A/N- I can't say how sorry I am! I know I haven't updated in forever but I've had my reasons. I've been in hospital for three weeks and I only got out last week. I'm so so so so sorry. I can't thank you enough for the reviews I've still been getting, and I wanna thank my readers who are still checking for updates, especially ehmagawdz. I promise I will be much faster now I'm home again. I love you all, enjoy!
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I trudged downstairs in one of Jake's old shirts that stretched over my bump. Billy was already in the kitchen.

"Nessie honey, how're you feeling?" He asked.

I thought about it. My stomach was a bit sore and I felt quite weak, but apart from that I was fine. "Pretty good, actually. Any breakfast?" Billy pointed at the stove where eggs were sizzling on a pan. I grinned at him. "Thanks." I bent down and kissed his cheek. "Where's Jake?"

Billy shifted in his chair. "He's at a meeting with the pack." His eyes didn't leave the sizzling eggs.

I crumpled up my face. "Again? He was there last night. What's it about?"

This time Billy looked at me. "Oh Nessie, you know what the boys are like. They are just going over tatics and arranging postions if anything ever happened. Training, you know?"

True, I knew Jake was very protective of his friends. He probably just wants to train when everyone is together. "Yeah, okay. Do you know when he'll be done?" Billy glanced at the kitchen clock.

"Probably around four o'clock."

I sighed. Six hours away. "Oh, okay. Thanks Billy. I think I'm gonna ring mom and ask her to go shopping with me. My clothes are getting too tight and Alice hasn't got me any new ones yet so I might have a chance to pick my own clothes for once."

Billy laughed. "That's fine honey. Charlie is coming up today to watch the game anyway, so get Bella to bring Charlie up when she's picking you up."

"No problem." I muttered as I tipped the eggs out of the pan onto a plate. I ate them hot and then rang mom. She said she'd be up in half an hour. Dad was going to meet Jasper to go hunting and then sort something out with our credit cards. I was glad it was only me and mom because she was more relaxed than dad when it came to me. She allowed me to do my own thing, and besides, it was good to have some qualilty time with my mom. I had a quick shower and threw on a pair of jeans and a loose top Alice had packed for me. It disguised my bump well, which was good because I don't want the disappointed stares that people would give me because I look like a pregnant teenager. Even if they didn't make it obvious, I'd still be paranoid everyone was talking about me. I get that from my mom. I ran a brush through my hair and was downstairs waiting in the kitchen just as mom walked in the door with Charlie.

"Hi, mom. Hi, Grandpa." I kissed his cheek swiftly and lifted my bag. "Ready, mom?"

She looked at my grinning. "You seem to be feeling better!"

I laughed. "Yeah, I don't even feel sick now. I actually feel... normal!"

Everyone in the room laughed at this and Grandpa shifted his feet uncomfortably. Mom ruffled my hair and said, "Nessie darling, you have never been normal." I shurgged my shoulders and smiled. It was true, but I actually felt quite normal for once. Glowing, like women with normal pregnancies.

"See you later." I waved to the men as mom and I got into her car and sped off to Port Angeles shopping mall. We made our way through the shops and my bags grew more and more. I'd picked out five floaty dresses in pastel colors, about fifteen new tops and a couple of skirts and jeans. I was trying to rearrange my bags when I bumped into someone. "Sorry, I wasn't looking where I was walking." I smiled at the woman in front of me. She looked at me curiously.

"It's okay." She grinned. She was pretty and looked really friendly. "Do I know you?"

I studied her face for a moment. No, I didn't know her. I remembered everyone I'd ever met. "No, I don't think so..." I smiled.

"I recognize you somehow. I can't place it though. I'm Angela Weber, and you are?"

"Renesmee Cullen." I shook her hand as her mouth dropped open. I stared until she finally spoke.

"Cullen? As in Edward, Bella, Alice and Emmett Cullen?"

Oh crap. "Um, yeah..."

"I went to school with them! Bella was one of my best friends. I haven't seen her since the wedding. Did the doctor adopt you too? You look so much like them!"

"Oh, no. I'm Edward's cousin. Everyone's doing good though, but I have to get going now. Nice meeting you, Angela!" I was about to walk away when mom came rushing over with more bags. I groaned, she hadn't seen Angela yet. When she did she stopped walking and her mouth dropped open. Angela had an identical expression.

"B-Bella? That can't be you!" She stuttered.

"Hi, Angela. It's me. I've changed a bit."

"A bit? You look so different. You are unbelievably beautiful. Even more so than in high school. Your eyes and your skin... the way you walk, oh my god Bella, what happened?"

"Haha, nothing happened. I guess living with the Cullens influenced my balance and I've been getting Rosalie and Alice's beauty treatment a million times a day. They're beautiful, and I had to try to live up to them!"

