Two months have passed since the incident with Bane. Ahsoka is almost four months pregnant and she shows. She's been able to keep Cardek's mind off of Bane. She always distracts him with things about the babies, whether it be baby names or things they'll need for when they're born. She was in her second trimester and planned to get her next ultrasound early. She didn't want to know what the babies were going to be just yet. She wanted to be surprised. Even though they were Bane's children, she thought of them as Cardek's. He vowed to be the father of them. He cared about her enough to claim the twins as his own. She loved that about Cardek. He loves her enough to help her raise two children that aren't even for him. She worried about for when it would be time for their birth. She was worried about how much pain she would be in giving birth to them. She also worried about what she should and shouldn't do while pregnant. Despite what the Council said two months earlier, they've sent her and Cardek on supply missions every now and again. Ahsoka was glad to get out of the temple sometimes. She didn't like having nothing to do. She barely found anything to occupy her time when Cardek wasn't around, which was rare. She was in the library researching about Togruta teen pregnancies when Cardek snuck up behind her and whispered in her ear.
"Hello Ahsoka." She squealed and slapped him on instinct.
"Oh my gosh, Cardek. I'm sorry." He felles to the ground, holding his stinging cheek.
"Ow! Damn, I wasn't expecting that! I was just trying to surprise you!"
"I am so sorry. My predator instincts got higher since I've been pregnant. I didn't mean to." She helped him up. He stood up, rubbing his cheek.
"It's okay. But damn, you slap hard! I felt like I got hit by a speeder or something."
"I'm sorry, but don't do that. You scared the hell out of me."
"If that's going to happen every time I do, then I won't. So what you doing?"
"Just a little research. I want to be prepared when these babies come."
"Yeah, that's probably best. But what exactly are you researching?"
"Right now, I'm looking up parenting tips for taking care of twins. They say it's best to breast feed that use formula milk. Helps their development." He leaned up to her, stroking her cheek with a naughty grin.
"I wouldn't mind feeding from your breasts." She rolled her eyes with a grin.
"It also says I have to wait six weeks after giving birth before I can have sex." He pouted.
"Six weeks? Now that just sucks."
"You've lasted two months without sex. I'm pretty sure you can last six weeks."
"But I'm withholding sex right now because you're pregnant and it would hurt the babies. Not being able to do it after it ends is just unfair."
"Well, it does say you can have sex while pregnant as long as you find positions that won't hurt the baby." He grinned naughtily.
"Really now? And what positions would those be?"
"I don't know. I didn't look those up."
"Ah come on!"
"What? I don't think about sex 24/7."
"I know. I'm just playing with you, Ahsoka." He embraced her. "The sex is great, but being with you is all that matters to me." She smiled, then smirked.
"You still want me to look up those positions?" He pulled back to look at her, and then smirked as well.
"Well...only if you want to."
"Right now, it matters if you want me to. I can last a while without sex and I know you can't. Yes or no?" He put a finger on chin thoughtfully.
"Well...I guess one session wouldn't hurt. Besides..." He stroked her sides sensually. "How I can live without it when you're so amazing in bed?" She giggled.
"Men, always thinking with their dicks. Let's see what comes up."
"Hey, I don't think with my dick ...most of the time anyway."
"Whatever you say, babe."
"Hey, I'm the one who's supposed to call you babe..." He quickly kissed her cheek when no one else was looking. "And I love you, too."
"I'm just teasing. You know I love you."
"Of course I know. We practically do this every day."
"Except when I have my mood swings and I'm actually pissed off. I really don't like that."
"Yeah, those are not pleasant days for me. Now go check those positions while no one's looking. Force knows what would happen if we get caught."
"Alright. Alright. Keep your pants on." He chuckled.
"Yes dear." She giggled and started typing.
"Sex positions while pregnant. Search." He looked over her shoulder.
"So what do we got?"
"Basically the same three positions we've already done and... Force no."
"What?"
"Anal sex is NOT an option for me."
"Anal sex?" He looked at screen in surprise. "Does it really say that?"
"It says if you're too cautious, anal sex is also a safe alternative. I am not doing that."
"Hey, if you're not for it, then I won't go with it. Though anal sex does sound a little interesting..."
"To you it sounds interesting, to me it sounds painful. I'm not trying that." He shurgged.
