The next morning I lay in bed holding my stomach. I couldn't believe I was pregnant. I rubbed my stomach gently. It was still flat, by this time with my mom's pregnancy she had a bump. I wondered how long it would be. I wanted to play it safe, obviously. Jacob gave off a loud snore and I hit his shoulder. He was annoying me with his snores.
"Wazzwrong?" Jacob muttered sleepily.
"You're snoring loud! Now you're awake, I want to talk. We need to go home sooner, I think. I don't want to take any risks with this baby. I want to be checked out immediately by Carlisle. Oh, I can't wait to tell everyone!"
Jacob grinned. "I know! I wonder how Edward will take it. He'll be worried it will turn out like your mom, I guess. I am too..."
"Jake! We've talked about this. I will be fine. Promise." I took his hand. "It's so not the same. My mom was stupid, you have to admit!" I laughed.
He chuckled. "Yeah, trust me. I used to think she was really stupid with her descisions." I frowned a bit.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Nothing. Just that I always hated the descisions she made."
"Oh, you mean like loving my father? Or giving birth to me? Not loving you so you could be with her and not settle for second best?" I felt a sudden rage so through me. I ran out of the room, crying. I lay down on the couch sobbing. Jacob came out into he living room and stared at me.
"Nessie? You know that's not true. What's wrong with you?"
The tears stopped flowing. "Sorry. I'm really hormonal, I guess. I'm being stupid."
He laughed. "You're pregnant. You're allowed to be unreasonable." He walked over and wrapped me in his arms.
"Sorry." I repeated. We flicked through the channels. "Okay, I want to talk about this. The whole thing with my mom. It's just, we never really talked about it. After Kiana's coven came, we just got together without sorting it out. I want to know everything. I promise I won't get mad or cry or anything, but I need to know. I deserve to know."
Jake looked skeptical. "Okay then... It was about a year or so before you were born. Edward left your mom." He paused, waiting for my reaction. Mom without dad? That didn't make any sense. He continued, "he loved her, don't get me wrong, but he was scared for her. He left to protect her from him. He was scared that she would get hurt because of him. It came close once, a vampire called James tried to kill her. He bit her.r Have you ever seen the scar on her wrist? Edward saved her in time. Your dad couldn't get over it so he felt he had no choice. Do you understand that?"
I nodded. "Yeah, but it's weird..."
"I know. So, your mom was left broken. Edward was everything to her. She came down to see me, and when she looked awful. She'd lost lots of weight and looked lifeless. We hung out more and more, and I noticed an improvment in her. She seemed happier. I'd always had a crush on her- but I was falling in love with her now." I closed my eyes at this part. I knew this. I'd asked to hear and I could handle it. "Long story short, Bella went cliff diving and Edward thought she was dead. He wanted to kill himself but Bella saved him. They came back to Forks and everything was sorted for them."
"Then, a bunch of newborns came to kill your mom. She really attracted them. The pack helped them out. I done something I regret then; I tricked Bella into kissing me. I knew deep down she would pick Edward but I tried anyway. She kissed me and realized she loved me."
My eyes were still shut. I thought I could handle this.
"Your mom still picked Edward. They got married, and I can't begin to describe how happy I am that they did. They gave me you, Renesmee." He took my two hands in his one. "Please. You have to understand this. Yes, I loved your mom, but it was never going to be enough because she would never be you. Most people fall in and out of love all the time. Can you imagine your mom without your dad? She loved me, but she will never love anyone more than your dad, because they are destiny. Sam loved Leah Clearwater before Emily, he just fell out of love when Emily came. Leah loved Sam for ages, now she's got Keith. Nothing can compare to the imprint. Nothing can compare to you, Nessie, because we are destiny."
I took a deep breath. "Thanks, Jake. I love you." He looked relieved.
"Love you too, honey." I felt better. I couldn't have left this unspoken forever. It was something that had to be settled. I was going to let it go now, forever.
*
"No." I grabbed his phone and shut it. Two more wonderful days had passed on this island.
"You're the one who suggested it!"
"I changed my mind. I want to stay here longer."
He snatched his phone back. "And give brith in Hawaii? Without Carlisle?"
I was being stubborn. I loved this island. I wanted to stay here with Jake, forever.
"Think about it Nessie. Do you really want to risk the baby? We need to get it checked. We can come back you know."
He hit a nerve. I didn't want to risk the baby. "Fine." I gave in.
He whispered something about hormones and dialled the airport's number for the second time. He booked two tickets back to Seattle, and we would have to drive hours to get back to Corvallis. We hadn't told anyone about my pregnancy over the phone, and Alice wouldn't have been able to see it. For once, everyone would be plesantly surprised. Jacob and I began to pack our bags. I went much slower than I should have. I folded the clothes multiple times making sure they were perfect. Maybe I was developing OCD. Jake didn't ask me to hurry up; maybe he was scared of me snapping at him. My mood swings were pretty bad. Sometimes Jake laughed at me when I got angry at stupid things like him leaving the toilet seat up. I hope they stopped soon; they were pretty irritating.
