Warning: This chapter contains sexual conduct. If you don't like it, don't read.
Ahsoka's POV
After Cardek and I got breakfast, I told him I was tired wanted to take a nap. He believed me since I was pregnant and I was going to be tired a lot. I'm not really look forward to being tired all the time. I snuck out my window and took my speeder over to Bane's place. There was two things I would have to worry about when I got there: him seeing me and Cardek at the race and telling him I was pregnant. I got there knocked on his door. It took a minute until he opened the door.
"What are you doing here, Ahsoka?"
"I need to talk to you. It's important." He stepped aside and I walked in and took off my cloak.
"Are you going to explain why you were at the downtown races with your little 'friend'?"
"Cardek wanted to spend time with me and I told him I wanted to see one of the races. That's it. You want to explain why you were there?"
"Nope." I sighed. He was always like this. He could be in my business, but his was off limits. I don't have time to argue with him.
"Doesn't matter. That's not why I'm here."
"Then why are you here?" I sat on the sofa and he sat next to me.
"Today, I found out that... I'm pregnant." I looked at him. His expression was blank. "Bane?"
"Are you sure?"
"Yes. I'm six weeks along."
"Do you plan on keeping it?"
"I would want us to keep it, but..."
"No, this is your decision. I want no part of this baby."
"What? This is your child and you say you want no part of it? Don't you want a child?"
"No. I'm not going to be a father to this child."
"Why not?"
"Because I'm not the fathering type."
"So? You may not be the best father in the galaxy, but at least you'll be around for it. You grew up without a father. Do you want your child to grow up like that?"
"Are you sure it's even mine?"
"What's that suppose to mean?"
"I saw how you were with your little friend at the races. Are you sleeping with him?" I stood up.
"What would give you the idea that I would sleep with Cardek? Actually, what would give you the idea that I would cheat on you?" He stood up.
"Are you cheating on me?"
"No! You should know me well enough to know that I'm faithful! I wouldn't cheat on you! I'm not a two-timing sleaze like some of the other girls you've probably been with!"
"You are trying really hard to convince me of this."
"Because it's true! I've never cheated on you, I never will cheat on you, and this baby is yours!"
"Whether that baby's mine or not, I'm not going to be it's father."
"Why not? Give me one good reason why."
"I told you, I'm not the fathering type."
"That's bullcrap! You just don't want to be responsible for a child because you weren't being careful the first time around!"
"You certainly didn't complain about it. Why didn't you say something?"
"Don't you dare try to pin this on me! You know that if I told you about it, you wouldn't listen! You're so stubborn!"
"So are you, Princess. So, don't get mad at me because I didn't use protection. You still could have."
"I'm not mad at you because we didn't use protection, Bane. I'm mad because you won't accpet this baby. Your child is growing inside me and I'm not going to deal with it on my own!"
"Then get an abortion."
"What? I'm keeping this baby. I'm not getting an abortion. Even if I was, I'm too far along. If I did, it could kill me."
"Then you're on your own. You keep the kid. I want no part of it." I crossed my arms across my chest.
"That's your final decision?"
"Yes. It is."
"Alright. You want no part of it, fine." I picked up my cloak. "We're through." I headed for the door, but he grabbed my arm.
"Ahsoka..."
"No. You made your choice. If you want no part of this baby, then I want no part of you. This way, the baby stays out of your life."
"Just because I don't want the kid doesn't mean I don't want you."
"You said you want no part of this baby. I'm apart of it and it's apart of me. That means you don't want either of us, so we'll be out of your life." I yanked my arm from his hand. "Goodbye, Bane."
I put on my cloak and walked out the door. I can't believe he doesn't want our baby. He may not want this baby, he'll be around it whether he wants to or not. I just don't know how I'm going to make that happen. I went back to the temple and snuck back in my window. When I got back, I suddenly broke down in tears. I just broke up with Bane and I'm carrying his child that he doesn't even want. Cardek was right after all. I felt abandoned and alone. There was a knock on my door, but I didn't answer it. I was too upset. I stayed on my bed bawling my eyes out. I heard the door open. I didn't need to look up to know it was Cardek.
"Ahsoka..." He walked over to me, and kneeled down to me. His face was sympathic. "What's wrong?"
I couldn't answer. I kept crying.