"You've always been gorgeous, Bella! But you look amazing and still look eighteen! I wish I could do that. I can't believe it's actually you! There were so many rumours going round about you. Edward forced you away because of that guy Jacob, you went into hiding because you were pregnant, and even that you had died! I was so worried you hadn't kept in touch." Angela had a sad expression on her face.

Mom looked at the ground. "I'm sorry Angela. I'm fine, but I thought not talking would be easier for everyone. I miss you loads, and I just want you to know how much I appreaciated you through high school. You were an amazing friend."

Angela nodded. "It's really sad that you use past tense."

"I'm sorry, I wish it had worked out different, but I tried to make it easier for everyone. I'm fine though, nothing bad happened. I graduated Dartmouth and now I'm training to become an English teacher and Edward's at medical school. We're happier than ever. How're you?" Mom's voice sounded sad.

"Good. Eric and I were engaged but he broke it off. He said it was too soon or something. I've got a new boyfriend now, remember Paul Dempster? He was in our Biology class?"

I watched mom think back to her fuzzy human memories and she clicked her fingers and nodded, saying "Oh, yes! Nice one Angela!" I knew she didn't really remember him, but was humoring Angela. "You're looking really well, by the way."

Angela smiled. "Thank you. I've left college too now, and I've been training to become a vet."

"That's amazing, I'm glad you're doing well." Mom glanced at her watch. "Well, Renesmee and I really need to get going."

Angela nodded. "Okay, Bella. It was really nice seeing you again, I miss you. Will you email me?"

"It was nice seeing you too, brings back memories. Yes, I will."

Angela moved in and pulled mom into a hug, and I could see the look on her face when she felt her cold and rock hard skin. Mom's head was turned away from her neck and I was suddenly too aware of the human scents around me. "It was nice meeting you too, Renesmee." Angela hugged me too and I strained my head away from her neck, trying to resist the burn that had appeared in my throat.

"Angela, I'm only visiting my dad here, and I'd really appreciate it if you didn't tell everyone you'd seen me. I don't want them to think I've been here for ages and haven't dropped by." Mom said, her voice sounding smooth.

"No problem Bella. We have to meet up again! Keep in touch, bye." She waved and left the store. Mom sighed loudly and crossed her arms. It was a sign she was upset. I raised my eyesbrows at her.

"I didn't plan on meeting anyone I knew. I hope she doesn't tell, I don't want to raise suspicions." I didn't say anything but nodded in agreement. Mom's mood lifted when she spotted a pair of jeans that she really liked and it wasn't long before she had bags of her own. We made our way back to the car as the rain began. I stared out the window. I watched a woman lift her baby out of her car and place it into it's pram. She was so careful and loving, and I couldn't help but imagine that would be me very soon.

"Mom, can I ask you something?" I said.

"Shoot." She muttered.

"When you were pregnant with me, were you scared? What really happened? You've never told me the whole story."

Mom's hands tightened on the steering wheel but her expression didn't change. "I don't want you to be worried, or make you feel bad."

"Oh. So it was really bad then." She didn't answer but her hands were still stiff. "Please mommy. I need to know."

She took a deep breath. "Well... okay. Your father and I had no idea it was even possible. He didn't want to change me because he thought I would regret not having kids, like Rosalie and Esme. I was prepared to give it up for him. I didn't really have an interest then. Then on our honeymoon I started being sick and my period was late, and it just clicked. I knew I was pregnant immediatley. I could feel you. You were my little nudger. In the space of one second I had come to love something more than my own life. You. I was convinced it was a boy, though. I had a name picked out. Edward Jacob, after the two most amazing men in the world. My husband and my best friend. It was...hard. I was very sick, but there was never a moment I thought of giving you up. It was impossible; the thought of it. Everyone thought I was going to die. I was sure I could do it though. I had to do it for you, my baby. For Edward. For Rosalie and Esme and for myself. You broke my ribs 'cause you were so strong, but it wasn't your fault, you never knew. But when you realised you hurt me, you stopped. I loved you with all my heart and I knew you loved me and I could see my family forming. Edward could read your mind while you were inside me and it was then I knew everything would work out. It was very painful, but worth every moment. Then you were born, and well, you remember everything from then."

I shivered at the memories of the Volturi. "Sorry mom." I whispered.

"Honey, you have nothing to be sorry for. You were an amazing little surprise and everything was worth it. I love you."

"Love you, mom." I paused and thought of how I nearly killed my mom. Would my babies do that to me? Would I be able to cope with it? "Do you think I'll be okay?"

This time her expression changed. I could see the agony and fear in her eyes as she picked her words carefully. "Yes. It's not the same. The babies won't have as strong vampire genes as you do. They won't hurt you as much. You'll be okay, I promise."

I didn't answer and we stared straight ahead of us, because we both knew she was making a promise she couldn't keep.