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where the hell is Alice"

Oh yeah I forgot. Guys well be right back." They nodded and I watched them as me and Rosalie went upstairs.

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........."Hello?" Uh-oh that ain't alice.

"Oh come on what happened now?" Rosalie yelled only for me and her to hear.

"Okay who the hell is this?" I asked

"Oh..Bella hey girl it's Eric I'm over Alice's house. Can you believe I am 17 and my voice finally got lower HAHAHA"

"Oh my gosh thank god…boy you gave us a heart attack for a second. So what you guy's doing" Rosalie asked. I was still in shock and I had to calm down my nerves.

"Well Alice is in the shower and I was talking to my boyfriend on the other line until I was so rudely interrupted by you two brats"

She chuckled "Yeah we love you too. You never told us you were gay you little ball of fur"

"Yeah well I'm gay now honey and LOVIN IT!" he shouted the last part.

Rosalie rolled her eyes and now it was my turn to talk.

"So Alice is in the shower? dang we really need to talk to her you too Mr. I'm gay now."

"Okay I'll tell her when she gets out right now I want to get back to my boyfriend." He sounded hurt.

"Aw come on Eric don't be like that we were just kidding" I whined

"Whatever" He said in a gay tone and hung up.

Rosalie kept chuckling to herself. "Oh my gosh I love him so much. I'm so glad he's our assistant but can you believe that it only took 17 years for his voice to drop. I mean it only took mike 14 years or at least that what he told me."

We started our way to the kitchen to give nessie and Emily some privacy. Emily looked so much happier just hearing about nessie's stories as a kid and how they became famous. She was telling all the silly stories because that's what she is. Just a silly teenager with a mine of a 9 year old, she was adorable.

"I know right girl, I still can't believe you still went with him with those pimples on his forehead." I took out a bag of chips and Rosalie took one.

"I don't know he was just so sweet to me...that is until he cheated" I chuckled at the end and she playfully hit my arm.

"It's not funny"

That only made me laugh more "Yes it is"

"You know I really meant what I said earlier yesterday we need boyfriends. Especially you, all your life you've been hurt and we have been here for you to pick up the pieces and your fans of course but they don't know anything about it. Don't you want somebody that will catch you and kiss you and love you and tell you everything is going to be all right? Protect you from hurt just like your parents should have done?" she looked sincere.

"Of course I think about it all the time but look at me Rosalie. I love my guy fans of course but I bet if a person wanted to be in my life and they found out what I had to go through they would never talk to me again. All the stuff I've been through I think they would rather date a hobo"

"No they wouldn't. Look at me Isabella Marie Swan you are better than that. You know ever since I met you, you doubt yourself like that and it's just now true your always to hard on yourself why? Why are you like that? Your drop dead gorgeous I use to be jealous of you until mike came along and started to make me feel good about myself"

What the heck did she just say? Rosalie? The Rosalie Hale was jealous of me? I use to be jealous of her. All the boys at school always looked up to her more than the gang. She was the gorgeous one.

"What?"

"Yes I know what you might be thinking the boys at school always seemed to look at the blond one more than you guys but I was always jealous of you for some reason. Your just to gorgeous for a man to pass up on and the way I see it, if a good man had heard your story and he truly cared for you as he said he did…then he would hold you and say 'you don't have to worry anymore about it cause I'm here or 'It doesn't matter to me cause I love you'." She was lost in her on little world until I pulled her out of it.

"Nobody will ever love me in that way but you guys so just drop it okay Rosalie…Jeez" I walked off to my room and locked the door with Rosalie on the other side of it apologizing.

It was true nobody wanted me. The only family I had was my sisters…Alice...Nessie…and Rosalie and I had my fans but they had no idea the situation I have been in. Neither does my assistant Eric. But I had a feeling that once we told Eric what happened then he would have to hear all of our stories. I had god too by my side but I think my father abused me so much that maybe him himself didn't want to be with me, but for some reason my heart keeps telling me that's not true and I eventually believed it.

But Rosalie was right I did want someone to respect me and love me, but it wasn't going too happened and I knew that. I opened of the door because I was sick of Rosalie pleading for me to open the door. I wanted to go home though.

"Hey rose keep an eye on Rosalie and Emily tonight. I got to go home and don't worry if Charlie is not in the right mine then I'll go to Alice's cause she's close by me. Hey wasn't she supposed to call us back?" Rosalie came down and sat with me

"Yeah I guess if you go over tonight you can tell her what happened"

"Of course" I got up and pulled Rosalie up with me and she gave me a big bear hug. Damn she was strong.

"I love you bells"

"Love you to Rosie" And I walked downstairs and took my duffel bag and then my keys and walked out the back door so nessie didn't have to see me leave her. I didn't want her to stop talking to her mom. She looked happy and that was all that mattered to me for the moment.

As I was driving from the cabin I looked back and I saw Rosalie waving at me and I honked then she smiled and ran back in the house.

When I drove up to my house I saw another car there that I haven't noticed before. I walked in the house to find out who was here. Nobody was in the living room so I went downstairs to find my dad and other 3 men pimping my mother out. She loked like she was drunk and was just dancing in front of them with my dad and the other guys throwing money at her. Screw this.

"HEY WHAT DO YOU THIJNK YOUR DOING?" I was pissed.

One of the men looked at me from the down and up to my eyes. He looked like he was in his early 30's. "Hey your kind of cute" yeah he was drunk

"Shut up you pig" I shot back

my dad looked at me like he was kind of embarrassed and then smiled

"I'm doing what I should have done a long time ago" He looked at me and studied me for a moment "Hey why don't you come over here and join your mother? She could use a little break and you could us the money right?" for some reason the men and him found that money.

"Oh so you find that funny huh. I'm your daughter damn it how can you be that sick? All my life you have abused me and took away my virginity when I was 11 years old and all you have to do now is say do you want to join you mother you know what here is an idea for you why don't I turn you in to the police which is what I have should have done a long time ago and take all the money I have made since I've been famous and then I take my mom away from you and get her cleaned again and once you have been tortured and beat for a good 4 years when I'm satisfied that you've learned your lesson I'll think about getting you back on your feet. Man I like that plan don't you oh and then while your being tortured in jail I'll be having dinner and lunch with the queen. Did I ever tell you I have England on speed dial? Wow I am tired aren't you? Well..." I trailed and grabbed my mother from the floor who looked like she had been dragged by Charlie of course as usual "wow you took my mom away from me too. Well we can't have that can we that's another I believe 3 more years in jail…well we are not off to a good start are we Mr. Swan? Well tsk tsk I guess your just going have to deal with it cause as of now me and momma are moving out and since this is my house and not yours and you basically don't do anything and have no money you'll be out of this house and on the streets in a week cause I start packing tomorrow with just my things and nothing else. Mom's gonna go to rehab and I really don't care where you end up so squeeze me." My dad looked kind of sad and a mixture of anger on his face and his friends looked drunk and were just looking at me with clueless faces one man just passed out on the floor.

"You ain't leaving me girl and you better believe that. I'll kill you if you ever think about putting me in jail-"I cut him off

"Oh trust me baby you can't even touch me because if you do I'll kill you myself and confess in court it was in self-defense. See that I won't do that and first of all...I'm not even scared of you so why am I even wasting my time with you." Then I left out the door with my mom and cried all the way to Alice's house without saying a word.