"Don't cry..." He wiped away my tears with his hand. I could feel the sadness within him. "It makes me want to cry too. I can't stand seeing you hurt like this."
I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him. I couldn't stop crying. I needed comfort. "Hold me, Cardek."
He easily complied, embracing me with affection and care. "Ahsoka..."
"I can't do this." I spoke through my tears.
"Maybe not alone..." He held me tighter. "But you're not. I'm here for you, Ahsoka, and as long as I breathe, I will never leave you."
"Promise me you won't."
"I promise, Ahsoka. I promise I will never leave you." I know Cardek won't leave me. He's always with me. He's been with me since the day we met. He's my best friend, but part of me feels more for him. I've never felt like this with anyone, not even Bane. My feelings for Cardek are stronger than they've ever been for Bane. Maybe I've been denying myself of the truth all this time when the truth is...
"I love you, Cardek." His eyes widen to fullest as he pulled away. He looked me dead in the eye, shock visible on his face.
"What did you say, Ahsoka?"
"I love you, Cardek. I don't want to deny it anymore." After several moments of being stunned by my words, I felt joy and happiness fill him. I saw tears threatening to spill from his eyes.
"I love you too, Ahsoka. I loved you for so long, maybe since we first met."
"All these years I've denied and buried my feelings for you because I never thought you felt the same."
"That's how I felt too, Ahsoka. I accepted my feelings, but gave up on them because I thought you only saw me as a friend." A tear spilled from his eye. "I never thought this day would come."
I wiped the tear away. "Don't you start crying too. This day has always been coming. I just never knew when."
He placed his forehead affectionately on mine. "I love you, Ahsoka. I love you so much."
"I love you too, Cardek." I leaned closer and kissed him. He eagerly kissed me back, savoring the moment as he wrapped his arms around my waist. I climbed in his lap to deepen the kiss. He moaned into the kiss as he pulled me closer, his tongue begging for entrance into my mouth. I parted my lips and let him in. He eagerly explored my mouth as he slowly laid me down on the bed. I explored his mouth as well and played in his hair. He wrestled with my tongue, slowly massaging my curves. I moaned into the kiss and arched my back a bit at his touch. He pulled away for air, and started breathing heavily.
"Ahsoka..." I was breathing heavily as well. I smiled at him. "Ahsoka, if you want, we could..."
He blushed brightly. "We could what?"
"You know..." He looked away nervously. "...do it?..Ah, why did I even ask that?"
"Cardek, calm down. It's not a stupid thing to ask."
"Do you want to do it, though? I don't want to force you or anything, but..."
"Well, I want to, but I'm pregnant. I don't know if I can."
"I know that...but I'm pretty sure it won't affect the pregancy in anyway. It won't hurt the baby, but it's your choice, Ahsoka."
"Are you sure about that?"
"I may not be a doctor, but I know that if you were several months pregnant, I wouldn't recommened it. But you're still way early in this, so I think we can."
"We could try." He smiled at me.
"I'm sure we can." He kissed me lovingly before kissing my neck. I softly moaned. This is great. Cardek and I are finally together. I've never been this happy. The only thing that would make it better is if I was carrying Cardek's baby instead of Bane's. Cardek actually loves me and is helping me with Bane's baby. I just hope it's nothing like it's father. Cardek is loving, caring, and passionate. I love how he softly kisses my neck. Bane always bit me and made my neck bleed. I always hate that, but I let him do it to make him happy. I hope Cardek isn't into biting. He continued kissing my neck and also began to suck and lick on it.
"Cardek." Thank the Force he doesn't bite. I prefer this better. He slowly traveled downward to my shoulders, planting kisses all over. He's so gentle and tender. He's not rough and uncaring like Bane. He slowly stroked his hand across my stomach and curves. I haven't been caressed this gently since my first time. That was the only time Bane was ever gentle with me. He looked up to me.
"Are you ready for this, Ahsoka?" I nodded.
"Yes." He smiled as he kissed me softly on the lips, slipping a hand gently into my shirt. I tensed up at his touch. He pulled away from kiss to soothe me.
"Don't worry, Ahsoka. I won't hurt you...ever." His hand slowly inched up towards my breast.