It wasn't long before all our things were packed into the car and Jake and I stood hand in hand in the little house. "Bye house." I muttered. Jake grinned at me. "I'll miss here." I rested my head on his shoulder and he kissed my hair.
"So will I. Don't worry, we'll be back." We walked out with one last glance and shut the door behind us, locking my precious honeymoon memories safely away.
*
There was a loud clutter. I groggily opened my eyes and noticed a flight attendant placing a metal tray in front of me. Airplane food. I looked into the little package and was happy to see a packet of biscuits among other foods that I could never eat simply because they were human foods and didn't appeal to me. I nibbled the biscuits as Jake wolfed down hot bacon. "How long have I been sleeping?" I asked.
He checked his watch. "About four and a half hours. Only an hour left, honey." I wished we were home already. I wanted to tell my mom and dad. I wanted Carlisle to check the baby. I ran my hand down my stomach over the light bump. It wasn't really noticable but I knew it was there. It had emerged in only two days. Still, it was a very small bump. Normal people might not even notice it. I'd worn a floaty dress so noone would be able to see it anyway.
We landed in Seattle sixty-five minutes later. Jacob led the way through the crowd and stopped at a car. Although it was dark I knew that car anywhere; Jake's rabbit. "How did that get here?" My question was answered when Sam stepped out of the car.
"Nessie!" He pulled me into a hug and I squealed.
"Sam! How are you? Where's Emily and Whitney?" Sam's face lit up at the names of his wife and daughter.
"I'm good. They took our car to Seattle this morning to go shopping. Jacob asked me to bring his car here so you could get home easily."
Sam updated us on pack news: how Keith and Kaitlyn were fitting in, how happy Leah was now that she had an imprint and another girl in the pack. "We haven't has anymore vampire news, things might get pretty boring now the Cullen's have moved away." He laughed jokingly.
I hit his arm. "Don't jinx it, Sam." I kissed his cheek goodbye and Sam and Jake slapped each other's backs. Jake promised to go down soon. He'd have to tell them about the baby, but we wanted to tell family first. We waved goodbye as the rabbit sped away into the darkness.
"Can I borrow your phone, Jake?" I asked after a while.
"Sure, sure. Why?"
"I want to tell mom that we're nearly there and I want to ask her to shield us. So dad won't ruin the suprise."
I dialled the familar number but the phone rang out. "Urgh. It's 2.30am and a house full of vampires that don't sleep can't answer their phone. What else can they be doing?" I wondered.
Jacob laughed, wiggling his eyebrows. I caught on. "Ew." I snapped the phone shut. It wasn't for another hour when the phone rang back. I answered on the first ring. "Hello?"
"Nessie? Is everything okay? Why are you calling so late? What's happened?"
"Daddy, calm down. I'm fine. Everything's perfect, I promise. Can you put mom on a moment? I need to ask her something."
"Alright baby. Bella! Renesmee wants you." I heard him call. One-eighth of a second later mom's ringing voice spoke.
"Renesmee? What's wrong?" Why did everyone think it was an emergency if I phoned them late?
"Nothing! Mom, Jacob and I are nearly home."
"Oh! Why didn't you tell us? We could have met you at the airport."
"Yeah, well, it was a sudden decision. Momma, can you shield Jake and I when we get there?"
"Okay... what are you hiding Renesmee?"
I paused and I'm sure she noticed. "Nothing. I just don't want dad picking out my honeymoon memories... that would be awkward."
She giggled and then sighed. "You're right. Okay, text me when you need me to shield." I looked at Jake.
"How long?" I whispered.
"Only fifteen minutes." He answered.
"Okay, mom, in about fifteen minutes. I love you."
"You too sweetie." She shut the phone.
We reached the outside of the forest and I leaned over and hit the brakes. Jacob looked at me questionally. I leaned over and sat on his knee and held his silky black hair. "You know, that I love you?"
He grinned. "I like to be reminded sometimes." I kissed him roughly, pulling his head closer to be. My fingers twisted in his shirt as I fumbled with the buttons. His fingers were tracing my back when the phone rang. Dad's name popped up.
"Honey," Momma spoke, "Alice can't see anything in the next five minutes so I'm guessing you're pretty close. I'll let out my shield now."
"Thanks, Mom." I sighed and threw the phone on the back seat. Yeah, thanks mom, for ruining the moment. I kissed Jacob lightly one more time. "You ready?"
"As ready as I'm going to be."
We got out of the car and ran hand in hand towards the house. When it came into focus we slowed down. I could see a bright light shine in the porch and could make out eight figures standing in the light. My family stood waiting for my return.
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