What Have I Done?

(Warning:do NOT listen to My Immortal by Evanescence while reading this chapter...unless you have like 10 tissue boxes...i strong suggest you have at least one though...)

"Gene."

"Naru?" said a voice. Naru's eyes widened as the voice reached his ears. In front of him Shizu and Hitoshi leaned to the left to see who had called out to him. His heart started to pound against his chest as he slowly turned around. There standing a few feet away was a light brown eyed girl, staring up at him, confusion and hurt spread across her face.

"Mai" the name escaped his lips but it was nothing more then a whisper. He watched as tears filled her eyes and slowly started to pour over.

"Well that's a surprise." said Shizu. Mai's eyes shifted to them, but they did not stay.

"Go back to bed." Naru said, almost pleaded. Mai did not move from where she stood. "Mai go back to bed now!" Naru snapped. His eyes stared to water as he realized that she was not going to move.

"What's going on?" Mai asked, not taking her eyes from him.

"He just traded you life for his brothers." said Hitoshi. Mai look at him, her eyes wide. Slowly she turned to Naru, her eyes overflowing with tears.

"Please tell me he is lying." Mai pleaded. Naru just stood there staring at her, unable to say anything. "Please" Mai whispered as the tears started to escape. Something inside Naru's chest started to ach. His heart was beating so hard and so fast that he was sure it was going to break.

"Mai" he tried to call out, but it was no louder then a whisper. Mai's eyes widened as she realized that he wasn't going to deny it. She turned her gaze away, not wanting to look at him.

"Mai-" Naru was cut off when someone behind him spoke up.

"You can come with us." said Hitoshi. Naru looked at him, wishing he would stop talking. "It would save us the trouble of coming to get you later, and you wouldn't have to deal with…." His sentence trailed off as he looked over at Naru, not sure if he should say his name or not.

"I'll go with you." Mai whispered. Naru's head snapped up as he heard the words, hoping he had heard wrong. From the look on her face, he could tell that she had indeed said those words.

"Then come over here, so we may be on our way." Hitoshi said as he extended his arm out, offering his hand to Mai. Mai slowly started to make her way over to him, forcing herself not to look at Naru.

"Mai" Naru called out. He tried to go to her, to stop her from leaving but he found that he could not move. His whole body had tensed and frozen, leaving him only to watch her leave.

"Mai" he called out again, this time more desperate. "Mai, Mai, MAI!" he screamed as she reached out for Hitoshi's hand. His words were piercing knives to her. She paused for a moment before turning to look at him. "Did you even love me?" she asked. Mai waited for an answer, but Naru was too shocked to answer her. He just stared at her, his heart pounding against his chest. Mai looked away from him, tears spilling out of her eyes. "Good-bye Oliver."

Naru felt something within him shatter. The aching pain in his chest grew to an unbearable one. His stomach felt as if it had dropped to the bottom of the earth. His thoughts began to scramble, before it was impossible to think

Mai reached out and grabbed Hitoshi's hand. Darkness engulfed them, making them disappearing.

Naru collapsed to his knees, burying his face in his hands.

What did I just do?

Somehow finding strength within him, Naru slowly started to walk back feeling completely numb. Everything in this world that he cared about, truly cared about was now gone from this world. There was nothing left for him anymore.

He opened the door to his room, and looked in. To him, it seemed much emptier then before. The warm comforting presence was gone. The darkness made everything seem more lonely. He closed his eyes, stopping the tears from flowing. He squeezed the door knob in anger. What had he done? Was he really that stupid? Was he really that useless?

Closing the door, he walked back to base, hoping he would be able to be alone without the missing presences of Mai. As he opened the door he saw himself standing there, looking at him.

"Are you an idiot!" screamed his other self.

"Go away Gene." Naru said walking by him. They bumped shoulders, causing Naru to stop. Slowly Naru turned around to look at his brother.

"Yes Noll I'm alive." Gene said.

"How?" was all Naru could think to say. His mind was focused on nothing but Mai that he had totally forgot about everything else.

"You traded my life for Mai's remember?" Gene said, trying not to yell. Something within Naru started to ach as he remembered. "I mean how could you? How could you trade in her life for mine? I'm dead Noll! I've been dead for three years! But Mai was alive and you've loved her! You've loved her for three years and you just threw all of that away! You threw it away just like that! Did you even love her?" Gene screamed. Naru slammed his fist on the table.

"SHUT UP!" he screamed. "Just shut up." Naru stared down at the table, unsure of what to do. He didn't even know who he was more mad at. Gene for saying those things or him for letting them be said.

"Why?" Gene whispered. "Why me?"

"They said they would wait until morning before taking…her" Naru couldn't bring himself to say Mai's name. "That meant I had time between you coming back to life and her death to destroy them but…" Naru sentence trailed off as tears made their way into his eyes. "But she had to follow me there. She couldn't just wait in bed, where she would have been safe, where I would've been able to protect her."

"Let's face it, even if you tied her down to the bed she still would have followed you." Gene said. Naru turned around to glare at him. "I'm just being realistic." Gene said as he held up his hands. . "And anyway what are you going to do now? She's gone and I can't sense her presences anywhere. I don't even know if she is still even alive."

Mai stood there, in the cold dark hallway, the moon light shown on her through the window. Her pale face was soaked with tears. Her soft brown eyes staring at him, showing nothing but hurt and pain.

"Damn it!" Naru screamed as he slammed his fist on the table, breaking it in half. Tears escaped his dark blue eyes as the memory replayed itself in his mind. The aching in his chest returned causing him to grip his chest in pain. Gene stood there watching his brother. He knew better then to try to calm him down. The only thing he could was let him work it out himself.

The door opened behind them followed by a voice asking. "Hey Naru is everything okay? We heard…" the sentence trailed off as Bou-san as he walked into the room. Ayako and Masako stopped on both sides of him as the saw the scene in front of them.

"Gene?" asked Lin. He was standing in the doorway looking completely shocked.

"Hey Lin."Gene said with a sad smile.

"What's going on?" asked Bou-san taking a step closer. He looked over to Naru to see his back turned to them. "Naru?"

Hearing the name spoken like that brought back memories Naru would prefer to disappear. He gripped his chest even tighter as the pain slowly turned to burning. Naru turned around and, with his head down, walked past everyone and out of the room.

"Hey Naru wait!" called Yasuhara.

"Let him go." Gene said. "He needs some time to himself."

"Why? What's going on?" asked Masako sounding worried.

"And why are you alive?" asked Bou-san. "N-no offense of course." Bou-san added when he realized how what he had asked. To his surprise Gene chuckled.

"Its okay. " Then Gene added more seriously. "It's a long story."

-Hello my lovely readers. I love you all

my sister wrote that!

-Yes I did because you couldn't thing of anything to say...which is rather odd because that IS USUALLY ME

you do realize that its 11:48 pm (23:48)

-I'm tired. Goodnight.

...yea we just made a mess of the computer room and she left me to clean it up...i'm sleepy...i just got back from crew which i spent 4 hours next to a 200 degree spotlight that i literally cooked my dinner on...so yea i got school tomorrow but i just wanted to post this for you guys because it been so long since i updated or it feels that way. anyway i will try to update soon. ( if i can figure out my next chapter) but i have the opening night and performances next week and my job, plus school and Intrum Magazine and Awaken My God (for sissy) and god knows what else so i will try to update and sorry about the sad short chapter...BYE

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sorry for spelling and grammar mistakes.