"Like I said, if you don't like it, then we won't do it." He leaned his head next to her ear and whispered sexily. "But now that we know which positions to use...how about we...head to your room?" She smirked deviously.
"I like the way you think, Onasi."
"Why thank you, Tano." He took her by the hand. "Let's go."
"Alright. Let me exit out of this. We don't need people seeing that."
"Gotcha." She clicked on the X and stood up.
"Alright. Let's go." He lead her to her room and they both entered. Once inside, he turned to her and wrapped his hands around her waist.
"So now that we're alone...how about we get started?" She smiled, then frowned with fear in her eyes. Cardek was confused. "Ahsoka?"
"Bane." Shocked, he instinctively turned around to see Bane sitting on the bed with a blaster in his hand.
"Missed me, love birds?" He placed himself in front of Ahsoka protectively as he pulled out his lightsaber, growling at Bane.
"What the fuck are you doing here?"
"Did you really think you're prison could hold me forever?"
"No, but that doesn't change the fact that we don't want you here! So you either get the fuck out, or I'll force you out!"
"Don't worry. I'll leave... after I have my revenge on you and your slut of a girlfriend."
"Never...ever...call her that! And this revenge of yours...I'm not going to let it happen! I'm going to kick your ass here and now, and there's nothing you can do about it!" He ignited his lightsaber.
"That's what you think." He took out a device and pushed the button. Ahsoka screamed and dropped to the ground, holding her ears. His eyes widened and he dropped to her side.
"Ahsoka, what's wrong?" Bane shot his stun gun at the distracted Cardek and hit him.
"Cardek!" She still screamed in pain. He fell to the ground, slowly falling unconscious.
"Ahsoka...Damn you..Bane." He passed out. Bane pushed the button again. Ahsoka let out a relieved sigh and turned to Cardek and started shaking him.
"Cardek! Cardek! Wake up!"
"Don't worry. He'll be up soon, but first..." He grabbed her and put Force binders on her. She struggled in his grip to no avail. After the binders were on, he threw her on the bed. He went and put Force binders on Cardek.
"What do you want, Bane? Why are you doing this?" He leaned Cardek against the wall.
"You'll see." Cardek slowly came to as he opened his eyes. He tried to move but realized the binders that were on him.
"What the...? Bane, what did you do?"
"Nothing yet. Just waiting for you to wake up." He struggled in binders to no avail.
"What did you do to Ahsoka with that device? And what are these things?"
"They're Force binders. Try to use the Force in anyway and they shock you. This little device releases a sound that only Togrutas can hear. Drives them insane." He growled.
"You bastard..." Bane smirked deviously.
"If you think that makes me a bastard, you ain't seen nothing yet."
"What are you planning, Bane?"
"Just watch. I'm sure you'll hate it." He pushed Ahsoka on her back with one hand and grabbed her breast with the other. She squeaked in pain. Cardek was in shock.
"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?" Bane smirked at his reaction, then ripped off Ahsoka's shirt. The realization set in. "You wouldn't dare..."
"Try me, kid." He ripped off her bra and sucked hard on her nipple. She held back a painful squeal. Cardek thrashed about in his binders.
"Stop it! Stop it right now!" Bane lifted his head.
"Why should I? You two had sex in front of me. Now it's my turn to have sex with your girlfriend in front of you." He pinched her nipple hard. She screamed in pain.
"You fucking deserved it! This is not right! You're hurting her, can't you see that?"
"That's the point. That's why they call it rape." Anger swelled up in him.
"You son of a bitch! You absolute piece of galactic trash!" Bane smirked and went back to Ahsoka's breasts. He sucked as hard as he could on them. Ahsoka bit her lip trying not to scream causing tears to fall from her eyes. Cardek struggled to break his binders, but to no avail. "Dammmit!"
Bane moved from her breasts and started to rip off her pants. Desperate, Cardek tried to use the Force, but got shocked. "This can't be happening!"
"Oh, it's happening." He removed Ahsoka's pants and threw them to the side. Ahsoka clentched her legs closed.
"Please. Don't do this."
"I have no sympathy for you anymore. You mean nothing to me now." He unbuckled his pants and threw them to the side and thrusted into her hard. She screamed out in pain. Cardek screamed out in rage.