"I know." Of course I know Cardek would never hurt me. He doesn't know that the real reason I tensed up was because I was so accustomed to Bane's rough hands and hard touches. Cardek's were soft and caring. He reached my breasts and slowly began to massage it. Oh Force. I love this. I love Cardek. This is amazing. He seems so comfortable with what he's doing. I wonder if he's done this before. He began to kiss my neck once again, and continued to massage my breasts, slowing brushing his thumb over my nipple. I bit my lip and moaned. No inexperinced person is this good. He's definately done this before. Either that or this comes WAY too natural for him. I want to ask him, but this feels so good. I'll ask him later. His free hand went to the hem of my shirt.
"Would you like this to come off?"
"That's the only way you'll see more." He smirked.
"I like that answer." He slowly pulled the shirt off and threw it to the ground. He took a good look at my breasts, and couldn't help but be entranced by them.
"I see that's not the only thing you like."
"You bet. They're so...beautiful." He leaned down and kissed my breast. I lightly gasped. We've barey done anything and I say Cardek's a better lover than Bane. Cardek continues to surprise me. He planted kisses all over my breast before softly sucking on my nipple, while pinching the one on my other breast. I squeaked in pleasure. He let the nipple pop in his mouth several times, while his free hand slowly made its way downward, gently caressing every piece of skin it could. I bit my lip to try to hold back my moans. His hand reached my pants, and grabbed hold of it. "Is it time for this to go?"
I bit the side of my lip and slowly nodded. I was still contemplating if it would hurt the baby.
"You can stop me anytime you want." He slowly pulled off my pants and threw them away. He took a good look at me in all my naked glory, and blushed. "Wow..."
I lightly blushed and closed my legs. "Is something wrong?"
"No...everything's perfect..." I blushed again and left my legs closed.
"Don't hide yourself from me." He slowly parted my legs. "There's nothing to be shy about."
"Easy for you to say. You still have on your clothes." He smiled.
"Then I guess we have to do something about that." He took off his shirt. I lightly gasped and slowly ran my hand up his chest.
"Someone's certainly in shape." He gasped as a smile appeared on his face.
"Well, of course. How else am I going to take out droids or make sweet love to you?" I lightly blushed as I continued to rub his chest. He sighed happily, and then slowly touched my womanhood. I gasped and blushed darker. He loved my reaction, and began to massage me as result. I moaned and started moving my hips. Turned on by my moans, he lowered his head and kissed my womanhood. I gasped and moaned.
"Cardek."
"Ahsoka..." He kissed it over and over before softly sucking it. I moaned louder and arched my back. He slowly sucked harder on it and began to lick it. I almost screamed and gripped the bed sheets. He shivered at the taste. "You taste...so good."
He licked me over and over, and unable to resist, he stuck his tongue into me. I bit my lip to hold back my screams, almost drawing blood. I tangled my fingers in his hair and gripped it. His tongue explored me eagerly, and he inserted a finger in as well. My breathing increased and my grip on his hair tightened. He slowly pumped his finger in an out, his tongue still licking my insides feverishly. I involuntarily closed my legs around his head. He pushed further into me, but didn't mind as his tongue found my sweet spot. I let out a cry of pleasure. He licked my sweet spot over and over as well as pumping his finger faster.
"Cardek! Oh!" Pleased by my reaction, he continued his actions even faster as his free hand found my breast. "Oh, Force! Cardek!"
He inserted another finger as he continued his actions ever faster, also massaging and caressing my breast. I cried out even more. He sped up his actions to as fast as he can. I lost all control and screamed.
"Let it out Ahsoka..." He continued his actions to his fullest. I screamed at the top of my lungs as I felt myself come. He greedily swallowed all my juices as he savored the taste. I was breathing heavily as my body shook from my release. He pushed himself up and looked at me with a smile. "How do you feel?"
"I can't even start to describe it." He chuckled.
"That's good. I'm glad I made such an impression. I was a bit worried seeing as how this was my first time attempting something like this..."
"That was your first time? Seriously?" He rubbed the back of his head nervously.
"Yeah. Anything wrong with that?"
"It certainly felt like you've done this before."
"Well...I kind of did some research about how to please a woman. Curiosity, you know. But not only because of that, but also...I had the hope that if this ever happened, I wanted to make sure I could give you great pleasure."
