(A/N)-ha-ha I love playing with Bella's personality, exaggerating from how she is in the book

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Vamp-lover513: I guess I have to update soon since I am constantly thinking about this story and the multitude of ways of which it could go.

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*has anyone figured out the reference to Anny? If so I applaud you!

Disclaimer: Don't own twilight never will oh well . . . I will still find a way to own something someday

Chapter 5

'Nothing I've become'

Edwards POV

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

(A/n) Don't own Evanescence either

"Dude! Please turn that crap off I can hear it all the way down here!" Emmet yelled at me from down stairs. Emmet repeatedly yelled this at me everyday, usually telling me I sounded depressed when really I was surprised by how the music matched to a second what they really wanted you to feel when listening. If Emmet really listened to the lyrics he might have liked them but that would never happen. I unplugged my I-pod from its playing dock and instead plugged it into my ears turned it up to its loudest volume.

I sighed and fell back on my bed though not completely without thought. Every part of me seemed to relate falling to her, the way she held my shoulders her scent still barely on them. The way she fit perfectly into my arms, her mahogany hair flying around her face, how my hands fit next to her small size. And those livid eyes even while she was screaming at me they were beautiful her 'voice' the steady pounding of rain over river rocks, something I had never heard before. I needed to stop thinking about her.

I sighed and started thinking about the only interesting thing my mind had thought about for the past nine years. 'E', was the only thing I remembered from my human life besides my mother. E, I remembered was my best friend my first and only love. So no matter how beautiful Bella was she wouldn't hold what my affections for E had been. Best friends and I never told her I loved her before she died. It racked my whole body with the irritating dry sobs before I could get a grip on myself. I piled unnecessary pillows piled them around me and screamed into them. I listened quickly to the minds downstairs to see if anyone heard. Esme was the only one "Poor Edward" she was thinking I hated it when people pitied me "he is so sad. He is still basically a newborn and the emotions he contains change in a flash. Was it right to suffer him to this?" I stopped listening and looked towards the window knowing what I wanted to do I really wanted to go to Bella's hotel room that Alice mentioned she had but stopped myself I would see her tonight. Instead I still jumped out the window ran through the forest to find something to distract me. But as I found a suitable tree I lost the strength and sank with my back against the tree and screamed while running hands through my hair. I curled up in a ball and let the agony take me. Es face always in my mind.

Alice POV

Yay! Yay! Yay! Yay! Yay! We were all going to the Cullen's tonight on Esme's invitation. Finally my visions for the past few months were happening! On top of all this Bella had been social, old newborns can be taught new tricks! A smile was on my face when I opened the door to Bella's hotel suite, I planned to put her through what she called Bella Barbie torture. Oh well she would just deal with it.

What was that? I heard respectable music coming through Bella's bedroom door, I was so curious I didn't even knock I just bounced in planning to surprise like this afternoon at lunch that had been so funny and cute when Edward caught her. I saw how she looked around to make sure no one was looking before she kissed him underneath the chin. Oh so cute, but what had me captured at this moment was Bella dancing, the shake your hips move your arms with your shoulders dancing a complete smile on her face. I listened to the music playing from Bella's I-pod dock; it was something that I had no idea she had.

The weekend's almost done
The moon is low in the sky
I feel like going out
Before the night passes by
I won't just sit around
When life becomes a drag[music plays]
I like the base (turn it up, turn it up, turn it up)
I like the boom (turn it up, turn it up, turn it up)
I need guitar (turn it up, turn it up, turn it up)
I like that drum when it goes boom da boom da boom
Let's dance for the weekend, what the night is all about
Let's Dance grab your girlfriends

I dance

grab your boyfriends let it out
Let's Dance (move your whole body) Let's start the party
To much rock for one girl can make her go crazy
I need someone to dance with me baby (dance)song (turn it up, turn it up, turn it up)
The beat is strong (turn it up, turn it up, turn it up)
We'll dance COME ON
Let's dance on the weekend, when the night is all about
Let's Dance grab your girlfriends grab your boyfriends sweat it out
Let's Dance (move your whole body) Let's start the party[Rap]
Took just one girl to make you go crazy
I need someone to dance with me baby (dance)[Rap]
[laughs]
Took just one girl to make you go crazy
I need someone to dance with me baby (Dance!)

The music's on (turn it up, turn it up, turn it up)
My favorite

Keep Movin'
Crank it up
YEAH!

When the night says "hello"
Yea Get ready to go
Turn it up Turn it loose Yeah
You got no excuse Just
Take a chance get out on the floor and Dance
Let's Dance for what the weekend, what the night is all about
Let's Dance grab your girlfriends, grab your boyfriends sweat it out
Let's Dance Let's start the party
(Dance with me, Dance with me, Dance with me, Dance)
Let's Dance for the weekend what the night is all about
Let's Dance grab your girlfriends grab your boyfriends let it out
Let's Dance (move your whole body) Let's start the Party

I was absolutely stunned when the song ended then played my music by the Jonas Brothers came on. Then Bella started singing!

"Got my six string on my back

Don't need anything but that

Everything I want is here with me"

Speaking of six strings Bella picked up one of her own guitars and started playing right along with the song. "Yay! Go Bella" I basically screamed and started dancing with her. Wow I like Bella this way maybe she can stop being mopey. Even after the song Bella went into one of her own her voice weaving through the complicated melody her fingers wove on her red and white checkered guitar.