"YOU FUCKING BASTARD!" Bane started thrusting in and out of her fast and hard. Cardek started to thrash about in his binders, anger and hate flooding his system like never before. "STOP IT! FUCKING STOP IT, BANE! AHSOKA!"
As Cardek got angrier, Bane went faster. Ahsoka cried out in pain. "CARDEK! MAKE IT STOP! PLEASE!"
"BANE! STOP! HOW DARE YOU DO THIS!" His eyes turned a dangerous yellow as he continued to try and break his binds. "I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU! YOU HEAR ME? YOU FUCKING SON OF A BITCH!
After a few more thrusts, Bane came inside her. Cardek snapped, and with a might roar, the Force began to rage around him. The binders shocked him, but he ignored him as he struggled against his binds. With a scream of rage and with the help of the Force, he broke out of his binds, seething with hate. "BANE!"
Bane took out his blaster and shot at him. He ducked in time to avoid the shot and then tackled Bane off of Ahsoka and barreled him through the door and down to the ground and beganas to pound on him mercilessly. Bane kicked him off of him, stood up and started shooting again. He rolled away to dodge shots and then called his lightsaber to him with the Force in time to deflect any more shots. Bane kept shooting until one of the blocked shots hit him in the arm. He dropped the blaster. Cardek pushed Bane against the wall and pinned him there.
"YOU FUCKING BASTARD! YOU'LL PAY FOR THIS! YOU HEAR ME? I'M GOING TO MAKE THIS SLOW AND PAINFUL FOR YOU!" He began to punch and kick Bane mercilessly with rage and anger coursing through him.
"Cardek!" Too consumed with rage to hear here, he continued his beating of Bane. "CARDEK!"
He momentarily stopped, his bloody fist raised in the air. He turned his head to Ahsoka, his eyes yellow as he breathes heavily. "You need to calm down. Get these off me."
He looked at her for a few moments before kicking Bane in the head and leaving him on the ground. He went over to Ahsoka and unhooked her binds, his eyes a Sith yellow the whole time. She rubbed her wrists. "Cardek, you're out of control. This needs to stop."
"He raped you...He fucking raped you in front of me...and you want me to calm down?"
"Cardek, your anger is out of control in general. This is unacceptable. I can't be with you if you're like this."
"I couldn't do a damn thing...he raped you, and all I could do was watch...I...I hate him..." Tears fell from his eyes, his eyes slowly turning back to their emerald green. He fell to his knees, laying his head on the bed, sobbing. "I hate him, Ahsoka. I hate him. How can you be so calm after what he did?"
"Two reasons: one, I'm better at controling my emotions. Two, I'm used to the abuse. You can't..." He snapped head up with tears and puffy red eyes.
"I CAN'T WHAT, AHSOKA? I CAN'T GET ANGRY WITH THE FACT THAT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE WAS JUST RAPED IN FRONT OF MY EYES AND I COUDN'T DO A DAMN THING ABOUT IT? THAT BASTARD DESERVED WHAT I DID TO HIM! BANE DESERVES TO DIE! HE...he..." He broke down into more tears. Ahsoka started tearing up as well.
"Cardek, I'm trying to help you. You don't have to yell at me."
"I don't want to yell at you...I love you...which is why I'm like this. I wanted to protect you, I wanted to save you from Bane...and I couldn't even do that...Bane took pleasure in your pain and my anger...how can I forgive him for that?" He placed his head on her lap, sobbing like crazy. "I love you, Ahsoka...I love you..." She stroked his hair.
"I love you too, Cardek, and I don't want to lose you to the Dark Side. You won't be able to save me from everything. You won't always be able to save me from Bane, from all danger, or if I die in childbirth. There are some things you can't prevent."
"But to see you scream in pain...wanting me to stop it..it broke my heart...I could have broken out sooner...I could have done something...Just when I think I can't hate Bane anymore...he goes and does this...I'm scared Ahsoka...I'm scared."
"I know, baby. I'm scared too. I think you need to see Master Yoda about this. He's helped me with my anger problems. He can help you too." He was shivering a bit.
"A-alright. I hope so...What about Bane?"
"Don't worry about him. I'll comm my master to come get him. In the meantime, I want you to go talk to Master Yoda. I'll stay here until my master comes." He wiped away his tears.
"Alright..." He stood up and gave her a slow, loving kiss. "I love you, Ahsoka...Don't you ever forget that."
