Sirius knew Remus had every right to be avoiding him; he was not questioning that. He was, however, beginning to question why the wolf was closing James, Peter, and Lily out as well. Collectively, they began to worry.
"Something is wrong, and he's not telling us," Peter squeaked. The group looked up from their seats around the common room fire.
"No shit, Wormtail," Sirius replied, coldly.
"Well no one else would actually say it!" The portly boy defended himself.
"He's right, Pads," James agreed.
Sirius scowled at them, knowing they were both correct. Lily returned his harsh stare, saying nothing. She hadn't said a word to him since the library incident. She was Remus' best friend. He was the disgusting bastard who cheated on him and broke his heart. Hell, he didn't even want anything to do with himself. Sighing, he pulled the knot out of his— in all reality, Remus'— tie. He had waited until the dormitory emptied and quickly switched one of the lycan's ties with his own so he could have a bit of Remus with him throughout the day. Again, he sighed.
Peter had tried to wait patiently, seeing if anybody would say anything further. But as several minutes passed, it became quite apparent that nobody was going to say a thing. It had been a week— an entire week— since Hogsmeade and the beginning of Remus' cold-shouldering. "We have to do something!"
"Yeah?" Sirius said, on the verge of yelling. "And what the fuck do you propose?"
"You don't have to act like a dickhead just because you lot broke up!" Peter replied, his voice growing louder as well. "Some of us are still concerned about his well-being!"
Sirius jumped from his chair. "Don't you ever insinuate that any of you love him more than I do!"
"Then why did you cheat on him?" Lily hissed.
"I don't…" he faltered. Quickly, he tried to swallow the lump in his throat. "I have no clue. I don't know what came over me. I was just… she showed up! And fucking… physically, it was there. It turned me on. Emotionally, it was hell. But… I didn't fucking stop because I'm a bloody heartless son of a bitch and I hurt the only person I'll ever love. So until any of you know how it feels to wake up every morning and hope that you die because you're living in hell anyways, I don't want to hear it." Angrily, he wiped the hot tears streaming down his face on the sleeve of his robes.
"Pads—," Peter started, slightly apologetic.
"Piss off!" He yelled. Furiously, he stormed up the stairs and into the dormitory, slamming the door behind him. "Fuck them!" He yelled. "Fuck all of them!" In a fit of rage, he kicked his trunk and cursed again. "Fuck! Ouch!" He limped to his bed. As he sat on the edge of his mattress, he sobbed helplessly into his hands. "Fuck me," he choked. Quite suddenly, he felt sick.
James trudged up the stairs after his emotionally distraught best friend. He opened the door and quickly looked around, but saw no Sirius so he moved to the bathroom. Sirius was retching into the toilet; James' eyes widened as his friend looked back at him, colorless, sweating, and shaking. "Out," he choked, before having to turn back to the toilet.
"Shut up, Sirius," he replied softly. He looked at him feeling helpless. "What can I do?" he asked.
Sirius, having finally expelled all the contents of his stomach, straightened up and flushed. "C-can you help me up?" he questioned hoarsely, still crying.
"Yeah, mate."
"Just then, the dormitory door burst open once more. "I have things to do!"
"Remus, just trust me! Sirius is—!" but he cut Lily off.
"I DON'T CARE! I can't put my life on hold because he's around!" The wolf moved to enter the bathroom, but stopped when he saw James supporting a hysterical, sick-looking Sirius. Emotions temporarily overcame him. "Sirius, what…"
The boy moved to speak, but bile edged into his throat once more. He dove for the toilet.
Another two days passed. Remus was still avoiding the entire group. Sirius had kept to himself as well. Thee night he was sick, he had slept terribly. While he laid awake trying to sort through his miseries, Remus had nightmares. Sirius heard him mutter words like 'help' and 'no,' and the one that caught his attention: 'Lucius.'
At first, he tried to dismiss is— perhaps he was hearing things. But then Remus woke up. And began to cry. It was then that Sirius knew that if he didn't do something… unethical, they would never find out what was going on with Remus. So, he was going to slip the wolf Veritaserum. Instead of going back to sleep, he slipped out around three in the morning and "borrowed" James' cloak and snuck into Slughorn's stores, taking only the few drops of potion that he needed. Then, he snuck back into bed.
So as he crawled out of bed in the morning, he sighed. Remus didn't say anything as they all got ready. James debated calling back James and Peter as they left to tell them his plan, but he knew what they would say. He was coming off as obsessive and maybe even creepy. But he was desperate. He finished getting dressed and quickly padded down the stairs to the common room. Before he climbed through the portrait hole, he double checked that he had the Veritaserum in his pocket and then made his way down to the Great Hall.
He and his fellow sixth years had their charms lesson early this morning, so he knew that Remus would be down for breakfast. This plan would go smoothly, he reassured himself. There would be no problems. First, he would distract Remus, and then he would dump the Veritaserum into the boy's pumpkin juice, followed by a "casual" questioning. He knew his friends would catch on. After a bit, Remus would too. Sirius' ass was grass.
He knew that this was drastic and overkill. He was being completely overprotective, but for once, it was justified. Had Remus been speaking to him, taking these measures completely unnecessary. In fact, had Remus been speaking to any of them, Sirius wouldn't be doing this. But something in his gut was telling him he had to.
As he reached the Great Hall, he opened* the doors and made his way quickly to the Gryffindor table. He sat a few seats down and across the table from Remus. "Hey, Rem," he said. He was simultaneously hurt and pleased when the wolf deliberately looked in the opposite direction. Swiftly, he dropped the contents of the vial into Remus' goblet. James, the only one who noticed, stared at him wide-eyed. Sirius put a finger to his lips and whispered, "shhh." Remus drained his goblet and turned to leave. "Wait! Remus!" The wolf paused. Morally, Sirius debated on what to ask him first. Selfishly, he chose a personal question first. "Can you really tell me that you don't still love me?"
The wolf looked at horrified him when he reluctantly said, "No. I do still love you."
Sirius couldn't stop the tears that burned the corners of his eyes. "Then tell me what you've been hiding from us!"
He looked around, terrified, trying not to speak. "Lucius raped me the night you lot went to Hogsmeade!" He immediately threw his hands over his mouth and ran from the hall. Lily ran after him.
Sirius stood, his blood running cold. Head to toe, he was shaking uncontrollably. Both James and Peter stood with him, and the three made their way over to Lucius. Sirius grabbed a handful of the blonde's hair, pulling him up off the bench so he could whisper into his ear. "You motherfucker… I will kill you." He threw Malfoy backward onto the stone floor, his skull making a wet thud. The three boys jumped him.
Immediately, the hall went into an uproar. Malfoy's goons began to try to pull the three Gryffindors off their friend. Suddenly the headmaster, followed by the entire population of the head table, flooded down to stop them.
* = Really epically and intensely. Like Aragorn in Lord of the Rings. In case you don't know what I'm talking about, you should watch this 9 second video (= ENJOY!
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Well, kids… I hope that this chapter sparks more in you so that you review. Special thanks to leyu02o.O wait leviathan02 too because you were my only reviewer last chapter :/ Yes, it greatly saddens me. Le sigh. Well, I hope you thoroughly enjoy this and the next one should be up soon enough. Love from, Kurama.