Sorry for the last update guys. Thanks for all the reviews and favourites and alerts.

So many of you wanted me to write one for Nessie so I will. And Edward's is the grand finale, look forward to it. It would be sad, I think. Kleenex advised.

This chapter, many said between Carlisle, Esme and Jasper. Well, to be honest, I had no idea. So in the end, I chose Jasper. Since he was somewhat mentioned in the last.

Enjoy.

Dear Jasper,

Jazz, if you don't mind me calling you this way, of the entire family, I think to say that I know you least is an understatement. I don't mean to blame you or what; it's just that, I wish I had more time to spend with you.

I feel so guilty; I haven't talked to her much. Of the two years we've known her, I probably only said about 20 sentences to her. Not exactly a lot, even Rose said more to her than I did. Calling me Jazz just made it a hundred times worse. I longed for so long for her to call me that; that nickname is very affectionate to me, so only family can call me that, along with a couple of other variations.

I feel so close to you, yet so far away. I mean, we're always in the same room yet, it feels like you're not there. You get my drift? It's like you're close by, and I know you're near, but it feels like you are in the background, like you're just there but not at the same time. I wish I could interact with you more, but you always said, "because of my bloodlust".

I have to admit, being the background man feels kind of insulting. We are all vampires, all equals and yet I'm treated like I'm a bomb or something. Everyone has to stay away. I would have loved it if I could talk to Bella more; it feels better that way, knowing I actually tried. But when Edward or Alice told me to stay away, I would, I do not want to risk her life again.

Please stop blaming yourself with the birthday thing. I forgave you the moment it happened. It's in your nature; it's part of who you are. You tried so hard to stay away from me, so I find it perfectly fine if you attacked me. Actually, I always thought you had a strong control over your bloodlust. You have to feel everyone's thirst plus your own, and that's 6 people's thirst. I felt so in awe when I made that epiphany. I thought that you are so strong, so brave, so….there is no way to describe the way it made me feel.

The birthday thing, oh god. It was my entire fault, why didn't I hunt? Why did I have to act on instinct? Why? Why? WHY? So many questions once swarmed my head, and in the end, the answer was 'because I was too stupid'. Alice disagrees and blames herself, that she could have foreseen it, but didn't. It's my fault. Bella's epiphany made absolutely no sense whatsoever. Strongest? Yeah right. I'm the weak link of the family, the one that made the family move a couple of times because of my slipups. The one who couldn't resist the blood that pumped in Bella's veins. The one that nearly killed her. She should not feel in awe by this, I am utterly useless. I'm always the one slipping up, and I'm the…. I'm not brave, or strong. I'm a coward; I never ever dared to apologize to her after the incident. I feel so guilty, and I was so afraid that she would yell at me, and blame me, and I could not face it.

Remember the James incident, when you and Alice drove me up to Phoenix. You and Alice risked your life that day, driving me up there and keeping me safe. And I stupidly had to go to the Ballet Studio alone. After all the effort you guys took to keep me safe, I ran out of the safety bubble and into the lion's trap. Talk about stupid. But you two so amazingly rescued me, and told me I was worth it, when I was obviously not. You controlled your bloodlust, when I was gushing blood out. I am forever grateful that you rescued me.

The James incident, oh why did I agree on going with her to Phoenix? I would have been much more helpful staying behind and helping track James. Yes, I risked Alice's life, but actually, if it came down to a fight, I was probably going to make Alice run and stay behind alone. I didn't think it was stupid to go to the Ballet Studio, she cared so much about her mom, and us, she didn't want to risk anyone's safety. So selfless. She really was worth it, our family really became more complete and happy with her here, but now that she's gone again, it just made it worse. We were all grown so accustomed to her in our lives and suddenly, no heads-up whatsoever, she's gone. Poof. It's like there is a huge gap in our family, and the links are all broken up.