"And where did you research this?"
"At...Downtown Coruscant...as well as asking some other females around the galaxy. I really clinged to that hope, and my curiosity was great."
"Well, it certainly paid off because that was amazing."
"Thanks. We could go further if you want..."
"If it's going to be anything like that... yes." He smirked.
"Oh trust me, it will be even better." He took off his pants and throws them to side. I gasped at my sights.
"I can tell by your friend there." He blushed.
"Thanks for the compliment."
"Who said it was a compliment?" He raised an eyebrow.
"If it wasn't a compliment, then what is it?"
"Don't jump to conculsions. It was an insult either. Think of it as... an invitation." He smirked deviously.
"Oh really?" He pressed himself against my opening. "I guess I better accept it."
"Well, if you don't, you won't get this chance again for a while."
"You got that right." He positioned his member in front of my womanhood. "I hope your ready." He slowly entered me.
"Yeah, just be gentle."
"Of course, I will, Ahsoka." He continued entering his member into me, groaning loudly. "Damn...you're so hot and tight, Ahsoka."
I moaned as he continued to enter me. He felt amazing. He fully entered me. "How do you feel, Ahsoka?"
"I feel... great. You feel amazing, Cardek." He smiled.
"Thanks." He nuzzled my neck softly. "Shall we begin?"
"Only if you move your hips." He chuckled.
"Always the feisty one." He slowly pulled himself out, and then slid back in, eliciting a groan from him due to the pleasure. I moaned and my breath trembled. He slowly began to thrust in and out of me. I thrusted my hips to get him deeper inside me. "Feisty AND impatient."
"Shut up and move faster."
"As you wish, my lady." He began to thrust faster, and leaned down to suck on my neck. I moaned louder. He slowly sped up, massasing my breasts with his hand as well.
"Cardek..."
He continues thrusting fast. With a smile, he suddenly rolled over, switching positions with me, having me on top straddling him.
"And you say I'm feisty."
"Just thought you deserved a turn. Seeing as how I've been in control the whole time, it's only fair."
"I like the way you think, Onasi." I slowly started moving my hips.
"I love the way you say my last name." I whispered in his ear.
"I know you do, Onasi." I could feel he was immensely turned on.
"Oh Tano..." He raised his hand to caress her stomach. I took his hands and pinned them down.
"If I'm going to be in charge, we'll play this my way." He spoke in a sexy voice.
"Of course, Mistress..."
"Meaning..." I whispered in his ear. "...you're not allowed to touch me until I say so." His eyes widened.
"Seriously?"
"Is that a problem, Cardek?" He sighed and plopped his head on the pillow.
"No." I cocked my head to the side.
"Really? So, it doesn't bother you if I do this?" I rubbed my chest against his while still moving my hips. He tried to hold back a loud moan as he gripped the bed sheets.
"N-No..."
"Not really convincing, honey." I moved my hips faster and moaned at the feel. He bit his lip to hold back another moan. "Cardek, I never said you had to hold back.
I nibbled on his ear. He moaned loudly.
"Oohhh, man you are so good at this." I moved down and kissed his neck. He groaned. "Mmmmm, you certainly know what you're doing..."
"I'm a Togruta. It comes naturally." He smiled brightly.
"Of course. How did I ever get someone like you?" I lifted my head and looked at him.
"I don't know, but how about we make this more... interesting."
"How so?" I moved my hips even faster and moaned louder. He groaned loudly and gripped the bed sheets tighter. I released his hands and grabbed my breasts. He let out a loud moan. "Goddamn..." He grabbed a fistful of his hair. "Please let me touch you, Ahsoka..."
"Yes! Cardek! Touch me! Please!" He quickly shot one hand up to grab my breasts, and the other around my waist to help me with my movements. I grabbed his shoulder, pulled him up and kissed him. He passionately kissed me back as he began to thrust upward into me. I moaned and whined into the kiss. Turned on by my sounds of pleasure, he groped both of my breasts, thrusting faster into me. I broke away from the kiss and screamed out as he repeatedly hit my sweet spot. He moaned louder and louder as his pleasure increased, starting to lose control of himself as he thrusted faster and faster. "AHH! CARDEK! AHHHHH!"
"AHSOKA! I LOVE YOU!"
