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Previously:
Jace was unreachable in this possessed state and I was dying because of it.
I never once closed my eyes until the end. Until knew there was no more to my life.
I closed my eyes thinking the last thing I would ever think;
I love you Jace, no matter what a complete idiot you are.
Chapter Ten:
Torment
Jace POV
Two Hours Before
" She should be okay. She will though have delusions. What she fears most will occur. What you mustn't to is awaken her. She will die if you do. She has to go through the delusions in order for her to heal." The Doctor told us. " If she screams – don't wake her."
I looked towards the ground. I caused this. I shouldn't have taken her to the club. I should've just stayed home. Why did this happened ?
" Jace," Maryse whispered, walking into the room. She couldn't make it beforehand because she was in a meeting with the Clave. She looked towards Clary. I registered shock on her expression. She didn't believe it when whomever told her that Clary was tramped in Coma. Facing her biggest fears. And I wasn't able to stop it.
Robert breezed into the room, his eyes widened slightly as he saw Clary's pale, still body. I knew what she looked like. Dead. " Jocelyn. I offer my condolences."
Jocelyn had been here three days, sleeping at most four hours. Four more hours than me. She nodded gravely, staring emptily at her daughter. I imagine her wondering if that what it was like when Clary saw her in a hospital bed similar.
Doctor Orson had waited until the a special ready-made shipment of healing oils and pills came from the outskirts of Idris. Except she told us someone attacked the delivery horse, and killed it. The second shipment came last night. The medicine started working after 24 hours. Which then was injected into her heart, to fight the poison.
Clary woke up yesterday. When Doctor Orson told us to eat and rest down at the cafeteria. Isabelle finished the quickest, and rushed back to Clary's room, feeling that something would happen. Sure enough, Clary woke up. And I wasn't there to see her. She could die, Doctor Orson told us. After, she walked out leaving us to our thoughts. After Clary fell into a coma-like state, but not for long.
That's when the screaming and thrashing started.
Two Hours Later
Jace POV
She's been screaming for two hours. She'll stop, gasp and then scream again. There are two Doctors holding her down right now. She keeps thrashing. She feel off the bed before, and started to have a seizure. Doctor Orson everything's going well so far. Having seizures was normal? How was that helping Clary?
The Doctors ordered everyone out of the room when the screaming started. Everyone complied, not wanting to watch Clary in her pained state right now. I didn't comply though. I couldn't. That's why I was torturing myself watching her in pain. I knew I couldn't do anything.
Vivian laid off so far, and I was glad for that small miracle. She hadn't known Clary for that long so she mostly stayed in the Lobby. Right now, she was making plans to go back to New York. She planned on staying at the Institute until the Penhallows came back from their trip, having missed it. Her real family was at the Institute in Pennsylvania.
Clary screamed again, pulling me from my thoughts. I put my elbows on my knees, leaned forward, and buried my face in my hands. I couldn't take it. I pulled my hair hard to keep me from making any violent gesture which would indefinitely cause me to lose my privileges in seeing Clary. Her eyes rolled to the back of her head.
" JACE!" Clary screamed. My head snapped up, confused. Was I her biggest fear? No, it couldn't. Was she afraid of me? " PLEASE! VIVIAN DOES LOVE YOU!"
A wave of relief hit me along with more guilt and sadness. If ever thought I loved, liked, or even sexually attracted to Vivian, she was wrong. Clary couldn't possibly know how I felt. I didn't even know. At first, before we had been lead to believe we were siblings I had strong feelings. Pushing them aside as sexual tension, I tried to hook up with her. Then the night at Magnus' party, when she wanted to help Simon, save him. I realized then that my father was wrong. Loving someone wanted to make you a better person. Loving someone could save you, heal you. That's exactly what Clary did.
The two Doctors struggled as Clary shrilly screamed. I saw sadness in their glances at me. Maybe they had loved ones. Maybe they couldn't handle seeing someone have such overbearing anguish. It was hard. I was tired, yet I couldn't sleep in fear of either Clary waking up, Clary dying, or seeing her in my dreams which included her screaming for her life. I couldn't do that, if Clary woke up and I wasn't there I don't even know how grief-stricken I'd become.
" YOU DON'T WANT TO KILL ME! YOUR POSSESSED!"
I choked. Kill her? Clary? Never. Was- Was Clary's worst fear of me loving Vivian, and becoming possessed which lead to me killing her? How could she ever think that?
Suddenly Clary stilled. " I love you Jace, no matter what a complete idiot you are."
I could feel myself tense. In her nightmare, I killed her. I killed Clary. " How is this supposed to help Clary? Huh? If – When she wakes up, is she supposed to afraid of me?" I yelled at the Doctors. They down at Clary, seeing her suddenly still body.
" Devin, watch her. I'll be back." One of the Doctors ordered, guiding me out of the room. " Mr. Herondale, please sit." I sat. " Clarissa is dealing with this on her own. Her … battle if you will. She must deal with all of her biggest fears again and again. Each one gets worse. Right now she's dealing with Stage One, Two, and Three. The Stage One: You becoming possessed. Stage Two: Forgetting you Love her and killing her. And finally Stage Three: Falling in Love with a Vivian. In each nightmare, she must live through everything without having having a panic attack or killing herself which kills her actual body. Now, she doesn't realize that she's screaming, or moving or even talking at all. They sort of mirror her thoughts. But I feel you should know there are Ten Stages."
Ten Stages? And she was only on Stage – Suddenly Clary's screams started again. This time it sounded worse. Louder. More desperate for freedom.
I flinched. Would this end soon?
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