Chapter Nine-Compassion

Sleep didn't last long for Kagome, soon, too soon she was awake and wondering around the castle, she knew it wasn't polite, she also knew that Sesshoumaru would be very angry when he found out, but her scent was masked and her new looks kept the servants from saying anything to out of the ordinary.

After taking another left she came to a corridor that she had never been to before. The first door to her right was laced with everlasting thorn bushes and the wood was carved into falling leaves while carvings of roses lined the outside of the door. A strong pull sucked her in, beckoning her to open the door and reveal what lay inside the beautiful door. Steps came heavy to her, but the feeling that the room gave off was positive and loving, though some pain remained Kagome placed a soft hand on the door, pushing softly and waiting for a creak to sound, but none came. The door made no sound as she pushed it open. The room itself was dark, coated in a deep maroon red. Gold was formed into a beautiful youki on the roof. The image was familiar but yet strange at the same time. Kagome outlines the image in her head. It was made of a young demoness, her hair pink and her eyes a soft yellow. Two magenta stripes were laid horizontal on her face, one on each cheek. She looked like a mere child, undeveloped and inexperienced in battle.

Tearing her eyes from the roof Kagome searched around the room, there was no light, but Kagome could easily make out a pinkish bed set, two sets of double doors, one no doubt a bathing area. In the corner was a toy box filled with dolls and fake crowns, anything a young lady would want. Up on the wall as a painting consisting of four inuyouki, the tallest was a male, his golden eyes were hard and battle strengthened, the other was a female, a replica of the youngest girl, only two and a half times her height and with deeper pink hair. The little girl who stood in front of her mother was the youngest, her face soft and her childish features were astonishing. The last one was a boy. He was taller than the young girl, more mature with his eyes hard, but there were not as hard as his father. His hair was an inch past his shoulders and he looked like he was a teenager, but Kagome knew that he was much older. He could have been a century old.

Sobbing sounds started to sound within the room, but no one could be seen. Kagome ruffled her sight through the room, finally catching a small pink glowing light hiding within the second set of double doors. Going to the door Kagome set her hand on the knob, stopping went she heard a set of voices on the other side of the door.

"He's going away again isn't he brother. Daddy's leaving us again." A little voice whispered lowly, her sobs still heard, but there were muffled.

"He will be back Saito. He always comes back." The boy said reassuringly. Kagome made a small gasping sound at the young girl's name.

"But what if this time he doesn't come back. Mommy died after she went away, what if daddy dies too."

"You must not speak of such things Saito. It'd hurt mother's ears if she had heard you say such things against father."

"But Sesshoumaru, that woman, the one that father loves now. She's with pup Sesshoumaru-…" 'Sesshoumaru is Saito's brother? But why didn't he tell Inuyasha? Why didn't he tell me?'

"I know Saito, but father will not leave us. Not even for the woman and the hanyou child."

"How can you be so sure?" the little girl's crying seemed to have stopped, but she was curious now. Her interest was tested on his response not on what he was trying to tell her.

"Because an inu demon can never truly love someone. We inu demons do not mate for life and we do it for a reason, we never truly fall in love."

Kagome's heart tugged, quickly she opened the door and shoved it, revealing the whole room, and it seemed to be the play room. Toys were scattered and in the corner was a blanket and a teddy bear, but other than that Kagome found nothing.

"It hurts doesn't it?" a female voice echoed behind her, twisting around Kagome found nothing but an empty door way. "Having your love leave and die for someone they don't truly love?" the voice echoed in Kagome's soul, her ears rang with the words.

'What do you want!' Kagome screamed in her mind. Her eyes were clenched shut.

"One day hanyou I will kill you for what you have taken from her. I know what it feels like to want something so bad and then have someone who is worth nothing take it away from you. I've been there you stupid hanyou and I will not lose her once again to the likes of you!" the door slammed shut and Kagome's head snapped up. Curtains opened on their own and Kagome stared into the eyes of soft gold.

"Saito-…"

"Sesshoumaru will never love you Kagome. Inu demons don't love anyone, they are just loyal, he never loved you and never will, your just strong and powerful, you have power that Sesshoumaru wants and when the time comes he will be able to take it."

'You're wrong! Everyone can love, just like your father loved your mother and loved Izayio. Your father died protecting you and your brothers because of the love he had for you!' Kagome screamed in her head, but the words didn't come out.

"Do you really think that? You didn't even know my father how can you say such things? You know nothing little girl."

Kagome's aura flared, but something stopped her from doing anything. The feeling for two presents filled the room, both of love and passion.

"Saito that's enough. You should be ashamed to talk to Sesshoumaru's guest that way." A tall handsome youki, no doubt Sesshoumaru's father said gruffly.

"You should be the one to talk-…"

"I'm sorry." Kagome blurted out. Everyone looked at her weirdly expecting her to continue. "I'll take my leave now."

