were experienced with this before, and it was scary.
He slowly moved his fingers to the elastic of her panties and began to pull them down slightly. When he did that, something changed. Something snapped in her. Suddenly she realized something. The plan she had set out for herself, the original plan, didn't have as much to do with her mother getting pregnant in high school as she thought it did. She realized that she felt that way about putting sex off for a little while because, that's what she wanted. That's what she was ready for. She now was more terrified than nerves. Now all she wanted to was for him to stop. She couldn't do this, she wasn't ready.
"S-stop!" She stuttered out.
Alec looked alarmed, "What? Are you okay? What's wrong?"
"I, I can't. I just can't. I'm sorry Alec, I'm so sorry." She whimpered quickly as she got off of his bed and grabbed her clothes off the ground. She threw them on her body very quickly, partially getting dressed as she ran out of his house. She felt bad about leaving him like that, but she didn't know what else to do.
She loved him. She really, really did. She couldn't have sex with him though, not yet. She knew that because of that, there was a chance that their relationship was probably over. She just got up and left him. She wouldn't be surprised if he never wanted to speak to her again. Running home, with her shoes in her hands, her tank top barely on having her bra, that had been clipped on the wrong hook in the rush, totally shorts were crooked on her hips, and make up was smeared down her face with the tears that were beginning to form; she felt trashy. Cheap. Like one of those girls that gave it up way too early. She was so young, she was fifteen. In an attempt to do one of the most grown up things you can possibly do, it left Haylee feeling in a state in which she had never felt like such a little kid.
A part of her felt guilty for not going through with it. Definitely because of just running out on Alec, that she for sure felt guilty about, but also guilt for just not putting out. She had gone that far that they were practically completely naked in front of each other, and than she just became a pussy and backed out. Although, she knew that feeling that way was stupid, because of how young she was. She felt more stupid for all of this in the first place. The birth control, how awkward and hurt she must of made her parents feel, especially her dad when he found it, and how she had come so close to kissing her virginity goodbye.
As she approached her house, she felt apprehensive about entering. She didn't want her parents finding out about this. Although I think just by the state of her clothes and make up, they'd figure something out. She really wished Emmy had been home instead of sleeping over at a friend's. If she was there, maybe her little sister could've provided some kind of distraction? She knew there was no avoiding anything, because she couldn't just stand outside all night. Taking a deep breath, she opened the door.
As she got in the house she saw that only her dad was there, her mom was nowhere in view, she was probably sleeping. Artie was watching some T.V and didn't notice that she had even come in. Looking at her father, one of the people who loved her more than anyone else on the planet did, she couldn't control her tears. Everything that just happened, all the emotion of it hit her like a ton of bricks.
"Daddy?" she whispered, her voice quivering with sobs.
Artie looked up, and saw Haylee standing in the doorway. She was a mess. He tried to ignore the fact that her clothes were in a disorganized state, because all he focused on was the make up and tears running down her face.
"Hale? What happened?" he asked concerned.
Instead of answering she burst into sobs and ran over to her dad, and collapsed into his arms.
"Shh, Shh, Shh, Hale, it's okay. It's okay sweetie, it's okay. Shh, everything's okay." he shushed into her hair.
Haylee just continued to bawl, and Artie grew increasingly confused, concerned, and angry. He had no idea what had happened by but the look of her clothes, and the look of her now, he figured it had something to do with Alec. All Artie wanted to do in that moment was beat the living shit out of that kid, for whatever he might have done to his daughter for putting her in the state she was right now. No one made his little girls cry, no one.
After a while her sobs let up slightly and she gently pulled away from Artie. He wiped the tears from her cheeks.
"Hale, what happened?" he asked gently.
He wasn't really sure if he wanted to know the answer. In fact he was terrified. What if what he had always been scared of, actually happened tonight. What if she had sex? Oh my god. His heart was pounding faster than it ever had before. He felt sick, he wanted to throw up. He really wish Quinn hadn't been so tired from her workout today and hadn't fallen asleep, he really needed her right now. He didn't think he could do this.
He thought that if she and Alec actually had sex, that Haylee might lie to him, but he didn't know what to think. He wanted her to be honest with him no matter how much it hurt. So when he noticed her taking deep breaths, looking terrified he knew that he had to be strong so he could find out what was really going on.
"You can tell me babe, you can tell me. Whatever it is, please don't be afraid. I never want you to think that, that you can't come to me with anything. You used to tell me everything, Hale. So please no matter what it is, I can take it. Just please tell me what happened sweetie." He pleaded to her as he brushed her hair out of her eyes.
So he sat there, preparing himself for the worst, instead he got in some cases what might've been the best.
"I ran away Daddy, I ran away."