There wasn't much interaction after that was there? I wanted so much to have an opportunity to tell you face to face how much it meant to me, you risking your life, the birthday thing. I wanted some time to talk to you, tell you things I would to a brother. But every time I want to Edward says it's dangerous, and finds something to distract me. Right now, as I'm writing this, I'm trying to send out as much love and appreciation and gratitude as I can. I hope you can feel it.

No wonder a few days ago, I felt this strong gush of love and adoration and gratitude hitting me, and when I saw it was from Bella, I assumed it was either to her kid or to Edward. No way in my 160 years of existence would I have thought it was to me.

When you told me about your story, your first line was, "my story isn't the same as the others". In a way, everyone's story is sad, well actually in many ways, but no one's story is alike. Sure, everyone's story starts sad and ends with a happily ever after but, your story was the most interesting. It shows you as a young man at first, and your bravery in going into war. Then, the Southern gentleman, who got put into so much pain to turn into a vampire and put into ore war, suffering emotionally because of your power. Then, it went on to the vamp that left the miserable hellhole and came into a brighter day, meeting Alice, meeting the Cullens. It was a very emotional story because everything felt so real. The scars of yours, although I have only ever saw it once, shows tokens of your bravery, of a past of struggles and a past that included a lot of pain and suffering.

When I told her my story, I was very reluctant actually. The story was going to freak her out, and I was afraid of her emotions, her possible disbelief and fear. But, throughout the whole tale, all I could feel from her was pity, awe, pride and adoration. No fear, no disbelief, no hatred, no nothing. It made me so confused and I never realised that she actually had such a different point of view from the normal, "oh, he's the god of war. Beware, he can kill." I like her point of view, it makes me feel better.

Jazz, at my wedding, you acted like you love me. Is it real? Do you really treat me as your sister, as someone who is not an outsider? In a way, we are both very similar. We like country stuff, and we are both flawed. No offence intended but I felt like I had to say everything I want to on this one letter. In case I don't survive, which I have a feeling I won't, you will know what I feel about everything between us. You are the scarred on of the family, the one who is "weak", the one who everyone thinks is an outsider. I'm the odd one out, I'm not beautiful, and I'm not like you guys. We are both different from the rest and we have common state here. We are alike could have been great friends, well, I would have come and talk but well, you know why.

Of course I love her as my sister. Anyone would have been blessed to have someone like her as a sister. If she didn't say it, I would never have realised that we were that alike. She didn't offend me; I already know that the whole family is perfect, all except me. She doesn't know how beautiful she is, inside and out. I agree that we could have been amazing friends, but I couldn't risk her life anymore. I would have loved to talked to her though, and I always planned on it after she turned vampire but I guess we don't have the opportunity do we?

Jazz, my brother, I hope you live a happy life. Stop thinking and blaming yourself, instead move on. I have no way of expressing how much I actually love you, unlike how I can to the rest of the family. Really brother, I love you. And again I am sending love here. Alice and you match a lot. Both of you are kind souls with a difficult past. Alice with her asylum thing and you with the human and vampire wars. You two are perfect for each other and I wish you all the best. Take care of Edward for me, and naturally Alice and the others as well. Oh and I forgot to tell you. You're godfather to my daughter. Alice is the godmother naturally. I chose you because you can calm my kid down. I have absolute faith in you. Remember, I love you, my walking chill pill.

Love and Goodbye,

Bella

I internally chuckled at the nickname. Great, another one added to the list of weird nicknames. Honestly, what is up with people giving me nicknames? I'm probably radiating happiness right now because she just called me her brother, and that cause a lot of eyes on me, "is Jasper okay?" looks. Godfather, that's a shock. I thought I would be nothing, but wow. I always wanted a child to care for as my own and guess now I do. I love you too, my selfless, beautiful sister.

What do you think? I was kind of stuck writing this one, and I am really pissed cause I can never keep him in-character enough. I kind of failed this chappie. I probably would write Esme/Carlisle next. Then the other. Then maybe Jake, and Charlie, and Renee and Phil then Nessie and finally Edward. If you guys want me to add anyone special feel free to review/message.

Oh and I'm would love to have a beta for this story. Anyone want in? pm again.