The next afteroon was full of nervous for Kanou. He didn't know how to approach the 'kid.' But at least, if he visit him today, he can show how sorry he was.

"Kanou-kun... President is not here today." Tsusaku said as Kanou asked him Ayase's whereabouts.

"Did something happen to him?" He asked as if he has not done anything.

"We also think it's weird because even he had a fever, he would really let us know. But now, there's really no sign. And also, it's the first time Tokigawa-kun absent from school. Did they have each other? Or maybe-"

"I'll be going then." Knou slammed the door.

He immediately opened Ayase's room as he reached his house.

He saw Ayase, curling his nude body, looking blankly at his knees. His eyebugs were lining under his eyes. His lower lip was wounded. And also, there's a dried blood stain from the edge of his mouth to his jaw. Kanou saw blood stains on his the bed sheets, too.

Kanou ran to him and tried to get his attention but there's no problem, he's still looking at the infinity.

"What's this blood? Kid, what's this?" Then he noticed that the stains of blood were beside Ayase's butt.

Could it be that-

Then a fresh blood went out from his ass and it made Ayase's face looked hurt and he bit his lower lip.

So this is why your lip was hurt.

"Oh my God,... Ayase... Ayase c'mon talk to me... Ayase..." He's shaking him.

"P-please... don't shake me... it's hurting."

Kanou hugged him.

"K-Kanou-kun... the pain is... killing me." His eyes were already dry. He already cried all the tears since last night.

"Ayase, I'm sorry... I'm sorry... sorry sorry sorry sorry... sorry, Ayase."

"K-Kanou-kun... it's killing me..." He's sobbing but still no tears and his eyes were still blank. "Please help me ease the pain... please... take away the pain."

"Ayase. stop it. Don't think about it and it will go away."

"Please somebody ease the pain... help me..." Ayase seemed like he didn't hear Kanou.

"Ayase, what have I done to you? Please don't go crazy. We are still going to be a couple, right?... Ayase... please... please wake up your mind..." then he kiised him, hoping to wake him up.

Ayase's eyes went back to normal.

"Oh... A- Kid, I'm sorry."

"I-It's is cold, will you get me a shirt in the cabinet?"

"K-kid?"

"Will you or not?"

"Ah... sure."

He jumped oot of bed to search for a t-shirt in the cabinet.

"H-here." Kanou gave the shirt.

"Uhm, will you mind if you help me go up?"

"Ah... sure." He helped Ayase to sit up. But the blond suddenly clenched while his holding Kanou's forearm. Ayase's nails are kinda long so they really did a small scratch.

Ayase dressed himself up.

"Err.. do you want something to eat? Guess you still haven't eaten your lunch. I wonder how you survived." He chuckled.

"Did you know how much I suffered? To get to the position of curling myself, do you know that it took me time? And every move I do, I feel the blood coming out from me. It's like I'm a woman raped for the first time and was not treated well." He slowly lifted his chin up and locked his eyes onto him. "Did you know how many litres of tears I cried? Every blood exiting my body is worth a thousand droplets of tears... and can you imagine how many stains are there on my bedsheet?" His voice was calm but it has a certain tone.

Kanou explored his bedsheet by his eyes.

"Who knows? If I stand up here, blood inside me might splash out."

"I'm sorry. I don't mean to-"

"You don't mean to what?... to don't listen to me and then just... just... come?"

"I'm sor-"

"Don't do athing and just say 'sorry,' because what's done is done."

If tears were only available to stores, Ayase would buy to have an extra, just in case of emergency.

But I never thought this as "in case of emegency.'

"Now, thanks for the visit, you can go." He looked down on the floor.

"Kid-"

"What?"

"This is why I like first time we met, you looked directly to my eyes with no hesitation. You're the only one who could say something like that to me. The one who made me... smile. And I found myself falling in love with you... deeper." He stood up. "The staffs were fine. Do you want to write a letter to them for me to take?"

"No. Just tell them I'm- well, it's your decision what you tell them."

"Okay."

Their voice were cold.

Kanou was already standing by the doorway when he asked, "So, is this the final meeting?"

"Yes..." he's hoping that his voice is not trembling.

"Is it hard to say goodbye?"

"For almost two months of being together, it's hard, yes."

"Okay, then, I'm going." He closed the door slowly.

After few minutes, Ayase heard the door shutting, which means Kanou's departure.

In a teary-eyes, maybe, he said to himself, "But it's harder to pretend that I don't care about you... that I want you to go, that... I don't love you."

Though he can't stand up, he tried very hard to do it. It took almost ten minutes before he reached the table. He saw two teddy bears placed on it. Somehow it made him smile and forget about the pain.

He held the teddy bears and hugged them. Then he saw a letter and took no hesitation to read it.

Hi Kid,

Please take care of our children, okay?

Moron...