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Back from freezing my ass in Xian (don't ask, school trip)! Gah, it sort of was fun and I enjoyed it lots but then I had a fever in the middle of it so I got pretty pissed. Hehe, now I'm attempting to finish the work given to me. Hmm, a lot of history and a lot of work to do. How awesome - note sarcasm. Anyway, enough with my trash and oh: I don't own Twilight.

Dear Rose,

Rose, I know you're not someone who likes people beating round the bush (which I sort of am now), so I'm gonna go straight to the point. Thank you Rose! For everything, for nothing, I don't know. I only know that you did so much for me and I thank you so much. You may not know it, you may think I hate you, but I do love you, sometimes as much as Ali.

I smiled and tears were gathered in my eyes. It was a sad smile, like I'm happy but at the same time sad. Like I wanted to hear this since forever but not in this type of situation.

I didn't have many memories with you, mainly because I haven't talked to you much ever since we met.

Hearing her say this made me want to kill myself. I have such a beautiful and lovely friend and now sister and I never had the decency to actually go talk to her. Talk about being a mean bitch. I only ever talked to her to tell her not to be like us and because of her baby. I'm so selfish and she does not even know it.

But I do have experiences with you. Like when I first met you, Jessica told me you were "Ice Queen" or something, but I can see that's not the case. With your family, I believe you can a warm and protective older sister; one I always wanted to have.

Aww, she thinks of me as a sister. I'm so glad to hear her say that but then I not there to say it back to her. Hah, interesting, Ice Queen huh? Jessica is too full of herself. No one talks to Bella about us like that and gets away with it. Warm and protective to my family? She really does know us well; I thought I made sure not to let that slip. Maybe I wasn't doing a good enough job or she's just too observant.

I know I'm sick, in bed and dying. I'm sure you know that too and I bet Edward does too. It's just that the stubborn fool I call my husband refuses to admit that. Idiot.

I sniggered at that and everyone's eyes whirled to me. To be honest, I would have normally found that utterly hilarious.

I can tell I'm not gonna make it through this without giving up the baby and I'm damned not going to let that happen. It's impossible. I know you've always wanted a child and honestly, you'd make a much better mother than I would.

It's true. I've always wanted a child, but with Jazz, we can't possibly adopt one because of his blood lust and well, creating immortal children is just like killing myself and I'd probably kill the whole family. I believe I would never make a better mother than her. If her child or any other child had a choice of which their mother would be, 99% of them would probably pick Bella. Who would want an Ice Queen for their mother?

Although I cannot make you my child's mother, I want to make you her aunt. I gave the godmother role to Ali not because I have a grudge against you and don't want to give you all the good roles. Actually, it's because I'm sure Ali would go oh-so-overboard and you'll be the protecting aunt who would stop Ali.

Hmm, aunt huh? Not bad, I was thinking I'd be nothing but someone who lives in the same house. Protecting aunt, I hope. I really don't want to let Bella down but what if I don't do well. What if I screw up? Oh, Bella, why give me something so tough when you know I'll never be able to take care of a kid. Hah, I'm so stupid. I've always wanted children yet all along I have never been ready at all.

I hope you would stand by Edward for me after I die. I know you were never for him and me together but please just do this for me. I know I owe you a lot but this is the last thing. You never really liked him much did you? As a matter of fact, apart from me you probably hate him most, right? I guess it's because he can be a little (okay a lot) too annoying sometimes, and maybe too controlling but I hope you would try to know him better maybe?

Stand by Edward? Okay, for Bella and only for Bella will I stand by someone so stuck up and annoying? Seriously, does he have to always wear that knowing grin? Yes I know he can read minds, big deal! Urgh, fine, only for my sister. Hmm, I'm shocked Edward hasn't heard anything. He usually says he "does not want to intrude on our privacy" but I know sometimes he can't help it.

You probably know a hell lot more about child care then anyone else apart from the parents of the house so please take care of my baby. I know I shouldn't ask so much from you, considering the fact I gave nothing back but please, for my dead wish. Grant it?

I obviously know nothing about baby and stuff. I only dream of having kids, don't mean I know about them. I personally think she's asking too little from me. I haven't done anything for her. Her whole wedding was I forced there; I wouldn't willingly go because I believed it was stupid of her to marry Edward just to be like us. I don't understand why she would ever give up everything for this life, the whirlwind of the same events. It's so boring. I'd rather live a normal life and die peacefully and happily.

I guess it's just me. A normal person who heard about vampires would run but yet I'm married to one. How strange is that? But, I never regretted it, for I gained the best family anyone could ever have. I am so thankful to have such an amazing older sister who I'm sure would look after me, if I were alive I mean.

A forced laugh escaped my mouth and into the silent room. Once again, all eyes were on me. Yea, if it were me, I would have ran halfway across the world if I knew I was in love with a vampire. But Bella is indeed part of our family. But why, why must she keep reminding me she's dead. Every single line she writes makes me feel like I want her tucked under my arm, comforting her after some hard labor like a sister would but then she's dead.

I give all my best wishes to you and Emmett for happiness for eternity. I wish to see you two share loving looks at each other but I guess looking from where ever I will be will do. Please, take care and be careful, for it would make me feel much better to know that everyone is living happily even if I'm not there. Also, I heard of plans that you and Emmett decided to adopt. Go for it. You would make an amazing mom. Don't worry too much and remember: I love you, big sis.

Love and Goodbye,

Bella

The last reminder that she died, this whole 'I wish you all the best' thing. Of course she would be watching us from above and she would hopefully be helping us on the way. I bet Edward has mentioned to Bella about us adopting because we never discussed it with people in the house. I love you too Bella, my friend, my sister.