"I won't. Go." He nodded and walked out of the room. he sends a glare at Bane's unconscsious form before heading to Yoda's meditation room. Once there, he knocked on the door.
"Master Yoda?"
"Come in, you may, Padawan Onasi." He entered room, and sat across from Yoda.
"I need guidance, Master Yoda. I need help."
"With what, do you need help?"
"My emotions...my anger...I have developed an immense hatred for Bane and it just seems to keep growing no matter whay I do...I can't control it, and it's scaring me."
"Hate, you do not feel. Fear, you do not feel. Something else, there is, confusing you. An attachment, perhaps, for Padawan Tano." His snapped head up in shock.
"W-what do you mean?"
"The incident with her and Bane, angers you, does it not?" He clenched his fist and narrowed his eyes.
"Yes...she...she means so much to me...she's my...best friend...and when I heard Bane raped her...anger immediately filled me...and what just happened only fueled that anger..."
"Hatred and anger towards, confused with love for another, it can be."
"Master Yoda..." He trembled. "Bane escaped from jail...then he bound both me and Ahsoka in her room...and then...he raped her...and forced me to watch...I never felt anger like I did in my whole life..." He clenched his fist as tears ran down his face. "When I broke from my binds, my anger consumed me...I beat him to a bloody pulp...I let the Dark Side control me...Ahsoka kept me from killing Bane then and there, but...I'm scared." He broke down. "I'm scared of what I'm becoming."
"Being consumed by the Dark Side, you are. Too late to stop it, it is not."
"Then tell me how! I can't control my emotions on my own! They're out of control! Only you can help me stop this! Bane keeps angering me and pushing me to the Dark Side, and I can't stop the hate, the anger...help me..."
"If wish to stray from the Dark Side, you do, let go of your attachments, you must. Let go of Padawan Tano, you must."
"But how can I...I mean...I...I..."
"Hard, it is, to let go of those we care about most. Break your attachment from her, you must or you will fall to the Dark Side." He buried his face into his hands.
"I...Dammmit...what if I can't do it? I don't want to become a monster."
"Time, it will take. Help, meditation does. Let her go, you must." He dropped his hands down with a sad look on his face.
"It's a confusing thing, isn't it? Love, I mean? It's good, yet it's bad..."
"Love, good, it can be. Bad, it can also be. Love, makes us choose between life and death, it can. Make us choose our alliances, it can. Love, lead us to the Dark Side, it can." He sighed.
"Love...One emotion...so much damage..." He looked up to Yoda. "I'll try to break my attachment to Ahsoka. I would like to come here for meditation sessions with you some times to help accomplish that."
"Allow that, I will. For now, check on her you must. If raped she has been again, vunerable and fragile, she must be. Go to her."
"Understood." He stood up and bowed to Yoda. He turned to leave, but stopped."One more question, Master Yoda. *turns his head back to Yoda* Can you still love someone...even if you let go of your attachment to them?"
"Love always leads to attachment."
"...I understand. Thank you, Master Yoda." He walked out of the room and back up to Ahsoka's room, and slowly walked in. Ahsoka saw him and stood up.
"Hey."
"Hey...We need to talk, Ahsoka."
"What about?"
"Master Yoda said I'm falling to the Dark Side, but that I can still stop it. But there's only way to do that...and that is let go of my attachment of you."
"Oh." She sat back down. "I should've seen this coming."
"Yeah. And Master Yoda said that...love leads to attachment. And I think what he asks spells it out for itself..."
"So, basically, we're breaking up?"
"We have two option before us: We can either keep going with being lovers in secret and in happiness, all the while risking my dissension into the dark side, or we can end what's between us, saving me from the Dark Side and from being a monster, but losing the happiness and love we have...What do you want, Ahsoka?"
"I...I don't know. I want to be with you, but I don't want to be the reason you turn to the Dark Side. This is a difficult decision."
"I know..." He walkrf over to the bed and sat down. "And I don't trust myself to make the right decision. I'm too ruled by my emotions right now...I'm too confused. I can't make the best decision for us, which I'm entrusting you with it. And no matter what decision you make, I will always love you no matter what." She sighed as tears fell from her eyes.
"Cardek, I...I can't. I'm so confused and I'm scared."
"Me too, Ahsoka..." He lightly grasped her hands with his. "Me too..."