" . . . So stick me outside

I promise I won't cry

Ill sing and dance

And leave it all up to chance

Just laying in the rain

Not worrying about any aching pain

Not worried about school

Not worried about looking like a fool

Just going to lay out here

With nothing to fear

Going to listen to the sounds of rumbling thunder

Loving that the suns not coming out from under"

I was completely awed I stopped dancing and looked towards the notebook lying on the bed. I sat down and looked through the book some of the pages were yellowed dating back to before she was changed. The book was then snatched from my hands, "What are you doing Alice?" I sighed I was really getting tired of Bella's extreme moods. "I came in planning to do Bella Barbie saw you dancing, singing and playing guitar, and am really hurt that you never told me about this it could have been so much fun." I put on my best pout face knowing Bella was not great at keeping grudges. "Fine Alice I forgive you and to make up for it . . . you can do . . . Bella Barbie" she sighed and hung her head. "Don't worry Bella it is nothing too drastic"

I went into her closet and pulled out a green baby doll dress she had along with some green boots and a light green and blue scarf to go with it. "By the way Bella I had a vision that Esme asked us to live with them what do you think? I really think we should just to ease suspicion among the humans since we look so much alike." "Yeah Alice I think we should, it is cool that Esme is so nice. She is really easy to talk to also." I was glad Bella had already found a friend in Esme. I often wondered though how close she was to her best friend from her human years.

She must have loved him dearly.

Jasper walked into the room then. "Ok Alice Bella we had better get going. Alice are we walking or driving?" "Walking" I replied, "Esme told Bella to follow their scent and the easiest way to do that is to walk.

Bella POV

Alice quickly got us on the right scent heading for the Cullen's. The scent was getting really strong the scent was getting really strong when we heard a piercing scream. We ran a few hundred yards and gasped there was Edward curled up in a ball and shaking like a earthquake, he screamed again. The sound making Alice hold Jasper tightly, I turned to them "You two go on ahead. I am going to see if I can help Edward." Alice looked at me questions in her eyes "Alice just go on I know that type of pain. Please just go, and don't tell anyone at his home. I will have an excuse for us when we get back." Alice and Jasper nodded and I watched them until they disappeared from my sight.

I walked over to Edward and sat down beside him hoping his dry sobs would not make me dry sob too. He had his back against the tree now hitting his head on it. He looked like he wanted to fall over so I grabbed his shirt collar and pulled him down to lay in my lap. "Edward? Come on open your eyes. It's me, Bella. Tell me what is wrong." I watched his golden eyes open and look at me. "Bella? What are you doing . . . here?" I watched as another sob racked his body. "Alice, Jasper, and I heard you scream I told them to go on ahead about 10 minutes ago."

His eyes were so gorgeous his mess of hair even messier since he had banged it so hard he left a dent in the tree. His sobbing had finally calmed down "I am sorry you had to see that" he said "I have not yet completely let go of my human past I'm sorry." I hated seeing that expression of learned sadness on his face.

"Edward what can I do to make you happy?" "I don't know Bella. It just seems that the worse thing about this is there is only mental pain not the physical." He looked up towards the tree where he had hit his head. I understood now why he had done that. Then to his sudden surprise I pulled him up and gave him the hardest most bone crushing hug I could manage. He chuckled "Thanks Bella" I was still hugging him I like how my arms fit comfortably around his chest and how his arms had wrapped down my back and to my waist.

"Bella?" he asked hesitantly, "Yes?" "Do you think you could help me feel pain?" "That depends will it make you happy again?" "Yes" "Ok then after wards I have a new nickname for you Cullen" "Oh? And what would that be?" "You will see after I am done just be prepared to catch me." "Alright . . ." he said his voice hesitant now. I smiled and started to climb a tree where I could aim myself for him. "Get ready Edward!" I called down. I saw his open arms waiting and jumped off the tree going straight to him. Once I hit his arms we were back in the same position we had been at lunch except this time his grip was tighter and his face extremely surprised. The impact sent us both flying into a tree and he made sure only he hit while I stayed almost completely un jostled in his iron arms.

"Edward?" I asked "are you ok?" He smiled and nodded tightening his arms around me. It occurred to me now he might have only wanted to hold me again, oh well for right now I did not care. "Bella are you ok?" his velvet voice made me want to giggle. "Extremely" I replied with a certain feeling like this had happened before even though I had only met him today.

Edward POV

Bella was still in my arms and I was still against the tree. "We better get back" I said. "yeah". We were a few hundred feet from my home when I remembered. "What is your new nickname for me Bella?" "Oh it is . . . sick masochistic lion" "Why a lion" "Because of your hair." I laughed it was a good nickname for me. "I guess I have to come up with a nickname for you" "Maybe" she said "but I don't think you could be creative enough" that struck a chord she would have to hear me on the piano then. Bella had been slightly supporting me the whole way to my house. I think she was afraid I would start shaking again with dry sobs. Though the closeness was nice that was a bit embarrassing.

We both separated seeing my house. I listened to the thoughts of my family and nobody seemed to know of what happened in the woods, I wonder if Bella had something to do with that. When we walked through the door Esme dragged Bella to the couch with a excited expression. "Bella Alice and Jasper have already agreed to stay here. Will you stay with us also we have another room for you if you choose to?" Please say yes. Please say yes. "Yes Esme I would love to stay" it was hard to keep the smile off my face.

(A/N)-yay! I like this chapter hope you do too and please review and tell what you think Edward and Bella should argue about! And can you figure out who E is?