I Remember

By: TracyCook

Disclaimer: I own nothing. These characters belong to the creator of Sonny With A Chance.

Couple: Sonny/Tawni

Rating: T

Authors Note: Used another Kelly song, making it a trend. :) Sorry that this chapter is short it is kind of intermission and all of their doubts worries etc. The big break ups will not be till the next chapter then from there it may very well turn rated M and my folks may have to disown me. :p

Impossible

Just woke up and thought I'd try,

Try to step across the line,

You know I've been thinking about it for a while…

Neither of them knew where to go from there. They had so much catching up to do with each other that it seemed completely impossible. Both decided that they would simply spend time together and things would come out as they did, along with this they agreed that they should not judge anything the other had done in the past. They wanted to be together and in order to do that they would have to realize both of them were completely different people than they used to be.

Honestly, Sonny was terrified to know everything. It had been hard enough to see the woman stripped down in the other woman's apartment, and she knew that that girl had not been the first. She was curious how many there had been but she knew that if she knew an exact number she would never be able to give herself to the blonde the same way again. Was that selfish? To think of Tawni as tainted?

Either way both of them decided that first they needed to take some time away from each other and make sure this was what they both wanted. She was to break up with Chad as soon as she knew for sure she did not want to be with him and Tawni was to cut the ties off of all the women she had in her life.

Of course this was not going to be as simple as the words made it sound. This was going to be difficult. If the young man was not cooperative then things could get ugly, divorces rarely went down quick and easy. He could sue her if only to spare his pride or he could drag it out for years on end, which would make starting a new relationship very difficult. She was suddenly very glad that she had no children.

She knew it would be worth it to have the woman she had lost so long ago. It would be worth the tears to be able to truly smile and no longer feel completely empty inside.

Starting to think it's time I leave,

Does me good to know I finally feel,

Feel this pain, it's really possible.

Tawni was not having trouble letting go of her past, she was having more trouble accepting who she had become and being frightened of what the future would hold. If this did not go right what would happen to her? She was almost certain that she would spiral out of control and turn not only to sexual intercourse with people that she should not, but possibly to other outs. For her this was a dream come true. Yet, the dream was far too fragile for her to grip onto tightly and call a reality there was so much that had to be done. Too much that had to be done.

Cutting ties with the women was the easy part the hard part was now that she had gotten rid of all of them she was stuck in a large beautiful empty building. Sonny had left that morning to fly back to Chad and supposedly end things with him. Letting out a sigh the blonde fell back onto her large pink leather couch sinking into the cushions and crossing her arms over her chest.

The past had only served to show that the other woman would choose the man over her and she had no reason to believe that things would be different this time. Well, that was not exactly the truth, she had some reasons to believe otherwise. Still, the thought of Sonny Munroe actually growing a spine and walking up to the man who always seemed to make her legs weak and telling him that she was in love with her seemed impossible. The brunette she knew hated hurting people's feelings.

"Not that she had a problem hurting mine." Tawni pouted, pink bottom-lip protruding as she dug deeper into the couch.

She knew that she would have to let go of the grudge that she held toward the other woman if they were going to make things work, Sonny had not chosen her then but she had now and she needed to accept that. Until the other girl showed back up on her doorstep saying things were finalized with Chad though, she was going to hold onto her grudge.

You say, can't change the winds,

You say, won't matter anyway,

Can't reach that far 'cause it's impossible.

Upon arrival at her house she received a kiss from the young man that she had settled for years ago, the guilt causing a sting to travel from where his soft lips landed toward her beating heart. It was overwhelming and she had no idea how she would find the courage to end things with him. Was he selfish? Yes, he was one of the most selfish people that she had ever known but he was not all too far off from Tawni Hart and over the years he had treated her right.

Taking her out to dinner at nice restaurants and holding her at night when she did not want to sleep with him because of reasons unbeknownst to him. These were things that most men would not do. He did not let her have the spotlight and that was his worst trait, Chad always had to be the center of everyone's attention, but she knew that when they got married and that was not a reason to leave him. No, there was no reason to leave him aside from her feelings for the diva.

Tawni had made it known that she would not be with her unless she did not only get a divorce from her husband, but she was also to tell her husband why. She was to tell the young man that she was leaving him for a woman.

Sonny found this to be cruel. There were plenty of excuses she could have come up with in order to leave the other. She could have simply told him that she fell out of love or fell in love with someone new, she honestly did not understand why she had to tell him that she had always wanted the blonde. That she had slept with her best friend and that had been the cause of the fight. That everything was her fault and that all of this time she had been settling for him. To her this was unnecessary heartache. Still, it was the only way that Tawni would have it and she found out years prior that you never try and go against her plans.

Can't rise above this place,

Won't change enough, so I pray,

Breaking down the walls to the impossible…

Brown eyes glanced away from blue as tears rolled down her flush cheeks and her body started shaking in his arms. He looked to her with worry in his eyes. "Sonny are you alright? Did things go badly with Tawni? I swear if she—"

"Shh Chad it wasn't Tawni… Things went great with her." She whispered under her breath which served to confuse the young man further.

"Well, that's great! If things went well then-then why are you crying baby?" He questioned reaching up to place his fingers beneath her chin raising it and forcing brown watering eyes to look deep into his own.

For a moment they just stared at each other. Blue searching brown for an answer to why she was so upset and brown soaking with guilt of what she had to tell her husband. It was not going to be easy to utter the words she knew that she had to tell him and she wanted nothing more than to run. If only for a second she debated how horrible it would be to actually be with the other to love him, how difficult could it be to wait it out and just be with him only to make him happy?

That would not be fair at all though not to her. She deserved to be happy and she knew that after the few years she had spent with him that she would not last if she simply continued to pretend to be madly in love with him. Her cheeks ached with all of the fake smiles she had forced.

"Chad…"

"Yeah babe? What is it? What's wrong?"

Someone tell me why it's so hard taking chances,

You draw the line and think that I won't ask for more…

I will stumble and I'll make my own mistakes,

But I won't worry about it anymore, it's impossible.

"We need to get a divorce." Her voice cracked and as his hand fell away from her cheek her eyes fell to the floor, she awaited his reaction. She knew that things were only going to get worse before they got better. But she was ready.

It's impossible to you,

Not impossible to me.

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Authors Note: Hope y'all like it! I love when you guys review! I know this story hasn't been all too popular but I have grown to love it. I am really hoping to update quite a few stories today… I don't know though, we will just have to try! Haha.

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-Tracy Cook