"I LOVE YOU CARDEK!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as I came. The tightening of my walls caused him to come as well in a scream of pleasure. I screamed again as I felt him erupt inside me. He emptied his load completely before falling on his back, completely exhausted. I collapsed on his chest, breathing heavily. He was breathing equally as heavy, arms laid out beside.
"Wow...just...wow..."
"Yeah. That... was... incredible." He gathered enough strength to drape an arm over my back and hold me. I lifted my hips so that he pulled out of me. He looked up to the ceiling thoughtfully, stroking my back.
"Ahsoka..."
"Yeah?"
"I...I'm not sure if I should even ask you this now, but..."
"What is it?" He closed his eyes, took a deep breath and opened his eyes.
"Who raped you, Ahsoka?" I lifted my head and looked at him.
"Cardek..."
"You don't have to answer that. I feel stupid for even asking this, right after what we experienced. But...I have to know. I know it's not right for a Jedi, but...I want the man who hurt you to pay...I want him to pay two-fold. But if now's not the right time to tell me, then I understand."
"Cardek, I told you I'll tell you when I'm ready. Now, just isn't the right time." He plopped his head on the pillow.
"I understand. Just forget I said anything." Why would Cardek ask that right after we made love? I know he cares, but Bane... Wait. That's it. If I tell him Bane raped me, the Council will have to go find him and arrest him. Maybe this is how I'll get him back for abandoning me.
"Cardek?" He looked at me.
"Hmmm. What is it?"
"Bane." He propped himself up on his elbow.
"What?"
"It was Bane. That's why I was freaked out at the race." His eyes widened and his mouth was wide open, shock leaving him nearly speechless.
Cardek's POV
"Bane...raped you?" She nodded.
"I didn't want you to find out because I know how dangerous he is. I don't want you to get hurt." As the info sunk in, my anger quickly swelled up in me uncontrollably. I held my head down, hair shadowing my eyes as I clenched my hands hard enough to draw blood. My entire body trembled, rage threatening to burst from mr. "Cardek? Cardek, please say something."
I screamed in absolute rage, the Force suddenly bursting from me. "BANE! YOU SON OF A BITCH!"
"Cardek, calm down. Someone will hear." I was breathing heavily, seething with rage with every breath.
"I'm going to kill him. I will find him, and administer to him a fate worse than Hell itself!"
"Cardek, please calm down. Don't do something you're going to regret."
"Oh trust me, I won't regret unleashing a wrath upon him that would make rancors look tame!" She grabbed my head and looked in my eyes.
"Cardek, listen to me. You are not going after Bane. Not alone you aren't. Look, tomorrow, I'll tell the Council. I'll tell them what happened. I'll even tell them where he is. Please, don't do this." When I looked into her eyes, with their beauty and seemingly pleading, I slowly calmed down and got back to a regular breathing, though still angry.
"Fine! But I better be going there with whoever they send to kick his ass!...But how do you know where he is?"
"I don't remember much from that night, but I do remember... looking out the window of his bedroom, I saw a bar. I passed it everyday to the market sometimes. I know where those apartments are." I looked at her with fire in my eyes.
"I promise you...I will make him pay! I will make him suffer before he is brought in and punished for his crimes!"
"Cardek, I don't want to do this, but I need you to calm down." I pulled on my hair hard, anger flowing through me as I tried to find a way to vent. Ahsoka sighed. She closed her eyes and bit my neck. My eyes widened as pain and pleasure shot through me.
"Ahsoka!" She raised her head and looked at me.
"I'm sorry, Cardek, but this is the only way I can get you to calm down. In a minute, you'll feel tired and weak. You'll eventually fall asleep and forget all your rage." I raised and eyebrow.
"How so?"
"The bite I just gave you released a muscler relaxer. All Togrutas have it. We use it for when we hunt on Shili."
"What? But..." I was suddenly hit with sleepiness, my body feeling weak. "What's...going on?"
"It's starting to kick in." She spoke softly. "Don't fight it. Just go with it."
Unable to keep myself up, I fell down to the bed on my back, tired and weak as I was nearly. "...Fine...but Bane..."
She stroked my hair. "Forget about Bane. Forget about everything."
I closed my eyes, falling into a deep sleep.
"Sweet dreams, Cardek."
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