"No Kagome that won't be necessary-…" but Kagome was already gone, the voices faded into memories and she ran away from the words she had heard

Kagome whirled around and opened the door, running scared for the first time in a long time. She ran through the bedroom and opened the door that lead back to the corridor, running into a hard, solid form. Kagome didn't look up, she didn't have the guts, so she kept her head down and ran back to her room, taking two rights then traveling down the main hall, then taking a left straight into her room. Slamming the door Kagome locked them both. She didn't know why what Saito said had bothered her so much. That wasn't even the Saito she knew, the girl she had just seen had to be almost a century younger then what she was now, but it wasn't in her looks, it was in her words, in the words she had heard Sesshoumaru say so many years ago. The scariest part of all was that it all made sense. Everything he said made sense, that's why he's so cold, he never wanted to lead anyone on.

A hard knock came to the door but Kagome remained silent, not moving. Another knock sounded more forceful then the first one. "Miko open this door now!" Sesshoumaru growled. Kagome looked at the door and reinforced it with a spell. Sesshoumaru rammed into the door with this full weight, but the door stood still pushing his back to the other side of the hallway. "Do not try my patience wench!" kagome knew he was mad, she could feel his violent aura, and the words he called her cut her deeply. 'If he really loved me, he would be kinder about the whole thing.' She reasoned with herself.

Sesshoumaru slammed into the door again and again. He needed to know what Kagome knew. The look on her face when she opened the door so quickly, the wave of hurt that washed over him when she ran out the door, something had happened in that room and he needed to know. He had locked that door almost a century ago and no one should have been able to open it, but sure enough her aura flared and he followed it into that door. Once again he got ready to slam into the door, this time the spell was removed and he went straight through, he stumbled a little bit he was not prepared for the door to open so easily this time.

He found Kagome sitting on her bed, her face looking at the wall. The scent of unshed tears filled the room. "Kagome please what happened-…"

"Please lord Sesshoumaru, I do not deserve such honour for you to be calling me by my name, I am nothing but a lowly wench." Kagome's words were so bitter that Sesshoumaru was taken aback by her tone.

"Kagome you are a lady of this house and you will be addressed like one-…" Sesshoumaru started to bark, pushing her over the edge.

"What does it benefit you if I am your mate or not! Dammit Sesshoumaru what the hell are you using me for!" Kagome still didn't look at him, but her aura flared as she looked at the ground, red faced and pissed off. Usually Sesshoumaru would have been amused, but he was too confused with the miko's words to take enjoyment from her prissy attitude.

"What are you talking about woman? You are confusing this Sesshoumaru!" He snapped again, he hated being confused. This girl was so twisted and compact that he didn't know how she could handle changing emotions every five minutes.

"I do that a lot don't I Sesshoumaru, maybe it is time I take my leave." Kagome stood and turned towards the door where Sesshoumaru stood.

His eyes changed, they were weary and saddened. His golden bore into her violet eyes, she was trying not to cry, she was holding strong because she thought he believed she was a weakness. "How did you get into that room?" he said softly.

She looked back at the ground and frowned, "It was calling to me-…"

"How did you unlock it!" he said roughly.

"It wasn't locked I swear. If I knew it was to be locked I would have never gone in there." She panicked.

Sesshoumaru just nodded and turned towards the door, ready to leave. "If you wish to leave, I will not stop you Kagome but you and your kit will always be welcomed here."

'Does he mean Kyouko?' "Sesshoumaru I want Kyouko to stay here. Don't tell him I have gone please" Kagome looked up and noticed a nod come from the door frame. Getting ready to leave Sesshoumaru paused hesitantly.

"Kagome?"

"Yes lord Sesshoumaru?"

"I will miss you." With that he turned around and left the room going back to his study.

"I love you Sesshoumaru." The words fell softly off her lips. She shut the door and started to pack her cloths. Only stopping when she came to a necklace, a replica of the one she gave Inuyasha. It was a symbol of strength and courage, given to her by her mother. One was for Inuyasha, for protecting Kagome, and the other was for Kagome herself.

Snapping out of past memories she picked up the necklace and clenched it in her hand. Once everything was packed she snuck inside Sesshoumaru's room and placed the necklace on his pillow, writing a short note that explained everything, signed by her and at the very bottom was the words. 'P.S, I will never forget you, for even though you could never love a human like me, I love you, and I will fight Naraku and free the threat that has been placed over the land.'

Hearing foot steps Kagome ran out of the room and out Sesshoumaru's life. Her foot fell silently on the marble floor as she ran away from love. Only when she was out of the castle grounds did she stop running, once again hurting the one she loved, because she was trying to help him.

A/N: Well that's the end…no I am just kidding, there will be a lot more chapters still, and if you are wondering, whether she comes back or not will depend on what you guys think. Please read and review and tell me what you think.